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I am beginning to think that I must be an evil character on this earth... I dont want to be, but it seems like all I am focused on lately is discovering my evil side. It seems as if I don't know the power I am capable of and it causes me to feel as though I am not aware of that aspect...

I have the potential for evil. I think I know what the problem is ? I am getting confused.... I think that the fantasies in my mind are real and I associate myself with them ? In my fantasies I am doing evil things, but they don't actually manifest in reality thank god.

Hahahaha ?

How do I ascend past this duality? How do I break these chains? ⛓️

What is??

Can you point out what gaps there may be? I must be completely blind and this is causing me a lot of suffering

I just started watching Owen's videos again and I really like the concept of the collaborative frame when going out. For those of you who don't know, the collaborative frame is a frame where you treat everyone like a family and get out of a competitive me vs you frame and enter into a frame where you want to see everyone win. Including yourself.

There seems to be a major frustration within me I can't let go of.

I am afraid of myself bro. My authentic self is a demon.

So which paradox do I need to understand?

I believe I am a demon and a weak one at that ?

Explain....

What am I missing here??? I am stuck on mental illnesses for some reason. There is one I am not aware of I think ???

Authenticity minus relatability yikes ?

The deepest I am going seems to be mental illnesses. That is as far as I can go My heart seems to be made of thoughts as well ?

What? "I am" is the right answer?

That's scary

I might be subconsciously identified with a character

I will stop lying ?

I am. I lie every day

Discover that dark side within yourself and you will be able to spot it in others.

We are all liars. We lie to ourselves everyday.

I seem to have feelings of hatred for this mind that I have. I believe it is creating feelings of hatred to cause a separation between me and others. I wish to collapse this duality. I am tired of hating myself.

Feel vulnerable you won't get hit?

What gets me pumped. Is getting the potential to create something great with another aspect of creation. I see two people as co-creators of their own lives and I would love to be apart of that dynamic.