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@woohoo123 In terms of being more authentically you I am also in a process of opening up more i would say it’s about honesty. Honesty with how you feel if you do feel vulnerable. That’s okay we’re only human and we need to show that level of openness to the emotion. To feel it more deeply Being honest with your emotions also means being honest with other people. If they have hurt or upset you or there’s something you don’t like about what they’ve done. You feel this. Then tell them. Like with a woman. If she’s beautiful tell her and express that. If she pisses you off tell her that too. Be honest with how you feel by communicating that to others. If they don’t like it that’s their problem not yours. If you know you’re a good person which it sounds like you are then that’s enough. From that you express and communicate honestly As you get older you care less about what others think. Not in a I don’t give a shit about you way no. You are just no longer afraid to express your true emotions to someone even if it’s painful for them to hear. People are afraid of the truth and the deeper your spirit the truer your honesty

@Nick5050 A lot of this depends on the country you live in. Some countries are hideously difficult to find work in like India for instance. Everyone is overqualified and looking for work in the west you should find something that interests you and start from the bottom. Maybe finance and insurance is not an interest to you? I would expand your horizons and look at other possible routes for example if you want to help people then start out as a support worker for instance. If it’s sales, take a stab at a call centre role. it is really difficult because everything is often a tick box. If you don’t tick the boxes it’s game over. Doesn’t matter how great your presentation is or how well you come across in an interview - that’s my experience. You might need to retrain in an areas of interest also really focus on your professional profile. Do you have a high quality LinkedIn profile? Good quality CV that cover not just your skills but a snapshot of your character. Include a photo of yourself. Heck, do a video of yourself talking about yourself and your experience along with what your after and link to YouTube (obvs one of those links that mean that only those with the link can view). do what others are not doing Worth mentioning it’s not always up to you what happens. If you get a job you get it, but if you don’t you don’t. If you’ve done everything you know you possible can to get a job then there’s nothing more to do. Let yourself off the hook. It’s up to the universe to decide. Most things are out of your control all you can do is control your immediate actions. You are not in control of those that interview you or the quality of candidates they have already seen. Let the universe decide and don’t blame yourself

@flowboy Yeh it’s a real challenge. And people don’t understand. I’ve had to straddle having a job as well as working on my business. It has impacted my career hugely along with relationships and the obvs one, finances. Would have been on the property ladder by now. In terms of my job I work in business development and have been wanting to get a job as a business advisor but they ain’t having any of it. Applied for around 6 business advisor roles and haven’t landed a single one. Around half I got to interview stage. Now you would think they would actually consider someone with lived experience of starting a business as applicable experience but they don’t. Not really. They want you to have done it as a direct employment which is just ridiculous. I honestly hate the system sometimes with your university studies this is part of the technocratic system we live in where everything is a tick box and is ‘skills based’ (in other words have you done this very specific thing before?) it’s bs. Public sector is more inclined to do this and the business advisor roles are mostly for state sector. I did go to uni and I would still recommend it on the whole but I understand not wanting to go. There are other options now but outside of doing you’re own thing you have to follow the rules of the game which is technocracy and tick boxes for the most part. The business I’m starting is mental health based. Developing an app on mobile but also desktop along with a physical journal companion. Going for a B2B model primarily. We still need to develop a HR dashboard for organisation login. As mentioned everything takes ages. I’ve been waiting four months for a grant for the journal manufacture! Now got this and now have to wait another 5 weeks for manufacture and delivery. We’ll be going next year. It’s actually all very exciting when it gets going but at the moment it’s just a lot of waiting for me. I don’t put all my eggs in one basket so I still work but my career ambitions are severely hampered. I actually thought about retraining as a teacher but can’t fucking do that. 1 year teacher training it’s just not practical when the demands of the business could increase very suddenly hope your business goes well for you. You live in the states?

A great idea. I started with Cameroon yesterday

Truth is whatever presents itself to me I just yearn for the next phase of my life. Why am I even here after all? Just so many things. So many things planned but cannot fully be actualised until this stage I’m at is realised. Time will tell

Can anyone else relate to things in your life not happening at a steady and continuous pace? I have been working on a business for the last 5 years and we are getting close to product validation stage, but there are so many things still to do and I am not in control of the time line For instance a grant application takes 2 months. Then constant back and forth to get the product spec right. Then the right is ready, then it’s not because the quote has to say something different for audit purposes blah blah blah and so on. This is just one example in an endless list of examples where nothing is straight forward and everything takes x10 times longer than it should I have sacrificed my career massively for my business. I am underemployed ultimately. As a business development officer this is not where I want to be. Why am I still doing this bullshit? I struggle to progress because my business is a constant anchor holding my career back. Totally fed up recently It’s just me ranting off here. The one thing I’d say about starting a business is all the tropes are true. Majority of people have no idea and they do not consider it valid in their world view. maybe some can relate to this? Wish I could just do the business full time but I cannot do this yet until we are in a position where I can take a wage and that is completely indeterminate as to when and if that happens

