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Please demonstrate a proper technique on how to roll in the sand. @Francis777 @Leo Gura I will attempt this method in the future. "keep your mouth shut and let go of need to scream" Are there any resources, videos, or books where I can learn more about this? Until now, I have only observed my experiences as best as I could and fought the urge to scream, but I haven't benefited in any way by doing so.

It's interesting to see how his trip begins at 54:15 and his ego starts to reemerge at 56:00. Beyond this point, his reactions don't appear to be entirely organic. Nevertheless, he remains profoundly affected.

@Leo Gura@Davino The initial advice Martin Ball gave me was to fully experience and express my emotions during the 5-MeO-DMT sessions. If I feel the need to scream, then I should scream. He even demostrated it on camera. He suggested not to set an intention before the journey, but rather to open up and express whatever feelings arise in that moment. I am not critiquing your approach, but I find it difficult to comprehend. Being born and raised amidst an extremely bloody war in a stage red/blue society leaves indelible marks, and I cannot fathom revisiting one's worst traumas without manifesting intense emotions. @Leo Gura I feel like you received more hugs as a child than I did, so perhaps you didn't have such strong urges to purge. During those trips, every cell in my body screams for the release of repressed energy. I've never acted on it, despite having more than ten breakthroughs with this substance, and I'm still struggling to find its value.

Thank you. I completed approximately 85 hours of water fasting, and it was a positive experience. Although I've heard from several individuals that it could be risky, I chose to proceed with it. For my next attempt, I plan to aim for five or more days.

I hold it in by rational thinking, just as I did on my last trip when I decided not to act on my urge to scream.

I didn't want to run or hurt myself. I lay down with my body open, feeling the need to scream. No more, no less. How do you Purge without expressing what you feel in the moment? Saying "Just keep your mouth shut." when you need to scream like that is like saying "just hold it in" when I need to shit. I did it every single time, nonetheless... But I see no worth in it.

Indeed, it does not seem good to interrupt the flow of such tremendeous energy. That's a great suggestion. I'll check what's available here in Germany. Thank you!

Book - Martin W Ball - Entheogenic Liberation And YT - https://youtu.be/Am3ycuA3RlM?feature=shared

Thanks for haring your experience. I’ll definitely be careful when breaking my fast.

Thanks @aurum Why not? What risks are you talking about?

Good points, I hadn't though about that.

Here's the idea: 1. Vape 5-MeO-DMT as usual. 2. Immediately put on an N95 mask over your mouth and nose. The theory is that the N95 mask might trap some of the exhaled vapor, allowing you to re-inhale it and possibly prolong the effects. I haven't explored this myself yet, but I thought it might be an interesting topic for discussion.

Kindle Paperwhite is great. You can also use it to listen audiobooks.

Recently, I've been testing lower doses of 5-MeO-DMT, specifically in the 2-5 mg range. Yesterday, I had a breakthrough experience with just 5 mg, but the onset was extremely intense and frightening. Typically, this is how I respond to 5-MeO-DMT: (I vape it on e-mesh) -2 mg: Visuals of gray spinning cogs, accompanied by a familiar, loud deep background noise. - 5 mg: intense, scary onset as always but now leading to a breakthrough. - 10 mg: I experienced a severe panic attack (I've only taken this dose once). - 12-20 mg: Breakthrough with a smooth come-up. (An infinitely orgasmic celebration, the most hardcore party imaginable, with an endless sense of "what the fuck is happening?") I am not referring to a body orgasm, just lacking the words to describe this I am wondering if other people have smooth come-ups on higher doses? Would love to hear about your experiences. Also, I'm curious if this intense, scary come-up is what @Leo Gura and others refers to as "insanity."

I'm reaching out for some guidance or shared experiences regarding severe social anxiety that emerges each time my ego reasserts itself after a breakthrough on 5-MeO-DMT. To give some context, I was born during a war, and the country I grew up in never truly recovered from the conflict. My childhood was fraught with challenges, including a possible sexual trauma, an aggressive alcoholic father, and a super-religious Christian mother who attributed our difficulties to a lack of faith and insufficient church attendance. This has deeply influenced my life, contributing to a complex mix of abnormal shame, massive social anxiety, depression, and dissociation throughout the first 25 years of my life. In my journey with 5-MeO-DMT, I've learned to surrender to the intense social anxiety that follows the dissolution of my ego during breakthroughs. I try to open up and allow the feelings to pass through me, as Martin Ball suggested me. Despite these challenges I had in the past I lead a functional life today, with my own family. However, my relationships could be much healthier, I could be less introverted, and sometimes my anger issues are quite severe. My experiences with psychedelics indicate that I still harbor unresolved trauma? Any tips or personal insights would be greatly appreciated. Thank you in advance for your support.

