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@CARDOZZOI can't do looksmax, I am 167cm (5'6 i think). All I can do is become 10% body fat which will take many years. When I was a teen and was thin many women couldn't take their eyes off me or approached me to talk about something irrelevant and stuff like that. Some were (way) taller too. But that is the past, i don't know if the same will happen when (and if) i reach 10% body fat.

@Tenebrosoif what you say is true then I don't want to be with a relationship with a woman. I mean, I want, but there is no point since I am not 1%. I am really confused. Is this red pill myth or normies not accepting a truth. It could be both, how do i know? I just can't understand it. I am so confused .

I don't like my life anymore. I have very low IQ, I don't want to live like that anymore. My life is a series of failures. I want to go to the next life. Does such thing exist? Are we eternal beings with eternal reincarnations? Shouldn't people like me try to go to the next life? This is all hypothetical, so please don't delete this question, I really NEED information.

I saw an anime called ''ghost in the shell'' and it made me think that we are not different than a machine yet we can feel and it can't. What's the difference between a machine and a human? The human can feel cause of electrical impluses (of course metaphysicaly that's wrong but to the relative world it's real) but the machine can't? why not? we have hormones, so if you put hormones that become electrical impluses in a machine why it can't feel? What I am trying to say is we don't know how conscioussness works. I am not saying AI robots can feel, I am saying who knows, maybe they do or they may will in the future. Or maybe not, I am open to both possibilities.

I don't know if it's abuse or not but I do know that it was a very bad situation for my life. I wasted decades of my life believing things that made my life worse than it would have been. On the other hand religion gave me some hidden advantages so it's not all black and white. When I was religious my life had so much meaning, but also it surpress every natural emotion and you can't communicate with others cause you are living in a different world than them. Also Christianity says things like turn the other cheek, forgive your enemies and have empathy for them, or don't do any sin cause you are going to hell, don't masturbate, pray instead of solving problems and the list goes on and on. That's really bad things to say to kids. I remember I couldn't sleep cause I was scared of devil and when I slept I saw horrific nightmares, that's too much for a kid. My mum is still christian but I don't believe in any religion any more. Not even hinduism or buddism although I tend to believe that reincarnation is real

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@Osaid @caspex @LastThursday Thank you all, I didn't expect so much understanding and acceptance. Thank you.

@Hojo @Adam MThank you for your answers. It seems I am not the only one thinking like that or at least I am not percieved as completely weird person. I feel better , thank you.

@Natasha Tori Maruthank you for answering this question. So there are other men like me out there? I can't explain it what having fun like a woman means. But it seems to me that women are light hearted, like they know the meaning of life is to have fun with friends, not to be brutal like men. They create deeper connections and care for each other. Also society lets them be more expressive and have fun. I really wish I was a woman, both because of their biology and the way society let them be free.

@Monster EnergyCan I confirm this about reincarnation in any way? @Carl-Richardis this a joke or it's real situation? sorry for not understanding if this is humour, I am autistic, I have trouble understanding this stuff.

I see spiritual people online lying to themselves. Personally I lie to myself all the time, and the paradox is that I became so good at it that I know when I lie to myself and I still believe the lie (it's very weird if you think of it). I am begining to question how ''moral'' spiritual people are. I would say that they are more honest and moral than the average person (probably) but still very selfish and lying to ourselves. Think of it, if you believe everything is One and life is ultimately Meaningless and Infinity is nothing, then you wouldn't be able to function. It would be so difficult knowing that you will experience unimaginalbe pain worse than you have read or seen in movies or experienced in life, that people in Africa get taken advantage by powerful people and they are poor and full of war and suffering, innocent people getting k*lled there all the time and we do nothing to help them while supposedely knowing that we are them. Why on earth you/I don't want to help yourself/myself. And you wouldn't be able to function knowing that (according to Leo) your total experience of infinity is actually zero, that is what we called death, happiness equals suffering , not happiness > suffering. I know that spiritual people say that nihilism means no negative meaning but be honest with yourself, do you function with zero meaning after learning the Truth? I see me lying to myself, I see Leo lying to himself, I see members of this forum lying to themselves. We all lie to ourselves to fundumental aspects of Truth. How can we trust spiritual people when all spiritual people lie to themselves? How can you find a spiritual person that doesn't lie to himself and then to others but also what would be the point of finding such person if in the end I am going to lie to myself anyway and deny aspects of reality that include unimaginable pain and death? Denying, lying, seeing reality as better than it is, it seems to me that we all do that even here. What's the point of believing we are spiritual then? we are just kind of better than average people, nothing more. Do you lie to yourself? How you live after learning the Truth? or perhaps you don't believe the truths Leo told? Do you believe spiritual people are more moral or sensitive than the average person?

