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These are the four phone cases that I bought. So that I wouldn't have to buy a new one when one wears out. And I don't know which one to choose so I buy four.

I feel old when I hit 27 years old. But surprisingly right now, I no longer feel old. Or maybe Im just getting used to it. My 18 year old body was the best. Or maybe because I work out back then. (Last year, when I started doing physical activities, it doesn't feel like when I do it when I was 22. I feel the difference. Maybe I can get back to it. It just that I haven't been doing physical activities for long) And I regretted all the time that I'm not travelling and doing stuff.

I want to get fit so badly.

Definitely not gonna eat something heavy today. Spicy fast noodle. My mom asked me if I wanna buy anything from outside and I said no. I had a trauma of eating. I will get sick if I ate too much . Every. Single. Time. So now I'm only eating fast noodle. Eating shouldn't be my main priority in life. I used to eat just for the sake of eating when I'm in university. And I was so good. My life is healthy. While others have spent a lot for food (/cravings) I have spent a little for food. Food doesn't interest me. Despite any festivals, I eat only once a day. And just for the sake of eating. I walk a lot. I do a lot of other works. I wish my life can be like that again. I am so trapped right now.

I pitied them all. If this happened to be untrue..

Dreaming about dragons. But also, my body is full. Feeling like vomiting. 10:24AM I'm feeling sick 11:19AM I am so sick right now. I think I need to change my room. I had vomited a little. I wish I would have vomit more. 12:42PM I almost black out. And my head feels hot. I need to lie down on the ground as soon as possible. Getting to my room. I tried to wake up and do things but the same thing happened. Blackout. I need to just lay down. I went out to save the kittens from ants. But as soon as I'm done I feel this. I can't be exposed to sunlight. I couldn't. I need to drink some water. But idk. I don't know if my fasting is cancelled or not when I vomit. I think I had to drink. 12:55PM it's not good to be sick. I should eat right. Not overeat. Never. Huh? I should eat very little and walk a lot. When I'm not sick. Couldn't walk like this. I can't go out. 1:23PM I can listen to songs while lying down though. Whatever that comes to my mind. Exo-Monster Blackpink-Hope Not. I don't know why these songs comes to my mind..

I am so bored. And these days I am not feeling too well. Sometimes my heart will hurt. Physically. It is as if ,

I may have to buy an artificial sunlight lamp.

This is the amount of difference between my old room and my new room. We change. Somehow. and I wanna change back. I don't know. I really don't know....

I've got quite a few weird dream. I've been getting weird dream lately. Meeting up with old friend. There are a line up of people around. And... I don't know. Going back to x. I got several dreams. 3:16AM There's Taeyeon , my sisters (we all went to the same university) and quite a few weird instances..

I also want to fit in a treadmill into my room. The amount of things I wanna buy if I had money. 👀

Sometimes I don't like living here , the amount of things that are not available here. But maybe it is just me.

I am not dissatisfied in my current room. I'm not..

There is no privacy living in my original room.

I want the big room so that I could fit in more things in that room. There was a big wardrobe in that room but I think I wanna change it to smaller wardrobes. Though my mom said that wardrobe isn't going anywhere 💁🏻‍♀️. I don't like it since it was first being bought. Too big. For my room. Idk I want a sofa in my room .

I am like a fish out of water moving into this small room. Because I am used to the bigger room. I don't know

A small room won't be as expensive as a bigger room. But I don't know . No matter what I do, this room will still be small.

If I have work, I want to make my room heaven on earth. To be the most expensive single room in the middle of nowhere. I don't like my original room because it is next to my brother in law's room. Even though it's bigger. But I think I'm fine with this room. Even though it's small, I want it to be a heaven on earth. IF I move to the next room , I will apply a sound system. To be completely sound proof. For now, for this room , I want it to be the most high quality interior. But idk. It's small. And only if I have work. Before I create my own home. I want this room to be good. I was just unsatisfied. And I don't like the bathroom . I wanna change everything. (I like my original room's bathroom:( ) *Applying this wallpaper*

The best place to live in : Middle east?

But I don't know where to locate myself. Should I live here which is not my place but the place that my parents had decided to migrate to? Or should I live somewhere (x) or should I live at a totally new place ? Idk I can't imagine where I would wanna built my house in , or where I would wanna live in .. Maybe , at this moment , I wanna live in x. That is the best decision. If I were to live here but in a different house , I would rather not. Because the only reason I'm here is my fam. If I were to live separately somewhere a few km away , I'd rather not. You better not. It will feel really weird. We can't be neighbours either. Really weird.

I saw a lot of influencers building their house , and my mom too building our house back then. And I want to built my own house too.

I want to move to a different house.

I want to buy : DJI Mini 4 Pro Dell XPS 17 (highest spec) Sony ZV E1 It costs $7350

And you take the lives of others that's why you're still living.

And the reason of death would be others taking your life's. Essence? Or your spirit. Or your soul. Your breath away. The Muslims call these others the angel of death but I call them others. Because it is literally others killing you.