@Romer02 The average lead time to start a scalable company is around 5 years. I am in my fifth year and we are edging close to trading. We first need product validation, initial client business for investor readiness Personally it’s a god damn long journey. You will get pissed off multiple times if you’re anything like me about how slow everything is. You wouldn’t believe how long it takes to create something truly valuable to both society and people but also financially

@PurpleTree Love yourself more and your reality and you’ll automatically love others more because you’re content in life. This is why sometimes you gotta look after yourself so you can be a strong position to love others and give back. Aside from that deeply connecting with the pain of others

@Sir Oberon ah yes a bit of Jefferson Airplane. I’d love to have lived in 60s San Francisco before the gov decided no you can’t have psychedelics! The UK is so draconian on these things as well. Our politics is very small minded. Glad I have a reliable source

Curious to know how others compare taking mushrooms to LSD From my experiences I’ve felt more ecstasy on LSD whereas with mushrooms I’m in more of a trance like state. I also believe LSD is more extrospective and mushrooms introspective. LSD I would say is better for lower doses especially given its duration and intensity. Good for productivity and creativity on the low-moderate side. Mushrooms better for higher doses I’ve been on the LSD over the summer months this but I’m keen to go back into mushrooms now we’re getting into autumn. Want to explore higher doses with mushrooms see where it takes me

@Leo Gura Yeh I don’t have a great deal of experience to know for sure with psychedelics. Life experience wise I’m 29, turn 30 in March and would say I’m more mature and experienced than the average person my age. I do know from experience I’m more emotional and creative so I can say that for certain which is why I can do a lot of great things that create impact but of course come with getting overly emotional about things that don’t go the way I want. I’m also naturally introverted though can be extroverted on command. I’ve felt less like being extroverted in the last few weeks as the seasons change (again might just be my mind has created that story). One major lesson I learnt on LSD is the majority of my life is out of my control. I knew that intellectually to a degree but felt more real after the trip I had when I contemplated the next day. If I feel a lot of emotion that’s not in my control. The universe wants me to feel that. People tell others to let go and accept but you can only do that if you understand that acceptance and letting go is also not in your control. The universe will decide if you will let go or not because it’s a conscious shift and can’t be thought out. To truly accept something you hadn’t before is a seismic shift in your life But I guess I have no idea. It is all perspective but what else can you do aside with go with how you feel? At the moment I feel despondent mostly because life is not happening fast enough for me. I also get pissed off that I still have to do things I don’t want to do but this is part of building the foundations for my life. I have to be patient I know I know what you’re saying. I’ve seen enough of your stuff about the relative nature of reality and the self deception of the mind. I do need more experience As Ken Wilber compares, I’ve done a lot of the growing up but not enough of the waking up

Interesting discussions I’ve been feeling like I have a lot of emotions that I need to get out of my body so I’m keen to get back into mushrooms. Funny that for me the seasonal changes do align with the drug I want to use - LSD for the summer and mushrooms for autumn. Naturally I find that’s the case. I’m sensitive to the seasonal changes This time of year generally is more turbulent for me. Things are changing and emotionally I’m more inward. Looking for a new job as my contract ends in December, less motivation to be social and also having to balance it all with the business I’m working on. I get impatient and fed up when things don’t progress at the rate I want them to Mushrooms I found better for emotional catharsis which is what I feel I need right now, though i still don’t have enough experience truly say for certain @Leo Gurawhat do you reckon about my perspective on this?

Yep the setting changes so much. I usually go for a walk. I’m lucky I live near a meadow and the experience becomes like x4 more intense being outside than inside having that connectedness with nature. This was on LSD

That’s interesting. I do agree on the emotional catharsis. I remember when I last tripped on shrooms and was in a trance state I was acting out all my emotions LSD is just raw ecstasy when it’s going well. I also get this weird sensation where it’s like all the muscles in my body are aching. Perhaps a muscular release I don’t know