Now, I am not saying this in black or white terms, people definitely care for each other sometimes, but it seems to me that most of the time they don't. People do horrible things to each other when they have something to gain. People don't care about inequality, injustice, priviledges, so many people fight to be the source of these problems as long as they are the ones that get the upper hand. I start to feel lonely, like no one cares about anyone. People care about their families if they are lucky to have good families but all the other people , people don't care about them. People make alliances but doesn't mean they really care about those people. People do very moral acts when people are looking, but when they have the chance to do something horrible for some gain when no one is looking , many do that horrible thing. People love justifying doing horrible actions to innocent good people, pretending that the innocent people did something bad. Some people that do horrible stuff don't even justify it, they just don't care, maybe even like it. I feel like we are very bad species. I feel lonely, like it's a hostile dangerous world. How do you feel about all these? what are your thoughts on this matter? Do people care for each other most of the time? Do you feel lonely in a cruel world?

If a man is attractive, does the woman try to come in social contact with them or are they just make subtle signals. Obviously I wouldn't make this question if I was attractive. So I wonder what's the experience of attractive men. I mean, I want to know if a woman ever finds me attractive how she will act since I don't like making the first move ever.

@Judy2I have many things that make me happy, but there are some random parts of the day that I really wish I had a relationship. People tell me I shouldn't give up and it makes me hopeful but on the other hand I don't understand what I should do, I am confused, I have no guidance. Normal advice won't work for my atypical brain.

I need to find a solution to my obssesive need of understanding reality. It could be as simple as finding a hobby (assuming that's a solution). Or it could be ''stop thinking these thoughts till they no longer come to you''... I don't know, anything that could help. I really believe I can overcome this need, all I need is guidance

@CredSo how do I understand that a woman is autistic? and how do I interact with her?

There are many things I disagree with in this forum but I am reluctant to express them. I agree with 95% of the things in this forum but the rest 5% I don't. This forum gives me so many good things so I don't want to get banned or disliked for expressing opinions that most people would disagree here. I am like that in real life too, most of the time I used to get misunderstood or attacked after expressing a carefully examined opinion, so I keep my opinions for myself. After all, people label you with labels associated with wrong narratives about you even if you have never said anything to indicate that. Look at Leo for example, he is saying his truths and people label him as a cult leader. You can literally say something accurate with good intentions cause you arrived at a truth, and people will literally demonize you for it. I am probably autistic so I don't understand when it's appropriate to lie or tell the truth and I used to assume that everyone wanted the truth instead of lies.

Why not being more dumb and chaotic, this would be more unbiased and normal. I wouldn't like it, I like it the way it is now, but that doesn't mean it makes sense.

My favorite is Lovely Complex, cause it's a great romantic story and a lot of fun

I for example, want to: 1)develop sense of humour 2)be more masculine 3)be more social 4)be more independent 5)become an artist 6)learn Japanese 7)build a good looking body

it seems no amount of willpower will win an addicted brain.

yeah, I was alone. But I have life purpose now so it didn't hurt too much

Not having high IQ means being slow thinker, not having sense of humour, not being creative or have smart answers and a lot of other problems. I can't lie to this forum, I don't have very good IQ at least not in most aspects of intelligence. So I wonder if there is a way to approach a woman I like that I see often or ''low IQ'' people are destined to be unnatractive... ? I see her in traditional dancing twice per week.

I was searching about determinism and I saw Leo's videos. I don't remember when, probably 8 years ago. Then I went to deeper topics watching Leo's videos. I haven't done mushrooms or any other psychedelic but when I go to Holland I will do truffles.

I am old but for various reasons I am dependent on other people. Some of this reasons are that I have asperger and that I had psychological problems that made me not able to become independent. I want to change that. I study japanese on the internet to go to Japan in some years and I also learn art with a teacher. But I am so scared of becoming independent, I don't think I can do it but I also I prefer to risk it all to do it than be dependent all my life and also what happens when the people I am dependent to, leave this world? So... how do I become independent. How do I become social and not shy and outgoing (important skills), how do i know who to call and how to fix things in life in daily activities and in my house, how do I know how to navigate life ? I am so confused and scared. I know it's shameful, humiliating and embarassing that I am dependent at old age but this is my situation and hiding it won't do me any good. Please don't shame me, I am already in deep shaming myself. The plan is 1)study japan 2)take Visa to japan for studying at university 3)getting Visa to work after finishing university. I won't stay in my country forever, I don't change that desicion. So... How to make it? How a person with difficulties becomes independent? How to be able to be an adult if you find it difficult cause of personal issues? Thanks in advance. I really want to do this, I am so scared but also will try very very hard to make it, cause I want it really badly.