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Before we start, I want to leave no room for implicit interpretations or assumptions of what I mean by femininity. I’m definitely not talking about artificial, westernized notion of superior femininity which is spread these days, especially on social media. 80% of the modern women in the west (based on my personal observations and experience) represent this artificial femininity, but I’m not going to dive into this now, neither do I demonize it because we reap what we sow. My definition of femininity goes beyond human understanding and it’s based of my personal mystical experiences in consciousness work. Consciousness is Love and femininity is one side of the duality (and the other is masculinity). Both are Love and although they are expressed differently, they are one. Anyways, femininity is ability to recognize the beauty of consciousness represented in forms and receptivity to be affected by them by feeling deeply into them (empathy and connection). Let me give you a practical example. A few months ago, I saw a girl walking down the street with a small curly black puppy. When she was passing by me, I stopped her, asking for its name. She was a tiny black retriever pup. When I tried to reach out to her with my hand to pet her, she started wiggling with her cute little tail and she got very excited about it. The look in her eyes was pure infinite love behind the form and I was able to recognize it and feel it. I couldn’t help myself and I started crying (just a few drops of tears) because of how pure and adorable she was. This is an example of pure femininity and compare it to an Instagram influencer that gets excited by seeing a new fancy Gucci bag in her reel. Anyways, I’m 29 and most of my life (until the age of 26-27) I had been repressing strong feminine side in me and what I’ve noticed is that a lot of self-help for men lack holistic understanding of authenticity. Men are taught how to become more masculine but the truth of the matter is that not all of men are equally masculine and a lot of them are very feminine and what they actually need is embracing the feminine, because in most cases they are pushing the masculine part, denying the feminine which in return leads to overexaggerated and unbalanced personality rather than authenticity. Also, the more masculine you become the more needy you get for the feminine and the consequences of it are very well foreseen. You become a chaser, you become dependent on external femininity. What you need to do instead is to internalize and develop your inner femininity. When you do it you will become a whole and healthy, independent man. What it takes to integrate a very strong feminine side if you were born in a close-minded and stupid society that shames femininity in men and equals it to weakness? Well, it takes a lot. The more powerful this side is in a man the more difficult it gets, but of course it depends on the society, culture, family. If you are lucky to be born in a first world country, you’ll have it much easier. On the other hand, if you are born in a post soviet country (or something worse) you will face a lot of obstacles.

Dying alone is just part of the dream, we are one forever and have always been one. Enjoy loneliness before merging back into the oneness.

It depends from person to person. In my experience weed can cause some insights but sometimes those insights are not clear or even delusional. The best thing weed did for me in the past where I would smoke it just a few times a year was it opened-up my mind to some spiritual things. On the other hand, I eventually got addicted to it and now I am struggling to quit it. Try it for yourself and see how it goes but be very careful. I recommend you do an edible with 4-5 grams of THC in it. A lot of people smoke too much of it in the beginning and it causes them anxiety and paranoia and then they never try it again thinking that's how it goes. Also, I recommend you do THC:CBD 1 to 1. CBD has a calming effect and will prevent you from potential negative effects.

Hopefully very soon!

I have a question for those of you who are experienced with 5MeO-DMT / 5MeO-MALT psychedelics as well as with long-hours meditation. Have you ever reached God states / Infinite / Love states your reach on 5MeOs but during meditation? Please only answer if you have had direct experience / experiences because i do not want to know about your ideas or believes regarding this topic. Thank u.

