Raphael

04 June 2020 Wake Up Time: 05:32 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:57 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) Work Sessions: 08:35 AM - 08:57 AM: Date picker customization searches. Work Duration: 22 minutes 10:12 AM - 10:40 AM: I had a call with a client. Work Duration: 28 minutes 04:01 PM - 04:33 PM: I started to install Flutter and its dependencies. Work Duration: 32 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 07:41 AM - 08:35 AM: I went back working on the custom date component, I did a lot of progress. So far, so good. Deep Work Duration: 54 minutes 09:07 AM - 10:07 AM: I continued the work on the date component. I got interrupted by a call. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 11:07 AM - 12:43 AM: I continued the work on the date component. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 36 minutes 02:10 PM - 03:48 PM: I completed the date component. It looks good, I hope that there will not be any unexpected issues on this in the future. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 38 minutes I'm starting to get back on track. I feel like when I'm using affirmations, when I do a lot of effort, and identify myself a being productive and focused, my ego is afraid of failing, so I worry and it causes me to fail. Whereas, where I just accept reality and let go of expectations, I get out of my mind, and nature perfectly do its job without any efforts. What a paradox of personal development, this is worth contemplating. Total Work Duration: 6 hours 36 minutes, including 5 hours 14 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

I'm See Myself In My Family I see myself as a very exotic being. I see myself in my grandma, I see her social anxiety that I have. She is always afraid to disturb people, so she hides her emotions and stays alone. Because she represses so much her emotions, they come back later as explosions. It's similar to me, but I don't show my explosions and prefer to experience them alone. I see myself in my deceased grandpa, he used to be very maniacal, care a lot about details, and be organized. I take attention to details too and I'm a little maniacal in my work too. I see myself in my dad, he is his own boss, has its own business. He lives with hate and anger, is very disorganized, criticizes and is hateful of everybody, is authoritarian and controlling too. He doesn't care about anyone and sees himself as superior to everyone on the planet. But he is also charismatic and funny sometimes and says directly whatever comes to his mind. I want to be my own boss too, I'm, in fact already my own boss, but I'm currently unstable. I hated the world and other people most of my life too, I also like to have some control because I see most people as incompetents that need to be guided. I made enormous progress on these issues in the last five years, I'm now a lot more in peace with people, but I still have social anxiety. I try my best to be as honest as possible and say things even if they hurt me. I had some charisma too but lost it in the past years due to emotional abuse. I will get it back. I see myself in my mother, I see her care for her family. I see how idealistic she is, I see that she wants everybody on the planet to be free and live in peace and harmony. I see how she is compassionate and cares about her health and the wellbeing of other people. It's fortunate that she is here, she adds a balance to my life. I'm also quite idealistic, I'm concerned for the well being of humanity (what a paradox considering that I hated people most of my life). I want the world to evolve so that we can all live in peace together. I see myself as a mix of beings from all around the world. I see myself as white, and I see myself as indian. I also see myself as asian, and also as african. I didn't live in a white majority country most of my life, nor did I ever visited India. I was born, raised, and currently live in Africa, but I am not a black African too. I'm a descendant of people who experienced the second world war, of people who lived in very good conditions and enjoyed life. I'm also a descendant of people who experienced extreme poverty, who worked almost as slaves, who didn't even have clothes, soap, toothbrushes, and beds to sleep in just 60 years ago. I'm a combination of highly selfish people, but also selfless people. I'm a strange being, I attract eyes wherever I go. Some people are intrigued while looking at me and come ask me questions. It happened wherever I went to. I see myself as a complex chemical mix trying to balance itself.

03 June 2020 Wake Up Time: 06:27 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:14 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) Work Sessions: No work for today Total Work Duration: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

My phychotherapist told me that some people don't even believe in god. She was mostly at stage blue / orange, I stop seeing her.

02 June 2020 Wake Up Time: 06:35 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 10:00 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) Deep Work Sessions: 10:21 AM - 12:15 AM: I created a few new components and did some CSS work. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 54 minutes 01:12 PM - 14:02 PM: I added and styled a delete button and did some design experiments. Deep Work Duration: 50 minutes 02:08 PM - 03:14 PM: I tried to integrate a date picker. I got how the directive works, I need to create a model and component to make it more reusable. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 6 minutes 03:21 PM - 04:51 PM: I started to create the new component and its functionalities. So far, so good. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 30 minutes Total Work Duration: 5 hours 20 minutes, including 5 hours 20 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

@Eren Eeager People are sick of being exploited by toxic stage blue/orange. Leo resumed it pretty well in this video:

Most people didn't vote for Trump, he lost the popular vote. The system is very imbalanced and was imbalanced for hundred of years. The people are bored with that and have decades of accumuled anger, they are releasing it to express the need for change.

