Dragallur

@Mango1998 Once you start this journey it is hard to face how others are screwing their lifes up. I find it very difficult to talk to somebody about improving once life.. they "want" to be stucked and nowadays I just find it better to rather show that it is working for me and inspire them than to persuade them to do what I do.

104th day: So I was one week in Denmark for vacation, quite interesting. I could post something but I rather decided not to and I was a bit lazy. There is probably only one thing I want to mention right now.. The day that I came there which is more than a week now I had one day completely shitty. I did not have such a bad day in a long time. I would not describe it depressed, it was kind of empty, I felt nihilistic but at the same time it was something different. The whole thing was probably triggered with a little problem that I have right now and need to solve (maybe will mention later).. then it was fine. I am quite relaxed these days and pondering upon my emotions and such stuff. Leo has some good videos now! Dragallur

You can not know it for certain but mind you for practical purposes it is quite useful to not believe in chemtrails. Simple assignment of probabilities will show you that it is not very beneficial to move somewhere to Africa where you could be sure that chemtrails are not no matter if they exist somewhere else. But as you say, for the work that we are doing here it could be worthwhile to ponder upon this.

Good! Even if you considered and believed all points in some conspiracy you would not be crazy I like how far you are able to go and it definitely amazes me, just keep calm my mind and dont get burried too deep in shit.. those conspiracies are also made up on hatred, falsehood, manipulation and ego.. there is no other way around that! While you work, be sure to check out Moon landing conspiracy or creationism or global warming deniers.. there is tremendous amount of shit but from where you are going maybe even thing to learn!

Because they are not at the same distance, Sun is 150 mil. km away which is why. Basically Sun is shining on Moon from huge distance and we are looking little bit from the side, but compared to the whole picture we are really small there. If Moon would be making its own light I bet people from Apollo would notice.

Is tea good for human body? And do you drink tea from sacks?

Since my whole response got deleted somehow I will make it shorter this time. First, do. sanity checks to see if this conspiracy makes sense. Why spray from such a height? How do the pilots not share it with the world? Why does the government not use easier techniques? How all the hostile countries cooperate together? Contrails persist depending on the weather. check out this response to the video, it basically debunks it with reasonable arguments: contrailscience.com "debunked what in the world are they spraying". Science is not easy to do and some people really screw it up. be cautious when you share and feed such conspiracies... there are people who have their lives and who probably do not want all of their work to be thrown out of the window. Dragallur

@quantum chemtrails are conspiracy theory that does not have proper evidence, why does it make you sad?

