Schizophonia

I often do push-ups so if I have energy i can exceed 50 push-ups (real ones) in a raw. But i never do pull-ups. When i trained a little to do them when i had the opportunity i had managed to exceed 10 but only in supination. Today i could probably do few pull-ups in supination and one in pronation lol.

You can't make a family in the first case.

In Lithuania?

Photo under high doses of 5 MeO Mipt as a bonus (the second) It's Christmas before time.

It's a too complicated egregor lol i don't want to get into that. I know a guy who supposedly got depressed after being cursed and was cured by Filipino healers. What a mess for nothing.

Day 2 I'm proud i has been able to sleep 5/6hours tonight, not because i didn't success to sleep more but because i agreed to get up at 6:30 instead of staying in bed like i usually do if I wake up early; It's almost like i could hear my higher self whispering "Hey, do you want to go back or not?" in a somewhat yang way. The biggest message of insomnia is detachment, the typical energy of self-abandonment that i can find in my father who also sleeps extremely well. Sleep doctors don't go far enough when they explain to you that you must "agree to don't sleep" to actually break the sleep anxiety and finally be able to eventually fall asleep, they are bad psychoanalysts lol. The real question is, are you ready to give up everything? Are you ready to never have a job or to suffer there, maybe never have a girlfriend, maybe never do "important" things in general because of fatigue? And it is paradoxically when you have answered yes to all these questions, all these morbid eventualities, that sleep anxiety and compulsive thoughts finally disappear enough to be able to finally sleep and allowing you to habe the energy to conquer your life. The key is really to stop worrying too much about anything, anything stressful, that involves a power process. Of course this doesn't happen in one day, it's a whole set of fairly neurotic patterns that need to be gotten rid of, i should have seen a psychologist a long time ago but I'm stubborn, i want to manage everything by myself. This is the big difference between "yang" , masculine energy, and "yin" energy, feminine; Men are not more attached to their life than to their power and the libidinal force (who is actually stress, technically) is essentially redirected to cultivate its own deadline. The man wants to cum and if he deprives himself of masturbation, he will lose his mind in work, he will make sure to buy big cars to feel as comfortable as possible, he will naturally seek to find his "cocoon", men are also more comfortable becoming homeless because the worst is not to lack comfort but to be free, but potentially to have comfort but to be a slave to another man. My new goal for today is to practice one hour of visualization per day, and half an hour of meditation. I want to be financially prosperous but also, as i already said in my first post, physically. My maya is a bit at the level of Temu when it comes to what he has to offer for health lol; I know all the nootropics and supplements possible and especially for brain health (NSI 189, Dihexa, Cerebrolysin, Semax, Isoxazole-9, Racetams Nicotine and other cholinergic compounds, Methylene Blue, megadoses of vitamin b1, Melatonin...) but all have a certain financial cost and potentially unpleasant side effects, and none seem to have miraculous effects. It is indeed Joe Dispenza who is the only personality i know who can make people recover their full health even when a stroke has exploded part of their brain, they have had terminal cancer, they suffer from infertility or any autoimmune disease. Joe is a scientist who rationalizes as much as he can via relative concepts like the placebo effect or epigenetics, but behind this mask which is now essentially there to attract skeptical people he is essentially a non dual thinker and explains here and there that beyond appearances, duals and relatives, it is in fact about becoming sufficiently conscious again via meditation exercises to return to a more divine state and manifest, even materialize results in the maya, even in an urgent condition (from the ego). Joe or no Joe, meditation seems to be the only practice that yields powerful physical and mental results depending on how it's done, meditation doesn't mean much in itself, and it's free.

😬 That's why i have pianist fingers glove snap* And me the limit of dirty jokes.

You can stalk me i don't care lol, as long as you don't annoy me by spamming me, being insulting or something like that. I actually think most people are flattered that someone is interested in them.

I would keep the food and remove the coffee.

I was teasing because a normal person wouldn't bother going incognito to not be seen or something like that.

Thank you. I actually want to do videos, but as i've already said to you once i don't want to lay a cringe shit. So it will be a surprise. Oh thanks, you're smart too ; A very classy women in general. No it's because you don't produce semen (i hope).

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I confirm the autism.

Becoming ~stinky~ This frog needs the best care. Ok good scholarship* mea culpa

Because of your futur knowledge in biology. Indeed the bailiff must squeeze to test the prolactin level 🤏🤠👌 Ok too much lame joke for today. You mean you're self-studying while working or you're joining university this fall while receiving a scholarship? I don't know how the stock exchanges are in Sweden, probably bigger than in France.

The only advantage of neuroleptics is that they are less addictive i guess, especially compared to benzodiazapines. I know someone who had cyamemazine instead of benzo for that reason. You'll be able to manage to have even bigger breasts ahah. Still planning to go to nutrition school when the situation is better?

For some reason you inspire sympathy to me.

Yes, but i try to explain psychoanalytically why people refuse to "take the throne", as you say. It's neurotic conditioning.

Joe Dispenza is actually at a non dual level, his genetics thing is basically a strategy to attract more skeptical people and in fine the majority of people.

Because his psyche has conditioned itself to enjoy (by the Oedipus complex, and by extension later traumas) in a regressive manner (anal sadistic stage for men, typically). "Negative" thoughts (of impotence) are favored because positive ones will induce more "phallic" (masculine) behavior that is perceived as dangerous because of the excessive castration anxiety distilled by limiting beliefs, and in general by the system installed by the bad progress of the Oedipus complex.

LSD always brings me to the same place.

Yes ! A lot of promiscuity very easily, it's not rare for a girl at a party to get taken by several guys lol. There is also the fact that it is a poor country, people do not have much to do for leisure except have sex.

Yes, but then they dominate you sexually and energetically in general. Ultimately i prefer my shy little white girls.

I know some people who have lived in Brazil or other South American countries and they are like that among themselves too.

I can do the bailiff for science. 🤏 🎩 🤏 📸 🦵 🦵 Jk I know, i meant it could eventually make it worse. Idk. Benzodiazepines do the same thing with less side effects. Or even ketamine (if legal), gabapentin, Buspiron, TCAs, even antihistamines. Cool. I don't have a good theoretical understanding of nutrition and biology in general, strictly speaking i'm more interested in neuroendocrinology and endocrinology in general.