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  1. @Jannes Firstly, be kind to yourself. In my 6 years teaching, I found students aged 12-14 to be the most challenging without a doubt. It’s tough. You’re doing good. Secondly, it always starts with your Self. Observe how students trigger you, how they respond to you, how they react to you, how you react to them. The more grounded in your own energy you are, the less students will pull you of course or even attempt to do so. Silence and presence speaks in the classroom. Teenagers have little egos but they are human beings and they intuit and feel strong awarenesss in the classroom from their teacher. Thirdly, PRACTICE the art of regaining the attention of the classroom. Planning and delivery of interesting and interactive lessons is a skill that’s never complete. Also, those moments where you really do have to “layeth the smack a down” and command control and demand silence of a class that is quickly getting out of hand is like stand up comedy, you’ll bomb sometimes before you get the timing right and more on point. Even veteran teachers slip up from time to time. Young people don’t tend to hold a grudge towards teachers so much. You can switch from strict to friendly pretty quickly if you’re congruent. You can tell a student off one lesson and then the next class they are all ears and happy to see you. The biggest difference is your own energy, health, commitment and internal state. Meditation, exercise, visualization of classes going well and students being engaged and enthusiastic. You have to care as a teacher. Even 8 year olds can tell the difference between a teacher with passion and a teacher ‘at work’. But if you’re here asking this, you care. Before I started, a veteran 35 year teacher told me; ” You might do everything in your heart and soul to make it work and it still won’t go down right. That is just how life goes sometimes. “ When it gets really tough and rough with certain classes and students, remind your self that, often it’s them and it’s not you. Focus on what you can control and don’t forget about all the hard working, respectful, attentive and polite students you have and have had before. Good luck and enjoy. Teaching is a beautiful, deeply fulfilling and profound art form. From a fellow teacher in the trenches!
  2. @Leo Gura Happy to hear you’ve not retired just yet Leo. Infinite love and strength to you brother. Everybody hopes you’re taking care of yourself and doing what you need to do even if we miss your new uploads. I definitely took Sunday’s new videos for granted but there is plenty to work on already.
  3. I left home (England) after graduating 6 months ago and have now found myself in China, teaching. I am 22 and I have been watching Leo's videos for about a year and a half but I think I have reached a point where I am in need of some serious application. I am on track to finish Leo's Life Purpose course soon but in short I have aspirations of being a yoga and meditation teacher in the distant future. I have realized that I need to install a lot of the basics of Self-Actualization such as Positive thinking, visualization, mindfulness practice, cleaning up my diet, and a study habit in order to pursue the more advanced material in a more serious manner. I wanted to create this, mainly just to help me to stop dreaming shit up and start working towards creating the life I want. I want to inspire and help others find the beauty in this thing called life and hopefully this is where it begins. At present I have no plan for a specific format for this journal, but I see it having ( or soon to have) a few components: - a general track and update on my daily habits, current projects and goals for Self-Actualization in various areas of my life - Musing and thoughts on Leo's content and my own application of theory and concepts - An ever evolving journey into my Kundallini Kriya yoga practice and pursuit of yoga/meditation mastery - Thoughts and insights on Consciousness, Awareness and Enlightenment. - General musings about life, this path, my evolution, what I get up to and how bloody silly the whole show is. Currently working on: - Installing reading, exercise/yoga, healthy eating, early rising, visualization habits. - Pursuit of: - Emotional Mastery, Consciousness, enlightenment, Mastery of yoga, meditation. - Happiness - Empowering relationships - Life Purpose Learning Mandarin. Health and fitness, Reading a shit tone of books. Overall: A pursuit of Self-Mastery and having a bit of fun and a giggle along the way. I will refine the format of this journal as I go. I hope you find some value here and I welcome you into my journey. May we evolve together. One love, my Self-Actualization brethren's and sistrens! Peace. Spencer.
