Raphael

30 July 2020 Wake Up Time: 06:08 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:10 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ❌ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: No work for today @Raphael Good, you had some rest today. Also, try a have more empty time of doing nothing on Sunday. Total Work Duration: 0 minutes, including 0 minutes of Deep Work (objective 0 minutes) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

The more aware I am, the more I seek silence and solitude.

29 July 2020 Wake Up Time: 06:18 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:40 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 02:34 PM - 03:26 PM: I went back working on my website. I had a few issues with the page builder license. Work Duration: 52 minutes 03:33 PM - 05:01 PM: I continued setting up my website. I also set up SSL. I distracted myself a little too much. Work Duration: 1 hour 28 minutes 07:48 PM - 08:14 PM: I set up the main pages of my website. Work Duration: 26 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 09:27 AM - 10:32 AM: I continued yesterday's design corrections. I was distracted because I was listening to some videos at the same time. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 5 minutes 10:56 AM - 12:42 AM: I continued the colors and fonts updates. I had a lot of unrelated thoughts. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 46 minutes 01:47 PM - 02:27 PM: I finished the desktop design fixes. They will maybe be a few more fixes to do, I will see that with my client. Deep Work Duration: 40 minutes @Raphael Good job again. Keep staying aware of the distractions and pushing it up. Total Work Duration: 6 hours 17 minutes, including 3 hours 31 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

I worked in a small company where the boss was the bully in chief and would bully all the employees. But also all the employees would bully me because I was the new young recruit, so in the end, I was bullied by everyone in the company. I would try to stand out for myself and refuse some things, and also responded many times with aggressiveness. They didn't like that because they wanted me to be submissive and polite to them, so in the end, it created a vicious circle that backfired more and more to me. It left me traumatized.

28 July 2020 Wake Up Time: 06:33 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:35 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 09:15 AM - 10:36 AM: I tried to withdraw the money (again) from the freelancing platform and completed the SEO course. I will start to apply my knowledge soon. Work Duration: 1 hour 21 minutes 10:57 AM - 12:02 AM: I configured my WordPress website. I distracted myself a little Work Duration: 1 hour 5 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 12:09 AM - 01:22 PM: I started to make changes to the website's colors. It's a little difficult to find a proper palette. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 13 minutes 02:16 PM - 04:02 PM: I continued the work on the colors and fonts. I was quite sad during this session thinking about difficult past experiences. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 46 minutes 04:16 PM - 04:56 PM: I continued the work on the colors and fonts. Deep Work Duration: 40 minutes @Raphael Good job, you work well today. Congratulations! Total Work Duration: 6 hours 5 minutes, including 3 hours 39 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

@bejapuskas Yeah, I thought the same. It also seems to me that using some vulgarity in marketing can be an effective strategy (I'm not doing that, it's just a thought) because people are used to marketing who promises love, care, and compassion. An aggressive marketing can attract a lot of people by shocking them and also because they are not used to it. Another question: How would you deal with bullies? Would you stay polite? Or being aggressive?

@Raphael I was more thinking about the limits of the practices and principles at this stage. Selfless goals can be attained through stage orange practices. I think the emphasis on emotions varies a lot, in Think and Grow Rich! the author talks a lot about emotions. Also the 100% responsibility principle doesn't take enough into account the environment in which the individual grew up.

What are the limits of stage orange self-help? Where does it fail? Where isn't it applicable? I personally feel like exercises such as affirmations, sentence completions, and visualizations conflict with the spiritual work. Counter-intuitively I start getting results when I completely accept the situation and let go of all expectations.

@Ya know Thanks for your thoughts.

I'm quite polite most of the time, I only use some "bad" words occasionally. It's more difficult for me to be polite when I'm confronted with trolls and people who do everything to annoy me. I also had a period where I was not that much polite which was 4 - 3 years ago. I think that at this time, I resonated with what you're saying about the need for attention.

