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@cetus56 thank you! My problem is, that I don't feel what I have to let go of. I need a nightmare, so that I can let go of my life. So that's what I am searching for right now. Do you have any tips how can I get scared to death in a safe environment?

Yes, that's what I've found and listened to last night, but it didn't have much effect on me, that's why I asked you, after trying that. But I guess I will have to try it a couple more times. Thank you!

@All_Around_Me What 936Hz beats did you use? Can you send me the link or the file please? And exactly what kind of meditation exercise did you do? I want to create an ego death with meditation before I do it with mushrooms.

When I ask myself if I am aware, the answer is "yes", because I go to my perceptions and I am aware of the sensory experiences (seeing, hearing, etc.) But when I ask if I am self-aware, I have nowhere to go... At this question I am stuck in the self-query meditation.

@cetus56 Thank you for your comment. It's a nice belief. I am more interested in how to experience this. Thank you for the help to all of you. Meanwhile I found a guided meditation which answered my original question: @Leo Gura Thank you for your new video, I really liked this one.

@Leo Gura if you can access the infinite with these methods, does it mean that you are enlightened?

Thank you for the answers to each one of you, they really cleared up some things. (Or not, we will see! ) I feel that Rupert Spira's "Am I aware?" question points to the same direction as my "Am I self-aware?" question. @WelcometoReality thank you for the video. So I'm gonna go with Rupert's question from now on. Now I think I am stuck in the same place, because when I ask Rupert's "Am I aware?" question, I cannot catch myself stepping out of experiencing before I return with the answer "yes". I think this "yes" comes from outside of experiencing, but how can I go there? Or which part of me is able to go there? @Leo Gura what do you think about the origin of this "yes" answer? Is it coming from the Absolute? Besides the 5-Meo, have you found an other way to access the Infinite? I am a university student, so right now this substance is really expensive for me. But I will try it as soon as I start to work.

So now, I guess, I can silence my mind with the question regarding the self-awareness. But what is the next thing I can realize? Has anybody gone through this?

@Bizarre That sounds amazing! Who is your teacher and how can I learn from him? For how long have you been learning from him? And why aren't you free yet? (You don't have to answer the last question )

As I see, most of you don't want to hear about "quick ways for getting enlightened". You don't even want to consider the existence of such things. Maybe it's because you are happy with your personalities. But as you can see, my person is unbearable.

I am just provoking you because I want you to show me that the perspective that I am presenting here is incorrect. Sorry for making you defensive. I thought the "threshold" is much higher on this forum. :-)

This was a beautiful reasoning, you must have a really clever mind, and I am not even being completely sarcastic here. :-) But have you actually thought about what can you "gain" and what can you loose?

@cetus56 There are a lot of nice philosophies about the absolute, but a few "enlightened teachers" talk about a "black hole experience" which changed their life. I just want the black hole, don't you all?

@vizual The teacher has to convince you, that enlightenment is possible. How can a discipline "achieve" enlightenment, if he doesn't even believe that it's possible?

@Maximilian The academy is free now. @NTOgen That method is a little expensive for me, and the recognition, as I understand, not repeatable without the substance. I don't want depend on a substance, but I will definitely try that too.

@cetus56 These are nice beliefs...

So let's start a comment war here. Bentinho's Trinfinity Academy is completely free now, and it claims that it can take you to the infinity realization (beyond the awareness realization) in 11 months. Now I don't know if it's a scam or not, but 11 months to enlightenment?! I will take my chances. By the way, Bentinho has a really impressive goal: he wants to create an enlightened civilization by 2035. If there is any chance that it's possible then I want to be part of it. https://www.trinfinity.us/