  4. I need to get more engaged and disciplined with learning Mandarin Chinese. I am going to start journalling about it and documenting my process and journey to fluency. I think it deserves it's own journal. Methods: LingQ.com ( Reading & listening to immersive interesting content. Save word counts and save phrases. Easy access to dictionaries and definitions while reading.) Refold.com ( Immerson listening to real native content.) (I used the Chinese equivlent of Netflix to watch native tv shows and movies, i also have a TV in my apartment which is wired to Chinese television as I live in China.) I also have a load of DVDs i can play in my place which inlcudes a lot of amazing anime. lol. Gotta love it. Concious study of words and characters. Write out the word or character a view times, speak out loud, practice the pronounciation, write the english meaning ( only one English meaning where possible, sometime it isn't possible because the words have multiple meanings that are totally unrelated.) Use Chinese grammar Wiki. Very clear and simple guide which focuses on patterns and not rules. Review word, patterns and grammar using Anki SRS ststem Practice speaking with my Chinese co workers in the office and random people out and about during the week. Most of my Chinese friends speak really good English, they tend to win the language power battle, also speaking Chinese when you suck sucks, the idea is to focus most of your attention on input then you can more naturally and effortlessy communicate more like a native, this seems to be my experience and the experience of many others. Requires patience though. Plus i am pretty inner focused, the input approach suits my lifestyle more. At this point after living in China for so long I have not doubt in my ability to become highly proficient in Mandarin I just need to take the action and put in the time. I hope this journal can help me do that by keeping me more focused and making the process more interesting and enjoyable. I am pretty fascinated by the process of language learning itself as well as the Chinese language itself and the Chinese culture itself, I hope the journal can also make these elements of the experience more interesting and give me a space where I can contemplate。
  5. Decided to document my journey into healing, returning to authenticity and integrating the past, present and future. Aspire to share resources, quotes, insights, contemplations, observations and understandings into the nature of trauma, addiction and healing.
  6. I bought the Lifes purpose course years ago. I wasn't ready for it, I needed to go out and live and experience life to find my calling. Now I basically know my calling, it's pretty obvious, so are my values. I'm still resistant to go back to the course and try to take it very seriously. Can anyone share their experience with the course? Did it have a profound impact on you in the short and long run even if it was clear what your purpose was already? Did those concepts and books have a a profound impact? How impactful were the exercises? Is it something you did in one go or have you been returning to it over time to more deeply integrate? I feel like it could be of value but also feel like I'm wasting time investing lots of hours into the course when I could just be building the skills I already know I need to be building... Maybe in the long game it will be worth the time investment...
  7. I need to spend more time listening. I've been watching spider man anime recently. It is a lot better than the movies. The thing the language learning world gets wrong is they make vocabulary and grammar study the most important action and treat watching tv shows and movies and practicing active listening as somehow 'lazy' or 'just relaxing' and 'not for serious students.' In truth, active listening Is the most important language learning practice. Of course, if it was common knowledge that you could pretty much listen ( and read) your way to fluency then that would put a lot of language teachers and schools out of business... Language learning is a subconscious process, the study of words and grammar is a supplement to active listening and reading compelling content, and not the other way around. Its pretty effortless really so long as you're building your passive vocabulary. Passive vocabulary is the key. It's amazing how the brain can decipher the language over time, in just a few days of listening you already see improvements in comprehension. Best part about it, it makes the language fun, even if you can't comprehend most of it. Makes the process very satisfying as you 'Level up' your understanding bit by bit. Output can only reach the level of your comprehension.
  8. @Sempiternity I am sorry this simple post triggered frustration in you.
  9. Man and womans reproductive survival strategies are not the same. This is what you need to understand. You only care about beauty and being nice because those qualities for 1000s of years meant the difference between your male ancestors offspring surviving or not surviving. Man and woman are fundamentally attracted to different things. There is some overlap but at a core level their survival strategies are different, this is hardwired into man and woman through 1000s of years of sexual reproduction. Your not a woman. Woman care about these things because for 1000s of years if they could not find a man who demonstrated these qualities, it could mean the difference between her offspring surviving and having her Gene's past onto the next generation or not. Man and woman have for 1000s of years played out very different roles in the world which has led to very hardwired core sexual reproductive strategies being very different. No matter how sophisticated, modern, free thinking, independent, liberal and progressive we think the world we live in today is, attraction is still attraction. What attracted women 10,000 years ago is still pretty much the qualities that attracts them today. 'Fame' /status gives men a lot of social proof to women that they possess qualities that they are deeply attracted too. It doesn't have quite the same effect for men though as we are wired differently.
  10. @Grant6 The world we live in and the cultural and societal narratives that we are brainwashed with do not encourage us to be metaphysically curious. We are herd animals, if the pack is chasing money and fame, that's what most are gunna do.
