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Well that's exactly what I mean, it would be in an entirely different culture where there is no one investor making the risk of investment like our current stage orange culture. The huge risk investors have to make nowadays is precisely why games are shit and dumbed down, because lowering risk is a must if you're investing 150M. I could make the same argument you made against making the ancient pyramids. Only a madman would invest billions to make the pyramids. which is why they aren't made in our stage orange culture. The pyramids were a collectively funded piece of art, funded by the entire society that wasn't based on profit and investment, but purely for the sake of art and God. That's what I imagine, a culture in the future where beautiful videogames and the like are collectively funded and produced. Which won't happen until we see a cultural revolution.

I feel like you're eluding my point because I didn't mean that I think Omniscience means that you know the dick size of everyone on earth or something. We were talking about Nothingness, which is the Absolute. You claimed that Nothingness is impossible to grasp which surprised me since you claimed to have had omniscience of the Absolute. I always thought that that meant a 100% absolute understanding/grasping of the Absolute. But now you are saying it can't be grasped, which confuses me.

Then why did you claim Omniscience in the past? Omniscience implies that knowing is ultimate. Now are you saying that there are levels deeper than knowing. How is that possible since knowing and being are one and the same? If God is all all-powerful and all-knowing, he should know everything about himself including his origin.

The gameplay is what makes Morrowind so good, that you don't have quest markers and the like Skywind will probably make it so that you can play it that way, I hope they do

I hate Bethesda so much its unreal Imagine a culture where big games are made by non-profit organizations, purely as pieces of art for the people That's the only way such games will ever be made again Won't happen in our lifetime, something for the post-WW3 reconstruction era

