theleelajoker

Don't get the question, you're hinting at no self?

Yes, similar experience. Once it was getting slowly sober again from a Club night on MDMA. She appears right in front of, just arriving when I am leaving, meeting at the wardrobe. She's looking gorgeous, super sexy, great vibe, so goddamn my type. She teases me a bit, challenges me a bit...I know what's happening but my mind is like a pudding. She knows it. She leaves with a smile like "you had your chance, but you didn't show up, now I'm gonna go and (maybe) get any guy I want" I think I also asked for her number but she laughed it off...and I get why The reason..well, I think it's a feature of reality. It's the game. I tease you, I show you what could be...and then I leave! It keeps us all engaged in the game, in reality, right? The story you tell your friend "holy shit she was so hot, she was interested but I just could not do it... next time I'll do this and that!" And then, from time to time, the opposite happens, they basically jump on you only thing you need to do is to not run away lol + What @Schizophonia wrote. Wanting vs. having.

Ok I was about to write it's not true... but I remember one time where the girl clearly had pleasure teasing and rejecting me 😂

Had good ONS. Had shitty ONS. But best sex was always when I met the woman more often, building intimacy, trust, understanding, harmony, balance over time.

How is it possible to understand sth that is changing every single moment? Your understanding will always be one of the past, won't it? The moment you "get it" it will already have moved on, and because you understand, this understanding already changed what is, reflecting your understanding, opening the next, and the next door to change, and so on...

Point taken, I would NOT love the physical experience of pain in your example. I would scream and beg to get out this. But then I can unconditionally love the part of me that hates this painful experience?

Yeah what you do here IMO is describing "the rules" of how things work. When you say "optimal adaption" then I would add that this WAS optimal, and now it's time to further adapt. Hence the price we are paying, forcing us to change. Maybe you meant it like that, don't know. Action, action action. Every single action connects with another one, reality HAS to synchronize I my experience. All you need to do is act, and then carefully observe. Once I became aware of this, everything changes. So, we know the rules of the game, now it's time to play

During my last ayahuasca trip, something strange and unexpected happened: I got much less high then I expected. I took another round, still not much happening. It's was certainly not the Ayahuasca itself as the shaman doing it with me got very high. I had a certain feeling, a subtle message that accompanied my experience. Don't try to get into high states, don't seek this extraordinary stuff. Engage with what is. So the your question: Psychedelics or not: How do I create lasting (permanent) changes in my state of consciousness? My answer is: Be aware. Interact. Act. Act. Act. Act. Take action. Be aware. Take care of yourself. Take care of others. Engage in physical 3-D reality. Maximize love for yourself and others. Whatever your understanding of love is - towards any human, friends, family, partner, strangers, colleagues - maximize this. Other then this, Vipassana as mentioned above has been HUGE for me. But it's training camp, not the real game. Action, action, action and awareness is key. Life will put you into situations where you have act. Raising consciousness will happen as result is these actions. ❤️

In support of your statement: http://www.cosmicegg.org/intervista lilly1.pdf Not saying everything he says is necessary true... but re descriptions and explanations of reality it seems to me he did invest a fair amount of time and energy to look for answers...only to realize it's best to stop looking.

Love this 😂😂😂

How you know this? You met every human that ever existed, exists and will exist? Are you telling a story to justify your own POV? See the comments from @Breakingthewallabove. Be what you want to see in the world as best as possible. See what happens.

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Got to get me a new wine bottle opener

What's the alternative?

Sad for whom? Definitely not for me. And why be sad when I'm happy?

So, I was into truth above all most my life. Ok, truth seems to be, we are these appearances and sth beyond these appearances. Truth seems to be, that there is oneness. And what now I'm asking myself? Well, as of today my POV is: either my persona wants to be here, or there is no other choice than to be here. Whatever is the case, I rather take the sugar pill, believe it's medicine, feel good and embrace the experience as best as I can.

"person", as far as I know, stems from "persona", which has associations along "mask" , "shining though", "actor" , "character", "appearance". Giving your profile pic, you probably now this. So as far as I am concerned, these terms are true. I am aware of my appearance, of my persona. Are you saying there is no appearance, no person? Isn't it true that there is something appearing in your field of awareness? I breath,eat, sleep, live, love, cry, talk, etc etc. I look to my right, there is another appearance sitting next to me in the restaurant. And while my persona is here, I rather live as happy and as best as I can, whenever I can. If you know magic tricks to make all appearances go away, let me know I'll watch you performing the trick

What's the ultimate truth in my example above?

This website is what's it's you make it about, Leo does whatever he does. I do whatever I do. Is "truth" objective? Think of the placebo effect, one person believe it's medicine and other believes it's a sugar pill. One person heals, other one stays sick. What do you prefer?

Yes. Doesn't matter if it's true, as long it's useful, as long as it makes you feel better

You writing about slavery and exploitation reminds me: When I came Jamaica the first time some years ago, I noticed a difference in the eyes of many of the Jamaicans, men especially. There was an aggression, an anger, but als sadness that I haven't seen in the eyes of a typical European. At some point I read that majority of Jamaican has historical connection so slavery, and got the theory that this energy in their eyes is (also) the long term effect of this. I recently met a Brazilian who told me she feels like she's still feeling the slavery and repression of her country by the Portuguese in her body and psyche. Bottom line is this: Taking a bigger picture helps me to not see all my pain or suffering as purely personal, but also as a process that has roots in family, culture, history. Less "it's my fault, I create my own suffering" and more "ok this is simply happening, not my choice, not my doing, just got born into this" I can see the analogy re tiger and kitten, but maybe the tiger doesn't need to wake up? Maybe we can evolve to make life less about survival, and more about being happy? And re multiple dimensions: yes that's my intuition, too

Are you happy with this state of reality? Is this reality, or is this how you project reality to be? Are you the one being different, doing things different, are you acting to make a difference? Who cares about "people"? What about yourself?

Yes. Well said IMO. If you are everything, you need to be OK with EVERYTHING. If you are everyone, you need to be OK with EVERYONE. I once read sth, took me many years to even start living it. I had to experience it, gradually, slowly. Still do. You either love everything or you are not loving at all ❤️ When I forget, this song reminds me: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_beMNKTL_rc

For me, when I started to gradually realize oneness, to slowy dissolve ego, some questions came up: Who am I trying to impress? Who am I (potentially) cheating, lying to? Who is acually judging? Who am I afraid of? How do I believe it's possible to hide ANYTHING? Is it even possible anyone else is NOT feeling what I feel right now? What's the best, most authentic, most loving, most caring action I can take right now in the interest of all? I am part of all, so how can I create WIN-WIN whenever, wherever I am conscious, whenever I am able to? Not sayin I am doing that all the time..I likely fail as often as I succeed..but it's a direction I am aiming for.

Yes I think so too. It's always updating, always evolving.