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Everything posted by Afonso

  1. @Nahm I didn't say it was easy to have a breakthrough, but the practice is pretty simple!
  2. Sit down, feel where Me is and hold on to that sense. That's all you have to do really! It's so simple that it sparks resistance. REALLY, just stay still and sense I, Me, I am. Stay with that. NOW REALLY, IT'S JUST THAT SIMPLE! REAAAAALLY!
  3. @Leo Gura Meditation shifted to Self-Inquiry and Self-Inquiry to Meditation, it's all the same stuff, just resting as I am. Is this what happened to you?
  4. Does anyone know what intense heat at the base of the spine could be? Kundalini stuff? Would be great if anyone mentioned resources I could look up on. I feel heat when meditating (occasionally, not always). Thanks!
  5. @Leo Gura I can only recall previous No-Self experiences. The only thing that was "real" was the Now experience. So life is like a movie, and everything in the movie is as real as a pixels on a screen. So anything that "happens" is an illusion, there's only the screen shining different frames. So, there's nothing really going on, even though the movie seems continuous and perfectly logical and materialistic. Is this your point? So, "taking" 5-MeO is just parts of the movie where the screen recognises itself, everything apart from that, brain, chemicals, etc., is just part of the picture frames. I can see where this is heading but still hard to grasp. Could you elaborate?
  6. That's a good point but I wonder, isn't Enlightenment like a body thing? Even after having experienced No-Self, there's still this doubt. If I take 5-MeO, then it is the body that takes it... So it makes sense that somehow it can fall back. Couldn't the illusion come back somehow?
  7. @AleksM So that means any time this shit is gonna blow up my head?
  8. @Thinh Yes, thoughts come from resistance. Suppressed emotions are resistance.
  9. Anything can trigger a suppressed emotion, even thought. So this model is more focused on the root cause of the thoughts which is resistance.
  10. Yeah, buddy, it's horrible! But you will push through it anyways! You know you have to surrender, all this posting and replying is just resistance. And you know this, of course. I wish you well.
  11. @Thinh Work with the sensations that are most apparent to you right now. Work with what you can right now. The subtler sensations will come up and become not so subtle as the practice evolves. Don't worry about what's not here, now.
  12. Thanks guys for the feedback! I've added a paragraph entitled Dissolving problems on 4. Applications which explains that all your problems are energy blocks! The easiest solution is to be aware of the contractions related to such problems.
  13. My whole day is spent in a meditative self-inquiry mode, where attention is focused on the silence behind thoughts.
  14. Hard to know. I would say that's way too fast. If you're feeling them, you're good to go. Just keep at it. Maybe you're aware of them when you get triggered but then you are not aware of them when you're not so triggered. Triggers are useful in the way that they expose these suppressed emotions.
  15. If it makes you feel good, the first month of my meditation practice was just sitting in the couch doing nothing for 10 minutes. I didn't know jack shit of what awareness was so I just sat there doing nothing. That alone was painful.
  16. Maybe related: In the last 4/5 months, I also have been having headaches, specially after a week of a lot of meditation. I've been to the doctor because of this. However, I find that it is related to energy working through the body. It's mostly pressure above the head and around it. Some weeks it's really strong, others not as much and sometimes it's unbearable, other times it's just a tingling sensation. I would say to reduce your practice intensity. Know that a lot of physical stuff will come up with the practice (not just mind-stuff). Your consciousness will be elevating in the process. Be grateful for this. This is very important: feel the pain and accept it, give up all resistance. Let go of thoughts and feelings about the pain and let yourself feel it with acceptance and love. Please take this guidance at heart. It is very effective just to accept and "take the bullet" without resistance. In my personal experience, the pressure would get heavier when meditating or at high consciousness places. Although I'm not sure, I would say it's due to resistance of new energy flowing through your nervous system. Give it time and this too shall pass. Ultimately, Relax, Accept it and Let go.
  17. Like Leo says, tell them you're going to do applied metaphysics.
  18. A lot in me wants to read a lot of stuff and understand all the important concepts. But I've been more and more inclined just to stay still in meditative Self-Inquiry. Every conceptualization feels like a resistance, a burden. I feel myself dissolving specially after the Bufo trip and am pushed just to Be and not Do. What's your perspective on this conflict?
  19. Aren't you tired of being a person? Be the Presence only. Then go beyond and be your Self.
  20. It's so amazing there's so much stuff to Life. Dimensions, vibrational energies, energy and synchronies, psychedelics, spirituality, Absolute Infinity, Nothingness, No-Self, auras, holographic universe, consciousness. It makes me want to penetrate Life's vagina and have a cosmic orgasm! It's so greaaaat, how could we have missed all of this before? This is AMAZING, this is Life! And still many people spend lives scratching their nuts and smelling their own shit (I know I did).