Schizophonia

Mostly there’s just more money flowing per person. My small tourist town in the south of France is more expensive than any cool big city in Thailand, but I don’t think that means more people want to come here/that there is more fun here lol. I’m sure you can find everything in Texas.

It's true. My ego is a bit ruffled because I’m right-wing so I end up saying things wrong, mea culpa. What worries me is the laxity regarding immigration and security. I know that things are going poorly in certain places in California and New York because of the Democratic administration. The new governor seems to hold leftist views on immigration he opposed "Lone Star" for example, so by default if I were American, I would have voted for Greg Abbott.

Too much cocaine for you

If it's to do like in California or New York no. Btw you don’t live in a blue state.

Day 3 People who call others fascists have a fascist energy about them. People who call others homosexual are all the more likely to be homosexual themselves. People who perceive mediocrity in others are mediocre themselves. People who see pigs in others are probably pigs themselves in some respect — they may, for instance, be able to demonstrate that they are not pigs in one particular sense because they are thin, while nevertheless being sexually perverse, constantly wanting a big car, a big house, and so on, thinking only about money or fame... People who perceive a lack of masculinity in others in fact lack masculinity themselves according to those very same criteria. And so on and so forth. Why? Because what is it that drives individuation? Why does person A find themselves doing X, while person B finds themselves doing Z? Well, because X belongs to A, and Z belongs to B. I do something, or speak about one particular thing at a given moment, out of a (theoretical) infinity of possible objects, because it is that particular thing which concerns me. And by "problem" we must of course understand a lack, a deficiency. A materialist account of this phenomenon can be proposed: there is a brain whose primary imperative is survival, and which therefore focuses on one object rather than another because it has registered that this object, its presence or absence, is of paramount importance to that very survival. So why do some people perceive stupidity in others, for instance, while others perceive any number of other qualities, whether negative or positive? Because those concerned perceive others through their own lenses, through their own neurons, their own nervous systems which have evolved over the short or long term to manage their limitations in the world. Limitations which therefore also constitute their unit of measurement namely... stupidity. There is thus a non-dual perspective to be found in materialism, but also of course, and this is generally how the idea of non-duality is approached in spirituality and philosophy, an idealist, monist perspective. Since I am God, then in reality, in the absolute, the intuition of separation from the other, the very notion of a relationship between "subject" and "object", is an illusion. And the "I" of the ego, which believes itself to hold an opinion about something, is in fact holding an opinion about itself: about its own creation, insofar as it is the source of that creation (and therefore, ultimately, about itself). The divide between infinity and the finite, between God and creation, is itself always an illusion of separation, an illusion of duality. This could explain why extremists on opposing sides can sometimes resemble one another: rather than embodying what they advocate, they are in fact projecting the responsibility for their own egos onto others which in fact renders identity fragile; once again, the closer identity is to the self, the more solid it is and vice versa. A left-winger who sees fascists everywhere might come to recognize this mechanism of projection and move further to the right. The same could happen to a right-winger who sees "weakness" or "irresponsibility" in others. I clearly have a right-wing bias, and I often have a problem with left-wing people (projection). Once I'm truly living my ideal right-wing lifestyle (children, hunting/fishing, entrepreneurship, etc.) the mirror will automatically disappear. Or perhaps I'll move towards the center, or just being deinterested by politic and the mirrors on both the right and the left will disappear. I don't know. It doesn't matter we'll see.

