Dragallur

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229th day: Challenge (76 days) I got better in side split and simply touching my toes. I am far away from touching my knees with head. I love it though. Its a thing where one can see some difference in matter of weeks, its also physical stuff. After I finish the challenge I want to set another one, I already have ideas as to what I could practice next. Today in yoga class my teacher was so happy. I have not seen anyone so happy before, it was totally shining from her. As she was just sitting and looking around the other people and smiling I just started to laugh, it was great! It would be cool comfort zone challenge to ask her if she knows about enlightenment. Comfort Zone Challenge So @Gabriel Antonio talked with me about CZC... what could I do else than lie down on the street then? I decided to do it today during pause for lunch. I went outside into the city to get away from the people from my school, it would not really help if they thought that I am weirder than they think right now. I stood for a minute on sidewalk of one of the main streets. There were lot of course and some people walking though no directly next to me. Then I lied down and as though I was chilling just left my feet over each other and closed eyes because sun was directly hitting my eyes. I counted 30 seconds and walked away, what would one expect, I did not think that it would be hard and it was not, though I have to admit that my pulse was somewhat higher! Humboldt I just found this quote shared by my mother: "The most dangerous worldview is the worldview of those who have not viewed the world." - Alexandr von Humboldt I was even considering to put it as my signature.. Its great and reminds me that I have not seen the world and no matter how I do not like the view so many adults live or how they take care of their kids, they have more experience than I do, thats a fact and I should be very conservative about all of my "theories" and the ways things are, othwerise I might be surprised by some nasty paradigm shift. The cool thing is how many times this idea already worked for me, its really cool and humbling. It also reminds of overconfidence bias, a concept I learned about from rationalist community (yes this was written like this to invoke emotions against rational community and not make people read it or read it biased which is why I am writing this sentence.. there are great tests for overconfidence bias. The link teaches some quite valuable skills.) The trend of making new journals is growing, but nahh, I will stick with this one for now though the "lucid dreaming" in the name does not really fit. Physics I did a lot of physics over last weekend. It made me quite tired but I moved a bit with the crazy book about astrophysics. I learned about u-substitution in integration. I saw a video about why one science YouTuber is not scientist. He said that he would enjoy the results but could not go through the process and that he thinks that it is important to choose the work where you like the process itself and not only the results (note to self: Veritasium2: Why I am not scientist). Leo Leo's last videos were so amazing. (Did I said it already?) Oh well... Concetration Since the release of the video I did first 2 minutes and now for quite some time 5 minutes per day. I quite like it now though I want to do it two times a day because otherwise I can not ever move to 10 minutes, lot of monkey mind. Dragallur Note: I am thinking of changing my name here and my profile picture since this is exactly the same as I use on my blog and I write here quite personal stuff and as Azrael noted, it would not be so good if somebody connected it together, though its not my true name so..

@Sevi Alright i have no idea what this means!

@Who_Am_I Yeah, I do not think that anybody will finish without breaking it up

@Who_Am_I @Sevi I do not need babysitter, thats not the case for me I will try my best.. but I do not think that we can start at the same time, mine is GMT +2 hoursso I can not start much later than 14:00. In the morning is also quite tricky because lunch is quite important here so I will try to start right after it. In three weeks is also possible. Btw. has anyone here meditated half of that? I personally did 140 minutes once though I changed positions.

@Dodoster @Sevi I have people in the house who will want something from me so I definitely wont be able to do such a long sitting in one.

@Dodoster @Sevi do you mean this saturday? 13th of May.

Do you authentically want that, or do you just want that because I told it to you? This is hilarious. @Gabriel Antonio I should probably train that a bit after today!

226th day: The Grand Project I have been very creative today. I have ton of ideas mainly inspired after Leo's last video which was amazing with all the 11 extra videos. I realised that I really, really do not want to be stuck on 9-5 job so I have been busy in thinking of way to avoid it. I brought launching the site a bit closer though I can not do that in Germany nor during summer holidays because I wont have enough time, after that I could maybe even have prepared something to immediately post and have enough knowledge around. I realised that I can for example make a basic course about derivations simply because I understand it very well. I have been researching on how big the market would be for what I want to do and it seemed to be bit questionable but there are definitely people who manage it. I will look into it more in the future. The idea that I would at some point become financially independent is thrilling, and even more so if I could manage with something so beautiful like TGP. I have set up provisionaly Patreon page and I am wondering if I should try to grow my blog again instead of just blind posting once a week. Its late. Dragallur

@Meretagh Personally when I go "hardcore mode" then I would go with eyesight model if I understand correctly what you mean by it. I do not really believe that there is anything like 3D in the present moment because the only way how we "know" that there is depth is by looking on shadows and by knowing that things in the distance are smaller, but those are based on memories.. even your retina is just 2D and can not take depth into account.

