PolyPeter

hum, this is what i would like, but seems like a wave trying to steer the entire ocean. How would you think this can be possible, without forcing anything onto anybody?

survival mode in hardcore mode (maybe?) if you are too busy surviving your own mind, maybe it is difficult to have time for a forum

My girlfriend, she's the only one who's ever watched some of Leo's videos. Every now and then we talk about the topics in depth, and refer to some of leo's videos, even some published many years ago. Watching Leo's content is not only cognitively pricey, but also emotional. So I understand why is not for everyone. I happen to enjoy the dynamic that occurs in my own mind, when following the chain of thought that is presented in the videos. It almost feels like discovering new mind-modes from which to think about things. It feels like going on an adventure and coming back with HQ ideas and precise analogies.

Ontology is King

I think this is too reductive. Islam and Muslim-majority societies contain Purple, Red, Blue, Orange and even Green elements, just like other civilizations. Traditional Islam actually has many strongly Blue features: divine law, morality, discipline and obedience to a higher order. At the same time, certain political movements and cultures clearly express Red dynamics (of the worst kind). Rumi and Sufism are also a good reminder that Islamic civilization has a deep mystical dimension centered on love, ego-transcendence and direct experience of God. So I'd distinguish Islam itself from the developmental center of gravity of particular disfunctional and ugly Muslim societies.

hey sounds like a difficult situation I have no idea or more context, but recently i came across this guy tim fletcher, who talks a lot about ctpsd. complex truama.

I’m sorry but this is genuinely unreadable. There might be an interesting idea underneath it, but it’s buried under layers of unnecessary abstraction, parentheticals, invented terminology, and sentences that keep changing direction before they ever land. I have to stop and reverse-engineer what you’re even trying to say instead of being able to read it. “Istemi towards,” “macrocosmic truth,” “enlightened and conscious cosmic truth,” etc. are being introduced without enough definition or structure for the reader to distinguish what any of these concepts actually mean. If the point is that there are two ways of relating to experience, living through the sequence of events versus stepping back and trying to distill some larger truth from them, just say that. You’re making the reader excavate the argument instead of communicating it. Whatever the underlying idea is, the current text makes it almost impossible to access. Also, check out what Gibson talks about with affordances. There’s something relevant there about how language should make the intended action/interpretation available to the person encountering it, rather than forcing them to reconstruct the entire conceptual machinery first.

wisdom

Epic!! just keep it up. You are on the right track and the reasoning makes sense. Music-tech is very niche

Computer Science is very different from computer engineering, VERY very different. CS is about the foundations, the math, the logic behind the AI systems that we now use. Computer engineering on the other hand is more related to hardware and closer to electronics, which is why it is nowadays not a skillset you will use. the fact that coding itself is changing faast means you get to ride the -changing- wave. dont get bummed about it! but there are many things within CS that will not be of use for your music pursuits, you should check the entire syllabus before going deep into it. What are the exact topics you think you need to know? curious

Hi. i'm 26. I've done CS for 3 years and i my recommendation is: Do not go an do that. hahahahah there is a shorter path towards what you want to do. Nowadays you can claude-your-way into the knowledge that you specifically need. of course some fundamentals will help you. but for music? maybe even physics is better. you can start by asking claude to help you create some VSTS plugins and explain to you how they work. and then even try them out in ableton or whatever daw you use. on the other hand, this will not give you money soon, that's just the current state of the system. people do not appreciate how difficult it is to create this software, let alone distribute it and sell it. if you want money, do something else. maybe just some software development with the same claude. there are plenty of niches that you can choose and create custom solutions for business owners who would pay real money for that. but the human connection is key, you should try and connect with people and see what you can build for them. anyways, this is just my advice, i love music, a lot, but it is hard to stand out and harder to live of it. programming offers a much wider opportunity space for making money. as long as it doesnt drain your soul and your passsion for music, it (making software) can be seeen as means to an end (music sharing).

Hi! @TheGod. Please be cautious with this substance. It has many side-effects and can even induce phisiological depresssion, among other things, even if you are a healthy human. Remember that MDMA is literally a methamphetamine derivative. Having said that, it is one of the most powerful drugs that will show you how to relax. across many dimensions. You sort of see everything with loving eyes. you can be looking at a pile of shit and still be in awe at the fact that it exists, and moreover, not have the usual emotional reaction of the smell, even though you can smell it. If your mind is too noisy, it might literally just shut up that part of your brain that worries, and this, on itself, tells you a lot about how much background noise you have on a day to day basis, the usual human noise, that one gets accustomed to. for meditation, this is a VERY useful tool. Every time I try this, during the peak, I reserve that space to just be. not doing things, just being, in my room, eyes closed, maybe rain sounds, and bask in the recognition of pure presence without any effort. it feels like cheating the biological mechanisms that make your mind go all over the place. I'm curious though, the "spiritual work" sentence, is loaded. what do you mean exactly? are you trying to work on something specifically or just recognize the God that you already are, even right this moment reading this message?

