Schizophonia

I hope it doesn't trigger, but I would like to know if it says you something. Indeed you may appear less "cute" in the photo you looks healthy in the sense that given that you are healthy, you appeal less "energetical charity"; you makes use want to save you less, because there isn't something to "save anymore". The question then becomes how to attract attention, enjoy as a woman in general, without being in an emergency situation; and this strategy is adult female sexuality. And it's there, in genital sexuality (in the sense of Freud's stage of psychosexual development), where there is the most pleasure, the most love. That is to say, okay, when I see photos where you're skinny, I have a reflex to find you cute, to hug you, etc.; but that's poor, it's like giving 5 euros to a homeless person. Whereas if you were healthy and this time you act more (you can always play with slightly childish postures; women are generally more like that anyway) in a mature way, that is to say, for example, by keeping a journal of yourself where you wear pretty dresses, where you smile, etc. So here you'll be playing at a clearly higher energy level, but because this time people will want to hug you/caress you voraciously, make love to you, etc. Sorry if I sound grievous, but in the end, we always come back to archaic, universal sexual issues. I haven't read much about anorexia but I remember i read that it's essentially a fixation on childish strategies, which is in line with my idea. Not necessarily prohibiting yourself from playing at "being saved," but adding more "voracious" masks to your persona that will make you tend towards a naturally "bigger" and healthier character; if what I'm saying makes sense. A bit like with food when you leanr to eat more healthy: don't remove the pleasure foods you're attached to; just add salad on the side.

Ditto

Can you give examples if you don't mind

I respond tomorrow I'm not forcing myself, I'm just curious. A mixture of savior syndrome when it comes to women, and my clairvoyant Inspector Gadget game. I guess

Yea but I'm racist so I only eat white baguettes.

Can you explain what you mean by being in danger/vulnerable No pb eheh

Worked for what

Tell me if I trigger things, if you want details...

You look better when you're healthy, the photo in 2023. Idk if it's that but you can also be cute, fragile even being normal or overweight. It's not like you need to be skinny to appear cute, and therefore attract, if not be perceived, that way; it's an illusion, if that's what you're looking for. Otherwise, you can also try to detach yourself from this identity, this "type of emptiness" for something else. For example, less "cute" and more "sexy." Both are possible, even overlapping; you can play with several masks at once depending on the context.

Have fun looking at people's avatars. Ofc. Otherwise i I would have already manifested love glory and beauty

@Judy2 You're so cute and you wake up my savior syndrome when i see the photos. You deserve to feel good and be pampered by a good social group and/or man, according to your wishs. Stop wasting your time on food; I assure you, it's a complete waste of time, and you gain absolutely nothing from it (unless you believe you need to be like that to be entitled to a similar level of attention or something like that). The photos are old but you said you "relapsed" so I imagine you're skinny again Eating more should also greatly reduce your stress by dampening stress hormones (QED) and boosting the hormonal cascade.

Someone who plans ahead

No, a true alpha male knows how to be compassionate. No, nothing beats the French country baguette.

Maya is the materialization of the concept of self, everywhere and all the time. Just look at your PP. Most of the time, you can see people's problems in their PP: they complain about some phenomenon, but they create a PP that reminds them of this phenomenon. A problem only ends when you stop paying attention to it, stopping identifying with it.

@Joshe I'm not making fun of your point of view; I just wanted to joke a bit. I basically said what I had to say on page one; I could make another serious response if I have an idea.

No me strong, me having won the club battle and me having biggest wily, me being actualize alpha male

Me rock me masculin male. Me doing club battle with males to have actualized woman.

Al hamdulilah

Yes, exactly. Probably because when I (my ego) become small, "castrated" (of certain signifiers), well paradoxically I am dispossessed of castration anxiety, so there is no more "void" to fill. I am once again "full of myself," even if it is anger/bad feelings. It's a good question. I would say that feeling empty is a sign that you don't want to seek the phallus, and probably what's behind this (unconsciously) is exaggerated castration anxiety. And if your brain functions in a way that manages strong castration anxiety, even if it isn't felt because of defense mechanisms (hence the feeling of "emptiness"; I'm bored because I don't want to do things that make me happy, I don't make myself happy because in the end I'll be useless, I'll be humiliated, blah blah blah), well this will induce more feminine behavior, even fantasies. Either you believe you have the phallus and will automatically, systematically take the dominant position; or you believe you are not phallic and you will tend to more or less project the phallus, instead of identifying with it. Here we're talking about sex, but it's at all levels. Thanks my mouse. Give a piece of Comté.

Scenarios 1 and 2 amount to the same thing: it's about feeling the emotion of failure, of lack (castration). If you want to do something with your life, to move in a direction, you must automatically contemplate and digest the difference between your current self and your ideal self. If you don't want to feel it, then you end up living life through defense mechanisms that protect you from it; this is neurosis. To feel powerful and function in the sense of pleasure, you will regress to an archaic libidinal functioning called "anal sadism," (or oral, for hysterical people typically) where the phallus (not literally, not just lol, but the usual signifiers like a beautiful woman, a big car, sports activities, etc.) is substituted by "excrement." What you call victimization and rumination in general is a false "scatophile" phallus. It's frustrating, but it protects you from castration anxiety (being humiliated, hurt, etc.); unconsciously, that's what it's all about. The phallic position is the position used to fight castration. Men are generally more "phalic" than women; that is, when a castration scenario presents itself (lack of money, lack of sex, drama, boredom, etc.), men will normally directly seek to suppress castration anxiety, passively (through acceptance) or actively (making a plan, being proactive). Whereas women will remain passive and endure the anxiety, or preferentially transfer it onto a man. In cases of poor Oedipus complex development, trauma, etc., a man may also chronically fail to adopt the phallic position, which will generally lead to passive and feminine behaviors and even fetishes in general (due to the weakness of phallic dynamics and regressive mechanisms). Castration anxiety is the fear of losing power. The phallus, as Lacan would describe it, is the ultimate signifier hidden behind the various objects of desire. Someone who doesn't have the phallus is someone who doesn't have money and/or a woman and/or a PlayStation 4, etc.; what we consider the phallus to be is individual; it is the frustration that signals castration anxiety.

You can say the same with everything

What we intuitively consider being masculin is actually lowkey the appropriation of the father’s phallus (by imitation) during oeudipus complexe.

A man can be very sensitive and still be a functional person; be strong and attractive in his way.

France is the country with the best gastronomy in the world, with the greatest variety of landscapes, with the most monuments, with the highest political culture in the world (the majority of people become politicized from high school, there are no taboos on debate, there are tones of candidates in the various elections from Stalin to Adolf Hitler), no culture of hypocrisy in social relations like in the United States, social security, and a generally green population. Here I'm promoting my country, aka the best country in the world 😎, but you can be happy in Europe in general.

Awakening is a hobby.