Joel3102

Yeah I've had similar experiences, gone through existential terror, depression, nihilism, anxiety ect...It always passes leaving you with a higher state of consciousness. Did you find the knowing that you are immortal kind of scary??? I've spent my whole life being an atheist who took comfort in the notion that once you die that's it, I don't really want to be eternal...

Geez I didn't imagine you to be that young! I'm surprised by the level of youth in these forums Spose it's a good sign for humanity.

Do you still take a bunch of health supplements? Since your supplements video which have you stuck with, and which do you find most useful?

Keep raising your consciousness through contemplation and meditation. This should help your conversations become more authentic and less ego driven. I find its hard to instantly stamp out all low consciousness interaction such as gossiping and criticising, but just work on noticing and being aware every single time you do it.

Leo has a video on public speaking where he talks about joining a Toastmasters. Maybe that helped him out. I am joining a Toastmasters soon because I suuuuuck at talking in front of people!

Thanks for the responses! I think getting my life priorities in order will help as well as raising my awareness, as it alone is curative, will be most helpful.

The other day I had a bizzare experience in the car. I started feeling like I was awakening while I was driving after I'd been meditating a bit. I started quietly saying "oh my god....oh my god" and it just kept going and it got louder and louder until I was shouting it. It felt COMPLETELY involuntary and I started freaking myself out, but I think I got a glimpse into the abolute infinite nature of my Self. Can't really put into words or properly remember what it was I was experiencing tbh, but it felt mind blowing at the time. Experiences like you and I had are what keep us going. My deepest fear actually is ego death. It fucking terrifies me. Which is why I must seek it out.

Not very often I come across people going out their way to criticise the niche that is non-duality. Anyone care to rebut this guy?? Seems like a whole lot of straw mans to me.

I had a similar epiphany the other day. From this non-dual perspective, I am essentially everybody else. My consiousness is ultimatlty not independent of the life of Jesus, Hitler, you or the Dinasours. Everything is intamately connected and I felt this, not just intellectually grasped it.

Fearless with Jeff Bridges!! From Wikipedia: "As the plane descends, Max inexplicably becomes at peace when he accepts he is going to die. The revelation inspires him to comfort many of the fearful passengers, even moving to sit next to Byron Hummel (Daniel Cerny), a young boy flying alone. The psychological traumaof the experience transforms his personality and he enters an altered state of consciousness, rethinking his life and becoming preoccupied with the eternal meanings and the existential questions of life and death itself. Max's reaction to this awakening itself questions the reality of what is real and unreal and what his mind perceives as real through his interaction with others and the chance of living again in everyday life."

I'm the same mate. Have horrible concentration, it makes it quite hard. Like in lectures my default is to zone out and I really have to try to concentrate. For me, what dramatically helps is stopping as many things as possible that create stimulation (dopamine hits). Cut porn and masturbation, social media, moderate TV and video games. Also establish: -Eating healthy -Exercise -Try mandatory book reading for half an hour a day -Play mind training games like Lumosity -Meditate your ass off Do all these things and you'll be set.

@Leo Gura I accept that the real Self doesn't die. What I still don't understand is what the brain has to do with it!? Why does this awareness need a brain to manifest, therefore making it seemingly obvious that consciousness is created from the brain???

I recently had two days where I felt I was enlightened. I discovered that I literally CANNOT die. It was like I couldn't believe I've gone my whole life thinking I was born and will die! I was more certain of this fact than the sky being blue. Bizzare experience for somebody who's been a hardcore atheist most of their life. However it wasn't reallly a positive experience... it kinda tripped the fuck out of me. Like what??? I have to live forever??? Mind blown.

I think I recall Shinzen Young (I assume a VERY enlightened man) saying that Enlightnenment is nowhere near the end of the path. He said he personally still sought professional therapy for behavioural issues after awakening.

Perth, Australia... anyone???

@Leo Gura That's a shame. I discovered enlightenment through pickup/RSD>>Personal Development>>Meditation>>Enlightenment. Very smart approach you have. I'm hoping the no BS spiritual approach grows in the Western, rational audience to a much larger scale in the future. Your channel is one great leap in that direction.

@Marina I fucking love Rupert Spira. His demeanour is just mesmerising.

Isn't non duality and solipsism different things? Solipsism is the idea that ONLY my mind exists and there is no external world, whereas from the non-dual perspective the objective/subjective distinction is false, however there can be more than one (or billions) of minds within the substance of infinite consciousness.

@Leo Gura Thanks Leo, but don't worry, I'm not planning on hitting the 5-Meo just yet. My average dose acid trip two years ago was fucking brutal, I have a lot of work to do on my consciousness first.

@Denis I transitioned from St John's to SSRIs. I was advised to wait about a week to prevent Serotonin Syndrome. I'd imagine the timeframe would apply to other substances.

@Leo Gura Well....fuck.

I've been dealing with similar issues, it's like once you swallow the red pill you're stuck between a rock and hard place. I find it's best to surrender and have trust in the process and that in the end, nothing is gonna kill you, and like Leo says, it's all ego drama. Have faith in the emptiness.

Do you think Enlightenment can be successfully integrated into a Western, more busy society with greater elements of commerce, technology as well as social life? Or once Enlightened will you want everything to be simple?

Jesus....this guy. It is however just one enlightened perspective, most enlightened teachers paint a much more rosy picture.

I've been running into a bit of a problem lately, when I enter a relatively pure Being, egoless state from lots of meditation, it seems to turn off that rational/logical part of my brain (prefrontal cortext/left brain/whatever it is). This is a problem when I have to study and focus on abstract things. It's not like my usual ADHD lack of attention, but rather I can be fully present but not engage abstract thinking. Is there a way around this problem???