I’m new to the forum, it’s actually a first time for me in any forum. As I write my experiences in form of replies to you all I am reminded of the greatest thing that ever happened to me and helped me the most with my self development and understanding of what this experiance here on earth can be. So I thought I will make a post about it.
Some years ago now, as I was studying shamanic cultures I came to realisation that most of what I have learned up until that point about what would be the happiest experiance of this life, what is this experiance about and how to experiance it.  Also as it turned out  how to approach a lot of human like problems, those completely mundane ones as well as spiritual ones.
This experiance is having a dog.
Going back to the story as I was studying it prompted me that all of those teachings led to similar conclusion or assumption that ultimately we are all seeking a positive experiance, a happy one. I was contemplating on what I have learned and looking at my dog it hit me, this is it, my dogs experiance is exactly what I’m trying to experiance, want to experiance. His pure happiness , living moment to moment , staying completely in the present moment, feeling emotions but only in the moment. Dogs sometimes get scared but when scary thing ends they just move on to the next thing that makes them the happiest in that moment, or in to whatever is happening in the next moment, they almost instantly forget about it.  My dog was my greatest teacher all along I just didn’t recognise it. Dogs don’t have a sense of time, they don’t even know they are getting older ( at least this is what we know about dogs so far through experiance of science) dogs are not bound by humanly problems or wonder about the meaning of life, they just experiance it.
Do you think we can learn self actualisation , self development and how to experiance life from or with the help of animals? 

I feel sick each time i eat cookies unless i made them, So i developed a recipe to make home made sugar free gluten free cookies, These are not the chocolate variant but i also made chocolate ones, They taste good and i dont feel shit when i eat them, So win win win

If you really want to understand this - go study Psychology of Personal Constructs by George Alexander Kelly.

Check this guys channel out. He has a few videos on this topic.
 

Current scenario (Oct 18, 2024) : 
Grappling with ADD.  Very weak in academics. [almost Zero]  〰️〰️〰️〰️
My commitments : 
To be a badass in Physics, Maths & Chemistry. To study rigorously.  To master B.Sc (Physics).  To rank among the top 10 in an M.Sc entrance exam taken by over 10,000 students.  To learn focus and time management.  To implement affirmations in daily life. 
Deadline : March 31, 2028. 
I am fed up with mediocrity. 
I will remember this commitment. 
And I'll do an AMA (related to personal dev.) on this forum after achieving all of these. 
 

This is a frustrating situation that I'm in, but here we go. 
So the University I attend is part of the University System of Maryland. This matters because in this system, there is a policy in which a student must not be allowed to repeat a course more than three times. 
The first time I took Calculus I, I dropped it (counts as first attempt) because there were too many classes on my schedule and I was overwhelmed. The second time, I accidentally missed my final exam and scored and F in the class. The third time just happened, and I scored a D. It was a reduced 6-week summer session. I should have visited the office hours of the professor, as well as the supplemental instruction, but didn't because I thought my knowledge from the previous attempt would transfer over. 
I needed at least a C grade in order to qualify for Calculus II and Physics II. I earned a B in Physics I, but because my grade in Calculus I is a D, I no longer am eligible to earn a Physics degree at this University as I have failed to earn the requirement. 
I filled out a petition requesting that my major be changed to Sociology, for which I'm very unhappy about. Sociology is not a profitable degree, its practically on the same tier as Gender studies. I chose it because its my other passion, part from Physics. 
Because Sociology is not a degree which can earn me a good job out of college, I feel very hopeless and distressed. I also feel very inferior, how was I not able to pass Calculus I for fucks sake, what is wrong with me. That's a freshman throwaway class!
I don't understand this about myself, but anything that involved Calculations, I simply cannot do. I remember I had to do take a mandatory Computer Science class, for which I scored a D in. We had to solve binary problems, converting 1's and 0's into numbers, and vice versa. I rehearsed this numerous times the day before, but on the day of the test I simply looked looked at the paper and I couldn't remember what I had just rehearsed the day before at all. 
On my second attempt of Calculus I, I had failed every single weekly quiz, how does that happen? Not one quiz did I score an A grade on. Even in my mandatory chemistry class, I scored a D because the highest grade I got on any exam was a C, despite going to office hours and studying for each test two weeks in advance. Because in chemistry, there are calculations required to balance the different electrons and such. On my final exam day, I just walked out the room with half the test blank because I looked at the page, and I couldn't remember anything! I had studied, studied a lot, but the individual calculations I couldn't remember, despite practicing the week before. 
My original plan to ensure my survival of working for SpaceEx or something like that just flew out the window, and the only forceable solution for my situation is suicide. Even if I do complete this degree in Sociology, what am I supposed to do with it?
I have already bought a rope, for which I have tied into a slipknot, and saved into my backpack. I printed out a note, explaining my justifications and reasonings. I as well have a location and a plan. I will simply go to the stairwell of the on campus apartments, and hang myself from the metal beams comprising the staircase railings. The advice on how to hang myself comes from this website: *Edit: link deleted, but it was a suicide website which provided explicit instructions on how to commit suicide*
Edit | tldr: My university has a policy preventing students from re-taking a course more than three times. I failed to pass calculus I with a grade of C or better on my third attempt, meaning I'm ineligible for a Physics degree as Calculus I is mandatory. I switched my major to my other passion, Sociology, but Sociology is not a profitable major. With my career plans in the toilet, I have decided that my only option is suicide.

@Husseinisdoingfine You are taking university way too seriously. It's really not important as you tell yourself it is.
All this situation means is that you are not cut out for that kind of high academic work. That's okay. The problem here is that you keep trying to succeed in a field that you are not naturally well-suited for. You need to sit down, accept that, and find a new field that isn't heavy on math and hard science. That's okay. There's nothing wrong with that. You will be much happier once you switch careers. You are too attached to that one career field.
Do not kill yourself over this issue.
I switched my major from out of enginnering after years of study because I realized engineering was a bad fit for my personality. Imagine if I killed myself instead. That would be silly.
Throw away your rope right now.
You will never need it. Just sit down and accept the pain that engineering is now right for you. There's no shame in that. There are much better fields than engineering.
Throw away your rope.
Switching to a career that suits you better does not make you a loser, it makes you wise.
Happiness awaits you once you just accept that you don't need any of this engineering stuff or academics to be happy and successful. Academia is an illusion. Certainly not worth killing yourself over.

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@Bobby_2021 You are unhinged.

@Bobby_2021 What do you expect Ukraine to do? Lay down and get raped by Putin?
You sit in comfort and laugh while people lose their homes and land.