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I often need to run out of my hut when I need to take a shit while being high on 5MeO DMT. Other than than I have never done psychedelics in public.

How long does the trip last? I have a Sub Ohm ready with 5MeO Malt e-liquid but haven't found time to test it.

Yes, he was incredible. I have hundreds of hours of his video and audio discourses on my laptop, as well as several dozen of his books. ....How can a great book be too long?

Because 90 Rolls Royces are simply not enough for one person.

Please demonstrate a proper technique on how to roll in the sand. @Francis777 @Leo Gura I will attempt this method in the future. "keep your mouth shut and let go of need to scream" Are there any resources, videos, or books where I can learn more about this? Until now, I have only observed my experiences as best as I could and fought the urge to scream, but I haven't benefited in any way by doing so.

It's interesting to see how his trip begins at 54:15 and his ego starts to reemerge at 56:00. Beyond this point, his reactions don't appear to be entirely organic. Nevertheless, he remains profoundly affected.

@Leo Gura@Davino The initial advice Martin Ball gave me was to fully experience and express my emotions during the 5-MeO-DMT sessions. If I feel the need to scream, then I should scream. He even demostrated it on camera. He suggested not to set an intention before the journey, but rather to open up and express whatever feelings arise in that moment. I am not critiquing your approach, but I find it difficult to comprehend. Being born and raised amidst an extremely bloody war in a stage red/blue society leaves indelible marks, and I cannot fathom revisiting one's worst traumas without manifesting intense emotions. @Leo Gura I feel like you received more hugs as a child than I did, so perhaps you didn't have such strong urges to purge. During those trips, every cell in my body screams for the release of repressed energy. I've never acted on it, despite having more than ten breakthroughs with this substance, and I'm still struggling to find its value.

Thank you. I completed approximately 85 hours of water fasting, and it was a positive experience. Although I've heard from several individuals that it could be risky, I chose to proceed with it. For my next attempt, I plan to aim for five or more days.

I hold it in by rational thinking, just as I did on my last trip when I decided not to act on my urge to scream.

I didn't want to run or hurt myself. I lay down with my body open, feeling the need to scream. No more, no less. How do you Purge without expressing what you feel in the moment? Saying "Just keep your mouth shut." when you need to scream like that is like saying "just hold it in" when I need to shit. I did it every single time, nonetheless... But I see no worth in it.

Indeed, it does not seem good to interrupt the flow of such tremendeous energy. That's a great suggestion. I'll check what's available here in Germany. Thank you!

Book - Martin W Ball - Entheogenic Liberation And YT - https://youtu.be/Am3ycuA3RlM?feature=shared

Thanks for haring your experience. I’ll definitely be careful when breaking my fast.

Thanks @aurum Why not? What risks are you talking about?

Good points, I hadn't though about that.

Here's the idea: 1. Vape 5-MeO-DMT as usual. 2. Immediately put on an N95 mask over your mouth and nose. The theory is that the N95 mask might trap some of the exhaled vapor, allowing you to re-inhale it and possibly prolong the effects. I haven't explored this myself yet, but I thought it might be an interesting topic for discussion.

Kindle Paperwhite is great. You can also use it to listen audiobooks.

Recently, I've been testing lower doses of 5-MeO-DMT, specifically in the 2-5 mg range. Yesterday, I had a breakthrough experience with just 5 mg, but the onset was extremely intense and frightening. Typically, this is how I respond to 5-MeO-DMT: (I vape it on e-mesh) -2 mg: Visuals of gray spinning cogs, accompanied by a familiar, loud deep background noise. - 5 mg: intense, scary onset as always but now leading to a breakthrough. - 10 mg: I experienced a severe panic attack (I've only taken this dose once). - 12-20 mg: Breakthrough with a smooth come-up. (An infinitely orgasmic celebration, the most hardcore party imaginable, with an endless sense of "what the fuck is happening?") I am not referring to a body orgasm, just lacking the words to describe this I am wondering if other people have smooth come-ups on higher doses? Would love to hear about your experiences. Also, I'm curious if this intense, scary come-up is what @Leo Gura and others refers to as "insanity."

I'm reaching out for some guidance or shared experiences regarding severe social anxiety that emerges each time my ego reasserts itself after a breakthrough on 5-MeO-DMT. To give some context, I was born during a war, and the country I grew up in never truly recovered from the conflict. My childhood was fraught with challenges, including a possible sexual trauma, an aggressive alcoholic father, and a super-religious Christian mother who attributed our difficulties to a lack of faith and insufficient church attendance. This has deeply influenced my life, contributing to a complex mix of abnormal shame, massive social anxiety, depression, and dissociation throughout the first 25 years of my life. In my journey with 5-MeO-DMT, I've learned to surrender to the intense social anxiety that follows the dissolution of my ego during breakthroughs. I try to open up and allow the feelings to pass through me, as Martin Ball suggested me. Despite these challenges I had in the past I lead a functional life today, with my own family. However, my relationships could be much healthier, I could be less introverted, and sometimes my anger issues are quite severe. My experiences with psychedelics indicate that I still harbor unresolved trauma? Any tips or personal insights would be greatly appreciated. Thank you in advance for your support.

Sorry for the super late answer. I couldn't find such a video. My conversion guide is a compilation of various guides I found online. I input this information into ChatGPT-4 to create a consolidated guide, which I've tested myself a few times before sharing here.

A little late, but happy birthday wishes to you Leo. <3

Well said, mate. I struggled with this for several months until I admitted to myself that my life purpose is unrelated to Leo's work. Although it would be good for my ego, I can't do what he does. Nonetheless, I am really good at other things and enjoy doing them. Now, I absorb his content for fun and because I enjoy it, not because I want to become him.

Is relying on a pH test to determine the toxicity of a substance effective? Can we really rely solely on a pH test to ensure that we don't inhale toxic fumes when vaping HCl in e-liquid?

I was also wondering the same thing about using 4-AcO fumarate in e-liquid. Does anyone know if it's safe? Specifically, is it toxic when inhaled?

In my first 15 5MeO trips, I lost awareness and only felt huge energy but couldn't remember anything. It took many tries and testing doses from 2 to 25 mg (vaped) to find what works. Now, 2 mg lets me breakthrough easily. If I were advising, I'd suggest trying several 2 mg doses over two hours to see how it feels. Another option could be a single dose of 5-MeO MALT.