91st day: Enlightenment work Writing times here is kind of pointless since I do not even post everyday, but hey today I did 2 hours of self-inquiry. Quite interesting, weird experiences when looking into mirror or doing random shit like standing and sitting up repeatidly is happening more and more often Physics Uhh.. more info down: Mindfulness Quite fine, needs work, long periods of mindfulness are really powerful. No computer games (4 streak) Christmas All right, this was pretty interesting, my first Christmas without my family. The presents are the important thing of course so I will share the ones that are not chocolate (for some reason I have pile of chocolate in my drawer and I keep getting more). Book: Dangerous Women Stories by various masters in science-fiction and fantasy. Put together by some guy Gardner Dozois and all mighty George R. R. Martin! Yeah I have to admit that I really like Song of Ice and Fire. Oh well, thats for my actualization . I started the first few pages though it has like 700 I am really looking forward to it since I have no problem with reading fantasy or watching lighter science-fiction movies... I still think there is art to them and things to learn from. Book: An Introduction to Modern Astrophysics Hell yeah. The keyword is "modern", the stuff following the page around 50 gets complicated, like a lot! I started working very well to understand first things and I definitely love it. It is ok if I will have to stop with it, few years later I will get the knowledge and finally break through! (It has 1500 pages) Book: The Book of Not Knowing Probably only one that the reader is familiar with . I am on a page 30 or so, seems very interesting I like how Ralston mentions Einstein and other scientists and combines it with enlightenment work! (700 pages). Yup this is probably the largest amount of pages I have got for Christmas ever, I dunno how I will transport it back home Music: Winter's Gate As you might have noticed my most favorite group is Insomnium (melodic death metal) and in September they released new CD Winter's Gate. I heard it but then Century Media Records deleted it from YouTube, now I wished it and I can listen to it! What happened to my challenge you ask? I waited until today and I decided I do not need to continue. It was actually pretty easy after the first or two days and the only problem I realised is having music in the background so I will stop doing that. The music itself is masterpiece. Here is my favorite quote that I like to put onto enlightenment work: "Sunless, starless, pathless is the way." Whole CD is based on Viking story that the main singer wrote and it consists of one 40 minute track! The case of breatharianism and other supernatural phenomena Alright I have cleared up mind about this again a little bit more. Breatharianism is basically living on Prana which is some kind of energy. I have considered it through and through again after quantum sent me a video (sorry [1]I did not listen to it whole, only about half). So.. what kind of annoys me is that there is no definite proof and that people died when trying to learn it. There is this woman Jasmuheen I think she is called who kind of brought this to west, she has been investigated at her home after she agreed upon long term "watching". First after losing weight and being dehydrated she said that because of bad air from highway she can not live on prana so they moved to nature but she kept on losing her weight, her pulse was getting higher and higher and she was more and more dehydrated and then the people who filmed it decided to stop it before she comes to harm. Well... why would she agree in the first place if she knew that she is not able to do it? Why was she not able to do it if she is able to do it? If breatharianism is possible it is EXTREMELY powerful tool, like really! Anybody with higher goals and empathy towards humanity would do anything to prove this to world. Jasmuheen was actually even offered 1 million dollars if she proves that it is possible! Anybody with little bit of thinking could calculate how many lives can 1 million dollars save, and it would not be so hard if you practice the method for years anyway. Take Wim Hof for example. Guy who clearly shows signs of supernatural abilities, almost climbed Mount Everest in shorts only (this is little bit more complicated), ran record in Polar circle half marathon in only shorts (this time even without shoes) and ran in Namibian desert marathon without any water.. I call this quite a proof for his case and he has official Guiness world record in being submerged in ice for 2 hours (I think) without his body's surface temperature going down. He has breathing method that enables him this with lot of practice.. he said that he wants the world to know about this and wants this technique not to be only "pseudoscience" so under controlled set up he was investigated.. of course this makes sense because if you want to learn lot of people you need society to accept it which makes sense because science than can improve it or learn from this new thing. Maybe breatharianism is too complicated but if I were breatharian I would claim find a little bit openminded scientist or documentarist, claimed this ridiculous piles of many and spread the technique around the world into mainstream community.. you say that mainstream community can not handle this? Bet they can if you finally provide some serious information. There is definitely lot of ridiculous crazy things that you could do to start to plant seed in the mind of society. Notice that I am not using any kind of scientific knowledge to argue with, I am simply stating that I think that their behavior does not make so much sense.. do not get me wrong I find it unbeliavable that these people who confidently talk about breatharianism know that they normally eat at home. Lot of them say that they drink juice and eat some sweets during the day, it might be that they just learned their body to live on extremely low amount of calories and that the reason why they would never stop eating completely would be that it is not possible and they are just deluding themselves by saying that they like the taste of food... I have not lived for long enough to know how much people are willing to do to save their belief systems... I leave that open again. Dragallur [1]Do you ask why I striked through "sorry" instead of deleting it? My friend came up with an agreement that he made with some people including me, the agreement is basically about not saying "sorry". Why? Because we think that sorry is over used world that only manipulates people, the same thing goes with thank you. I do not do this to everybody though because that would not work but I know that people here are on whole different level and can take this

What things led you to the conclusion? I have spent some time trying to find out about it but then recognized that there is lot of bullshit around on the internet about this, people arguing strongly for or strongly against and I have not make up my mind, plus there are the controlled studies of people who faked it and so on.. I am really undecided about this one.

