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Imagine a scenario where you can have a psychedelic experience without using any chemicals. Instead, you control the intensity of your experience through a mobile app. While the primary use may be to enhance the qualities of state-orange individuals, the broader implications make it worth exploring.

Thank you for your advice. I agree with most of what you said, but I need to take a risk and see what happens. I believe that taking controlled doses of 5MeO MALT can help me achieve my goals. I have already tried it before and was able to handle it well. I prefer to do it alone, just like I have done in the past. If it doesn't work out, I will consider that option. I am hopeful for a positive outcome. Thank you for the suggestion. I will check it out. @flowboy hinted that the true extent of trauma is unpredictable until faced directly. While I currently think I can handle it, there's a worry it might be too much when confronted, leading to a bad outcome. I'm unsure how I'd react to a full dose of 5MeO DMT, something I haven't tried yet. On the other hand, 5MeO MALT builds up more slowly, and the "what the fuck just happened?" feeling it induces isn't as intense as the one associated with 5MeO DMT.

Hi everyone, As the title says I have some childhood traumas that I am currently working on with my Psychotherapist. I had been living a good life the last few years and traces of trauma and depression were not present anymore. After starting microdosing (Paul Stamets Protocol) many of these psychological conditions started coming on the surface once again. My suicidal thoughts, feelings of hopelessness came back. My Psychotherapist has experience with LSD and mushrooms and is a very open-minded person. She said I should first work on my traumas and depression because if I just go into this with my condition it could result in an awfully bad trip. She said she witnessed many people who ended up in a hospital for weeks after using psychedelics. (People with depression and unresolved traumas from the past.) I do not care if I scream and suffer in agony for some short amount of time if that is going to help me to let some terrible things from my past go and I would stick 5meo in my ass in this moment if I would have at least some assurances that I will stay functional because I have a family that depends on me. EDIT: I never did any psychedelics except microdosing fresh truffles. I meditate daily, I watched every single Leo´s video and listened to hundreds of hours of Osho's discourses so I believe that open-mindedness will not be my problem, only this damn depression and unresolved childhood traumas. What are your thoughts on this? I would be so happy to see a comment from Leo

Unfortunately, it's HCL. I received it "by mistake"...

I have obtained a new batch of 5MeO MALT HCL, but it has an unusual colour. What is your opinion?

Hello everyone, I recently had some unusual encounters while experimenting with 5-MeO-MALT and documented my experience in a post. I haven't come across similar accounts of tripping on 5-MeO-MALT, and I'm curious if this substance has delusional effects. Could my mind have been playing tricks on me during the trip? I plan to explore this further in my future experiences, but for now, I'd appreciate hearing other perspectives on this. Thanks. Trip report

I had zero visuals. This was just my mind's way of guiding me through. I did have some hints throughout my life... Korn - Daddy

Are you prepared for the truth? Sure thing, I love the truth! Can you handle it? Fuck... NO... NO... I found myself in a quadratic room, with a mysterious machine standing in the center. This machine represented everything about me - my past, present, future, my very identity. In this room, a middle-aged, unkempt mechanic joined me and the machine. He ventured to the darkest corner, searching for something. And when he found it, I saw it too, illuminated in my mind's eye. There it was, a dirty, dusty part of the machine, untouched and neglected for years. The bearded mechanic wore a mischievous smile, hinting at something unexpected. He blew away the grime and seamlessly integrated that neglected part with the machine. And then it hit me, like a sledgehammer. -I am a survivor of sexual abuse! That forgotten part was the missing piece to understanding myself. Suddenly, everything made sense. My bias towards sex, my desperate neediness, my fascination with books about suffering - it all stemmed from this deep-rooted trauma. I was simultaneously repulsed by those who embraced sexuality and yet, paradoxically, I cherished and craved the act itself. And the reason behind my actions became clear. You see, during a vulnerable period of my life, when I longed for warmth and comfort, I experienced the unthinkable - sexual molestation, most likely at the hands of my father. The truth hit me like a thunderbolt. I've got three options: 1. Do I want to relive that trauma? 2. Can I love it? 3. Do I embrace this as a self-chosen experience? Option three resonated with me as the initial step towards healing. The others may follow suit, but for now, acceptance is key. I recognize that releasing this trauma may require delving back into the depths of my experiences, perhaps even finding love in the act itself. This is my trip report on 5MeO MALT... WHAT THE FUCK just Happened? I never in my wildest dreams expected this...

