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Thats like the whole thing we trying to get sneaky right answers

Mayb because hedonists also want to minimise pain tho. Its simple, want only pleasure and for a long time. Heroin can be a part but not end goal, because it isnt sustainable and consistent. If we take a monks pleasure average and a drug addicts full life average, i think the monk will win by miles.

If we had good enough medicine to repair anything, there wouldnt be amy issue in taking heroin. Then heroin suddenly isnt bad. Until then, dont touch. Also if we had better system so everyone lives in abundance of everything.

I might try this game. I used to be addicted to online games such as starcraft, dota, hearthstone, which i still play from time to time. Also poker, which is such a rollercoaster and a time eating/grinding experience. So mentally tiring and addicting too.. Ive had many breakdowns, but i have to thank poker too, because i found the spiritual path because i was having a mental breakdown, wrote something on youtube like how to be happy or something, then i saw a comment about ekhart tolle and the rest as they say is #history# the present moment. But this here seems like a different fruit and also you can easily fight against gaming addiction if you are into spiritual work... I mean just meditate lol. I dont have a ps4 however so i will be sad if it doesnt have a pc version PS: i do have friends which are still addicted to gaming, as we used to game together all the time before amd became online friends. We chat on skype every day, and every day they game - allday, when they dont have work. Ive tried to introduce thwm to leos videos and meditation /spiritual work, but they close their eyes and years because they want to do their preya. Its kind of sad, but i was recently the same way, until i realized constant instant gratification costs dearly in the long run. Time can be used so much better than moving some pixels around. Ofcourse nothing is bad if it doesn't become an addiction. Even instant gratification.

Problem is when ive watched in the past she takes it as me wanting something, or sucking up or something. Because its not natural to me. Maybe i really need to take interest inthem. As in, trying to understand what she likes about them so much. Thanks for the response. Maybe i should watch some in secret and then amaze her with drama knowledge

In my dreams i often, if not always nowadays, after i jumped on the self actualisation path, feel like i am enlightened in them. By that i mean that when i remember the dream i am very confused because i remember being everyone and everything within the dream, even though there was usually a story around me as myself, but i didnt feel that me any more myself as anything else in the dream. Now is that something like a hint from my subconscious, which is way wiser than my concious self, to show me that life is the dream of the one conciousness and we are all parts of that dream, but since the conciousness dreams me, that would mean that i am that dreaming conciousness as much as the me i dream is me. Also ive realised that in dreams, since the logical part of the brain is asleep more or less, i never question what is happening and never sit down to contemplate what just happened. I just move on and dont analyze. I also dont think about what is going to happen, like a present moment guru, my dream self seems to always be effortlessly in that present moment, without judging it even when "sick shit" happens. There was one dream of mine where i was being chased by some big organisation, trying to kill me, and i managed somehow to be calm and happy, but without trying to, and without knowing its a dream, while at the same time i was doing things to prevent it. Like the effortlessness amazes me, and it seems that the problem and the main suspect for the ego, the root, must be the logical mind. Because it keeps digging. And digging... So, am i feeling real enlightenment in my dreams? Even if i dont get those benefits in wakeful life..

I need to have a good posture for kundalini, right? How do I go about "getting kundalini" I am really not educated on that matter.

How to let go of the i thought? I am that which sees the i thought? Welp i guess i cant respond with words cause u alrdy said that anything i say would be wrong Im continually contemplating on what you wrote

Yeah oops sorry i got enlightened just now and burnt all my cash cuz my enlightenment told me so and i dont need low conciousness dosh anymore! Ps i burnt my electronic money too, as being enlightened now i have all these new superpowers and stuff.

Can you deliver before i pay?

You can buy enlightenment now? Let me guess, from you right? You selling? Give paypal details omg xD.. Is there maybe an amazon link, i would like next day delivery on my enlightenment please

So beyond the I am thought, there is the unmanifested nothingness surrounding it, that the i feeds itself new thoughts from? And if the i thought becomes aware of itself and starts looking in the darkness conciously, it shines its light on the darkness, like a ray of light? Is the I the light of this world as Jesus puts it?

The I Am claims ownership, doesnt it? If i didnt know the label brain, it would just be a sensation, yes. I could imagine its a big cristal ball if i didnt know how it looks like also. But i link the sensation in between my skull as the proof that i have a brain in my direct experience, which was your question. Im a bit puzzled and maybe i should be. Aftet all im thinking logically.

