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She loved Asia. She loved the Buddha. Why couldn't I see? Heartbreak. Sadness. Grief. Guilt. Anger.

Your subconscious mind is you. You wants the best for you. It's your friend. Clear Communication is healthy for relationships. Especially for the relationship with your Self. Plant mantras/ affirmations. Dreamboard. Deep meditation. Ie. Post Yoga Asana and pranayama. Nature. Pray to the subconscious. Ask the subconscious questions. Request from the subconscious. And then it's a case of breathing and returning to breath. Only with breath can one be with the unconcious that One is now concious of.

Current book: Autobiography of a yogi

@Preety_India @Tangerinedream A situationship. Interesting term. Never heard of that term before.

Final Fantasy X. We spoke about the new Matrix last night. It's a video game.

@John Paul La la la laaaaaaaaa.

@Preety_India Seems obvious but a healthy reminder. I don't think I'll ever set foot in a nightclub again for the rest of my life. The occasional times I do find myself at a bar is either catching up with friends or on a date. In both those situations I'm not meeting women for the very first time( unless a friend of a friend turns up), just chilling with the people I already know/ met.

@SwiftQuill It doesn't sound like cheesy bullshit bro. Sounds legit. @catcat69123 Now that's transformation.

@PepperBlossoms What you're experiencing is not uncommon for folk to go through. A dissatisfaction with the whole game. What's the point right? Fuck it. It happens. Sometimes its exactly what's needed.

I made a concious decision to not date women for a year or two. Which has left me pondering: What is at the root of neediness? What needs am I trying to fulfill through women and sex? Do I really 'need' sex like is conditioned to believe? How can be I Self fulfilled and meet my needs without sex and women? When I meditate, I feel one with life and feel it can meet my need for love and connection if I open myself up more to the divine within. I heard someone else here say that most men are trying to meet their needs for significance and love through women much more than some biological drive for sex that 'needs' to be met. The more I do inner engineering work on my neurosis, limiting beliefs and traumas, I find I gradually become less needy and more self fulfilled. I heard someone else say the root of neediness is toxic shame and feeling unworthy and unworthy of love. Also want to figure out how to use yoga and meditation to transmute sexual energy but can prove pretty difficult, but I sense that part of the problem is that these psychological limiting beliefs around the need for sex and women and the neediness and craving root first needs to be addressed. Otherwise It turns into neediness yearning and craving for sex. I think I'll start with just cutting down on the jerking off and build my way up to more semen retention skill from there as I become more Self fulfilled and One with God.

Yes...The Source.

@sleep You are worthy. You are worthy of health, wealth, love, and happiness. Realise, you are worthy friend. It may take time, but you are worthy of everything you seek.

You could stay, finish off the degree, try get some value out of it, if anything the degree might help in certain circumstances in the professional world. If you're already not really paying much attention, just handle it gracefully if you can, get a decent score but don't stress, and use that rare opportunity you have with the time, energy and access to the uni library to study and work on what you really wanna build. I did that in the final year of my BA History degree. Totally out of touch with it, even though I love History still. It was the same year I found Actualized.org, meditation, yoga and spirituality. I miss having that freedom that university gives. I think I listened to more hours of Leo talking that year than I did my professor lol. I dunno man. Just thoughts.

@patricknotstar usually the way. It can work the other way though. I've definitely 'friendzoned' girls I met in social or work contexts that were obviously very attracted to me and wanted me to take the lead and move the interaction but I didn't want to. I've also dated women who were much more interested in me then I decided we should just be friends. Either I just wasn't attracted enough in whatever way or I felt that I just didn't want to get physically, emotionally, psychologically, energetically, sexually and spiritually entangled with this woman so I didn't take it any further.

Right action comes from stillness. Avoid burning out by remaining still. If we lose the silence, we get sucked into trying to control, and trying to control has a time limit. Stay timeless.

Meeting with Nicolas my Life coach tomorrow. Need to discuss Health. 新的中文词： 其实 actually 其他 other 奇怪 strange Previously i didn't have the patience for concious study of Chinese words. Chinese didn't nourish my soul like the wisdom in a book or a podcast did. Now though, something has changed, this language is becoming a part of my being. It nourishes me. Every word is a seed into my soul and i just observe the changes in my daily reality. I notice a new word on TV, or in conversation. A word I studied last week naturally bubbles up from my heart and off my tounge in a conversation. There is no force. 无为 wu2 wei2. Two second tones. let things take their own course. Surrender to the 道. Nature. We are just blooming and blossoming flowers going through the seasons with the bees.

@Gesundheit2 "Sanctions? Putin laugh at your sanctions!" - A Ukrainian civilian soldier preparing for war in Kyiv.

@patricknotstar IME the most successfull interactions i have with women are when i am genuinly authentically attracted and pulled towards meeting her. Sometimes there is an IOI on her behalf and the two of us being magnetically drawn, but rarely. Sometimes the IOI is there but I don't feel the authentic raw cosmic energetic pull, and that also doesn't go very well. and when there is no IOI and no cosmic pull, then well, let's just forget about those ones shall we.

People are good mirrors of our inner beings. If there is no duality between the inner and outer worlds, then how we act will definitley effect our entaglement with other people. Being aware of this we can act knowing that our actions will entangle with those around us and we will experience it. We can act in ways which create positive karmic conditions. We can also go beyond duality with other people and see the the oneness of the things we are experiencing internally and externally in realtion to others and take the messages and cues that come our way in regards to how we should act. Thereby creating more positive conditions for our Selves and those around us. Rather than falling into the suffering that our judgment, anxiety, fear, or any other emotion we resist creates, we can notice the connection between these inner experiences and the world and people around us. Then we can listen. Listen deeply. Listen to the Truth under it all, the connection to all that is, and the way of action will reveal itself. The way to harmony and balance, in our Self and the world.

@John Paul @flowboy Haha. Both of you are spot on. Good input. Thank you. You gotta go to work on your Self first. Doesn't mean you gotta stop meeting women, but sort your Self out and keep putting your life together internally and externally as the priority. The rest will come. Word.

I know some artists who are amazing human beings. My best friend is an artist. He is a freak, and I love him. His mind and spirit is on such a wavelength that his very being impacts all he comes accross in person and through the expression in his art. He's making an impact by sending ripples through the cosmos in multiple forms and dimensions. His life is his art. Art is his life. He impacts through a psychedelic vortex. He impacts through love and compassion. Through his Dharma and Karma, he is making an impact. At least he feels it. Maybe that is all that matters.

@voxun All in the name of Freedom bro. Freedom...

@BipolarGrowth What does a 'certain scale' look like? Property intriques me but I wouldn't want to be consumed by the endeavour.

@integral haha.

I dig it. I took the life purpose course straight after University. It didn't do much for me at all. I coulndn't construct it. 6 years later after more life experience, my Life purpose found me. Funnily enough, now I can actually get the value out of the LP course and be strategic and concious about the thing. but it's coming from within, it's not me doing it. My LP was always in front of my face, i knew what it was 6 years ago pretty much, I just wasn't ready. Now IAM ready.