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Do it again, if you have enough courage

No idea, I only tried freebase so far. I think it's harder to vaporize the salt form. I read somewhere that HCL is for snorting. However I prefer vaporizing because the duration is shorter. It may seem a disadvantage, but if you think about it, this way it's easier to convince yourself to go for trips more frequently. The coming back from the trip is what breaks the ego, not the time spent in Infinity. The trip will feel like at least an hour anyways, even if it was just 10 minutes.

It is weird to be afraid, but you are not alone with it. My hand shakes every time I hold my pipe to go for a trip. But coming back from the trip I realize how silly I was to be afraid and to think that I am less then infinite.

What's holding you back? The usual "it's not legal in my country" excuse?

I haven't tried NN-DMT yet, but I think I already reached the limits (or limitless nature) of experiencing with 5meo.

If you want an interesting life, you can broaden your perspective, you can have a large variety of experiences. There is nothing wrong with that. If you want to see the strangest things that one could see, you can try N,N-DMT and you can meet "machine elves", and so on. However, when you sit down to meditate, and to understand the basic nature of reality, you should drop the need for expansion. Reality is always already here, doesn't matter how expanded or contracted it seems.

If you realize that everything is One, then ultimately you have to realize that nothing matters. Existence doesn't matter. It can be a positive thing from the perspective of the ego, because it means that nothing is serious. However, the ego will hate other consequences of this realization. The ego will hate that even the sacred things don't matter. Can you live with the thought that the lives of your family members don't matter?

All the confusion about awareness comes from the structure of the language. Let me explain. If you are saying that "I am aware of an object", then this sentence suggests a subject-object relationship. You are the subject who is aware of an object. However in reality there is no subject and no object, because of the non-dualistic nature of reality. Therefore awareness is simply reality, awareness is simply the here and now moment. Awareness is everything which you are "aware of". Rupert Spira explained this understanding a little bit differently. He said that there is no experiencer and no experience, there is only experiencing. And the only reality of experiencing is simply the awareness of it. Don't try to make it an abstract thing, awareness is literally the here and now moment. Awareness is literally the experiencing which occurs here and now. You don't believe it? Have an enlightenment experience and you will understand all of it. On this forum almost everybody knows how to get an enlightenment experience easily.

If Leo would be completely sincere with his 5meo realizations, 90% of his followers would unsubscribe. I mean some realizations are very offensive to the ego...

I have tried meditation and energy work, and maybe it worked on some level, but it took too much time, so I've just quit. Then I had enough of the suffering and I continued with meditation, then I quit again, and so on. But when Leo said, that there is this magic substance that can get you instantly enlightened, I said "This is my perfect lazy way to get enlightened!" And it didn't disappoint me, the experience it gave me is not comparable to anything else I have ever experienced. So what I'm trying to say is that we can quit all enlightenment work, but in the end we will always come back, because we know that we don't have to suffer.

I don't think that living in ignorance is enjoyable. But, hey, maybe it works out for you! :))

It doesn't matter what role you identify yourself with, it's still identification. Although you were sarcastic, @Old Soul, you were still right about the purpose of life: to enjoy it. But the thing is that I couldn't really enjoy it until I knew who I was.

@Old Soul you have to realize that you are identifying yourself with someone who does the hard work. This is exactly what the ego is. Identification. You see it, don't you?

You are right. I took 5meo because I wanted the experience as soon as possible. But if you have enough years and commitment, probably you can have the same experience with meditation. It just wasn't logical for me to work on my mindfulness, and do meditations for years just to realize what's always already here.

It's very hard to get caught You have to be stupid and tell everybody about his substance to get caught. (Like I do )

I don't know if the usual non-dualism teachings can get you to the Infinity experience, but Bentinho promises it as well. But I am not there yet in the course. I get my Infinity experiences with another method.

I can help anybody with this from (almost) any part of the world, just send me a private message.

I can motivate you towards only one thing: try 5meo. You can meditate and have your little insights here and there, but I don't think that anyone can have a full Infinity moment with meditation in reasonable time.

The experience I'm talking about is pretty drastic and intense and unimaginable. Rupert Spira for example says that becoming enlightened is only an "Aha" realization, a recognition. But what I am talking about is like getting shot by a lightning. Maybe you can get shot by a lightning with meditation, but you will probably need years of meditation. Some people meditate for their entire life and don't get shot by this lightning. I don't really understand why you don't like the idea of trying drugs. If you accept that everything is God, then why would a drug be less then God? If it's easier for you, you can look at it as God's medicine.

If you want to improve your person (there is nothing wrong with that), then friends can help, and you will have a beautiful, wise person, and you will have an interesting life and so on... However, I don't know about your friends, but my friends cannot give me an energetic shock therapy. :)) And this is what needed to experience the fundamental nature of reality which is Infinity/God itself. This is where 5meo comes into the picture. If you want to experience reality as it is, then the only thing that can help is infinite amount of energy poured into your body.

@Khin The video you watched was about Self Empowerment. And he was right, there is nothing wrong with greediness. If you feel offended by that, that's because you believe that lack exists. But the idea of lack goes against the infinite nature of reality. If you cannot accept Infinity, then you don't want to be enlightened. And that's perfectly fine too. I'm not talking about greediness that takes from others. I am talking about accepting the gifts of the infinite source. And if you pay attention, this is also what Bentinho talks about. By the way, Bentinho's Self-Empowerment teachings are not the same as his Self-Realization courses.

Getting in sync with reality is the same as easing into reality. In other words, realizing that you are already reality. All of the here and now. You can be aware of more and more things, this is useful for the person. You can improve the person, there is nothing wrong with that. But if you want to be in sync with reality, if you want to live in truth, you have to realize, that you are already reality. You are already your full reality, doesn't matter how extracted or contracted it is. And reality is the same as awareness. Both are all what already is and what is happening right here, right now. Including thoughts, emotions, everything!

Are you saying that desires are not part of reality? :)) The method of dropping things that you think you are or have is useful to relax. After you drop everything, you realize, that you are only awareness. But the plot twist is that awareness is everything what is and what's happening, including desires.

Bentinho has different teachings depending on what you are interested in. If you want awareness, you will get that in a full dose!

:)) If you know, that something happens, then you are aware of it. If you know, that you are walking to the bus stop, then you are aware of it. If you are so deeply submerged in your thoughts that you don't know what's happening around you, then all you know is thoughts, but you are perfectly aware of your thoughts. You see, awareness is always there, you cannot do anything to maintain it. Awareness is simply your reality in the here and now. And you are all of it! Look forward to the moment when you lose all your awareness, because that's the moment when your reality becomes Nothingness itself. That is an enlightenment experience!