01 June 2020 Wake Up Time: 07:40 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:50 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) Work Sessions: 09:30 PM - 09:39 PM: I checked my emails and had a short conversation with a client. Work Duration: 9 minutes 08:00 PM - 08:50 PM: I did a little more cleanup and some research on PWA and mobile responsiveness. Work Duration: 50 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 03:30 PM - 04:30 PM: I started to clean up a project. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour Damn... I'm having back issues with work for more than one week now. I have been extremely lazy today and didn't want to work at all. Even if I don't live in the US, George Floyds' death and the protests made me very agitated. Total Work Duration: 1 hour 50 minutes, including 1 hour of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

31 May 2020 Wake Up Time: 07:20 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 10:15 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) Work Sessions: No work for today I had a really bad night because I was too excited thinking about some stuff so I almost didn't sleep at night. However, I took a lot of time to relax today so I will be productive tomorrow. Total Work Duration: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

It seems like to me that this event put the fire to everything. People have decades of accumulated anger due to the abuses of a toxic combination of stage blue and orange society. It needed to explode/be released, this is not only about race, but this is also about deep inequality and abuses in the system. This is what happens when stage orange gets pushed to its extreme, the next step is to move towards green. This happened in France too a little less than 2 years ago. This is a general dynamic in the evolution of societies.

30 May 2020 Wake Up Time: 07:07 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:47 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) Work Sessions: 08:10 PM - 09:05 PM: I had a call with a friend. I presented him two projects, he seems interested to work with me. Work Duration: 55 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 02:05 PM - 03:52 PM: I did some fixes on my personal project and merged my pull requests. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 47 minutes 04:00 PM - 04:58 PM: I continued the corrections on the application. Deep Work Duration: 58 minutes I didn't sleep a lot yesterday, it caused me to wake up very late. Because of this, I got very lazy and didn't get the motivation to work most of the day. I still managed to work for almost 4 hours. Total Work Duration: 3 hours 45 minutes, including 2 hours 45 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

@Raptorsin7 I'm following the sessions that @ElenaO mentioned https://breathworkonline.com/ I do the ones on Tuesday, however, my free plan will expire soon so I will probably continue on my own. For the technique, it's deep breathing into the belly, I increase the speed as time progress. I would like to, but I never cried so far. I mostly had a lot of tingling sensation and hand twisting, and also a lot of shaking experiences. I often feel very lightweight after the sessions. Sometimes, I feel sad during the day and I would like to cry, but I'm not able to do it. That's frustrating, it's like being sad, but not sad enough to cry, so the sadness stays in the body.

Twitter's representatives are aware of how dangerous Trump is. Any thoughts?

Walking In The Streets As A Woman This is insane.

29 May 2020 Wake Up Time: 06:25 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 12:38 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) Work Sessions: 09:15 AM - 10:12 AM: I started the day by doing some verifications and creating fake data. Work Duration: 57 minutes 11:09 AM - 11:23 AM: My client told me that he would be ready soon, so I didn't want to start something new and waited, but he finally took more than an hour to get back to me. We then had a call. After that, I got distracted and spend some time on youtube. Work Duration: 14 minutes 12:05 AM - 01:05 PM: I searched for product pages examples. I was listening to some talks at the same time. Work Duration: 1 hour 02:05 PM - 02:43 PM: I did a little of project planning and analysis. I realized that there's a lot of mistakes that I need to correct. Work Duration: 38 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 02:50 PM - 03:44 PM: I renamed a model, did the necessary fixes, created a pull request, and merged it. Deep Work Duration: 54 minutes 03:53 PM - 04:43 PM: I did more fixes. Deep Work Duration: 50 minutes 09:20 PM - 12:17 PM: I slacked off so much and started to work late at night. I was tired and distracted myself a little sometimes during this session. Deep Work Duration: 2 hours 57 minutes This day was a little sloppy too. I was lazy, and finally got a lot of work at the end of the day which caused me to work very late. The good point is that I worked for more than 7 hours today. Total Work Duration: 7 hours 30 minutes, including 4 hours 41 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

The Intercept is also very good. I should read it more.

Men Needs To Evolve

28 May 2020 Wake Up Time: 06:22 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 10:27 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) Work Sessions: 11:30 AM - 11:50 AM: I had an issue with the connection to the database. I tried to fix it and saw that the necessary port wasn't opened, so I opened it and it fixed the issue. Work Duration: 20 minutes 12:01 AM - 12:27 AM: I wanted to do some research, but I noticed that a tier API is blocking me because my app is still in development mode. Work Duration: 26 minutes 01:53 PM - 02:25 PM: I did some research on the tier API to verify what I can do in development mode. Work Duration: 32 minutes 02:41 PM - 03:09 PM: I had a call with a client. Work Duration: 28 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 08:43 AM - 09:53 AM: I did some improvement on the client's website. I had some parasite thoughts and also got distracted a little. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 10 minutes 10:11 AM - 10:28 AM: I did a few other corrections to the previous work. Deep Work Duration: 17 minutes 10:33 AM - 11:30 AM: I went back working on my personal project and did a few tweaks. Deep Work Duration: 57 minutes 07:28 PM - 09:26 PM: I did more work on the client website. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 58 minutes This day has been quite sloppy. It started well, but I then got discouraged by an obstacle that I didn't expect so I had motivation issues after that. I finally decided to do the work for my client in the evening, which is a bad practice because it usually excites my brain before going to sleep. I'm expecting to have trouble sleeping tonight. Total Work Duration: 6 hours 8 minutes, including 5 hours 51 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