Although, I do vape 5-MeO-DMT, I had been avoiding possible breakthroughs because I didn't feel ready and I had had a lot of them in the past and most of the time I would film myself on my phone saying that I didn't want to wake up and I wanted to keep the game up. I have a bunch of videos like this on my phone in order to keep myself off complete awakenings. But I had been feeling so fed up with life as a human and I had been craving God deeply so this morning I was like fuck it, let's go. I took my vape and went outside in local park, I started vaping slowly and gently (because I had been hammered a lot of times hardly by it in the past). After vaping it for 15 minutes (slowly) I did a long pull and booom. Let me explain for those of you who have never head a breakthrough on 5MeO-DMT how it feels like (please don't be a foolish Ego like I was, thinking that breakthroughs on mushrooms, LSD or mescaline are the same as on 5MeO, they are not). Let's start with some common misconceptions and wrong ideas or expectations: 1. You are not going anywhere. 2. You are not entering different dimensions or going to some astral world or whatever. 3. You are not going to see or talk with the old dude that Christians call God or Allah or Buddha or Hindu Gods. 4. You won't communicate with any super-beings or creatures. 5. You're not going to leave your body or see your soul going somewhere. 6. You won't see geometrical shapes, mathematical codes, numbers or anything else from this domain. 7. You won't be able to change or control your experience. So, what happens when you breakthrough on 5MeO-DMT? 1. You recognize yourself in everything that is in the present moment. 2. You become infinity because this present moment is infinity. 3. You lose all sense of boundaries. 4. You become a metaphysical orgasm manifesting itself in variety of forms and shapes. 5. You're recognizing the joy of being. 6. You get terrified by your own self because it is just so fucking epic, magical and divine. I also realized what it means to be your creator and to be you at the same time: Let's imagine you had your finger cut and frozen in a freezer and then you forget about having that finger at all. You go by your life and every morning you open a freezer and you see that finger and you don't feel yourself to be the finger and it looks very separate from you. When you breakthrough on 5MeO-DMT you realize that this finger came from you and has always been you. Now apply it to everything: trees, cars, people, cats, dogs, and of course the space where all these things are happening. Also, becoming or recognizing yourself as the self in everything is a metaphysical feature of consciousness and can't be properly explained or communicated. So do yourself a favor, stop wasting your time reading posts here or youtube video. Do 5MeO instead.

Solipsism on weed feels like emptiness and loneliness but on 5MeO-DMT solipsism feels like fulness and oneness. The first is obviously false and the second is absolutely true.

When I used to smoke weed I would also get conscious of solipsism. The problem though, the weed never reveals the love aspect (at least in my experience) and solipsism without infinite love is prison rather than paradise.

Make me

I like when I get terrified by you, I always want more, please take all of me

I've always been home you are my home

Technically I am your Daddy I trust in myself because I am Allah. I know there is infinite path ahead of me and I’ve been walking it the way I want to. Thank you for being such a great signpost on it.

It’s very clear to me that all my life I’ve been running away from loneliness. I think 99.99% of the people do it as well. All activities that we do as humans are just distractions, even the most elaborated ones like pursuing your life purpose or going on retreats with other people. Everything is designed to keep you away from loneliness. But what is it that we are running from actually ? Today, when I was walking in the park in the late evening with no soul around me I tried to feel deeply how it feels and it didn’t feel good. The way it feels to me is like scary emptiness and numbness covered in overwhelming craving for companionship or distraction. It recently hit me that my life purpose is to face loneliness, the rest is just a distraction from this main thing. The question is what it takes to actually face it and get completely comfy with it ? It’s also very clear to me that most of enlightened gurus haven’t transcended this, otherwise why would they be teaching ?

God feels like 2 at the same time

I think Leo should fly to Canada to do some malt with me in the mountains

It's different for different people. I am sure that 5MeO-DMT changes your brain chemistry but so far the changes have been good. Although, Ego doesn't seem to like them.

Thank you! I will contact you once I find legit 5Meo-MALT in canada

I created you creating a video about 5MeO-MALT, so I will create someone making a vape in the same way. No rush And yes, I can be lazy and I guess I am very lazy, but if I wanted to be a different way - I would've created myself differently.

Actually, when I was really in a bad moood running would always help. Advice her to run, it’s not weight lifting and there is some good science behind running being helpful to deal with depression or negative mood.

Yeah you are correct. I am just misleading people here, psychedelics never do anything and it just drugs. I’m glad you have it figured out without even trying, keep going you are getting closer to the truth!

I am too pussy to do it. What if I fuck it up ? Also finding crystals of legit 5MeO-Malt isn’t easy task compered to 5Meo-DMT I’ll wait until I create someone who can do it for me

You can start doing exercises at home. No biggy. Start with some push-ups, some squats, abs etc. You need to force yourself in the beginning. Try it with some good rock music or whatever music you like.

Go to the gym every other day and exercise for 30-40 minutes + good nutrition & 5meo-dmt once a week.

I hope so!

Thank you! Thanks God in Canada it's legal here. Although, I can't find 5MeO-MALT vape I think vaping 5MeO soo much better beacuse you are able to be very gentle with yourself and even if you vape too much it wears off faster.