Well, during my dreams i dont feel enlightened, its only when i awake and remember,then i think about what was that and think enlightenment might be an explanation. My thoughts and sensations are mine, because i am experiencing them. I.e. I suffer or i experience joy through them. In my direct experience my brain exists, because i can sense it. During my sleep, i have never even had a thought related to my brain. Because that's something the logical mind does. The subconscious definitely exists and it has shown that during my dreams the most, because i can get lost in it, or even interact with it. I can even be lucid in it, very rarely. Maybe the subconscious feeds me my actual thoights. I dont know, its all mental orgasms now, but i can definitely sense my brain, by breathing deep and feeling even pleasure like sensation when i dont think. Or think that i dont think.

This coincides with what i just wrote in the new topic i opened about my dreams. It seems like here again the logical mind is the reason, because you tried to explain to yourself. Disect, as you said it. So maybe thats all we need to fight against when we fight against ego - the logical part of the mind. It seems obvious (and logical :-D) that if the truth is illogical, even if obvious, it would be out of logic's grasp, whenever it's awake. So maybe we need to fight logix by throwing a bunch of paradoxes into it.

Experiencing deep sleep while being aware has been achieved, but you need to be masterful meditator. What is more up for grabs however is falling asleep concously and experiencing hypnogogia (state between wakefulness and sleeping) ive had great visions during that, but you also need to be in that state of mind when you remember dreams and can recall them with huge detail the day after. Its definitely fun. Ive gotten worse at it, and i blame the fact that inow live with my gf and not alone

Theres no bigger ego than of the one that says he doesnt fear anything. And that fear is wrong... Why would it be. Fear can be very helpful. Not as a continuous state of mind, but when needed, fear can save you and make you stronger. As a human being, not as conciousness or that thing that never changes. If it doesn't change, there is no reason for a human being not to evolve. Even if you are that never changing ever present existence or whatever, you are a human being right now, so you cant pretend you are god and dont/wouldnt fear anything. You (god) might prove you (the human you) wrong and give you hell that you would fear oh so much even if you try to disidentify with your current form. Because it wont allow you to, maybe, maybe..

What if that thing that was always right there wants to be scary to you. Like a big black spider, and you disrespecting it by not being afraid, so he takes that as aan invite to torture you in hell. I luv spiders, just spinning webs with you

But you can be a character in the game that is eitger in an enlightened state of conciousness or not in such a state, yes or no.

Are you there to know that. Also if we are not there and your statement is true it means we have never been there even in a previous life. Its a bold statement, saying there is no return.. Maybe there is return after death at least.

She doesn't like the things I do. She likes to watch japanese dramas and animes. She doesn't want to even do Yoga with me! Or watch youtube vids with me... Or movies. She watched a couple of Leo's videos with me though, but she constantly argues with what is said, because she has her own opinions and is quite close minded about the new ideas. What can I do, I am accepting what's happening. Should I scrap consciousness work so I can watch some drama with her? In a language I don't even know.. We like getting high together, but I am trying to stop that one

Well I am not really good with *time* but it's been a few months now, but I only recently( 1 month ago) started doing every day, for 15-20 minutes at a time, because my legs start hurting pretty bad after that range even if I switch... I haven't yet seen the power in self enquiry and also I have trouble locating my thoughts because I don't see them and I feel more like I haven't yet learned to think properly, because everyone is saying ye ye i am observing my thoughts. But I can never observe anything comprehensible like a string of words, I mean I don't think in words I guess, I mean I can think in words, but I just don't usually. Like when I ask who am I, I might start imagining things like falling through a tube right behind my mind and just diving deeper and deeper and try to imagine what I see in that tube, but idk if that is thinking or imagining is more like consciousness, because it can't be expressed fully through words. Idk, im rambling.

I am after experimenting and seeing how my body and my mind can work and whether I can get high through them, rendering drugs useless. But I want to get high of meditation for the same reason I would want to get high off weed - to experience reality in a different way and explore. Because reality as it is can get boring from time to time. I mean I know my goal is to be perfectly at peace and to not need stimulants, but I don't think it should be expected of me to achieve this state right this second. I am pretty young and ready for improvement in the long run, but for now I want to see how high I can get off meditating

I am in a very similar situation. But i also think it might work, because i found out i was taking things the wrong way. People dont need a guru, unless they ask for it. She doesn't mind me doing consciousness work and she is definitely good at firing off my ego, so i can observe, yield and overcome it. She is into psychology and is so much in her mind and constantly thinking and even saying things like - you cant stop thinking, no person can. Definitely when i feel my ego arising to defend my views :-D Edit: forgot to mention shes pretty noisy and almost always on the computer clicking away, even when i meditate and want some peace and quiet. I guess gives me few more things to surrender to during my meditations. She also creates a ton of drama! :-( Actually now that i wrote it black and white... Pls help. What Should I Do With Gf?