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Yeah Your mate Tom did this with psyched substance and Iboga sent him into a deep spiritual crisis. Something you most likely wanna avoid.

+ She will have to undo the conditionning which made her choose this partner in the first place. @spicy_pickles You have to read Toxic parents by Susan Forward and leaving home by David Celani. Those will change your life.

@Erlend K @Shiva I'm not trying to achieve some meaning I'm trying to deconstruct the expectations of an END GOAL and a higher meaning somewhere out there. And all those meanings society put into my brain and I'm heavily controlled by. @Meretagh Fair enough. I guess that's the only way to do it

I've watched Leo's video about meaning recently and also read about it in the Peter Ralston's books : the fact that everything is meaningless. I do realize it's a mechanism of self-survival and meaning/value is assigned according to that but on a practical level it doesn't stick. My mind is needing some sort of meaning, some sort of higher purpose, some sort of the ultimate goal of the universe to give me a direction, something amazing to be found out there, some big fantasy, like you know when you look at the stars and you're amazed by the whole universe and you really wanna do something very amazing with your life ? I have already constructed a briliant life purpose I'm following each day and that's going on great BUT the fact that my mind is still looking for that big thing to be found somewhere out there in the world is annoying. The best moments of my life were litteraly the moment where I had achieved something and I realized " this is all meaningless" and a lot of pressure and stress instantly went away and it was really blissfull. I wanna make it stick. But my mind is still overly wanting some sort of achieving the highest meaning. I've got brainwashed by the culture believing love can be the highest meaning and I spent some time pursuing that with some dissapointment and I still feel controlled by the different meanings/agendas my mind is sometimes making. Any advice appreciated.

@texter Way too much sugar ! Also as Moreira stated some vitamins are lost. Always eat fresh fruits.

I've recently watched a video of your dear @Emerald and I noticed that I do have myself misogynistic feelings and beliefs along the lines of : - women have all the sexual power - women tend to become feminazi who all want to enslave men - women do not care about your personality but only about your sexual reproductive value and nothing else Obviously there is a lot of projected hatred on my part and a lot of hurt and I'm wondering how do I deal with this in a healthy manner. So let's say I notice that I hate a certain type of people, that I have hate in my shadow, that I dislike people who are too lucky, bourgeois, or w/e. Once I notice this, how do I go about solving it ? Any advice appreciated.

@Mondsee I use a form of Trataka where I stare into a single given point and clear the mind of all images trying to be extremely focused and present. Also it's a Strong determination sitting as I do not move, and if I have some cleansing to do I do not even blink And when focusing becomes easy or too difficult I may just stare blindly and it's a form of do nothing. Honestly the SdS is the main compotent and Trataka is just so nice for concentration. I've been doing 30 minutes for more than a year every single day ( I've done one hour sits but those are not sustainable as I have quite a chaotic schedule). It's actually quite easy because you get used to it after a while and it can get very amazing if you have a yoga practice, then after 10 minutes or so you will plunge into a state of focused and relaxed attention/ inner peace. ( Focus being relaxed means that you drain less energy while focusing because it becomes effortless to some extent => you are wayyy more effective during your daily life).

I'd advise you stop switching techniques so much and also start with 20 minutes and once you can do it daily without fail, then up it till 30 minutes and then maybe an hour. Being consistent wins over length every time.

@Emerald Huge thank you. Like I love you so much for what you're giving out to the world ! I'll work slowly on the issue as everyone advised.

what ? I'm not improving the world at all I'm talking about my beliefs and my shadow which I wish to improve @youngshinzen any concrete example ?

How do you expect yourself to remain relatable after so much more growth ? I mean people cannot progress as fast as you do and there is becoming more and more of a gap between you and the "public". I can feel that especially after the "understand everything" video.

