Schizophonia

I know, but it's not necessarily about the kink. I mean the fact that the girl is acting out to boost my ego can seem overwhelming in general, and it seems weak because you're giving a lot of weight to her approval. I'd prefer maybe a quiet girl, so I'm the one who can grunt as much as possible, "take up space."

It's already very good, you are clearly not in the worst possible situation. For the rest, you can get rid of your electrical devices in such a way that you can no longer use them anyway; you give away your phone and replace it with an old Nokia without internet, you give away your headphones/headset, you make sure you can only use your computer once a week, or with parental controls managed by someone else... Generally speaking, you give yourself the option of no longer having access to it, the same goes for food. Recently, I read an article about seminal retention and acetylcholine; a guy had used this article as part of his promotion for his chastity cage, to prevent people from masturbating and preserve their masculine strength. As long as it works, ahah.

It's very recent; it started by "playing" with my psyche, as I explained in my journal, but I've developed a tendency toward suicide; it's a kind of strong attraction that comes from guts. Like it's almost Christmas or something. The problem is that I don't want to hurt my family, and I'm stuck with my narcissism in general (Valentin is too attractive and intelligent, has experienced too much to commit suicide; it would be a waste), and you don't know what happens after death. One possibility, btw, is that it's precisely this narcissism that creates this attraction. And it turns out I'll be reincarnated in the same life, or a shitty one. Another option is taking certain drugs or practicing BDSM (I will finish by coming across as a weirdo, lol, think of me as a consciousness technician); maybe a mixture of the two. I was talking about it somewhere once with @Nilsi So as to be able to approach a state of death and total relief, but with safety. It could also be more casual stuff like jumping out of a helicopter, going on a roller coaster etc; but that requires more courage.

For me, being happy comes from having a project, a tomorrow.

I will soon do a more thoughtful topic on this.

So now when it's not me who annoys @Sugarcoat with my lame jokes in pm it's you lol. Thanks. I was looking for something less heavy to read than my usual stuff so maybe I'll take a look.

It depends. I also have a kink (I'm vanilla most of the time eh😅) to pay a girl to do what I want her to do, like an object or a slave for a set amount of time. Sexual services on demand, introducing her to cigarettes or drugs without her being able to refuse, dressing how I want, saying what I want her to say, giving me her social media login details so I can interact with others in her place, etc. Why not vice versa btw, even if I prefer to be dominant. Your fantasy doesn't allow for the greatest letting go, because even if your wife is making a big deal about how you're a god and blablabla, you're still fundamentally in a performance mindset, therefore "submissive."; and she too must make an effort for this comedy. Btw borderline women tend to be pains in the ass.

No pb Ok mine too

eheh

Do you will have sex with a ugly and or fat women because she is "honest" ?

Because there are more obsessive-compulsive neurotic men than women, due to the Oedipus complex. People with stronger-than-average anal sadistic tendencies are more likely to be attracted to spirituality, due to defense mechanisms against incestuous temptation. But libidinal regression precisely prevents phallic behavior. This is why spiritual men are actually weaker, less masculine than average.

@Javfly33 GMT +1 or + 2

Lol if you want.

Charisma comes from self-honesty

@Puer Aeternus Be aware, what must be precised is what is subject to doubt. What needs to be symbolized is what has not been integrated. And the engine of the ego is symbolization, so you will not be able to manifest a girlfriend as long as you have this mental discourse; because the frequency of romantic love is contradictory to this frequency of demonstrating sovereignty, because everything you have said no longer makes sense in a frequency where you have a girlfriend. The only way to win against the ego is to refuse to feed it, the simple fact of responding to you, of holding you up as a mirror shows that it has not been completely integrated in me, it goes that far eheh. No attachment, no display of power, no feeding, ever. You can easily get a girlfriend like that; let's be cynical even if you are ugly and fat you can always improve yourself, even have plastic surgery. Asperger's syndrome is also easily corrected via therapy, psychedelics and medication (less good solution; Asperger's and autism in general is essentially high anxiety.

Tldr ?

The more I stop getting attached, the more typically masculine I become, but also more morbid.

Chasing is masculine, but climbing is feminine. To avoid becoming suicidal or sociopathic when you realize that no one wants you; Because you’re ugly or too this or too that… Especially if the rest of your life is generally hard.

I talk about what feeling love is fundamentally about

Me at philosophy school 😎

Normally in 2/3 days, if you see each other at work or high school as op has said, you can date a girl, I don't see why anyone would wait.

I would say people and especially men are less interesting by receiving attention than having the right to give it. Right to give love, under different forms according to your « language love » and gender.

I would make this explicit within the first week or two depending on the frequency of contact. 🤔 And if she is not intererrested then we can being friends but i will allow more energy to find someone else.