Never_give_up

I feel the same way about the meaningless thing and I am 30. I don't know if this will help you or will help me but I think I am going to engage in art (novel writing and some drawing mostly) and maybe this will give me the dopamine and serotonin I want and actually live a happy life. But I suspect it takes time to be good at it to achieve very good results that will make you happy. I feel the same as about the novelty. One amazing film is Agora for example, I don't think I will ever see a film like that again, or video game Assasin's Creed Odyssey, such an immersive artistic video game, I don't think I will ever feel the same feelings at anything ever again although I hope.... Could art be the answer? I don't know, give it a try. For the last 30 years I used to philosophize a lot, but now I no longer find it enjoyable, it seems I no longer discover insights about life that make me feel amazing like I used to. And when I think some people have way worse than me it feels so hopeless. Whatever, consume and create art, that's the next thing I try and hope it works and it helps and hope if you try the same that it works and it helps.

@ted73104It's true that my life has been destroyed for many reasons and those traumatic events are big ones. Yes it's a miracle, but it's mostly just finding things that make me happy while forgeting all my trauma. That's how most people try to find their way when their lives were traumatic (at least I hope they do that which is healthy, instead of doing unhealthy stuff to cope). It will definitely be tough for me to be independent, but I will make it. Objectively speaking, I am not a very bright person in most cognitive aspects (although there are some exceptions that I am really good at, I would say above average, that make me confident), but many people that aren't very bright have make it. Greece is definitely in a very good place compared to most places in the world, but it's still very bad. I don't think France can be compared to Greece, they are way more advanced than Greece. Also historicaly France put a lot of emphasis in the protection of individual human rights and freedom and I hope this is still engraved in the culture. Who knows if it will be better or not? It will be a good barrier against people that want to harm me. But to be honest only time will tell and it will take time for me to learn the language so it won't happen too fast. Thank you for your answer! Sometimes some support and encouragement is all we humans need and you provided me with that! I will never give up, even if they have to destroy me completely to stop me!

This is just a hypothetical question. The war could be anything. You could be invaded, you could be the one that invades or it could be a revolution. Anything that has to do with war. I didn't know in what thread to put this, I think it belongs in this thread.

@Razedo you think they will help an adult male? Will they give me information? Also do you think they are not going to call cops because they think I am insane and need to be put to the psych ward again? My experience tells me that people don't believe you are sane after being put to psych ward (I think it stems from the fact that they believe authorities wouldn't put you there in the first place , like they are not corrupt authorities or evil people in authority position or just incapable people in those positions). So I wonder if I can make an anonymous call and stay anonymous.... Thank you all for your replies

@Schizophoniain that sense, no one can prove you that he is sane. And honestly how many people are sane and are ''treated'' for being insane, and how would they prove that they are sane then? About the construction of my sentences there are many reasons that they simply suck. First of all I don't speak good English, the fact I know this low level of English is already a miracle. Second if I was to explain everything in the situation no one would read it so I had to make it short. Lastly , I had written this post to other forums before I write it here, so I was getting exchausted and was mentally fatigued to explain the sentences well. Imagine Leo trying to explain to any ''normal'' person that his experiences with psychedelics if they are not valid they still have some validity. They simply would tell him he is insane and put him to the psych hospital. In my country if you said what Leo said you would definitely being put in a psych hospital, so you have to understand that not all countries are healthy to live in. Some societies are inhuman and I believe my society (country) is one of those countries. So it's basically the same thing, I can't explain to anyone that I am sane for the simple reason most people aren't familiar with the situations I am in, and the reason for that is because these situations are complex and very rare (not so rare as many people think they are though). I have found that most people that believe I am sane are the same people that have gone through similar experiences, and sadly these people are very rare and also not many people believe they are sane after being put to the hospital. btw, I had gone to previous district attorneys myself , and they were all by my side before they found this one. They were by my side but just didn't do anything to help. They even told my abusers that they shouldn't beat me especially when I was a child. @shree@ted73104I just reacted to their decades of abuse, like when they started invading my space ,screaming on my ears or beat me, I did something similar to protect myself, and BOOM, just like that I was the abuser and they were the victims. I don't want anything to do with them, I just want to leave and be sure they won't harass me again with legal or illegal ways. The truth is that abusers always make themselves look like victims and the victims like abusers. And when you say that they are abusers they say that's what the abuser would say. Which is true, both the victim and the abuser says that the other person is the abuser. @Schizophonia it just occured to me. If I had psychosis or anything, wouldn't they write it on the diagnosis? Not that I would believe the diagnosis of those people that say they beat children, but still they didn't even do that. They supposedely found probable asperger which may be true or may not be true. Even the diagnosis asperger is no longer used in psychiatric diagnoses, they just call it spectrum of autism. Seriously, my abusers just wanted to ''win me'' and to become submissive to them, which happened. And sadly in my country a lot of authorities are abusers themselves so you can't just help yourself in any way in those situations, they just punish the victim. But sooner or later I am outta here

or they are just illusions that have explanations?