Are you sure it's not HCI? Check this:

https://www.actualized.org/insights/how-to-plug-psychedelics

I am being sarcastic, it works perfectly well. @Girzo How do you manage to dosage psychedelics correctly when using liquid? I guess it's not applicable for 5MeO?

Dear fellow vaporent, Ah, the Solo 2, the vaporizer that makes you feel like you're embarking on a solo adventure in a land of temperature inconsistency. It's truly remarkable how it manages to keep you on your toes, never knowing whether you'll end up with toasty marshmallow clouds or vapor thinner than your patience. But fear not, my friend, for the Solo 2's lackluster temperature control is truly a blessing in disguise. Think of it as a humbling experience, a reminder that life is full of surprises, just like the vapor quality you'll encounter with each session. Who needs a consistent and reliable temperature anyway? That's so... ordinary. Embrace the unpredictability, my friend! Treat each puff as a rollercoaster ride, never knowing whether you'll reach soaring heights of vaporization or end up in a disappointment-induced loop-de-loop. After all, life is all about embracing challenges and adapting to change, even if that change is the inconsistent temperature range of the Solo 2. But hey, if you're truly seeking greener pastures, there's a whole world of vaporizers out there waiting to fulfill your temperature control desires. From the legendary Mighty that rivals the temperature precision of a NASA command center...

I have found that it's not necessary to order RDA directly from China since Amazon offers RDAs that use Emesh. Although they are more expensive, their delivery times are much shorter. Additionally, the RDA from Wish was the best one that I tried for this particular purpose. Amazon RDA´s https://www.amazon.de/-/en/gp/product/B088LZ3X5N/ref=ppx_yo_dt_b_search_asin_title?ie=UTF8&psc=1 https://www.amazon.de/-/en/gp/product/B09JGQGDTT/ref=ppx_yo_dt_b_search_asin_title?ie=UTF8&th=1 From my experience, 17-19 watts in power mode is optimal for this purpose. More than 30 watts is probably unnecessary anyway. The Aegis Solo 2 100W allegedly has a superior temperature control sensor.

@maxpechura When using e-mesh, remember to lie down within 5-7 seconds after inhaling. Here is a list of things you need to order to set up e-mesh: RDA GEEKVAPE Aegis Solo 2 Battery Carrier 100 Watt VandyVape Wire Winding Wire It's crucial to read the updated instructions on the Minty website and follow them correctly. I tried using the nasal spray with 5MeO MALT, but due to lack of time, I tried it only once. It worked well, but I believe that standard nasal sprays dispense too much liquid. Instead, I would use children's nasal sprays as they release much less liquid than the standard ones. I did not attempt to convert HCL to FB again as I don't feel competent enough to do it. However, I plan to test 5MeO MALT freebase on e-mesh next week if it arrives on time. I will report my findings here if everything goes as planned.

I have a tough time finding out what impact I want to have on the world. When I am very honest with myself, I don´t care that much about other people. I do a little because I chose to. But deep down, I don't really care. I had this idea: At the moment I just want to improve myself. I think when I master my own psychology, then I will have the natural tendency to help others doing that too. I have several ideas on how I want to impact the world, but they are not really meaningful to me and they have nothing to do with this life purpose. It's nice, when it works, but I don't care if not. I'm not emotional about them. I also feel like my purpuse is stupid in comparison with what Leo, Elliot Hulse or Osho (people I admire the most) were doing, and my impact on the world will at the end be stupid impact and just a dissapintment. Here is my - Me sheet Purpose: Repairing and modding electronics to give them a new life and push their functionality to another level. Zone of Genius: Creativity and Hand-Work The domain of mastery: Electronics Ideal medium: YouTube Top 10 values: 1. Truth 2. Creativity 3. Independence 4. Personal growth 5. Health 6. Self-Control 7. Joy 8. Family 9. Courage 10. Focus Top 4 strengths: 1. Creativity and originality 2. Critical thinking and open-mindedness 3. Authenticity and genuineness 4. Bravery

Should I gradually increase my dose from 15mg or switch to 20mg immediately? It can be difficult without a trip sitter, but I prefer to experience the trip alone in my sacred space. However, for my first breakthrough on 5MeO-DMT, I should consider having a sitter present. Do you agree? It's difficult to find a setting that is truly isolated. I have a great place for tripping, but there is always a risk of being discovered if I have an intense trip. This makes it hard to fully relax. While I can prepare myself mentally for a 5MeO trip and be ready to accept whatever happens, the possibility of being judged after the experience is something that I cannot handle. During my recent trip, I had a significant realization. Shame is the most powerful negative emotion I have ever experienced in my life. It hit me the hardest when my ego resurfaced, and I felt like my celebration of existence was shaking the world. This feeling of shame made me realize that I need to work on understanding my emotions better. Thank you for pointing me in this direction.

