EmiHyen

@mozzarella So nice! I started with just 10 minutes a day and slowly increased the time . Yes, it’s creepy when you realize how much effort the mind puts into avoiding quietness and nothingness. It’s so healthy to return to that baseline of awareness. It’s not that your ego dissolves or disappears. You’re a biological being, so the ego will always be there, coming and going. What really changes is your relationship with it. What works for me is simply sitting down and surrendering to whatever thoughts appear. Watching thoughts is almost like listening to someone speak without decoding the message. If boredom appears, just feel it. If it was a color, texture, what would it be? Notice how it is harmless. Feel the thoughts, the awareness, the emotions. Don’t try to change them or say, “Oh no, I’m thinking or feeling this again.” Instead, try to feel the "rendering" of everything. Thoughts, sensations, emotions. This is difficult to explain because it’s something you have to realize in your own direct experience. Think of meditation as a kind of experimentation until something clicks. My meditations are never perfect. The ego never really goes away because it’s the tool the mind uses to make sense of things. But sometimes, when you manage to detach completely for a moment, you feel this deep peace. It’s not really pleasure… it’s more like a quiet, stable peace underneath everything. That’s what I look for in meditation, and it makes the practice satisfying and lasting It's my second way to rest besides sleeping (dreaming just estimulate my mind more haha) And you should check Leo’s videos about meditation too, including his guided meditation. They are greaat!

Saying something is conformity might itself be conformity. The ultimate trap. I’ve noticed that conformist thinking rarely goes through real deconstruction. When questioned, it stays on the surface: “That’s just how it is,” “Because it’s cool,” or “I read it somewhere.” That’s usually how you spot a conformist. Non-conformists give freaking cool insights

You are the engine creating everything. You dream persons, animals, atoms, and universes. Not a bad résumé. Truth might feel harsh to the ego, but in reality nothing is missing

Being doesn’t bore. Ego does. In my boredom meditation, I sit and savor Being. From that direct experience, whatever begins to bother, bore, or basically any interpretation, reveals the ego. It’s a useful tool for mapping it. If you let go enough, boredom disappears. That’s why people can meditate for many many hours.