I've taken drops of LSD a few times now from a liquid dispenser. The source I have measured it out so it's one drop one micro, though I've noticed that with each following drop, the intensity of the experience has been increased. First time micro, second time probs a bit more than a micro, third time was the sweet spot and the last time was quite a strong experience The last experience I had grew me so much with both sheer ecstasy but the final third of the trip (I will call it that because it was no way a micro) was quite challenging. I'm very grateful for the experience as it's taught me that so much of life is out of my control. I knew that intellectually to an extent, but as Leo often says, I now know this far more explicitly and how it relates to my life But what I want to ask is about the LSD concentrating - I've even diluted a smidge with gin, and after a few weeks it appears to have concentrated again and I know this because before I could capture the solution in the drip feeder, but now, it barely captures much at all. My source said there is around 40 drops for 40 micro, but there's no way the solution makes up 40 drops, so given the intensity, I can only assume it's concentrating I was going to do a drop today, but my primary concern is I want to know exactly what I'm taking. Personally, though the last experience grew me, I'm not really up for such an intense experience this time round, so I want to be sure. With mushrooms I can be far more sure, but LSD a bit more tricky and with 12 hours it's gotta be right Does anyone have experience of this and how LSD liquid solution concentrates? My experience is the same as a friend of mine who has been doing the drops

The whole measurement of lsd doesn’t mean much to me. Just one drop one micro is all I know - he’s a trusted source. How would I be able to measure the ug?

Yeah shrooms are way easier to measure out but I actually prefer LSD for micro dosing especially. I have a reliable source so I need to ask him about it. He’s only just started supplying lsd I just want to know how much I’m taking without being caught off guard if the intensity is more than I was expecting which is what happened last time. I’m not sure how to measure it out myself. All I know from my source is that he measured one drop = one micro but there’s no way it’s felt like that on the 3rd and 4th drop so it’s concentrating. Is there some kit that can be used to determine quantity of lsd?

One of the problems I find is that I just don’t enjoy going out to raves or night clubs which makes it harder to get in a playful mood. I have friends who go out all the time but I get bored If you enjoy the setting you’ll do better with women in clubs/raves because your feeling of enjoyment will rub off I basically have to force myself to go out. I’d prefer it if I actually wanted to go In the end you just gotta be honest with your emotions. Tell her she’s beautiful or whatever. As long as you’re honest with your feelings and not holding back. If she doesn’t like it that’s her problem not yours. You were just being honest. This is what separates nice guys from guys that are more successful with women imo. Nice guys are overly accommodating and polite but fuck that. They’re not being honest that they actually want that girl Easier said than done though. You have to fuck off social conditioning and norms to an extent and go for it Not to mention getting over insecurities around rejection and looking like an idiot if it goes to shit!

It’s an outdated form of governance based on elitism. It’s not just bad for those of us who feel we have a stake in society and want to shape it but also for those that are born into it. You can just imagine how it distorts your view of yourself and the world and thus your ability to relate if you were born into wealth and privilege like that For less developed societies there are different perspectives but as someone living in a more socially developed society (relatively), I would hate it. Disempowering So no definitely do not revert to a monarchy!

@Leo Gura Sure I didn’t want to imply that you don’t care about people’s feelings just that your approach reminds me of the way Steve Jobs would handle people/situations. Very direct and blunt. Effective in many ways but comes with a cost

I see Leo’s direct approach a bit like Steve Jobs. He did that a lot calling people idiots and stupid around him (of course who even decides what makes somebody stupid or not? We have a bias towards intellectualism over creativity and emotional intelligence) He was great in the sense he had this undivided conviction but he hurt a lot of people. Some people are okay with that and others aren’t. I’m personally not though I’m more blunt with people now. For me it’s a tool to be more decisive and clear and mostly because I’m very opinionated and emotional! I do respect Leo’s apology even though I didn’t need to hear it personally. Leo you’ve given us so much and you are perhaps the one person’s opinion I value more than anyone. You’ve made me question things and see new perspectives and learn great lessons

I find walking in nature really improves the entire experience. Last time I was on LSD my experience just heightened tenfold when I went for a walk in nature. Not just walk but nature bathe

It really is difficult for me to get behind the idea that we have encountered vastly intelligent life where we’ve taken in their crash landed spacecraft but I’m curious and fascinated by recent reports. It seems so fantastical but in the words of agent Mulder I want to believe. So is it that this is being covered up by the CIA and other intelligence services? Do you think Biden knows as president or is it even beyond him to know this stuff? You wonder what his reaction and other presidents would be to the news unless they are not privy to it. I can’t see how they are it just goes too deep if it’s true Another doubt in my mind is that we have these highly sophisticated telescopes all over the world and presumably they’ve not spotted anything to suggest there’s intelligent alien life in our solar system unless that is being covered up too! But some of the worlds best scientists are working with these technologies and no word. You can just throw doubt on anything tbh it’s because I value your opinion Leo that I’m taking a closer look at this. I’m open minded but as I say it almost seems too fantastical to actually be true and how it’s managed to stay under wraps despite these leaks. Make an episode on it! I’m fascinated