Hi everyone, I vaped 14mg of 5-MeO-DMT and underwent my third breakthrough. The experience felt like an intense celebration, reminiscent of a tribal gathering with wild dancing, singing, laughter, and an earth-shaking energy. Upon returning to my egoic state, I experienced the familiar "WTF was thiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiis" sensation, leaving me breathless. However, alongside this awe, I noticed a lingering feeling of shame. I imagined that the entire city had somehow sensed or heard my intense celebration, I was concerned about people outside my hut checking on me and the possibility of police presence. These paranoid thoughts are not in line with the peaceful reality of my trip. I reviewed a video recording of the experience, confirming that I quietly repeated words like "Thank you, Lord" and "Thank you, God" without outwardly disruptive behaviour. Reflecting on this, I questioned why I feel shame about expressing my overwhelming joy and sharing the extraordinary nature of my experience. Since I typically trip alone, I have no immediate feedback on the volume of my reactions until I review the recorded footage. This awareness that I need to control my reactions detracts from the full enjoyment of the trip. I am seeking advice on how to address and work through this lingering sense of shame and the need to control my reactions during such profound experiences. Some dose of shame is healthy. Otherwise, we would all be running outside naked after those experiences, but I couldn't relax at all... I never used any psychedelics except 5MeO DMT and 5MeO MALT. Any help would be appreciated.

It's the 21st century. We have the freedom to identify ourselves however we choose. Thanks. I invested time today in rewriting my LP statement several times more until I came to this: I simplify and improve electronic devices through design, repair, and enhancement, making them more user-friendly. This part: making them more user-friendly. Would be my impact on the world.... I think I can live with this... I am currently engaging in various activities related to my past, including psychedelics, psychotherapy, trauma literature, and a self-love course by Teal Swan.

Can I also be your mistress?

Embarking on the pursuit of your life purpose or crafting a career in an area where you perceive no meaningful impact on the world can pose challenges. Waking up in the morning with a complete lack of interest in making a positive difference, without a motivating end goal, can feel disorienting. I find no passion for instigating changes in the world that align with my personal interests. The impact I aspire to create in the world is rooted in countering the negative experiences I faced in my childhood, particularly feelings of abandonment, loneliness, and shame. Essentially, my desire is to contribute the opposite of these emotions to the world. The thought of bestowing upon the world the antidote to these past struggles fills me with a profound sense of love and purpose. I wonder if our beloved master could share his thoughts on this whenever he has a moment to spare. @Leo Gura

I've observed that my behaviour on psychedelics has been socially acceptable, at least when I'm alone and unseen I haven't encountered anything resembling a near-death experience so far with 14/15 mg Should I expect those things on 20 mg? Wtf

During my trip with 5MeO DMT, I found myself laughing uncontrollably, even though I didn't understand the joke. It felt as if every particle in the universe was also laughing with me, and I was overcome with a sense of profound gratitude for life's existence. However, at one point, I suddenly became aware of what was happening and felt overwhelmed with fear. I scurried to the nearest corner, trembling with terror.

That's a really valid point. I appreciate you bringing it up. Let me know if you have any more thoughts on the matter. @Dabidoe Do you agree with my previous statement? Should I focus on doing what I enjoy and am good at, without worrying about having a meaningful impact, and simultaneously work on my mental well-being while remaining open to whatever the future holds? I am interested in developing new skills in the meantime.

I had 2 breakthroughs an hour ago. It freaked me out, but it was manageable. After the trip, I felt some burning sensation on both of my hands. I checked it out and saw two wounds. I tripped alone and forgot to record myself during the trip, so I don't know if I hurt myself during the comeup. It reminds me of Leo's words when he said that he had some energetic release and his fingertips needed months to heal. Here is the pic It burns like hell, and I am normally not pain-sensitive. I am just interested in what could be the cause because I had no objects around that could cause this to my skin. Any thoughts on this? UPDATE: This is how it looks like the day after. Mirror link.

I was thinking of sharing on YouTube what I already enjoy the most. However, I am uncertain if it's worth starting something that doesn't have any significant impact that I find remarkable. The impact that I would make does not motivate me. I will think well about this.... I also had this idea, but connecting electronics, bioenergetics, and spiritual development is challenging. I'll keep it in mind.