88th day: Enlightenment work I think that the experience I had couple of days ago was indeed very important. Again 2 hours of SDS and 1 hour of self-inquiry. I am really beginning to be interested a lot in the self-inquiry stuff... achhh senses and thoughts are amazing. Physics Today I was listening only to podcast about rationality called Bayesian Conspiracy (I think I already mentioned it), 3 people talking about rationality basically. Since they are very small podcast and it seems that they acknowledge and aswer questions people ask I want to ask what they think about spirituality, meditation and enlightenment. (This seems to me that it is intuition approved but I can say that to any idea, does it even make so much difference?) Mindfulness Very interesting. Yesterday I felt quite sick. I spent lot of time on toilet and they I lied down in the bed to relax though I wanted to meditate or something. I downloaded on my phone some games and it took me about 30-40 minutes to casually uninstall them . To be honest I was playing with the idea of not reseting the counter here but I will. It was a small relapse and I think it was good I made it since I realised some things. The number displayed here does not matter anyway so who cares. No computer games (1 streak) I am actually quite happy with my self. Stuff Today I was running again! 6 kilometers with tempo of 5:13 which is great, I would not expect that! I did some exercises too because of my back, knees are still great! Had some really cool dreams so wrote them down. Everything that we are doing here is totally influenced by Leo... this is EXTREMELY important because any flaws that he makes we pick up after him like pigeons. Please dear reader, do understand this (Videos are made from his ideas, books are of his choice and only tip of what he read, forum is full of people that have to be similar otherwise they would not be here, life-purpose course is based on his ideas and his life and his books).. so remember he talks about enlightenment and he is not enlightened. Dragallur

86th day: Enlightenment work What a freakin day. From 10-11AM I did SDS then right after lunch I did Neti-Neti for 56 minutes and then I just waited for the full hour to go by. After other stuff I did 1 horu of self inquiry in the evening and I just finished another 30 minutes of SDS, I planned whole hour but it did not clap with dinner and such. Cool, all of it was sitting crosslegged basically not moving especially during oficial SDS. Towards the second half of self-inquiry something interesting happened. I was wondering who the hell recognizes thought when it comes up. It is recognized by someone right? Well there is somebody otherwise the thought would as well not exist at all.... and then something happened. I had this insight about this "field" that reflects these things, it did not have any form. I was like: all right then, I better remember this! I tried to recreate the complete experience but was not succesful. I feel great now anyways and it was something remarkable.. I also understand more this concept of not clinging to experience. Physics Alright, I did some Khan Academy. Mindfulness Quite good and it is not even school! No computer games (30 streak) Stuff I went running today. I ran over 8 kilometers with tempo something like 6 minutes and 10 seconds for kilometer.. that is definitely weak for me but I do not mind, I enjoyed the run a lot. Knees are completely ok just the bone under it hurts a bit. Two days ago I actually was doing parkour and I finally had the courage to jump one of the more difficult jumps! I also did some exercises for knees again. I joined the no music for one week unofficial challenge! Leo's practical guide to enlightenment is great. The Grand Project Have you been wondering how is my work here going? Well I have finished first course on HTML and CSS in CodeAcademy and now today I started PHP. Otherwise I am getting some better idea what will be my way of approach to this thing but it is kind of abstract to write here. I need to study a lot a lot, thats why I have to go to University because I could not learn the stuff by myself so easily. Of course I can start before I finish my school. That needs some studying too but if I start to prepare the most of the surface stuff it will be easier to work with it later on. I realised that blogging (that is around 250 posts on my blog each roughly 400 words) really improved my writing skills. Just the other day I received 11/12 points on english writing and the only problem is that I never learned to use "articles". This is nice indeed. Dragallur

It is quite thick book, couple hundred pages I have heard, so for such a book nothing exceptionall and it probably holds information worth of thousands and thousands of dollars. I bet that if you are not living in first world countries you can still afford it.. start saving some money, take extra job if you think it is too much.