Sorry for the super late answer. I couldn't find such a video. My conversion guide is a compilation of various guides I found online. I input this information into ChatGPT-4 to create a consolidated guide, which I've tested myself a few times before sharing here.

READ THIS FIRST! #### Tips for Improved Safety and Efficacy: - Use the MINIMAL necessary amount of water to simplify the process. - AVOID EXCESSIVE HEAT to prevent the degradation/burning of HCl salt and maintain potency. - Conduct this process in a well-ventilated area to minimize exposure to potentially harmful fumes. - Keeping experiments on a small scale is recommended for safety and accuracy. - Aim for larger clumps during collection for easier handling. #### Required Materials: - HCl salt - Sodium Carbonate (NOT baking soda) - Toothpick for mixing - Soup Spoon as a mixing vessel - Candle for controlled heating #### Recommended Ratio: Use a 4:1 ratio of HCl salt to Sodium Carbonate. For example, combine 40mg of the HCl salt with 10mg of Sodium Carbonate. #### Step-by-Step Process: 1. **Weighing the HCl Salt**: Accurately weigh the HCl salt needed. (I suggest using Micro Scoops.) For instance, 40mg. 2. **Placing the HCl Salt**: Place the weighed HCl salt in the center of the spoon. 3. **Measuring Sodium Carbonate**: Weigh out the Sodium Carbonate precisely. Use 10mg to match the earlier example. 4. **Mixing the Components**: Mix the Sodium Carbonate and HCl salt together on the spoon with a toothpick. 5. **Preparing for Heating**: Light the candle, but wait before placing the spoon over the flame. 6. **Adding Water**: Add ONE or TWO drops of water to the spoon, avoiding direct contact with the mixture initially. 7. **Incorporating Water**: Use the toothpick to gently mix the water into the chemical mixture. 8. **Controlled Heating**: Hold the spoon above the candle flame, stirring continuously. Remove from heat when the mixture begins to foam, but keep stirring. (Do not let it evaporate! I actually got slightly high during this process.) Repeat the process until you achieve a paste-like consistency. 9. **Observing the final product** The finished product should be a moist, tan, clumpy powder, similar in texture to wet brown sugar, with minimal oily residue. 10. **Drying the Freebase**: Spread the freebase powder on paper to dry. It will remain somewhat sticky. 11. **Final Analysis**: After drying, the freebase is ready for further examination. 12. **Storage Recommendations**: Store the freebase in a silicone/glass/plastic container.

A little late, but happy birthday wishes to you Leo. <3

Well said, mate. I struggled with this for several months until I admitted to myself that my life purpose is unrelated to Leo's work. Although it would be good for my ego, I can't do what he does. Nonetheless, I am really good at other things and enjoy doing them. Now, I absorb his content for fun and because I enjoy it, not because I want to become him.

Is relying on a pH test to determine the toxicity of a substance effective? Can we really rely solely on a pH test to ensure that we don't inhale toxic fumes when vaping HCl in e-liquid?

I was also wondering the same thing about using 4-AcO fumarate in e-liquid. Does anyone know if it's safe? Specifically, is it toxic when inhaled?

In my first 15 5MeO trips, I lost awareness and only felt huge energy but couldn't remember anything. It took many tries and testing doses from 2 to 25 mg (vaped) to find what works. Now, 2 mg lets me breakthrough easily. If I were advising, I'd suggest trying several 2 mg doses over two hours to see how it feels. Another option could be a single dose of 5-MeO MALT.

Losing awareness during a 5-MeO-DMT trip, including feeling non-existent, is part of the process. If you're scared, it shows what you need to face. Welcome this fear; it's key to growth. Getting 'knocked out' or forgetting parts of the trip is also normal.

@Leo Gura I've been searching for a course like yours for months without any luck. It was purely by chance that I stumbled upon it. In my opinion, it's worth its weight in gold—a true masterpiece. However, I'm disappointed that despite months of searching with the right keywords, I only found your course by chance. I strongly believe this course deserves extensive marketing. It's a gem that more people need to know about.

I find myself at a crossroads in my marriage regarding the importance of "special dates" like birthdays, holidays, and anniversaries. Personally, I don't hold these dates in high regard. My philosophy is that every day should be cherished and special, making the concept of celebrating these specific dates seem redundant to me. This belief is partly due to my upbringing—my family never placed much emphasis on these celebrations—and partly due to my own mindset, which questions the societal norm of commemorating certain days with gifts and celebrations. However, this has become a point of contention with my wife, who grew up in a family that took these dates very seriously. It's important to her that we recognize and celebrate these occasions, but I struggle to see their significance in the same way she does. This difference in perspective has led to some friction between us. I'm reaching out for opinions on how to navigate this aspect of our relationship. How do you balance personal beliefs against your partner's expectations, especially when they stem from deeply ingrained family traditions? Is there a middle ground that respects both viewpoints? Thank you for your insights.