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My Saudi Arabian Riyal that I kept as a kid.(2005) Now this money had been stolen. I only have a video of it that I took back in 2020. So only a video of it was left.

I am always amazed at the USA one dollar print, it says "IN GOD WE TRUST" I thought America is the place people don't believe in God the most but their money had God element in it.

For my recent travel, Oman, Yemen, Saudi Arabia, all of those are stolen.

I've never been to the United States , but I got one dollar.

Some of the money from Egypt that I kept. I love to keep money from every country that I went to as a child. But half of those money are stolen/went missing. Now I only have a picture of it. I don't spent my money but keep it. As a memories.. But a lot of my money are stolen.. Money that I kept as a child.. I'm gonna create my dream board here. Since it will be hard to print stuff up.

I don't hv any, currently. I just want to hv a toned body, so , working out? Idk. But I'm not able to do this.

I am really, new here. I can't even go anywhere without having my parents to send me anywhere. So, it's kind of weird. To ask them to send me, to any places. I think I should be able to go anywhere freely first. Unless if I was in a different state/city idk how to go anywhere by myself. And I don't think I would enjoy that. Where do I find same-aged people like during hs or university? I couldn't. I guess. Even if I did it will be people younger than me.

I don't know what to do with my life. I'm currently just staying at home. The last time I went to a park was months ago. I don't know what to do with my life. What would make my life's worth it? What do I do to change the quality of my life? I want to work I want to start studying again if that's progress. I want to have a high quality lifestyle. If that meant getting married . And whatever it is I just don't wanna waste my time any longer. I want a workout but needs guidance. A trainer maybe. But idk how I could do this..

There was this spiral staircase. But it's cube. And like a room of it's own. It was very otherworldly. When I arrived at the top, it became smaller/narrower and the floor was dust. The uppermost floor of this staircase was made of Quran. So I was stepping on it. It seems like nobody was there before me. And when I arrived up there, it was a place that's connected to a place like a mosque. (But idk what it is) what I'm sure of is that it is a male's place and I was at the back of it. It's not the main entrance /the main staircase. And I saw like a one guy like a meditator. I was afraid to go in because it was a male's place. It also seems like heaven. People are in white . And it seems like I shouldn't be there. I'm just watching from that staircase. Earlier, this staircase looks like any other emergency staircase. It looks normal and probably small and ugly. But as I go higher the design changed to otherworldly. Maybe because I took architecture. It was very unique and pretty with a lot of squares. Every levels are different and as I went higher I'm almost running, I go faster as it was exciting until the uppermost part/level which the floor was made of Al-Quran and it was dusty. I just went up. And saw this entrance to what seems like the back or a random connection to the wall of this place. I didn't went further but just looking through the wall/the little opening. I feel like I am disturbing that one person. So what do you think this dream implies?

I don't know how to start. I feel like I wanna live alone in a nother different country. For a while. For a few months. Just living alone. Owning a house or something. How can I do this?

I thought you're young. Like 23

@Sidra khan how old are u? And what do you work for? (If you don't mind telling)

I see others seamlessly transitions into adulthood. And being independent while I couldn't (or don't). How can they do it? And it seems like all my siblings are like this. They couldn't really work a real work. But something like, private teaching, travel agency and business (reselling things).. I don't know. Because that's not like the normal job. Like if you're a teacher then teaching at school. Or something. It's unofficial.

I find this to be totally amazing. It's good to live just simply. Having a house in another country. A quiet place. Even though the place is simple, you have a place completely to yourself. Like an escape.

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I wanna lose weight so badly. But I don't think I can do it on my own without a proper training. The past weeks that I'm dieting and exercising , I don't think there's any apparent changes on my body. Except that I lose just one or two kg. That's all. Idk. I wanna have a toned and fit body. I don't like my body now. This, is my ideal ;

6:54AM 090323 I'm afraid of childbirth and pregnancies.

I hv my nephew constantly asking for my phone. Probably going shopping after this. Need something. And I also think about renovating my room. Make it more customized. Paint it other colours. Idk. I just want to feel good. This room isn't mine I just changed my room sometime this year. So I wanna make it look like mine. This time around.

I'm really eager to work . I'm tired of not doing anything. I want to buy a small car so I could drive everywhere.

Today is already September and I wish I could start something new.

Why would I be in a cabin in the woods? I am thinking of working. One month is a long time I could do a lot in one month. How can I be sure that I'm not wasting those times. Doing nothing. What if I was murdered, in the cabin?

@Princess Arabia I'm twenty-seven~

Then help me create one. What should I study and where should I go? (University) The highest degree that I hold is a pre-university and the degree I didn't get. I'm interested in photography and film making. Other than that, back when I was young, I'm into traditional art. And was able to create a lot. But now, these days, it's hard to make even one. So I've stopped. I don't know if I can start again into making arts. I also like getting into fitness these days. And style.

I don't get free gifts for food it's entirely on my parents. If I work I would be rich because everything else is on my parents. I could spend the money on myself~ But, I don't know what to work....