@Sevi I am in too.

@Shin I just wrote 18:00 GMT.

Meditation this saturday and/or this sunday? Usual GMT 18:00...

Insights: At some point in the work of inquiry and meditation one gets an insight. What to do with it? Insights also seem to fade, should I try to gain the same one? Are there any trap insights? What to do at the moment of insight? Could you make a video about talking with other people about spirituality and personal development? I would like to mention it to some people close around me but its difficult issue.

222nd day: Challenge (83 days) Going very well. I was on yoga today and we did side split there too. I can do couple more centimeters on the standing and reaching exercise but thats not a surprise, you can get quite stretchy in short amount of time. Self-Inquiry I... dont have anything to say really... its all so weird. I find it funny how quickly I can jump into normal mode of unconsciou living which is so similar and yet so different from conscious way. Its just that nothing really changes, its just the point of view, nothing more. Who is getting attached to "I"? There is noone there! What the hell I am so alone, its just this voice, there is really nothing else happening, its so alone, it speaks to itself for hours and hours without realising anything. There is no "I" that would control it to prove it you would make only circular reasoning anyway, its like saying that Bible is true because Bible says that Bible is true. I am I because I am I says the I, there is noone else. Dragallur

Just today I got back my German exam, of course we did not have so much time, 60 minutes. I was proud of my page and half (though I wrote basically whole page) and then the teacher was like: "Well this part could have been longer.. ". (I got 4 from the text and 5 from grammar ) That reminds me how in Czech it is much more common for people to have 1 in exam (but apparently you dont have have a problem to get full points here too). I guess its because you need to get less points in Czech (85% to get 1) and also there is often no oral participation with which you could balance it. Only the worst in class have 4 or 5 but here its "completely" normal. Also art, music and sports are not really subjects, we do not write usually any exams and just get 1 at the end of the year .

Are you sure? I find it quite crazy how here in Germany people write so much in their tests. In Czech its more about knowing terms or writing essay with like 300 words.. and then you write 14 pages!!!

@Loreena The number says how many times in a row she did it, when she breaks it the number goes back to zero.

@PetarKa Well you can do it after you actually watch the video and that will count.

@jjer94 Wow, what you shared here!.. Good luck jjer

@egoeimai Yes you are right that was more of a short term solution and those are only short termed, these things take a long time to solve and are complicated. From my view the problem is so big because the girl is in his class, I have been through something similar and it really fucks you up when you see the person everyday.. aka can not forget about her.

@Meretagh I do not really have a an idea for short term solution.. but from my experience after few months of self-inquiry my whole approach to girls and other attachments completely changed, every day life became so relaxed and some things stopped to matter so much. I have no idea if this would work for you too since I do not know how much in love you are with her. Also you could try to meet some new people, new girls so that your attention would diverge a bit and you would maybe find out that this person was not actually what you wanted and needed. Good luck Meretagh

219th day: Challenge (86 days) So I started... couple times a day a just hang down and stretch a bit and then do it for a longer and actually try to make it better. I will start to do some more exercises to help me. All the things I want to achieve are kind of in the same direction except the side splits.. we will see how it goes. Hmm Today I realised how easy it is to not make a big mistakes, let me clear it out: Often I have the urge to do something but I know that I should not do it because it does not stand with my values and so on, people call it egoic behavior . Often there arises huge discussion in my head with lot of arguments but the whole issue is always simple, if I do something good than the discussion wont arise.. I simply have to stop doing the things when I start to create discussions and arguments, its so simple yet so hard to execute it. Dragallur

@Dingus The reason why I said that the internet discussion was impressively good was the way that the people approached the problem. For example: Then I think they had some quite good points, for example the authors apparently do not even try to say that it is valid which sounds kind of weird. They very rightly say that the content is not falsifiable, that does not say that it is untrue but the way some things are shallowly described, simply why such open ended answers? The thing is that what Leo calls "false skepticism" is not in any way false, it is just other way approaching a problem, there is not true or false skepticism and no right form, "true skepticism" should be applied at some situation but not in other simply because of efficiency.. there is so much stuff on the internet that is making some kind of claims that you can not test through first hand experience everything, then you need to use critical thinking and get rid of most of it even if you sacrificed something that would be true, then you have time to dive deep into something that might seem questionable to people but there are individuals all around the world having similar kind of experience, like enlightenment for example.

Oh, my hopes