27 July 2020 Wake Up Time: 07:39 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:35 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Deep Work Sessions: 10:32 AM - 11:03 AM: I did a few bug fixes. I was listening to something at the same time so I was a little distracted. Deep Work Duration: 31 minutes 11:30 AM - 01:00 PM: I continued fixing some bugs, but was super distracted. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 30 minutes 02:51 PM - 04:02 PM: I updated the checkout interface. I distracted myself a little. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 11 minutes Today was a fucked up day. Sometimes I get dragged down by unhealthy manifestations of the different stages: Red: Anger and hate. It can make me feel very dirty, but hopefully, that's very rare most of the time. Blue: Being afraid of speaking up for myself and breaking rules. Orange: Being too concerned about time and wanting fast results. It stresses me and in the end, I sabotage myself and get slower results. Green: Too much tolerance and kindness of other people which ends up backfiring on me because of people's abuse of my kindness. Yellow: Spending too much time lost in my head and therefore not taking enough actions. All these elements combined can create a toxic mess sometimes. @Raphael Some days are down days, that's life, that happens, let's accept it. You will do better tomorrow. Good luck Total Work Duration: 3 hours 12 minutes, including 3 hours 12 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

26 July 2020 Wake Up Time: 06:14 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 10:10 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ❌ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 11:40 AM - 12:05 AM: I had a call with my client. Work Duration: 25 minutes 12:31 AM - 12:51 AM: I had another call with my client. Work Duration: 21 minutes Total Work Duration: 46 minutes, including 0 minutes of Deep Work (objective 0 minutes) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

It looks like for me it only works and is necessary when people are at low levels of consciousness, otherwise, it would not be necessary. I see the validity in this situation.

I don't think that's only about spiral dynamics. Generally, people are not very interested in being open and understanding the world around them from multiple perspectives. They are mostly interested in fulfilling their immediate needs or at best medium-term needs. It's the same thing at school, at the beginning kids are very interested to learn about everything, then when they grow up they start to lose this interest. When we are kids, we are empty, and life is mysterious and magical so we want to understand how it works, but after growing up we assume we know reality, therefore, there's not so much mystery and we lose our curiosity. After 18 - 20, people are usually much less interested in challenging their paradigms. When I was following courses in amphitheaters at university almost nobody was listening to the teacher, most people were playing video games on their computers or phones.

25 July 2020 Wake Up Time: 06:10 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:09 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 08:38 AM - 09:42 AM: I had a call with my client. He told me that he will pay me more after this project, I'm still suspicious. Work Duration: 1 hour 4 minutes 11:46 AM - 12:05 AM: I had a call with my client. Work Duration: 19 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 10:05 AM - 11:46 AM: Various fixes and a few improvements. I got a lot of unrelated thoughts. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 41 minutes 01:26 PM - 03:09 PM: I continued the bug fixes and started to work on the trending page. I had a lot of unrelated thoughts. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 43 minutes 03:17 PM - 04:48 PM: I continued the work on the trending page. I also continued to have many thoughts. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 31 minutes @Raphael Good job Total Work Duration: 6 hours 18 minutes, including 4 hours 55 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

24 July 2020 Wake Up Time: 06:04 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 11:40 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ❌ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 08:53 AM - 09:55 AM: I had a call with my client. I got fucked up again, it's pissing me off. Work Duration: 1 hour 2 minutes 10:37 AM - 11:00 AM: I had another call with my client. Work Duration: 23 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 11:40 AM - 01:13 AM: I searched for some libraries, did some tests, and worked on a carousel. I wasn't that much focused. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 33 minutes 02:21 PM - 05:32 PM: I continued to work on the carousel. I wasn't very focused. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 11 minutes 03:54 PM - 04:37 PM: I tried to fix some bugs that weren't even bugs. Deep Work Duration: 43 minutes 07:54 PM - 09:30 PM: More bug fixes. I distracted myself a little too much sometimes. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 34 minutes 09:40 PM - 11:25 PM: More bug fixes. I distracted myself a little too much sometimes. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 45 minutes Total Work Duration: 8 hours 3 minutes, including 6 hours 46 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

The Interpretation of True/False Everything that I say is false. Everything that I say is true. The validity of what one's say is only determined by the perspective that interprets it.