  11. Sitting on the sofa and eating peanut butter and jelly sandwiches = Law of Attraction
  12. As part of the process to actualize ourselves and become more of our authentic nature we shed layers of ourselves that cause us to act out from our lower nature. This is a long term process and there is no end point where now I have made it and now I am authentic. We can experience glimpses of awareness (authenticity) and then we fall back into unconciousness an inauthenticity. We keep returning to authenticity (Awareness) and working on ourselves to deepen this connection so more and more of our actions come from awareness and authenticity. Whatever actions come from that place are authentic actions. Those actions might change over time as we become wiser of course. Authenticity/ Awarenss/ Truth/ Self... all similiar.
  13. @Razard86 I'll check out the video. Actually I lived and saw the world through the polyamorous perspective for a few years and the end result was I concluded that monogamy was what I prefer. Before all of that I was convinced marriage was some form of archaic slavery. I no longer believe that anymore. 'Sex at Dawn' is an eye opener. Not sure if it's all accurate but an eye opening book. Duncan Trussel made the point that at the very least the book meant people don't have to feel guilt and shame for being attracted to other people outside of their relationship. Doesn't mean they have to cheat or be polyamorous, but they can accept the attraction to others as natural and normal.
  14. Conflict takes up a lot of energy. Conflict creates a lot of suffering. Conflict removes the mind from the present. Conflict removes authenticity. Conflict prevents Self development from gaining traction. Conflict creates backsliding. Conflict destroys relationships. Conflict must be healed. To transform, one must be out of conflict.
  15. The source of conflict within the individual is a result of dissowned and disintegrated parts of himself. This normally happened because an immature boy misinterpreted events that happened to him. As a result, trauma was created, as a defence mechanism, to help the boy survive. As a man, this trauma, this defence mechanism does not serve him or his world. The process is to strip back the layers and return to realness and authenticity. The specific event of the past doesn't really matter in the process, what matters is seeing the truth and seeing the past for what it really was, seeing why the trauma was created, what it was protecting, how it was false or how it no longer serves the man.Then returning to seeing the present for what it really is, as pure, authentic, divine being and presence.
  16. Don't feel the language in your head, feel the language in your heart.
  17. If it feels awkward and uncomfortable, you're probably doing it right.
  18. @A Fellow Lighter Beautiful.
  19. @Julian gabriel What else are you going to do?
  20. @puporing Yeah I see what you're saying. While I was writing I just starting thinking about this attitude I keep seeing amongst the younger generations right now around marriage, monogamy and sexual and personal freedoms that seems like they're 'throwing the baby out with the bathwater,' and not seeing the wider perspective. So excuse me, I wasn't ranting directly at you. I agree though, a world where all the possibilities are given and accepted amongst the collective narrative would be the ideal situation. The process to actually create that in the world would be extremely difficult and won't happen anytime soon. Especially as we still live in a world with borders and nationalities that are at different stages of collective development and that divide and create separate unique narratives around relationships and sex.
  21. @puporing Or maybe people could learn to understand that their attraction for others is natural even if they are in a monogamous relationship. Just because there is a desire and attraction whilst in a relationship doesn't mean we should live in a world where everyone is free to just follow that impulse for 'fun'. Men can be pretty committed when in a relationship, just like women can. I agree women are more shamed for having fun and sleeping around, but you make it sound like men are freely allowed to sleep around with other people outside of their relationship when women aren't... and even if men are less shamed for that act, it doesn't mean it would be healthy for both men and women to be able to freely act on their desire for 'fun' outside of a monogamous relationship. I don't think this utopian idea of free love and sex would actually work for most people and society. Open relationships have a place, and if the two people decide on it then fine, that's okay, but they're not for everyone and neither should they be. Monogamy still has value in an evolved and concious society, and would actually be the better option for a lot of people, IMO. This 'monogamy and marriage is outdated and doesn't work' idea that is becoming more popular nowadays is a very black and white way to look at it. High divorce rates are not happening because we need to be allowed to sleep around outside of relationships, high divorce rates are happening because people are not psychologically mature and don't understand or embody healthy attraction and communication in relationships. Which is a problem for both men and women. Anyway, rant over. Peace.
  22. "A True hero has nothing to prove. He is free, totally free. Anything else is just a facade." -Steve Harrison Letting go of the need to prove myself is extremely liberating.
  23. you are not god. YOU are god. YOU does whatever the fuck it wants. YOU doesn't care about what you want...even though YOU might still manifest it. By the the time you realise YOU, you won't exist anymore to doubt wether YOU (God) exists.