@TJ Reeves I can second that. Basicaly if you are publishing your work randomly on forums only means you're not taking it seriously enough. If you've ever been to a wannabe writters forum you'll know what I'm talking about. Find some trusted people to proof read you and give you feedback instead of posting anywhere on the internet. People stealing your ideas happens even faster than the plague.

@Joseph Maynor Nah. You're not gonna get excited about emotional labour. The vision is nice and all but it only serves you by not allowing you to quit. There is some satisfaction in progress and once you see you've made an impact it for sure will get exciting but before that well it's just investment, bleeding and suffering. For the right cause. You're not gonna be excited about hard honest work until you complete a full loop after which you get a deep satisfaction and meaningful reward. It's like making bread. You need to do a LOT, labour the freaking fields, wait for 9 months, etc. until you can finally put it in your mouth and feed yourself. Expect no excitement and treat it as a luxury.

Peter Ralston would disagree. I have no direct experience of this but he mentions a distinction between the two of them. Also that may just be superficial linguistic stuff.

I noticed that I feel like complete garbage at morning while I have enough sleep (arround 8 hours) and a very healthy diet. Later on in the day I start to get some motivation and inspiration back but then it's too close to the evening and it's time to sleep again. I usually feel quite shitty when I wake up in the morning and I can't quite grasp why. Any morning routine advice to really feel ON and ready to start the day ?

@SFRL Yeah we should totaly make a support group for ego backslash. I feel like a lot of pressure comes from all the amazing work Leo's doing and imagining he does like 14 hours of very efficient work per day And of course even if you're intermediate you fucking can't compare yourself to that.

@SFRL I do not stay in my bed after waking up. I drink yerba mate and it usually makes me feel way better. I had a very shitty morning recently because I was putting wayy too much pressure on myself with the whole self-actualization work and it felt very miserable. I became some sort of neurotic upgrade working robot.

I went trough it but it was honesly disappointing as there is so much stuff it's hardly usable.

@ajasatya Yeah. I'll try.

@alyra I have no problems getting up at all. The deal is I feel very shitty after. I get up, I eat, but I'm not inspired nor motivated. That comes back later, after 1 or 2 hours. Sometimes more. And then I'm very excited about my goals at the END of the day when I have to go back to bed. It's very annoying.

I'll try cold water but this... If I feel shitty I don't wanna willpower my way trough all the time I want it to come naturally.

@onacloudynight @Joel3102 Honestly a high quality partner for which you would for sure need """pick up skills"" is very very worth it and can really help your growth. Plus you get your animal sex side from your system which frees up a lot of time of pointless masturbation and other sexual distractions. Also, It is a good dose of fun and character growth and most definetly will help with willpower and character growth. That being said, I'd first make sure to hammer my life purpose a bit and a solid meditation habit so you are at a good place in your life.

Super Healthy soup - basically an adaptation of Leo's one. Ingredients full cauliflower 3 red bell pepers green beans (the long type) carrots curcuma 2 glasses of olive oil (pure virgin organic of course) white pepper organic vegetal broth (2 cubes) 2 lemon's juice garlic 250 gr or more of red lentils (this does wonders and give the soup that nice silky texture) I'm sure I'll find some other sexy soup variant which includes other spices but I don't have the time to engeneer that right now

@Moreira Taste the absolute. There is "nothing" and there was "nothing" and there will be "nothing". If you reincarnate it's not you who is gonna reincarnate. Imagine you could access your past life, e.g. A marine sergeant during WWII and you remembered that life. Then who would you be ? Would you be like oh I was this guys and then I became this guy ? That would only mean you're neither of them. You most likely will be like oh yeah only my past life but that wasn't me. The ego wants to be eternal and to live forever even if it has to use weird shenanigans to do it.

@Azrael How do you feel about Matt Kahn telling things such as : going for enlightenement directly is like pressing the fast forward button and skiping the journey, and that's why we reincarnate, because we kinda skip the movie. But I tend to believe enlightenement is like the real deal. Like the real life starts after enlightenement. Anything before is simply the tutorial.