Raphael

25 February 2020 Time: 1 hour Eyes always closed: Yes Summary: The session went well, I had a lot of thoughts, but I also had a moment where I felt very calm. I didn't move my body a lot except near the end. I felt calmer when I opened my eyes.

24 February 2020 Time: 1 hour Eyes always closed: Yes Summary: The session went well even though I meditated late at night and was a little sleepy. I had a lot of thoughts and move my body a little at some moments. I didn't felt more conscious when I opened my eyes.

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23 February 2020 Time: 1 hour Eyes always closed: Yes Summary: The session went well, but I had some angry thoughts about stage blue and bad past experiences I had with it. I didn't move a body a lot, except near the end. I felt a little calmer when I opened my eyes.

22 February 2020 Time: 1 hour Eyes always closed: Yes Summary: The session went well even if I was quite agitated at some moments. I felt a deep profound love as I was having thoughts about a successful self-actualization future for me. I move my body a little too much and I didn't felt more conscious when I opened my eyes.

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I agree, I experienced that when travelling and also in my own country. Except that I'm mixed race, so people are confused and depending of the region sometimes they see me as Indian, sometimes as White, sometimes as Black, sometimes as a Middle-Eastern. My skin tone also change pretty fast depending of the sun, I'm a chameleon lol. I don't know a lot of things about the US, but from what I see it seems like race is a huge issue there. From my perspective they are many nuances here and I think that even if the entire world becomes enlightened and all the races mixes together so that they becomes indistinguishable we will still have to use words to refer to specific areas. Yes it's referring to your cultural identity, but only because someone refers to Indian, American, South African, etc. doesn't make the person a racist. For example saying that many people in the US are fat is not racism, but a fact https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Obesity_in_the_United_States . I don't consider that saying that Indians have a little sense of humour is racist, maybe it's true, maybe it's false, maybe it's ignorance, but this is not racism from my point of view. Making a statement whether it's true or false is fine, racism is a much more intense behaviour based on strong biased opinions.

Maybe I have the wrong perspective as I don't really know you, but you seemed to be triggered and very reactive. Also, a person can have whatever passport without being attached to its national identity, or let go of it if he/she wants too.

You seem to be very attached to your Indian identity, why not letting go of that?

Yeah, you guys in France literally do that all the time and honestly I liked it when I was living there! But most people in the world would not understand that as most of the world is at stage blue. I tried it in my native country and people were shocked. I saw it happening to some other persons who use irony a lot, others would think that they are racists and have bad intentions.

21 February 2020 Time: 1 hour Eyes always closed: Yes Summary: Even though I was a little sleepy, this session went pretty well. I had a lot of thoughts, but I didn't move my body a lot. At a moment I felt like I was merging with everything and my body was very lightweight. I was a little calmer when I opened my eyes.

20 February 2020 Time: 1 hour Eyes always closed: Yes Summary: I have mixed feelings about today's meditation. I originally did it in the morning but got interrupted at 46 minutes by some text messages on my phone, so as I wanted to achieve my goal of 1 hour for 30 days I choose to meditate again in the evening. In total, I meditated for 1 hour and 46 minutes today. The first meditation was pretty calm, the second one was more complicated as I was agitated, stressed about some stuff, had a lot of thoughts, and also move my body too much, but I kept it up anyway. In the end, I didn't felt more conscious when I opened my eyes but was satisfied that I'm able to continue my challenge.

OMG. This guy reminds me my previous manager

19 February 2020 Time: 1 hour Eyes always closed: Yes Summary: This session was way better than yesterday, even though some moments were a little more painful. I had many thoughts an move my body a little sometimes, especially near the end. I felt calmer when I opened my eyes.

18 February 2020 Time: 1 hour Eyes always closed: Yes Summary: I found it very difficult to maintain my state during this session. I let my mind do everything that it wanted and move my body a lot, however I felt a little calmer when I opened my eyes.

17 February 2020 Time: 1 hour Eyes always closed: Yes Summary: The session was more difficult than yesterday, I was more agitated and also more tense. I move my body a little too much and I didn't felt more conscious when I opened my eyes.

16 February 2020 Time: 1 hour Eyes always closed: Yes Summary: The session went well even if some moments were a little more difficult and I was a little tired because it was almost midnight. I had a lot of thoughts, but I didn't move my body a lot. I didn't felt more conscious when I opened my eyes.

15 February 2020 Time: 1 hour Eyes always closed: Yes Summary: I didn't control anything and choose to let go of everything during this session. It went pretty well, I had a lot of thoughts, but I didn't move my body a lot, I also felt that this meditation went way faster than 1 hour. I felt calmer when I opened my eyes.

14 February 2020 Time: 1 hour Eyes always closed: Yes Summary: The session went well even if I was a little sleepy. I had a lot of thoughts and move I body sometimes, but I felt like 1 hour went very fast, maybe like 20 or 30 minutes. I didn't felt more conscious when I opened my eyes.

13 February 2020 Time: 1 hour Eyes always closed: Yes Summary: I was tired today as I meditated during the night again. I had a lot of thoughts and move my body sometimes. I didn't felt a difference in consciousness when I opened my eyes.

12 February 2020 Time: 1 hour Eyes always closed: Yes Summary: I was both sleepy and agitated during this session. I did it in the evening which is not the best thing to do as I was tired after the end of my day. I move my body a lot, but I felt calmer when I opened my eyes.

11 February 2020 Time: 1 hour Eyes always closed: Yes Summary: I was agitated, tensed and stressed during today's meditation because I have some difficulties dealing with the pressure of my freelancing business. I moved my body sometimes and felt the need to poop during the session. I didn't felt more conscious when I opened my eyes and went directly to the toilet.

10 February 2020 Time: 1 hour Eyes always closed: Yes Summary: I was quite agitated today, I originally wanted to focus on my fan's sound, but I failed because I wasn't able to control my thoughts. I did some movements with my hands, but I kept my back straight for the entire session. I felt a little calmer when I opened my eyes, but not a lot more conscious.

9 February 2020 Time: 1 hour Eyes always closed: Yes Summary: This meditation went well overall, I let my mind anything that it wanted and I had an enormous amount of thoughts. I move my body a little sometimes, but I felt like this session went quicker than 1 hour. I felt calmer and clearer when I opened my eyes.

I mostly learned by using free online tutorials, it's maybe 70% - 80% of my education. When I was in college, most of the time the teacher would tell us to turn on our computer, go to a specific page and do the exercises. He would eventually help us when we had some questions, in some other classes he would direct us by showing how to do the work. Overall, I think working with other competent people on real scale projects help to learn faster. Online courses on Udemy or other similar platforms can also be great because they are very structured, but I only took one of these courses so far. Stay open when learning, have a stage yellow approach, analyze the most possibilities that you can. There are many different ways of doing the same stuff in programming, yet some of them are more effective.