The following is a testimony about my personal experience with male resentment, extreme ideologies, bad epistemology, and how the love for Truth can save you from it. It started out as a reply to Leo in another thread about male resentment. I want to add before I begin, if you are 30+, you have no idea how bad the ideological and epistemological nature is of young people. It's breaking down rates you wouldn't believe. People younger than 20 are even worse, I've heard. (im 25) virtually none of them subscribe to the vanilla liberal worldview anymore. You're a loser if you do. all the "cool kids" basically believe in anti-institutional, radical rhetoric, which often has a more far-right flair to it than far-left. All the kids are listening and watching Adin Ross and the like, who are a direct pipeline to Trumpism and other forms of hate. This is all in part thanks to a true failure of the liberal hegemony, with their lies, propaganda, capitalism, zionism and hyper competitive society, without any forms of shared epistemology or spirituality. They as the elites have failed the masses. And the masses, dumb, selfish and rat-like as they are still, do recognize when the elites have failed them, subconsciously. They recognize that the level of bullshit of the liberals has reached a critical point and they're no longer capable or worthy of ruling. And they are correct in that regard; just look at the Democrat party in the US; They're not even fighting Trump, who is literally doing all kinds of fascist things and takeovers as we speak. The liberals are so cucked to capital and their own nepotism, they have ENTIRELY lost the connection to the masses. But of course they are not solely to blame. The rise of radical falsehood, the breaking down of epistemology through the internet and its bad actors. So much of our collective mental structure is being destroyed. Again, if you're above a certain age, you have no idea whats coming. People of my age are already fucked in the head and like I said, the people who are like 10 years younger than me, I.E. generation Alpha, are completely batshit insane. Not all of them of course, but a lot more than you think. _____________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________ @Leo Gura said, in response to my question about whether his stance is that women have it easier than men in life: Yeah, I agree, from my experience. I thought your post implicitly agreed with OPs sentiment that men have it harder in absolute terms. Even though I went through a lot of resentment, I realized that sex for women is not their challenge. Their challenge is being more dependent than men are on other people, always being at risk of danger, being more emotionally volatile, and being at risk of the men they are dependant on leaving them. In hindsight I wonder how I could have been so juvenile to think so selfishly. I think it's the sheer cope with the pain of being unloved, and having to accept a lonely and sexless life, that in combination of being confronted with sick and extreme ideologies that are readily found and normalized on the regular internet nowadays, spread by people who want to rile you up and exploit you for fame and cash, can send you spiraling in very dark ways and twist your mind into ways you'd never seen yourself in before. What saved me was in part my curiosity and love for truth. Even though I went far in some rabbitholes like incel, far right, and even jihadi ideologies, I was always still curious about other points of view and other ideologies. I started studying other worldviews like leftism, communism, liberalism, world history, and how all these worldviews collide and/or differ at points. Also, no matter how deep I went in the maelstrom of hate and resentment, the core of my being was yet always aware that what I was doing was not right, and more importantly not true. I always had my deepest intuition telling me that any ideology, any thought system or worldview that was based on bias and emotion is blatantly not true. It may sound juvenile to you, but when you're on the verge of suicide, ridden with resentment and hate for yourself but also the world, it's a lot harder to fight the devil and his ideologies. Sometimes it felt like, "okay, I'm going to kill myself", and I would feel the deepest sense in my bones that I would go to hell afterwards. Especially this thought is what drew me to the jihadi ideology in the latter part of my "dark arc" , since it confirms my intuition that suicide would mean hell, but provides the alternative of fighting for the state and religion, and if you die for it it's a VIP ticket to heaven, with all of the women you'd ever want. Again, I know it sounds juvenile as fuck, but I was actively fighting my suicidal ideation with it. It was demonic ideals vs demonic ideals. Ever since I've accepted and commited to that i'll never again sacrifice truth for anything, even if it means killing myself, I feel like I've been freed from ideology and ideological hate. I still feel the remnants of it, and sometimes I still say vile things online out of impulse, which I am ashamed to say. But knowing I have love for Truth, and refrain from falling into obvious bullshit, I feel a lot better about myself I guess. Even though I'm stlil a completely broken man, even if I die, at least I will die having said, "God is Truth". I remember during my most tumultuous times, not knowing what God is, but knowing that Consciousness is eternal, being so afraid and so fed up, thinking about death, hell and the afterlife, and pain throughout my entire day, almost going insane, I said to myself at a point, "Truth is my God because Truth is God. No matter my fears, Truth is my God and I place all my faith in that, no matter what happens to me or what I will do." Because even when I don't know God, or know the Truth, I know that God is Truth, because that is the only thing it can be. Even if you know nothing, the Truth is there, and falsehood is bound to vanish, and the Truth remains. Ironically, that is a quote from the Quran. It filled me with delight that after all this, Leo started sharing quotes about Truth and the love for Truth, confirming my intuitions. Not that it would have mattered, since I already made my commitment, and realized how deep something like committing to Truth really is. It literally means the death of all your bullshit and ego games if you truly commit to it, and might even mean physical death. But it still was soothing seeing an epic seeker like Leo basically coming to the same conclusions. The last thing that I'd say is that, ironically, my delving into radical ideologies did have a self-redeeming quality to it, because I went so deep into it that I so to say, "came out of the other end". What I mean by that is actually something quite profound. I will elaborate: I was so deep into it that I was basically ready to kill people. If you rile yourself up this bad, you basically come to a point where you either do that stuff, or don't, realize the horrible nature of yourself, let it all go, knowing it's all bullshit and morally abhorrent. Contrast this with what I have seen a friend of me, one of my best friends that I have known since elementary, going through. He is truly stuck in far-right ideology, but not in the furthest ends of the kind. He follows people like Sam Hyde, extremely sneaky figures who sneak in their antisemitism and radical, hateful thought, in a cynical comical fashion. They somehow rationalize their views with being capable with morals, because they don't outright advocate for the holocaust, yet still dogwhistle all the time and basically change your worldview into thinking jews run the world and all that stuff. Candace owens comes to mind, a sneaky rat who isn't a blatant outspoken nazi, but still spouts the same rhetoric. The hate is very much there in those figures, but shrouded under veils of normalcy; fooling the follower into rationalizing the hate, internalizing it, and never coming to the conclusion that you've become a horrible person. Looking at my friend and hearing what he often shares with me and my friends it's obvious he really believes in Jewish world domination and the like. It makes my stomach turn, and makes me ashamed of myself, since I also shared those memes and jokes with him in a time we were both vulnerable. But because I'm just a more extreme person, both in my evilness and goodness, that I came out of the other end, I realized how evil I was and also how Good real truth and real epistemology is. I saw through that I never really believed in all the crap with my real mind, but only because I was in so much turmoil I was basically taken over by the hate and bullshit. It hurts to see my friend, who is very high-iq, being turned in a far-right ideologue, even though we both came from liberal, well off parents, he even more than I. I don't know what kind of trauma he went through to have to latch onto this hate for the West, and to do so not in a far-leftist way but in a far-right way. I used to envy him in elementary school, because he got with the girl that I was in love with but rejected me. I always thought that I was special, that I was rightful to be hateful, more than other people. Now I see my delusion. I don't know what to do honestly. I'm thinking of, for the love of Truth and him, just aggressively try to wake him up by calling out his bullshit, giving evidence why Sam Hyde is a nazi and that it's not just liberal propaganda that he is (he literally believes that, it's honestly baffling how such a high iq person can have such a bad epistemology). Even though it might end our friendship, it's the best thing I can do. TL:DR; Falsehood is everywhere, the ego loves falsehood because of pain and emotions, God is Truth, and the love for Truth should be held onto, no matter what it means for your ego and your life.

