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@Leo Gura damn Leo this was very very precise to what I've died to 6 years ago ! And yet I run from it and still crave it , it's a weird feeling that I wanna be dissolved by love but also running from that infinity.. What you said is true , I've died to it couple times but not completely....it was unfathomable! I was panicking everytime I start to yell and scream and curse people and curse everything 😂 it was pure madness but it really felt nice , felt like paradise , since I was seeing both darkness and light was one thing in different forms Nothing mattered anymore but the problem is after the shrooms are gone you are back into the illusion of this world with a wounded ego a dysfunctional ego which doesn't have a desire to live ! How can you overcome that ?

Holy moly .. if you ask me stay away from psychedelics cause they intensify your symptoms, it's seems like you have schizophrenia.... Those jester like visions only come on deep meditation or while using psychedelics, if the dose was high It could last even for couple weeks , I know this because I went through it after doing a absurdly high dose of shrooms! And here I am after 6 years still couldn't figure out wtf happened that night !

@molosku I've experienced Gore visuals about cannibalism, torture, rape , cruelty done to my family and me by me ... Have you experienced these stuff ? They looked like monsters they would bite and torture one another , it wasn't fun at all I felt lost to my wild dark senses I had no control over any damn thing , the world would span around my head , repeated gore thought loops were insane I thought I lost my mind , when you even forget that you took any psychedelics and anything is just hallucinations ..than it would be very difficult to surrender isn't it ? And I mean how can I surrender in such situations, thought loops are be good don't do bad things to people be human don't turn into a monster ... This was my phrase most of the time or it was this Oh nononono noooo If you have a way please share

@Bluebird did you experience dark gore stuff ? Cause I did , it wasn't fun to do cannibalism, torture, rape , and cruelty to my own family , feeling like a devil trapped in my own mind which repeated forever I gazed into their eyes ... they were empty black ... I was alone and the only being there ! It Drove me nuts , I think couldn't let go and fought the experience to the end , my ego was ready to go to hell just not to give up ! It's was a 15g potent magic mushrooms trip lemon Tekked , lol !

@Forza21 have you seen gore stuff , evil feeling ,rape , torture , cannibalism, basically nasty shit on shrooms or other psychedelic high dose trips ???? because I've experienced them on 15g magic mushrooms trip , the sad part was I did those things to my family .... It kept on forever... I was alone and destroyed the reality .. I lost my shit it was eternity of madness and lonelyness , I'm glad I didn't end up in psychic hospital!

@Eternal Unity have you seen gore stuff , evil feeling ,rape , torture , cannibalism, basically nasty shit on shrooms or other psychedelic high dose trips ???? because I've experienced them on 15g magic mushrooms trip , the sad part was I did those things to my family .... It kept on forever .. I lost my shit it was eternity, I'm glad I didn't end up in psychic hospital!

You had many ego deaths but I wonder one thing which is consuming me from inside... Did you see rape torture and cruelty, cannibalism on those insanity trips ? Or is it just my fucked up mind ?

This is science stuff about ((interestingly science is an idea just like we are )) nothing can describe conciseness.....what happens when we take drugs? Who knows ... I do know this we choose to forget everything , it seems okey when you didn't do the drug (idea again!) but when you are in it , you don't think it's a trip , or remembering that you have taken like shrooms or dmt , it literally becomes the reality. A reality which stretches to eons... It could be frightening or loveable , I think it's random but from what I remember it was 50 50 , if it was total terror trip I would lost it forever , laying down in a insane asylum with my scared psyche . waiting for my death The problem is in the trip when I killed myself , it didn't work I was alive again feeling torture and agony , feeling hunger for darkness, never being able to feel complete , like it was a black hole in my heart ... It is frightening to me

@RamPhoenix it was a high dose so ego loss will happen, what you experience on these substances are closes things to what you experience after the idea of you dies but I think the gore part is gone when you get there , cuz there is no fear when there is nothing to protect .... What you mean is the real death(we know it's another idea ) , you don't have memories when you die ... This world is a game as I experienced it , but for some reason in high dose shroom trips , I have those gore visions repeated for eternity which are insane , and when I see them I become judgemental saying omg WTF I've done ... Maybe I'll try tripping in the nature next time ... Home isn't a nice place to surrender all control, specially when the family is home making noises which make you paranoid & hallucinate dark stuff on high doses

Hi , my native language is not English so I apologize before getting started on what I experienced.... I've tripped 100+ trips or more by now most of them were under 4g But I decided to try a huge dose like 15g potent albino a+ mushrooms lemon Tekked ... The thing I saw and experienced was very much hellish like ...lemme explain what it was , at first I felt I was hit by a train or being shot into space by a catapult or smt ... Anyways the trip started with a heavy body load the I that I thought I am started to become multiple people, I heard some voice insulting me ... Than I saw myself in a cosmic sex reaching orgasms which will never end ..things became more and more aggressive , people in the orgy started to hurt one another ripping the others body eating them , I heard a dog bark outside , some man ate the dog , bite it's head off , I heard people getting tortured , beheaded , burnt to death , crucified etc ... , I felt that time stretched , it was infinity hell infinity , I had sex with my mother wtf I fucked my both sisters , tortured my family, I was in my dad's body , after I was done with them I killed them eating their flash and organs ... I smelt shit and blood everywhere like I was an out of control animal , I yelled , laughed like a Maniac. It was pure evil laugher... I felt it ! I didn't resist the urges and it became my downfall , after gaining some sense back realizing wtf I've done, I have seen the severed body parts of my family , I tasted human flesh in my teeth, but I wasn't a human anymore and mostly didn't care but when I remembered , I felt extreme guilt , the world was destroyed because of what I've done , I had insanity loops ... Trapped for eternity , I had no memory of taking any drug ... Being dark and evil was delicious... At the end of the trip I yelled screamed about what I've done I yelled god please stop it , this is hell this is what I done to myself ... After like it seemed an eternity of hellish loops ... I felt a warm loving forgiving energy , and I pissed myself twice , my body was dead meat , not being able to move one muscle , I watched my family members became alive again , forgetting anything that happened to them , I saw my father as the devil's tool and after killing my I became my dad .. before that I became every human every idea no matter how dark it was ..., what a twisted fucked up thing ... I cannot describe WTF was that I had no morality whatsoever , the sad part was that I'd done all of those awful things to my family I believed that I gone insane ruined my life for good , and there's no coming back I deserve hell ... I had the same experience another year on another high dose 6 g ... One thing added I heard a voice saying you humans don't learn even after being punished by your own actions . Btw lemme add this , I saw something like Fibonacci spiral thingy which memories and other light stuff was shining through it , my whole life flashed before my eyes... I felt great hunger , being alone in nothingness sad and broken for eternity.... I cried , yelled .. none stop the whole trip I wonder if Leo or others who took high doses of psychedelics experienced this or am I the only one ? Dear Leo please respond to this I don't know what's going on , what's this , I'm confused, you surely gone into insane mind loops before... please if you can explain what to do when I face these situations in my ego death experiences @Leo Gura