Day 2 Most philosophers are full of shit; they think they're philosophers because they have an eccentric haircut or wear eccentric clothes, because they wear custom-made high-neck sweaters, and because they throw around phrases like “according to philosopher X” with an intonation that makes you think of the 🤔 emoji; lol. People sometimes ask me “Oh, Valentin, you're so handsome and strong, but also so intelligent! How do you manage to be so intelligent?” And yet I wear white shirts with the sleeves rolled up that I bought at Zara like some fucking insurance company manager, I drink Red Bull, I sometimes smoke Marlboros, I'm poor, and my meals consist mainly of bread, salad, and pork chops. A good philosopher isn't an aesthetic; it's a good mental illness! I grew up in a family where trauma and by extension neurosis ran rampant at every level, and just as you can't automatically make good jam in a microwave I unfortunately inherited the whole karmic domino effect. My parents' messy, violent separation; fucked-up events here and there in my family; the intergenerational inheritance of trauma from my parents and ancestors in general anyway; getting picked on later by classmates or ranked last on the girls' list because I was a bit overweight and weird; extreme levels of constant stress throughout middle school; then eating disorders in high school that pushed me to do tons of fasting out of fear of getting fat and becoming repulsive, and to jump back and forth between one diet and another out of paranoia; then insomnia in a large extent because i used testosterone thinking it was going to improve my body composition and so make me more attractive, and improve my sport performances. To begin with I was very introverted, schizoid, and generally weird because of the stress and my overall warped, conflicted view of the world and other people. What probably saved me was that I was still lucky enough to have generous and fairly kind parents who, despite everything, always allowed me to enjoy material comfort and generally speaking gave me the opportunity to retreat into a corner and “process” things. I'm like an exceptional mixture of alternating states of extreme anabolism and extreme catabolism. Because I'm like this, I naturally became interested, like the other lunatics of my kind lol, in the law of attraction, psychoanalysis, and “spiritual” fields in general, which is what brought me here. I now believe that a good creator, and therefore well a good thinker, is above all someone who as Leo would put it is non-conformist. In other words I believe creativity comes from selfishness. I don't really believe in creativity as we might imagine it actually; I think the concept is too illusory, a bit like the idea of free will. The two ideas seem to be quite closely related btw. What I do believe in, the point of view i like to see though is karma's one, that guy who supposedly channels an alien's voice through himself (Daryl Anka, with Bashar being the alien) seems to agree with me to some extent when he talks about “following your passion.” I believe that when we're aware that we're selfish, when we accept that point of view instead of denying it by labeling ourselves altruistic (or “cultured,” “decent,” “developed,” “serious,” etc; the underlying idea being to put objects before the “self”; the self of Ramana Maharshi), then less time is created. We slide further through infinity in the ultimate direction of our karmic chain (bearing in mind that creating time by outsourcing the purpose of our actions to external objects and in reality to forms and limitations in general is itself part of karma!). And this manifests in the human field of experience as greater creativity and a greater ability to think and write things that are interesting and actually hold together. Why would you struggle in a debate, or how could you say things that are false, if you simply stuck to what you want? What you want is what you want period. The self is tangibility (in it-self), and therefore cannot be deconstructed. It cannot be humiliated or deconstructed; the only thing that can be wrong is what passes through the ego, which pledges allegiance to forms and limitations.

I am a potato

Lack of sleep can make you more uninhibited

You are what you project, that is to say not “tier 2”.

@LordFall You push your agenda in relation to your kink lol.

High-functioning autism is at its core basically essentially anxiety. This explains the fixations, the introversion, and by extension the delays in learning social codes as well as delays in certain aspects of neurological development in general. Anxiety is in general a "widening of the gap in representation," as Lacan might put it; that’s why women wear things like garter belts it’s about stimulating attention by disrupting the way the female body is represented (by men). When it's severe autistic individuals may end up doing some rather strange things; I remember an autistic student at my high school who would do things like stare at a hallway light switch while "scratching" it lol.