Ok. But I had cases where I would ask for something in a normal way, but people would get reactive just because I would forget to say "please". For example, one day I asked someone: "Can you open the other door when you'll be inside?". The person responded "PLEASE???" in an aggressive manner. I find it annoying to be so obsessed with politeness, it makes me want to be less polite and don't use politeness formulas at all. Isn't it the opposite?

I also feel like being too polite is a way to manipulate people, it seems inauthentic for me to be super polite 100% of the time. Super insightful, thank you. I used to practice ruthless honesty most of my life, but I think I did it because I wanted to confront people.

@ColeMC01 @Roy Thank you guys. I used to communicate a lot like Leo, being super direct and add some vulgarity to it. It created more harm than good for everyone including myself as it would come back to my face. This kind of communication is fine for me, but I see that most people cannot handle it. It's also tiring to fight with people because of words that I say rather than discussing the ideas. So I want to simplify my communication as much as I can.

23 July 2020 Wake Up Time: 05:38 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:12 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ❌ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: No work for today @Raphael Good job. Try also spending more time relaxing on Sunday rather than on the computer. Total Work Duration: 0 minutes, including 0 minutes of Deep Work (objective 0 minutes) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

@Artsu Actually, I think that this is needed. Change happen internally only if we do the proper things and many of those things are dependent of the external environment. So quitting the family home, exploring new cities, new countries are very important for change.

22 July 2020 Wake Up Time: 05:45 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:15 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 08:12 AM - 08:25 AM: I started the day with a call with my client. Work Duration: 13 minutes 08:31 AM - 09:07 AM: I installed a few stuff. I distracted myself while it was doing the installation in the background. Work Duration: 6 minutes 02:22 PM - 03:50 PM: I assisted my client with some issues. I distracted myself a little near the end. Work Duration: 1 hour 28 minutes 04:12 PM - 04:54 PM: I did a little of the SEO course. Work Duration: 42 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 09:15 AM - 10:10 AM: They are some fixes that need to be done for the social logins. I started to do them and also had a lot of negative thoughts. Deep Work Duration: 55 minutes 10:25 AM - 11:12 AM: I continued the mobile/desktop division for the social logins. Deep Work Duration: 47 minutes 11:20 AM - 01:15 PM: I continued the mobile/desktop division for the social logins. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 55 minutes. @Raphael Good job again! See, minimalizing efforts and letting work very well. Take care of yourself Love, from yourself ♥️ Total Work Duration: 6 hours 6 minutes, including 3 hours 37 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

Minimalism & Letting Go These two habits are superpowerful and at the same time super simple. Everything is better when I implement them, I'm happier, I have more flow states, I work deeper, I am more productive, more healthy, etc. When I feel the urge to distract myself, I just let go, when I feel difficult emotions, I just let go, when things are too complicated, I simplify them. I just need to stay aware and to keep reminding myself to minimize and let go of the most possible things. Nothing matters and nothing will be lost in the end. The more empty I am, the more authentic I am, the better I feel.

21 July 2020 Wake Up Time: 05:39 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:05 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 10:53 AM - 11:52 AM: I continued the bug fixed and did a few hosting related tasks. Deep Work Duration: 59 minutes 11:59 AM - 12:10 AM: I had a call with my client. Work Duration: 11 minutes 02:18 PM - 03:39 PM: I continued to work on the SEO course and also did some WordPress configuration. Work Duration: 1 hour 21 minutes 03:47 PM - 04:53 PM: I continued the SEO course. Work Duration: 1 hour 6 minutes 07:37 PM - 07:54 PM: I checkout a bug that my client showed me. Work Duration: 17 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 09:24 AM - 10:36 AM: I fixed some bugs related to the compiled version on the project. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 12 minutes 12:10 AM - 01:21 PM: I continued to bug fixes. I distracted myself a little. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 11 minutes @Raphael Superb work, you are improving! Continue! Total Work Duration: 6 hours 17 minutes, including 2 hours 23 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)