Or some things don't have an answer cause they are paradox? I think I am going crazy the more I contemplate and imagine possible answers to some difficult existential/consciousness questions I have. The more I think of these questions and my mind only sees paradox without any answer, the more I get confused and tired and can't relax. It's like my mind just can't let go of what it doesn't understand. Today it got so bad that I felt kind of depressed with this situation. Do everything has an answer or I am wasting my time and should just accept that sometimes there is no answer cause for some mysterious reason, things don't make any sense... ? I am so sad with this situation.... I need to know.... Thank you in advance

There is a guy that everytime he sees me he says bad words about me so I can hear them and then laughs like he heard the most hilarious joke. I can see through his insecurities. No happy person would go to such length to make someone feel bad. That's not my problem. I also know what to do next time this occurs and he is not going to like it. This is not about what to do or what's wrong with him. This is about me. Why this insult makes me angry and feel worthless? Why I can't just laugh with it as I usally do with these kind of people? I thought I had improved my personality so much that these things didn't affect me anymore(and most times they don't) but everytime he laughs like this it gets to me. Like, what exactly makes me so irritated and feeling so worthless that I can't ignore low consciousness people like him? It makes me feel like I can't control my own emotions which is weird cause no one can make me feel bad at least longer than a minute, if it's not something serious. But this time, something that isn't serious at all, makes me feel worthless... why? Most of the time I feel a worthy person, but when I sometimes remember those instances with this low consciousness person, it makes me feel worthless for some moments.

I am very good at contemplation and deep thinking in general. I am not good at meditation, can't do psychedelics (at least for now). Any advice?

How much can contemplation make you realise what reality is? In which subjects should someone use contemplation and in which subjects should someone use other methods and what are these other methods? Personaly I believe the formula for a good life is : 1)contemplation(for hours) 2)action (taking feedback for that action) 3) repeat Bonus question: Why contemplation has limits?

That means if he harms others in order to gain something, then he is not going to be punished by his conscience or by other people. He doesn't have to be psychopath, it just could be any person that doesn't feel the pain of others and doesn't feel inspired by doing any good to others (I think that's called a psychopath though anyway) So how do you convience this person using logic and/or emotion to be moral, not to cause harm to others for his own gain, to do good... ? Can it even happen? this is not a very serious question about changing society or anything, it's just an interesting topic (at least interesting to me , I hope it's intriguing to you too) and I want to hear other people's opinions for fun. I didn't know any other thread to put it.... Remember, if the argument is: 1)that he should do good cause he will gain more than if he didn't do good, then this is not being moral for the sake of morality, but it's for more personal gain. 2)he will feel bad, then that's not the case cause he can't feel bad 3)he is going to be punished by others, hypotheticaly he can't be caught doing something wrong for his gain

My eating disorder has gone out of control. It seems that I take back all the weight I lost. The reason of my addiction is boredom but I can't replace it with anything. Therapists can't help me, I already see one. Could it be that focusing on my breath will make my mind not being focused on the addiction? I post this here because the problem is more about the addiction than the awakening meditation topic. Although I wouldn't mind to know anything mystical that could come out of meditation. Thank you

I think I will never be with a girlfriend Is it a number's game? If I meet new people everyday for a long time, will I be able to meet friends and a girlfriend? Like will I have 1 or 2 friends and one girlfriend every 1000 people I meet and try to connect?

I live in a country where I can't find any psychedelics. I think I have to travel abroad to have an experience with them. I wish I could do thousand trips but that's impossible cause I would have to go abroad 1000 times. I don't know where to go, maybe holland? maybe mexico for ayahuasca? I don't know, but I am starting to be serious about it and I never had any experience with psychedelics before. Thank you everyone that will answer this questions

@manuel bonI think the moment they come here they are illegal. Or perhaps when you do them it's illegal. I definitely will check if it can be done, thank you. @Alex_R I think that would be the Netherlands. I will actually check it, I am getting more serious day by day.

@Clarencethank you!

@integration journeyMy intend is: To overcome my very severe deep traumas. understand humans cause I feel I have make deep distinctions between myself and others like I am not like others because I am inferior and/or superior or that I just am not like others (probably I am a narssicist to an extend) so I want this illusion that destroyes my life to stop. I want to undestand a little about the nature of reality because I always wanted to know what this is about. And honestly, I just want to see a new world that I feel drawn to. I go to psychotherapy and I haven't been helped to the extend I want. @Tristan12I live in Greece. If there is a way to get them here I definitely don't know that way @ClarenceI think Netherlands probably is the first destination to go. Do you have any tips of what magic truffles to get, or any advice on how to do the whole proccess? @M A J II don't know how to grow or find to grow and honestly I don't want trouble with the law, especially since in the future I am going to leave this country behind. Also I am not sure they grow in my country and I am little scared of picking the wrong one that could be poisonous if I make a mistake.

At 12/31/24 night I am going to a club cause it's a modern tradition to have fun the day that the year changes. I have grabed the attention in a bad way from my cringe dancing in the past. I absolutely love dancing but I look very strange when I do it. It even makes some people smile almost laughing but I am afraid it may make people confused, like they can't even comprehend why my dancing is so strange to the point they don't know if something is seriously wrong with me. I have like 5 years to go to a club but when I did and did dance some people were laughing. I suspect half of them were laughing because they were jealous of me having too much fun moving, while they were like statues and half of them were laughing because I was indeed dancing in a cringe way. The only positive thing is that I am really short, and if the popular opinion is true, there is a tendency that short people are less clumsy than average/tall people when dancing. I feel like that I will humiliate myself if I dance freely. Should someone dance even if he looks cringy and people laugh at him or should he stop cause it's humiliating? Or perhaps a middle solution like: be free to dance how you want but not too free that it becomes too weird. If you do that then it's ok if people laugh , you are within the safe limits of unusal behaviour. I dance almost exclusively for myself, but since there is a component of wanting to have fun with the opposite sex in dancing, I put this in dating topic.

I get it(intellectually) that I am the only thing in the universe and everyone and everything is my imagination. I get it that this is all a dream. What I don't understand is, if I am the only thing that exists, are others my past or future lives or it doesn't matter what happens to them, because you(me) are not going to experience their lives anyway? Will I experience their lives. If I make them feel bad, will I feel it in another live from the perspective of the person that felt bad or this perspective will never become real? Bonus question: if I experience people from another perspective, is there a way to know if they are my past life or my future life?