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I don't know what to do with my life. I'm currently just staying at home. The last time I went to a park was months ago. I don't know what to do with my life. What would make my life's worth it? What do I do to change the quality of my life? I want to work I want to start studying again if that's progress. I want to have a high quality lifestyle. If that meant getting married . And whatever it is I just don't wanna waste my time any longer. I want a workout but needs guidance. A trainer maybe. But idk how I could do this..

There was this spiral staircase. But it's cube. And like a room of it's own. It was very otherworldly. When I arrived at the top, it became smaller/narrower and the floor was dust. The uppermost floor of this staircase was made of Quran. So I was stepping on it. It seems like nobody was there before me. And when I arrived up there, it was a place that's connected to a place like a mosque. (But idk what it is) what I'm sure of is that it is a male's place and I was at the back of it. It's not the main entrance /the main staircase. And I saw like a one guy like a meditator. I was afraid to go in because it was a male's place. It also seems like heaven. People are in white . And it seems like I shouldn't be there. I'm just watching from that staircase. Earlier, this staircase looks like any other emergency staircase. It looks normal and probably small and ugly. But as I go higher the design changed to otherworldly. Maybe because I took architecture. It was very unique and pretty with a lot of squares. Every levels are different and as I went higher I'm almost running, I go faster as it was exciting until the uppermost part/level which the floor was made of Al-Quran and it was dusty. I just went up. And saw this entrance to what seems like the back or a random connection to the wall of this place. I didn't went further but just looking through the wall/the little opening. I feel like I am disturbing that one person. So what do you think this dream implies?

I don't know how to start. I feel like I wanna live alone in a nother different country. For a while. For a few months. Just living alone. Owning a house or something. How can I do this?

I thought you're young. Like 23

@Sidra khan how old are u? And what do you work for? (If you don't mind telling)

I see others seamlessly transitions into adulthood. And being independent while I couldn't (or don't). How can they do it? And it seems like all my siblings are like this. They couldn't really work a real work. But something like, private teaching, travel agency and business (reselling things).. I don't know. Because that's not like the normal job. Like if you're a teacher then teaching at school. Or something. It's unofficial.

I find this to be totally amazing. It's good to live just simply. Having a house in another country. A quiet place. Even though the place is simple, you have a place completely to yourself. Like an escape.

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I wanna lose weight so badly. But I don't think I can do it on my own without a proper training. The past weeks that I'm dieting and exercising , I don't think there's any apparent changes on my body. Except that I lose just one or two kg. That's all. Idk. I wanna have a toned and fit body. I don't like my body now. This, is my ideal ;

6:54AM 090323 I'm afraid of childbirth and pregnancies.

I hv my nephew constantly asking for my phone. Probably going shopping after this. Need something. And I also think about renovating my room. Make it more customized. Paint it other colours. Idk. I just want to feel good. This room isn't mine I just changed my room sometime this year. So I wanna make it look like mine. This time around.

I'm really eager to work . I'm tired of not doing anything. I want to buy a small car so I could drive everywhere.

Today is already September and I wish I could start something new.

Why would I be in a cabin in the woods? I am thinking of working. One month is a long time I could do a lot in one month. How can I be sure that I'm not wasting those times. Doing nothing. What if I was murdered, in the cabin?

@Princess Arabia I'm twenty-seven~

Then help me create one. What should I study and where should I go? (University) The highest degree that I hold is a pre-university and the degree I didn't get. I'm interested in photography and film making. Other than that, back when I was young, I'm into traditional art. And was able to create a lot. But now, these days, it's hard to make even one. So I've stopped. I don't know if I can start again into making arts. I also like getting into fitness these days. And style.

I don't get free gifts for food it's entirely on my parents. If I work I would be rich because everything else is on my parents. I could spend the money on myself~ But, I don't know what to work....

I'm not studying. I don't know. I just never look for one and didn't know how. Maybe it's where I'm at. But I never work. Will I get work if I moved somewhere else? What kind of job would suit me ?

Or is it still worth it? I'm 27 now. Will I be good? I don't feel like doing this as much as let's say earlier this year. But I still would think, that it's better than not (doing it). What do you think? Am I still capable of doing it at this age? Or will my ability be different now than what it used to be? I don't know. And if I start studying, should I go for oversea? Or local university? This is not considering the cost. Idk.. I hv no idea about the process. It was easier when I finished hs. The path is already laid before us.

H²o

Drink lemon? water. I got sick a few times this year and this had worked. In reducing my symptoms.

This thread is quite old, that I don't truly remember what I've wrote.

I am currently don't know what to do in my path so help me choose on what should be my next journey. Idk what I can do or what's possible for me. I've talked about wanting to go to a university before but my mom said she can't afford it. It had been the case since I was young. so I went to a public university instead of a private. When most of the courses I'm interested in are private. So in the end, I didn't even finish my public university..it was too much. I'm not used to. Even though I've been in it for quite long. (5years) Then I stop. Now I'm thinking of taking a new course again. I'm twenty seven. So idk if it's still alright. I've been doing nothing either this year 2023. I'm thinking of working but didn't know what to work. Or how. To get into work. How can I look for work I'm bored with my life now. Cv. Resume.

@Spiritedness I will.