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A post-a-day challenge for November. I will likely repeat myself compared to previous posts but it doesn't matter this is an exercisein written expression. Day 1 There are always people telling us how to live, and sometimes people telling us what to eat. Sometimes they're carnivores, sometimes they're "primal," sometimes keto, sometimes high-fat vegans, sometimes high-carb vegans, sometimes high-carb omnivores like Denise Minger, sometimes high-carb vegans who mainly eat starches like Dr. McDougall, sometimes fruitarians, sometimes both like the somewhat well-known athlete Durianrider, sometimes fruitarians or almost fruitarians who eat a lot of fat, like Markus Rothkranz, and sometimes balanced vegans like Dr. Greger. Sometimes they're "outside the box" to not say lunatic. Other times they're pretentious narrow-minded scientistic types. Do we really need to bother theorizing about what we should eat, or can we simply trust our instincts, provided we're paying attention? If we just let ourselves go are we really going to end up stuffing ourself with Big Macs and smoking Malboros in our underwear in front of the computer lol. And besides if that does happen is it actually bad? Some foods officially considered healthy have caused me major problems like legumes, conversely Coca-Cola is easy to digest and has pro-metabolic and anti-endorphin properties thanks to its caffeine content. Even tobacco (I'm not recommending smoking lol) has anti-stress and antidepressant properties. Bryan Johnson is the perfect example of what I'd call a misanthropic mindset; manipulating the body according to supposedly objective criteria such as associations between a given supplement or food and a reduction in inflammation, blood pressure, or some other parameter. And since these same parameters are also associated with greater longevity, so out of "transitivity fallacy" taking those supplements and eating (or not) those foods must should be a good thing. But things like inflammation are bodily responses, and the body, in an absolute sense, is simply trying to achieve its own well-being and maintain homeostasis. Let's assume just for the sake of argument that it's purely a matter of chance. But well by chance this particular individual developed an autoimmune disease, along with other issues such as reduced thyroid function. My father has spent his whole life doing stupid things. He's a Handyman in a small- to medium-sized town in the south of France and even today, just to keep going or simply out of habit/pleasure he relies on painkillers (first tramadol or codeine, now milder stuff), red wine, Ricard (a typical southern French anise-flavored alcoholic drink) and one or two packs of cigarettes a day lol. And yet he doesn't have the problems Bryan does! To get back to the topic, I’m drifting a bit, if I listen to my "instinct" I don’t necessarily crave refined foods; it varies. I find that the more I’m in a contemplative, passive, or stoic state, the more I crave sweet or mild things; typically what Ayurvedic science calls "sattvic." Conversely the more I lean into "active coping"; the more hypomanic or passive-aggressive I am, the more I crave heavy foods, like red meat or a big burger with fries. This reminds me of Ray Peat’s discussions on serotonin; "passive coping" might correspond to a neurological state of low serotonin levels or high 5-HT1A receptor signaling, whereas "active coping" involves high serotonergic neurotransmission specifically via the 5-HT2A receptor. It might seem paradoxical but "passive coping" is the neurological (and by extension ego-related) configuration that best supports a healthy endocrine system and consequently erectile function. In this context "passive" must not be understood as "doing nothing" or "being merely receptive"; rather it should be understood as being detached/with less ego. Cortisol increases energy/mania, active coping, but precisely conversely decreases for exemple testosterone and thyroid function; what preserves you/makes you strong in the run. I recently discovered tofu. At first I was wary because I’d been "brainwashed" by the "bro-scientists" on the internet who claimed it was estrogenic. In reality studies show no anti-androgenic effects (such as a decline in the hypothalamic-pituitary-gonadal axis or impaired spermatogenesis); actually soy may even have anti-estrogenic properties since it’s inversely correlated with the risk of breast cancers that feature estrogen receptors. It’s inexpensive, highly nutritious, and tastes good. Soy milk actually feels more "natural" and never gave me an explosive shit in the middle of the forest (tru anecdote lol) at the opposite of "raw Jersey cow’s milk". Silken tofu has a texture like flan or egg whites but while actually tasting better in my opinion. Firmer tofu is like chicken breast, yet also tasting superior and less dry. Ditto same goes for TVP (textured vegetable protein).

If this person is so nuanced then he can surely acknowledge that people have no desire to see others looting businesses and destroying establishments out of pleasure or to vent their frustrations, and that indeed most of these individuals are not white, just as most people who commit crimes and offenses are not white; even though the average Black or Arab person in France is in all likelihood a decent human being. To improve long-term conditions one must encourage entrepreneurship, attract foreign investors, ensure the country is secure and not overly burdened by debt, that people do not have the opportunity to take drugs and so on. But he certainly does not want any of that because it runs counter to a left-wing agenda and the possibility of greater redistribution right now. It’s like this whole thing of blocking right-wing influencers on Instagram lol all supposedly as part of an electoral strategy. Politics aside it’s hard to be happy or move forward in life when you’re that on edge. Sometimes you need to step back and practice tolerance; not the "fake" kind where you just project your own intolerance onto others, but the real kind where you can simply choose to keep your distance if you want to, recognizing that the other person is just a human being and that, in any case you have your own happiness to focus on.

Things aren't going to get any better, because the more awake you are, the funnier you get!

Better to kidding here and there that saying turbo racist things

A real family man. I hope you don’t shave off your crown.

Lol he’s an anti-white racist who looks like he has smoking crack.

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Why would a president be on cocaine when he could have legal stimulants.

It’s basicall like taking a SSRI

Crack psychosis

Red or Orange ya. Sometimes there’s some green; that’s called white-people rap.

You're right we're real men. We don't lark

Being smart and handsome like me