This post implies that you agree that women suffer less than men. Is this your stance?

>10.000 years ago, if you were a male, you were hunting all day with your group, you were fit, you were socializing and at night time you had sex with a female. Why are you assuming there weren't low value guys at that time that got nothing? If you look at documentaries following monkey tribes, it's clear there's always been a hierarchy with the men at the bottom getting nothing. >I'm exagerating some things here but bottom line is if you are male nowadays life is not easy for you. The most basic thing such as sex is like you are trying to climb Mountain Everest. Do you think women are also having less sex, but are just better at handling it, or is it just an increase in hypergamy? one of the two has to be true at least, or both at varying degrees, otherwise it's a logical impossibility that men are having less sex but women aren't. I'm interested in your take on it. I used to be filled with raged to my core about it, and sometimes still am, but it's just my ego making postmortem convulsions, having realized it is totally over for me. I do feel a sense of rage still, of it being so hard for men nowadays, and the disgust that women have for average men; all propaganda induced by our hyperconsumerist, hypercompetitive society. The mistake is to think it's all womens fault. It's no ones fault; just the collective ego of society doing its thing. It's no wonder figures like Andrew Tate rise up, simply filling a void of demand for a catalyst that allows a young man to sacrifice truth and morality to be more successful with money and women, if he's not dumb enough to disclose his mentality at least. It's like turning to the dark side of the force. I'm glad I didn't go through with it, although I sometimes fear that if I didn't have my disabilities and crippling anxiety and brain fog, I'd be one of the most horrible men alive, indulging in unethical business, pimping and manipulating women for sex, dominating men, all to feed my ego and distract from my deep-rooted beliefs of being unlovable and unattractive. Hell, maybe I'd even be a rapist. Probably not though, But I've seen dark depths of my soul that genuinely scare me. In that regard I'm glad God smote me with my issues, humbling my ego to degrees I've never known. My success breaking down has allowed me to hold on to my love for Truth. Getting lost in pleasure and success would have certainly driven me off that path. Although I often hear the devils voice telling me to jump off a cliff, that in the next life all will be better and I'll get everything I've ever dreamed of. The suffering and loneliness is becoming unbearable and I feel like I'm slowly but surely going mad. I don't think I'll make it here any longer; I need to get out of the city and to a remote spiritual location, out in beautiful nature; and live the rest of my days as an ascetic, renouncing all wordly pleasure. I think it's the only way to keep the Devil in the hole.

Peak soul Don't believe Morrowind runs on that lil thinkpad though

May your health get better

@Leo Gura I don't like how you're simply stating that it's a "murky line" when he is literally preaching white supremacist thought. Are you one of the people who think that all ethnicities of people can be racist to eachother in the same degree even against white people? If so, I think that is unintelligent and uncalibrated to the point of making the forum a worse place. I'm not even one of those far leftists who go as far as to say racism against whites is literally impossible, but come on, we live in a society with a certain history and systems still in place. There should be some degree of wokeness in place, since if you cater to these centrist strains of thought where "people are just racist and they can just share their opinions bro" , that inevitably will be used in bad faith. Since there is a current of white supremacy in the world, to steer against that current and make the forum a neutral place there should be at least a small current of wokeness in this forum. Majed literally posts about "Oh those beautiful white people I wish I was among them" and you don't see that as problematic? I guess it's not in the spirit of you nor the forum to give him a woke sermon about that but your reply is way too uncalibrated and unintelligent IMO to the kind of garbage that he posted, to the point of cringe.