27 May 2020 Wake Up Time: 05:49 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:30 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) Work Sessions: 11:50 AM - 01:00 PM: I had a discussion with a client. Work Duration: 1 hour 10 minutes Total Work Duration: 1 hour 10 minutes, including 0 minutes of Deep Work (objective 0 minutes) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

Staying Clean After Breathwork I screamed so much during my breathwork session that I lost my voice, it will come back tomorrow. After my sessions, I usually feel quite empty and my ego wants to go back so instead of eating a healthy breakfast, as usual, I prepare some toasts with marmalade which is crap. I need to make an effort to stay healthy even after a huge emotional release.

No Screens Before Bed I notice that I sleep way better when I completely avoid screens before going to bed and instead just relax and do nothing. I'm sometimes very tempted to go on the computer because I'm an internet/information addict. I need to put that into action, that's critical, the quality of my work depends on how well I rest.

26 May 2020 Wake Up Time: 06:20 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:30 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) Work Sessions: 09:05 AM - 10:03 AM: I wanted to create a dropdown with HTML in the options, but it's not possible so I searched for a library. I also got a call from a client in the middle. Work Duration: 58 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 08:36 AM - 09:00 AM: I added another scrollback functionality. Deep Work Duration: 24 minutes 10:22 AM - 11:24 AM: I did some corrections on the client's website. I distracted myself a little by looking at my emails in the middle. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 2 minutes 11:32 AM - 12:31 AM: I started to work on a custom dropdown. Deep Work Duration: 59 minutes 01:39 PM - 03:44 PM: I worked on the select bar of the statistics dashboard. I'm happy with the result, it looks very good. I got a little distracted at some moments by email and LinkedIn notifications. I had some parasite thoughts. Deep Work Duration: 2 hours 5 minutes 03:53 PM - 04:37 PM: I did some tweaks to the previous work. Deep Work Duration: 44 minutes Total Work Duration: 6 hours 12 minutes, including 5 hours 14 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

@John Doe A lot of good advice here. @Chumbimba I also started with C, but I would say that you can actually start with any other languages. Pointers, memory allocation, and buffer overflows are just concepts. It's possible to work with difficult concepts with both low-levels or high-levels programming languages. You can have very complex structures and projects that use high-level languages and that will push your cognitive abilities to their extreme much quicker than dealing with memory in C. It mostly depends on the project's complexity, so work on very difficult projects, even if you fail you will still learn. For learning GNU/Linux, I have been using it every day for many years. I know good programmers that use only OSX or Windows. If you want to learn it, you can start with Ubuntu, if you don't want that's fine too, it mostly depends of what you want to do. Linux is useful notably in the web development sphere as more than 90% of web servers are using it. I personally don't know a lot of different programming languages, I mostly use Javascript/Typescript with HTML/CSS (which are not even programming languages) because I mostly do web development. I used C, Java, Python, and PHP in the past, but now I barely know them. As a programmer, you will probably have one main language that you will use 80% - 90% of your time and use a few other ones from time to time. I think that it's a good idea to try different languages, select the one that you like the most according to what you want to do, and continue to work with this one. In my experience, I feel like I lost a lot of time learning technologies in college that I'm not using now. If I had focussed 80% - 90% of my attention on just one main technology I would have been able to create very complex projects much quicker. So, here's how to become rich as a programmer: Determine what types of projects you want to work on Choose a main programming language Build your skills with this language so that you become extremely good at it Be creative and create projects that will have a positive impact on the world Earn the rewards, live your life to its fullest, and die in peace The end

25 May 2020 Wake Up Time: 06:14 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:25 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) Deep Work Sessions: 09:35 AM - 10:40 AM: I created another filter and almost completed it. I had a huge amount of negative thoughts. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 5 minutes 11:00 AM - 12:47 AM: I finished the search functionality. I had again a lot of parasite thoughts. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 47 minutes 01:55 PM - 03:14 PM: I started to work on a scrolling issue. I still had parasite thoughts. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 19 minutes 03:21 PM - 04:47 PM: I continued the work on the scrolling functionality. I had a lot of parasite thoughts and distracted myself a little in the middle. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 26 minutes I'm continuing to wake up too late for the time where I want to stop my days. The ideal time would be 05:30 AM. Total Work Duration: 5 hours 37 minutes, including 5 hours 37 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

24 May 2020 Wake Up Time: 08:04 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:30 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) Work Sessions: No work for today Total Work Duration: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)