Actually I have a friend who is apparently able to do spoon-bending and some healing. I have not experienced it myself though another friend of mine told me that she is able to push her with her thoughts and she showed her bended spoon and such. The friend went on seminar in Czech Republic which is basically translated as something like: "Technique of quantum touch of matrix" or something like that. Here is the original Czech site: http://www.kvantovaterapie.cz/ And here is some english one, I am not sure if it is the same thing and it would definitely need some research, I have not studied it myself: http://www.quantumtouch.com/index.php?lang=en Here in the video the guy pushes some people (its in Czech again):

83rd day: Enlightenment work Well lot of monkey mind. I am going throung Neti-Neti too fast. Since winter break is coming I am planning to do long distance walking again. Two times I walked already in summer 65 kilometers and 50 kilometers once in a day. SInce I am not so fit at the moment I will probably start with 40 or so and if it goes alright I will walk more. Really looking forward to it, just realized that this plan was made up by intuition probably!!! Physics Wow today... I spent most of the day doing physics and math. I need to work so freakin much. I tend to look towards the people that have around 100% on one of the hard-core physics seminars and then I take look on the problems and its like another language.. The problem is that I have learn to expect that I will solve problem fastly or that I will see the solution immediately. At the same time I persuaded myself to do some research before giving up and I found the stuff I needed for one of the problems and basically understood everything in it which was great! Lesson: I need to learn more patience and really dive into the topics. I have really fun sometimes with derivatives, its really cool to do them. Mindfulness No comment. (no comp. games) I watched the new video of course. This one was pretty good indeed. No time to loose, there is really lot to do and physics and enlightenment need to be mastered. I forgot to say, about week ago I had spontaneous lucid dream, cool but it was short as hell. I spend a lot of time on the computer and on internet.. I think it is alright since I do not procrastinate these days and I need to learn physics on computer since I do not have here any books anyway. Also I realized that I did another intuition thing. I decided that I will stop heating my room completely. It safes water which is good for environment (I was just re-learning something with calorimetry and hell, water takes so much energy to heat!!!). It is right now pretty chilli and my feet are freezing a bit but I can adjust! After today I feel this strong urge to really learn physics cool. One of the best threads ever on this forum was created when Leo shared the book of Ra. Interesting was that the part I read I took pretty ok, but no I do not believe in UFO. It is not actually very important to take ANY position here, you can just let it be and let evidence show up, which I really like. Leo mentioned that there is some part about meditation and it is pretty well described to what he experiences which sounds cool. Its all alright I know that my emotional reaction when I hear about somebody being religious is going pretty close to zero! I see how the yellow stage is amazing. I am not there, I have been thinking about it a long time but I am not there, definitely, long way to go.. but hell yeah it is great to feel peace and not disgust when somebody talks about these things. Dragallur

Hell yeah I think that this was one of the most interesting threads that appeared on the forum, quite long too but I was glad that Leo took his time to answer all the questions. Glad to hear that Its great to read these posts, again thanks for sharing your thoughts!

What is true is already so. Owning up to it doesn't make it worse. Not being open about it doesn't make it go away. And because it's true, it is what is there to be interacted with. Anything untrue isn't there to be lived. People can stand what is true, for they are already enduring it. —Eugene Gendlin I have found this on community blog Less Wrong, amazing.

