Schizophonia

Once when I was like 16 I took 200/250mg of tramadol in the evening and the next day I spent the day throwing up. 😅 I was with a friend in front of a doctor's office and I threw up a lot, a guy asked me if I was going to clean up I said yes yes and I left lol. Never again. The best thing I tried was a medium dose of LSD, I went into samadhi on it. Why cocaine? Is it so recreational? Isn't it neurotoxic btw?

Day 41 I started listening to music again, but it's really not good; Firstly, obviously it reduces your cognitive abilities and your motivation, by accustoming your brain to enjoy a continuous flow of information. Secondly because like any addiction, it is fundamentally about letting yourself go to your usual egotistical echo chamber. My introducer to psychoanalysis, Richard Abibon, would find his definition of the death drive there; Endlessly recreating the trauma (PTSD or simply ruminations in the neurotic, immobilizing behavior in general) to find yourself as a subject, paradoxically it would therefore be a narcissistic approach. I listen to music to force a state, a frequency; Even negative (anger, sadness, ruminations in general) to put myself as an actor; And conversely, I refuse here and there to be more proactive and rational, because that would make me disappear as an ego and that is what death fundamentally is. The goal, the game of this planet (or at least of the organic beings who live on Gaia, as the perched would say lol) is not enjoyment, it is essentially a Russian doll in a fractal model of freedom of experience and humans play the game of survival so much that it gives these wacky configurations. All life is wacky, completely twisted; the human ego is a Gordian knot and ultimately the humans who will be able to change will be those who are ready to die.

I don't like it too much because I feel like it makes me less intelligent, has no libido, and sleep is weird and feels like teleportation. Ahah.

You have very little chance of dying from benzos unless you mix them with opiates, alcohol, barbiturates etc. All benzodiazepines do is slow down the central nervous system. Most of the time brain damage is caused by stimulants like amphetamines which generate a lot of oxidative stress.

You like benzodiazepines? Ethanol and metabolites are directly toxic but benzodiazepines are chemically harmless, and maybe I'm wrong but I don't think that simply increasing GABA neurotransmition is neurotoxic. Alcohol has a complex pharmacology but some benzodiazepines like Xanax come close. I've never tried gabapentinoids. It sounds like you're a regular drug user lol.

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Ok Nat the locomotive. Vaping is not associated with lung cancer or the other problems associated with cigarettes. Then it's hard to say because a lot of centenarians and healthy people smoke around the world; the first tobacco users smoked in South America didn't get cancer. You also have studies that show that people who live in cities actually take in a lot more particulate matter and carbon monoxide than a smoker, which is weird. I guess it depends a lot on the quality of cigarettes, if the diet is high in antioxidants, and that kind of thing; I don't know.

No they do it because it's cool to pay 10€ the pack. 😅 If you really want try take some dunhill, or even lucky strike they are "light", take small puffs. Then you do what you want but it is expensive and addictive so I would keep it exceptional or not at all. It's light yes. Cigarette is stronger than vaping because tobacco also contains MAOIs.

Coucou, thanks for your intervention. Are you interested in the topic?

Why directly increasing GABA would be more toxic.

Why ?

I have an electronic cigarette but I never use it, it's annoying to clean and I don't like turning myself into a human steam machine. I'm also wary of vapor products and for the taste. Doesn't want to smoke petroleum derivatives from the asshole of China modified to taste like "cookies and cream" lol.

Hi. The taste is ok depending on the brand, I like the international Dunhill red even if they are a bit strong. But it's mainly for the effects yes; It both puts me in a bit of a cool vibe, a bit "yo yo" lol, and makes me proactive/calms the rumination. Coffee stimulates me but it's a bit of a robotic, even antagonistic vibe. I must smoke two packs a year, like at Christmas and my birthday; It's ok.

lol this topic

I see.

I don't understand the idea of watching calories; it seems like such a meaningless way of life... Just OCD.

Spot on.

No need to be mean. As far as I know the testicles produce a limited amount of sperm per day and ejaculating exhausts it. If I ejaculate more often my ejaculatory volume will be lower.

Low libido, and low testicular and ejaculatory volume (among other problems outside of sexuality) = Closed Svadhisthana.

What weight do you target btw ? Oh you don't imagine 😂 But it doesn't matter, it doesn't bother me.

Day 40 People think that their personality has been essentially influenced by experiences during childhood, but it is an illusion; Always the same dualistic illusion. Traumas, or more simply unpleasant experiences (as pleasant, experiences in general) are only the manifestation, demonstration, corroboration of a belief system already installed upstream; Like everything else in the maya. Any attempt to explain a phenomenon is an illusion.

Actualized gay/queer are horny ahah. Yep; Spot on.

Yes, Cronometer also count micronutrients. I used too at high scool, but it was especially because of OCD 🤔 Autistic facial spasm* Yeah I don't know, it doesn't seem very relevant + If i was you i wouldn't look for losing weight but i already said it.

But the AI can't see my brain, my most calorific/strong organ eheh. Only my alien @Sugarcoathas this privilege😎; Otherwise it's 200 euros for a signed photo, 300 for a featuring with Willy. SEPA, Monero or BTC idiotfacestickingouttongue*

Indeed i was very interested in nutrition in the past but in fine i prefer eating what i want; I like eating and cooking so i don't want to make too much efforts there; I just don't smoke (actually sometime buy a pack lol, but's it's rare) or drink, take vitamins/minerals + omega 3 capsules, and eat a fairly balanced diet. I snack a lot, but if I want to save time I stick to one or two meals a day, I don't care about the meal schedule, I eat if I'm hungry or have time. What I eat changes all the time but if I had to make one big representative meal it would be something like this: -50/100g of salted and roasted cashew nuts (or peanuts, cheaper) as an appetizer. -Two minced steaks (250g in total) 15% fat fried in a little butter/olive oil or a large pork chop (cheaper). -100g (weighed raw) of wholemeal pasta with about 10/20g of butter. -A small chopped tomato and some lamb's lettuce mixed with a , tabasco and dried garlic powder to taste, a little bit of cider vinegar, and a big tablespoon of olive or walnut oil, a few walnuts. -A can (33cl) of coca cola or pepsi. -Plain goat's cheese yogurt, without anything, or with a sweetener; For example quince jam. If I have more courage to cook I could cook two bananas cooked in butter with rum at the end of cooking, and a goat yogurt on the side, or even vanilla ice cream, yum. I don't care. Fortunately the world is fundamentally subjective because I would have died with all these egregors available (diets, parasites, heavy metals, microplastics, atmospheric pollution, prana, black magic...) lol. I lift too, but i never take protein powders.