nightrider1435

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  1. @LSD-Rumi Just saying thats way to often, would not recommend.
  2. Its best if used at a minimum I would say once a month if that. I haven't taken it for about three years now, but took it sometimes when I was using kratom daily. I never really cared for it, it just put me to sleep half of the time. You wouln't want to consume alcohol on it or you won't get out of bed for days after.
  3. @Leo Gura It’s the Wild West out here man.
  4. @Husseinisdoingfine As a texas resident, yes. I keep one in my car and one in my apartment. Everyone has one here.
  5. @something_else Agree with this unfortunately. People preach gun control and we are beyond that... it won't be enough. Guns would have to dissappear overnight for this to stop.
  6. @kray Honestly no one knows. We're fucked, this shit is not going to stop. We are absouletly fucked...
  7. Maybe or maybe not? Vendors post lab reports but how can you really know for sure? What's your reason for taking kratom anyways? Take it from someone who took it daily for two years, just go ahead and stop before it's to difficult. It will turn around and bite you eventually, slippery slope that you don't want to go down. I sell cars so I was taking it for work, but I started experiencing negative side effects into the second year and had to stop taking it.
  8. I've never had any problems coming down from mushrooms. The only thing with LSD is that it just lasts a long time, your over it and ready to go to bed but can't because you're still to stimulated. I could take two grams of mushrooms at 4pm and be in bed by 2-3am, not with LSD though.
  9. @Vadiminator I would try reaching out to a Psychic in your local area. Read their Yelp, google reviews, etc, it needs to be someone good. Someone who you can feel comfortable with and discuss what your going through. I formed a good connection with one in my area, she helped me get through some dark times, and I still go see her a couple times a year. Worth a shot, don’t lose faith.
  10. Oh absolutely, especially if a mind is already ripe and ready to be cracked open.
  11. So for a while now I usually see this small dot of white light while in a deep meditative state. Looks similar to this: I'm just curious to see what you guys have to say. Whenever I do see this light, its usually very brief, mainly because my mind just gets excited when I see it and it goes away. This light usually shows itself when I'm in a highly focused deep state, I do vipassana mediation. It's been a cycle of watching it come and go. Its sort of difficult to sit down and mediate without trying to seek this out now, the mind can't even help itself. It wants to know what the fuck it is, and how to get closer to it... lol.
  12. Sounds like you had some sort of glimpse. This is how it is, it can come and go so quick, then your mind will be like wait... what was that? The mind wants to "understand", I think Leo had a blog post about that. I would just let that play out and don't become to attached with trying to understand what happened.
  13. I would guess no one could know as long as the body is alive and breathing, because when the body dies then it can’t come back and explain what happens. I think its different from a near death experience because you get to come back. People report having a out of body experience or some mystical experience, or even just some void but who really knows when the body is gone for good. If I had to take a guess, once the body dies your experience dissolves back into awareness as a completely blank state and depending on any spiritual work done during the lifetime, maybe awareness can stay aware of itself as the whole or become lost in a dream again.
  14. For me not much has changed, other than I have a better understanding of what reality is. Life just carries on, it doesn’t care whether you’re god realized or not. All it took was one mushroom trip and the realization has stuck with me since, and you also realize there is no beginning or end. What did I do first as god? Well I was always god, I was just aware of it. I got up the next morning and just went to work like an average human being.
  15. I feel you on this, for me this comes and goes. No your're not bullshitting yourself, just enjoy it when it happens. So next time this happens just be mindful of the ego mind, you might feel this way because it's unfamiliar and the mind might perceive it as threatening.
  16. You reach a point where you really don’t care anymore. Let the mind throw it’s tantrum then go back to work... lol.
  17. I’m at a point where I’m seeing how challenging this can really be. My ego mind is really starting to hate this work in the last year or so. I’ve had some pretty severe ego backlashes after awakenings. I have a pretty big drive for truth so I just keep going though, sometimes fast or sometimes slow.
  18. I took a LSD trip right before all the panic buying and shutdowns here in the United States. I was feeling a "everything is going to be ok" vibe and that this is temporary and will pass just like anything else, we will get through this. Its the beginning of the end for the old world. I agree with with @Nemo28 , a new world is being birthed, the old one has to die first though. There's a bigger picture going on here.
  19. I smoked during a mushroom trip and had a identical experience to what you just described. One of the most unpleasant things I have experienced so far, it took about 12 weeks for my body and mind to recover from that.
  20. I practice vipassana mediation, concentration of the breathe. You could be seeing your third eye or crown chakra. No one knows where any of this is going but like you said, faith.
  21. @Vency I'm still not sure what it could mean, I still experience this during my mediation practice. My dark night of the soul was peaking when I posted this. I have been treading some of the darkest deepest pits that words can't even describe. Overall from what I can notice is that my life is improving as the years go by, slowing moving from the darkness into the light.
  22. @ShugendoRa I wouldn’t recommend taking teaspoons because you won’t know exactly how much you’re taking. Get a gram scale so you can measure your dosages. I’ve never used capsules but I think two is around one gram. If you’re going to take it daily, it’s best to keep it around 10 grams a day, no more than 3 doses in a day. Take tolerance breaks, drink plenty of water because Kratom dehydrates you. It can make you constipated, magnesium citrate can help with that.
  23. Your're not going to have withdrawals from only 4g a day. Its when you get anywhere from 10 to 20 grams a day is when you'll get withdrawals if you abruptly stop.