So last night I took a "happy pill", by myself in my apartment. That state of pure happiness was the most beautiful thing I've ever experienced, I was just sitting on my couch staring at my wall, being mindful in my present moment. I was seeing right through the illusion, like just right through it, it never had been that clear to me before. I know taking this is basically cheating with the work we do here and I'm aware of that, but It allowed me to to get a sneak peek of what were aiming for, right? I've been slacking on my mediation lately but I'm about to start doing it everyday again. I also took a trip last sunday and it was very powerful to say the least, my first time doing it. I've had some pretty big insights the last couple days, I honestly fill pretty exhausted after having some of these insights.