I bought it 2 days ago out of impulse, nostalgia and the amazing graphics. I forgot that Oblivion just plain sucked as a game and the only reason I played it as a kid was because I was cheating and modding it and just playing it as a sandbox. The actual game and world is extremely boring indeed, Skyrim was a lot better IMO Morrowind I've never really got a chance of actually playing, I had it but was way too difficult for me as a 10 year old to play, although it always had that enchanting quality to it, now that I'm older, the idea of an elder scrolls game without fast travel and map markers seems amazing Mind telling us what mods you recommend?

Got to share this new-age epistemic scoundrel: I recommend watching the entire video, Vaush's commentary is really on point IMO. Also really funny to see a materialist like Vaush ridicule stuff like this. Even though the video from Spirit Science he is commentating on is 95% full of shit, sometimes there are some truths in it, like the idea of the "lucifer experiment" of Consciousness forgetting it's oneness, I think that's actually quite a nice way of describing it, but since he's poisoning the well for 95% with the worst bullshit and pseudohistory imaginable, a materialist like Vaush would never even begin to question his materialist paradigm; in his mind, his materialist & rationalist paradigm works as an excellent filter and epistemic defense against quackery and bullshit, and so that gives all the more weight to the idea that rationalism is true. Vaush even states; "This is why I hate mysticism", in reaction to Spirit Science bullshitting about space-Hebrews and other stuff. And who can blame him? Like Vaush rightly points out, Mysticism and in fact these exact same stories about Atlanteans and the like were literally used by the Nazis to brainwash the people into rationalizing the abhorrent Nazi ideologies and actions. They claimed white Aryans were the real descendants of the Atlanteans or something and that other people were not. This way, you already create an essentialization and dehumanization of non-white people, making them ready to be slaughtered. Himmler, Hitler's second in command, and prime architect of the Holocaust, was a fervent esoteric and mystic and was also basically the high priest of the Nazi religion and lore. So because of rats like Spirit Science (I always hate when Leo uses that word but I'm getting to see why it's a good word now, there's truly no better descriptor), Mysticism is seen as only bad and superstitious. Of course we know that this isn't real mysticism at all, and that true mysticism is precisely the result of actual real skepticism and epistemology, and the marriage of rationality and intuition. But because of these new-age rats, co-opting real mystical ideas and teachings for their group-think and survival, rationalists are pushed ever further away from doing a serious inquiry into spiritual and mystical ideas. How disgusting these new-age rats really are! In my own life, I was always pushing against materialist ideas and debating materialists, breaking down their arguments and why materialism is not only false but also bad for life and society. Because that is the environment I grew up in and after discovering Consciousness and it's primordial nature (I used to be a staunch materialist myself), that is what I knew so I knew the errors in that. But these new-age rats, and in extension all religious rats are many degrees worse than materialists, even hyper-materialists like Dawkins, although he is very much a rat himself. Holy shit, this dude really makes my blood boil. Skip the video below to 52:40 , where he infiltrates a hospital to show what " "They" use to heal" , implying the abhorrent idea that "real" healing is done without such equipment but with shit like crystals and the like (He literally said he thinks hospitals should have crystals etc.). He then proceeds to infiltrate a live surgery room, dressed as a doctor, where somebody is getting surgery, and proceeds to film it. How bad your epistemology must be, and how high your arrogance and delusion, to actually just believe stuff like the Emerald Tablets ("found" by a late 19th century esoteric pseudo-archaeologist), and then preach history and the future course of humanity to your audience like you know those myths to be true, like you know everything about humanity. The arrogance and delusion of this guy is unseen. It goes so much further IMO than evangelical or wahhabist preachers who are simply religious rats. At least they are just low-iq zombie rats, preaching what other have before them. This dude is obviously relatively intelligent, yet uses it to create some sort of wahhabist version of new-age ideology in a truly stomach-turning way , and preaches it like it's nothing. The levels of self-deception of this guy are truly diabolical. By the way, I think the Emerald Tablets are actually pretty deep and cool, and even those pseudo-historical texts are very much worth a study. I'm also open to them being actually channeled and the like. And of course chances are very high that many parts of what we consider "real history" are altered and left out and the like, and that there have been true mystical, non-physical events in real history. But we'll never know, precisely because real scientific history is so hard to do. But Spirit Science takes that open-mindedness and proceeds to rape it with his crystalized spirit cock untill you're left bleeding on the floor. Sorry to use that language but that's how he makes me feel. And you'll call up Richard Dawkins to avenge you and hunt him down like Liam Neeson in Taken.

All in all, impressed by it's criticism, it's really on point.

Now I am become Fraud, destroyer of Truth