82nd day: Enlightenment work During one part os todays SDS I found out something completely arbitrary to enlightenment. When I am kind of sleepy sometimes imagination gets very real and I can catch this moment for second or so and it is quite cool. It seems to me that it is kind of black and white but I am able to catch myself before I fall asleep, interesting. I do not have much problem with 60 minutes of SDS anymore, maybe I will start to make to longer, dunno. Often I learn the most valuable lessons when someone does to me or somebody else something not so nice and I truly notice what happen. At that point I tell myself, do not do this, you will hurt the other person, sometimes its just small things. Yesterday for example we started somehow to talk about dimensions and I said that we see only in 2nd dimension and our mind and memory says that we see in 3rd dimension. I had pretty good arguments but the other person stopped to talk with me probably because the idea simply seemed silly and the part with arguments was completely ignored I did not even got any from the other side... lesson, do not run away from discussion ever, even if you talk with creationists or Moon landing deniers, some people might actually want to learn what you think about the opinion and you need to weight the value of what they are saying since you might as well be just brainwashed about the idea. Especially if you talk with kids. Physics Quite lot of work in differential calculus. I moved forward a lot because I did function analyzing in school and not in Khan Academy. I am also listening to podcast called Baeysian conspiracy. It is basically about rationality, these people are so peaceful and openminded! Its cool to see rationalists that are able to do it, I really like them. Baeysian statistics seems extremely interesting, I have never seen it mentioned on this forum. There are so many freakin schools of "knowledge" there is no reason to discard religion, rationality or spirituality. One cool math teacher in Czech once told me that it is important to realise that it is dangerous to make conclusion about one field with the other one. For example science is not so much about God and spirituality simply wont constuct rocket and safe human kind from asteroid.[1] Mindfulness Saturday seems better to me little bit than other saturdays. No computer games (26 streak) Leo posted on the forum something about shattering your view of reality and UFO. I have to admit that I am skeptical. Yes I am definitel skeptical but hey alright, I want to see any super-natural things for myself, this does not really help much. I think that you can get lost in shit. There is probably so much scam there and lot of good stuff too, but you can not really test it. Thats one thing I like about science and it is probably just because it is so mainstream and lot of people do it. In research you often know what are they coming from what assumptions they have and so on. Also these people know that you need to have large sample to get any results which is what some "healer" simply either does not know about or does not have.. it might just be placebo, it might only work this way and not another... whether you are enlightened or not.. you still get affected by biases. I am open to these things, I think that one of my friends is able to push people without touching them and bend metal at will.. so no I am not coming from ultra-skeptic viewpoint. I have read my older posts here. Wow, its so funny.. it seems to me like I am reading diary of some child, three months after this it will happen again Also my knees are great, my back is alright again! Dragallur (Going to #meditate right now! ) [1]What the teacher told appeals to me though I did not test these things myself...

I am always telling this to my friend because he really likes to start at particular times, particular nice dates and have new years resolutions While I do not understand why one needs to wait to begin something, it definitely helped him to make a huge changes in his life.

79th day: Enlightenment work Today I woke up with stiff and later on painful lower back. Now it is better, I did some exercises but because of it I did SDS while lying on the floor which made me fall asleep for do not know how long. That sucks but once the back is ok I will get into normal sessions. Senses are so weird. Every one of them is freaking unique. If you could only hear you would not know what seeing is and vica-versa. Imagine if you could see through stuff like you can hear around corner or you could smell something ON THAT PLACE and not in your nose. Or if you could taste food without the need to put it in your mouth! Physics I wrote about this physics problem. Seems I got it wrong but it is kind of weird though I learned lot of stuff from it and made a cool graph in desmos and so on. It was definitely awesome. Today I did a little bit of KA and also learned cool stuff about superconductivity. Tommorow is physics class where I am allowed to do my own stuff! Mindfulness No computer games (23 streak) Not so much I will become more mindful that I want to be mindful. Every several seconds child dies. (This fact gets quite horrific if you imagine when you watch TV, shop, or do anything that you meet these dead children along the way[1]) Stuff I watched Leos video: Critique of rationality. Huh, this is the worst video that Leo EVER made. I do not want to dig into it here since the probability of someone interested reading it is low (in other case write me message). If I would not be behind some other work like meditation and self-inquiry I would never buy into it. Anyway listening to some podcasts made me reconsider some stuff and close the veil between spirituality and rationality even more about which I am very happy. This is probably the biggest conflict I have ever had, we will see how it goes, the video about Confusion is quite handy here since sometimes I just let the case opened unanswered and it does not bother me so much. I found out that if I get far enough in physics olympiade and/or physics seminar I do not need to do any tests for Faculty of Mathematics and Physics in Prague. Which is definitely great! Dragallur [1]It is kind of complicated to get the number of kids that die every x seconds. Some sites say 4 seconds or 10 or so. I do not dare to specify but it seems that 1 per minute is low estimate that you can be sure of.