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hey, I smoked changa from a bong many times, somehow i can't relate to people saying it hurts. what hurts is the complete obliteration of the ego. which is metaphysical. 100mg of the blend usually has about 30 to 40% of N, N-DMT. which is enough dmt to, remove the entire filter, for about 6 minutes in human time.

sure but stage blue toxic nationalism covers a lot, hindu, turkish, russian, arguably palestinian nationalism too. so why nazism as the comparison and not any of those? is it a pedagogical cherry-pick of some sorts?

are you not flattening the entire thing? Nazi identity and Zionism identity share the fact that are both identities. But one of them seems far worse.

I'm sorry for your loss. Squirrel hunter will be remembered 🩵

By default, every human alive wants to live. the fact that you are breathing shuold be illustrative enough. what "you" are you referring to when you say this you? the human you? because this question makes no sense once you are enlightened, once you realize, you know that the "Aliveness" part of existence was never the human, but the actual preceding Consciousness. You Die when you recognize what Existence is. and existence TRASCENDS the human vessel. So, coming back to the question: if you are pointing to the human -> then why would a survival machine want to die? if you are pointing to God -> the question makes no sense because God is what makes the possibility of the distinction "alive/death" to exist in the first place

Hi everyone, Yesterday I had the strongest trip of my life. I’m still stunned, processing, integrating. Context: Three years ago I grew my own mushrooms and ate 4 dry grams alone. Six hours of brutal ego death fighting pointy “death mandalas” curled up on the floor under a blanket. I learned what real panic feels like. Forty minutes before the big one I took a 25 mg test hit of changa. Smooth, euphoric, felt like the best weed + clean MDMA ever. Got fully comfortable with the pipe and the feeling. Classic trap. The Fatal Hit: 100 mg in one deep, clean toke. Held 15 seconds. Before I even exhaled I knew I was gone forever. Laid flat on my back. Instant Blindness: Ten seconds after exhaling the same death mandalas from the mushroom trip detonated a thousand times stronger. Ceremonial, aggressive, blinding. No time to calm down. Pure hardcore panic. Fighting for Survival: For what felt like eternity I fought the visuals. Discovered that staying perfectly still made them unbearable, but if I followed strange intuitive body movements (rolling, sitting up, face-down, feet planted on the bed) the mandalas morphed into chrome-neon metallic square hyperspace structures I had never seen before. Kept saying out loud “oh my god… wtf… omg…”. Dying Like My Father: Terror peaked. Suddenly I felt I was dying the same horrible death as my dad eight years ago (alcohol addiction, agony). Deep existential grief and guilt crushed me. Cried inside “I didn’t sign up for this.” The Click of Surrender: Something shifted. The more I let go, the faster the personal self dissolved. Panic melted. Pure consciousness began expanding, the human body was no longer the center of concern. Rocket Launch: Blasted vertically out of my body and house through a tunnel of consciousness. Left Earth’s atmosphere. Brief glimpse of two colossal fractal guardians floating in hyperspace (only fragments of their mandalic structure remain in memory). Saw Earth shrink, then the Moon, then nothing. The Image of the Universe Shrinks to Nothing: Faster than any thought, the entire cosmos I was watching collapsed into a tiny point and simply vanished. One split (human) second of pure, absolute nothingness. No galaxies, no light, no container, no reference. The Absolute Last Void: That nothingness was it. No time. No space. No witness. Just the final, sourceless silence behind everything. The strongest, most undeniable sense of reality I have ever known. And there I was, conscious of it. Completely impossible. Details: Total clock time from exhale to first coherent human thought: 5 minutes and 30 seconds. I used a propper scale to measure the amount of changa precisely. This is absolutely nuts. I know I need to keep exploring this territory, I feel there's more to it, but first I have to fully integrate this hell of a trip. I never expercienced so much Awe, terror, panic, beauty, insanity, and this MASSIVE cosmic view. this experience showed me the power of the universe, how small earth is, the scope of what is possible, the infinite imagination required to give rise to all this, wtf, how is this even possible that I can even write about this !!!! I made a drawing of what I could do with the memories of the mandalas, as they got obliterated by the void, it's not so pro, but I'll share it.

I've uploaded a video. I added some rain sounds bc I like the sound of the rain.

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hm, God is not a thing that acts within an egomind God is what allows the egomind to have a sense of reality in which it appears to be making a choice, acting as some finite thing in a world. it is slightly off to say that one must "become" nothing, because that implies a transformation from a specific form into another, and since God has no shape whatsoever, the statement is not true. you must -remove- the layer that God imagined, within itself, and by removing the egomind, God is what remains, because it was (and is) always the case precisely

God is The Knowing Itself

this sounds silly but is actually God