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Please explain what are these states what they have in common and the differences between them Also how permanent/ impermanent they are thanks

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I feel this way. I also believe 5MeO-DMT at some point changes your base line but it's very difficult to notice. All i know is reality doesn't feel the same way it used to feel before 5MeO-DMT

I'm talking about the God realization what I reach on 5MeO-DMT when I realize I'm the only conscious being and everything is me of course it includes infinity. I assume you can only reach the no-self state during meditation altough I might be wrong about it

Find a purpose and if you can - move cities. Exercise a lot. Be gentle with yourself. Take your time. When I broke up with my first gf it took me 2 - 3 years to fully healed. See it as a great opportunity for self-improvement. Most importanly don't fuck other women to forget her, it will just bring more pain (first hand experience).

It's not who. It's consciousness, if you call it a soul it's still fine, but soul isn't individualized it's universal trying out a new form.

Thank you my friend. The entire town of Banff is an incredible place for tripping.

Nice composition! My first ever breakthrough experience on 5MeO-DMT happened while listening to this

God's creation

Recently I’ve been having profound insights on my relationships with women and their role in my life. These insights were reveled to me on 5MeO-DMT. Please understand that they are personal rather than universal. Since early teenage years I’ve been brainwashed about intimate relationship by my family members, society, movies, music, books. This brainwashing process was happening directly but mostly indirectly. I ended up constructing unrealistic expectations towards women and relationships which led to me constructing neediness and dependency when relating to them. Basically, I created an image of an ideal girlfriend or super nurturing woman and projected it outwards, but I was constantly failing finding anyone who could match this image. When I got into pick up and started talking to women (around 2 years ago) I realized that most of women have nothing to do with my ideas about them and it was rather a bitter pill to swallow, but I completely did it on 5MeO-DMT. The biggest and the most shocking realization I’ve had is this: I was looking for things in women that have always been in me but I was denying them because I was raised in a close-minded society that shames men for having strong feminine traits and I had to deny them in me in order to fit in. I also realized that all the spiritual work, self-development and awakenings I’ve been having for the last 5 years inevitably led me to re-evaluation of women in my life. Also, I’ve been moving countries and cities constantly on my own the last 4 years which developed strong independent skills in me since I didn’t have anyone who could help me or tell me things, I had to figure them out on my own. It’s been a difficult period in my life but also very liberating. Another thing is my value that I bring to relationships. This one is also a difficult thing that I have realized. Women don’t care about spirituality or ultimate truth unfortunately. This is not ideas but things I discovered directly when interacting with them. Those of them who call themselves spiritual are just new-age bullshitters or have obviously incorrect ideas around spirituality (again in my experience). Of course, there must be 1% exception (although it’s what I assume since I’ve never met them in real life). Also, I don’t know any famous spiritual teacher who was a woman, the most enlightened teachers have always been men, but this is not to say that modern men are more spiritual then modern women. I think they are equally deluded. Guys chase pussy and women emotional roller-coasters. Ultimately the need for relationship directly correlates with self-development, but also, I find out that my sexual needs corrupt the way I view women. I tell myself that I am interested in finding interesting or spiritual women or to learn about them or to understand them but nothing can be further from the truth. How come? Well, when I was 6 years old riding my bicycle, I didn’t think about women at all because I had 0 sexual desire. It’s all about sex and the rest is pure horseshit. P/S If you have never had relationships I recomend you do have them because otherwise all of the above will be just another believe system.

Why would you want them adore you?

I'm happy you understood it without having to experience the reality of relationships.

True love is impossible for humans. It only possible with conditions. God is the only true love, the being is it.

What a cutie 🥰 I love black squirrels even more

Hahahahaha lol Why would I want love from women ? It’s highly conditional. Cultivating unconditional self-love is the way.

If I didn’t have sexual urges I wouldn’t think about women more than I think for example about squirrels 🐿️

Nothing wakes you up better in the morning than a few hits of 5MeO-DMT. As soon as I opened my eyes in the morning I grab my newly arrived 5MeO-DMT (I hadn’t done in for 4 months) and I went on my backyard facing Tunnel Mountain (Banff). After a few good hits I recognized myself in the mounting and in the present moment. After having appreciated my infinite beauty and creativity I had a few more hits. In seconds I became so conscious that I realized that I am immortal. I realized that the idea that my body exists in time and is going trough process of aging is a dream. I realized that my human body is eternal and I am imagining my organs as well. It scared me a lot and I didn’t vape anymore. What if impermanence isn’t applicable to my body ? This is so radical but what if it is the way it is ? What if Im imagining being a child and jn the same way I am imagining becoming an old dude ? Now since the 5MeO wore off this idea sounds laughable.

God, God leo tell me if I am wrong or no I still hasn’t transcended your authority for me

I don’t know because I vape and I don’t even count seconds or pulls. I just go as deep as I feel like going and at my pace.

My ability to start entering non-dual states when meditating terrifies me. I used to meditate for 30 minutes straight but since I didn't have any reference experience for being I was basically wasting my time calling it meditation. After having been on 100+ trips I recently decided to get back at meditation but it scares me because I can literally start tuning into being in 5 minutes. It brings about terror that I usually have on psychedelics when experiencing ego-death. On psychedelics ego-death is enforced on me so I do enter non-dual states shortly after. When I meditate I just can't surrender because on psychedelics I know it's temporary but when I do it sober it freaks me out because I am afraid to never return. How do I manage this fear of disappearing while meditating?

I feel like I'm dissolving into the present moment and it scares me because I don't like this feeling of no-boundaries and complete enmeshment. I mean I am okay with being the present moment, but the thing is the present moment isn’t limited at all and groundless and it’s also located in nowhere which also means that it’s infinite. I had a bunch of break-troughs on 5MeO-DMT where I would lose all the boundaries but every time it happens infinity is killing me. It’s like imagine if you were a bottle. A bottle can be of different sizing. It can be small, medium or large or super-large. I’m okay to be all of them because it doesn’t matter what size it is if it has some boundaries at some point but God isn’t like any of these bottles. God is formless bitch and you can fill it out with whatever without stopping. Probably infinity traumatized me 😂

I'm not talking about humans and their ego games or need for stimulation. I'm talking about this precise moment where I am playing the game right now answering you

Well if you are God and you are everything and have everything, what is there that can entertain you? Exactly - nothing. God has its need for self-enertainment. It's addicted to games because it is the way it is.

I once gave my 5MeO-DMT vape to a guy in a park who asked me what I was vaping. He ended up throwing his wallet with all his things in it saying it all was just an illusion and why I created him. He also tried to climb on me (I was siting on a park banch). He returned very quickly though like in 2 minutes. Completely confused and walked away.