@Mr Lenny He said that he will answer these things at the end of December when 6 months will pass.

I guess you "mentioning me" and writing empty post was just a publishing mistake.. or is this some kind of enlightenment joke?

I actually never heard that saying I guess you can keep rough track of what you have done in one week to know if you are working enough. Short "re-remembering" could be enough, matters how much value you put on what, who knows if what I am saying is anywhere near the truth!

73rd day: Oh it has been a while since i posted, well few days. Anyway interesting stuff is definitely going on: Enlightenment work I bought the book Neti Neti meditation. It has only 50 pages but enough material for decades I guess So since I deleted my excel charts I kind of changed my meditation, not really though right now I do everyday 1 hour SDS and then 1 hour of Neti-Neti or Self-inquiry, today for example it was Neti-Neti. Pretty neat, I often feel during these two things as though I am standing in front of huge beautiful dragon (those are my favorite animals) and not even that I can not comprehend its appearence and majesty but I do not even know that it is dragon and there are 3 feet of wall of smoky glass between us (and I do not wear my glasses ). Btw I hate the imperial units but this time it seemed nice ot use feet since in the song While We Sleep by Insomnium, they say "wall of glass thick and deep"... oh wait there is no "feet" there, ouch.. Physics I am working on problems from one seminar. The one that I need to solve right now goes like this: you are on a beach with your girlfriend/boyfriend and you watch sunset. Since you want the romantic moment to last, you brought an elevator.. find out what speed does the elevator need to drive in order for you two to be able to watch the sunset. Mindfulness Last week was better. No computer games (17 streak) Wow, I would not expect this to be so easy. I almost played one really old game yesterday, I completely forgot about this. It did not work though because of WIndows 10 so.. I will not try to wake up at 5:00AM for some time now. I feel like I have a bit of sleep deprivation and I need to catch that up so I stop falling asleep during SDS. Pick Up Well this is where things go as much personal as they have been ever in this journal, I guess. Well. Girls. Yup. I was in a friendzone at least 3 times (I am 16 and one of them was for like 6 months at least). This never made me angry at this kind of stuff and rather learned me quite important things about myself. So no, I never had girlfriend, I have some good female friends, I had one about 2 years ago who was for some time probably the closest person to me ever but thats about it. While I called it pick up it was not much of a pick up. Today during lunch I had a great opportunity to talk with one very sympatic girl since she was sitting alone. It was completely catastrophic, but hey, I almost laughed out loud during my Neti-Neti about it. In the afternoon I summarised the conversation, highlighted important parts and commented on my mistakes, yeah they were really dumb. Thats my first experience with walking to person of another gender without even knowing their name and starting conversation out of nothing with no idea where it will go. Random stuff I started to watch Game of Thrones again but only in German. Wow, it is pretty hard, otherwise my german has improved a lot, I quite like it these days. In physics test I got 13/21 points. Well, I had EVERYTHING right except one minus and then the teacher did not like that I do not write units often and my way of working through some problem. She does not have much of physics-problem-thinking. She always inserts value into equation and after that she evaluates it instead of manipulating it so that you have something you want to find out equals to stuff and then inserting the values. Dragallur

Do not be attached to this rule. From what I have read it may as well be very wrong. Nice general guide line but there are too many factors that you can not keep track of.