Schizophonia

If I didn't have social pressure, I would probably look like a homeless person (big unkempt beard, baggy streetwear, combat boots, beer and cigarettes lol...) In the meantime, I have a very classic style, I think; I just keep it clean and presentable. I don't care about "me", "me" has no interest; What interests me is the other (a woman, the homeland, a car, a frame...) I want a very sensitive girl who likes flowers and teddy bears, so I can be her daddy. I know one of the best-placed French-speaking members of the Global Information Network; he can basically manifest a woman whenever he wants. I recently saw an unlikely video of him with an 8/10 Slavic woman, while he's a 5/10 with a worse French accent than mine and a hair on his tongue; when he asked her why she agreed, even though she basically never agrees to sleep with anyone, she replied with very simple and strange things like, "I don't know, I knew it would be good with you." Super trange.

Thanks for the reference, i will think about it for my birthday eheh. Why do you wear perfume? What's the point? I don't understand, actually. Do you think it really attracts women in a decisive way?

What's your problem ? He said he still had existential dread when he took 5 MeO, but that was a long time ago; So maybe that has changed.

Lol. To me most perfumes shampoos and soaps, even for men, make one look gay/bourgeois, even though I'm quite a stickler for hygiene. That's why I don't like cannabis at all; I prefer the smoky, woody, chocolatey smell and taste of tobacco. I have rustic tastes in general comrade.

@Judy2 Your photo was good + Yes coffee can easily make you anxious, depending on the dose.

Are you still afraid of 5 Meo?

It is not because he is cocaien addict ? 😅

@Nilsi He experiences his libido in a particularly split way, it's neurotic.

Mea culpa, it was because you said somewhere that you buy your own organic tobacco or something like that.

I like soy milk, but I've never had anything with tofu that tasted good. It's also expensive where I live.

@Sincerity You seem like a cool guy, it’s fine. It is a neurotic regression to think that the world must have meaning/purpose. It's just a very realistic and twisted sandbox. Ramana Maharshi helped me to be less crazy. Mhh

Everyone is creative in their own way all the time. Even the way you sleep is creativity. It's just that in the collective unconscious, the word "creativity" refers to a specific group of ways of being creative. Generally "bourgeois" things (music, painting, photography, etc.). The proof is that just a few years ago, we were still wondering if video games were art; And that's me, a "conservative," saying that.

JP's work is as good as a microwaved meal, lol.

No one is going to cancel on you because you're looking for a girlfriend in university.

Because of the ego.

I leave my delirium and start interacting with them like normal humans.

@Princess Arabia You told me you smoke a pipe, right? Maybe I'm confused. I just bought one.

You've grasped the underlying energy of my message: I have been desperate in love and mistreated by the maya (myself) in various ways, it was just a little excess of frustration I'm not going to lie and pretend otherwise, but now it's about orienting ourselves towards the concept of self that we don't want, eheh. Let's just say, and this is also and above all true, that in any case, I'm relationally sedentary. Perhaps, surely, this is the case for you too, even if you've been an escort. We wait for the right person at the right time; we don't want to manifest shit for everyone. And that's noble. Archetype of the prince as Jung would say.

Niceeeeeeee Jk.

Not me. It's a waste of time, it's exhausting.

That said, "feeding on prana" = Yet another rationalization (relative construction, and dual, in the divine imagination) which in fact replaces and therefore suppresses another (the need for food, oxidative metabolism...); It is still not awakening, even if I imagine that this kind of individuals are most of the time or at least a little aware of neo advaita spirituality. With enough faith, anything is possible. 𝙅𝙚𝙨𝙪𝙨 𝙨𝙥𝙤𝙠𝙚 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙨𝙖𝙞𝙙 𝙩𝙤 𝙝𝙞𝙨 𝙙𝙞𝙨𝙘𝙞𝙥𝙡𝙚𝙨: "𝙃𝙖𝙫𝙚 𝙛𝙖𝙞𝙩𝙝 𝙞𝙣 𝙂𝙤𝙙. 𝙏𝙧𝙪𝙡𝙮, 𝙄 𝙨𝙖𝙮 𝙩𝙤 𝙮𝙤𝙪, 𝙬𝙝𝙤𝙚𝙫𝙚𝙧 𝙙𝙤𝙚𝙨 𝙣𝙤𝙩 𝙙𝙤𝙪𝙗𝙩 𝙞𝙣 𝙝𝙞𝙨 𝙝𝙚𝙖𝙧𝙩 𝙨𝙖𝙮𝙨 𝙩𝙤 𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙨 𝙢𝙤𝙪𝙣𝙩𝙖𝙞𝙣, '𝘽𝙚 𝙩𝙖𝙠𝙚𝙣 𝙪𝙥 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙩𝙝𝙧𝙤𝙬𝙣 𝙞𝙣𝙩𝙤 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙨𝙚𝙖,' 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙩𝙧𝙪𝙡𝙮 𝙗𝙚𝙡𝙞𝙚𝙫𝙚𝙨 𝙩𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙬𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙝𝙚 𝙨𝙖𝙮𝙨 𝙬𝙞𝙡𝙡 𝙝𝙖𝙥𝙥𝙚𝙣, 𝙞𝙩 𝙬𝙞𝙡𝙡 𝙗𝙚 𝙙𝙤𝙣𝙚 𝙛𝙤𝙧 𝙝𝙞𝙢. 𝙏𝙝𝙚𝙧𝙚𝙛𝙤𝙧𝙚 𝙄 𝙩𝙚𝙡𝙡 𝙮𝙤𝙪, 𝙬𝙝𝙖𝙩𝙚𝙫𝙚𝙧 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙖𝙨𝙠 𝙛𝙤𝙧 𝙞𝙣 𝙥𝙧𝙖𝙮𝙚𝙧, 𝙗𝙚𝙡𝙞𝙚𝙫𝙚 𝙩𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙝𝙖𝙫𝙚 𝙧𝙚𝙘𝙚𝙞𝙫𝙚𝙙 𝙞𝙩, 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙞𝙩 𝙬𝙞𝙡𝙡 𝙗𝙚 𝙙𝙤𝙣𝙚 𝙛𝙤𝙧 𝙮𝙤𝙪. 𝙒𝙝𝙚𝙣 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙥𝙧𝙖𝙮, 𝙞𝙛 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙝𝙖𝙫𝙚 𝙖𝙣𝙮𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙖𝙜𝙖𝙞𝙣𝙨𝙩 𝙖𝙣𝙮𝙤𝙣𝙚, 𝙛𝙤𝙧𝙜𝙞𝙫𝙚 𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙢, 𝙨𝙤 𝙩𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙁𝙖𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙧 𝙞𝙣 𝙝𝙚𝙖𝙫𝙚𝙣 𝙢𝙖𝙮 𝙖𝙡𝙨𝙤 𝙛𝙤𝙧𝙜𝙞𝙫𝙚 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙩𝙧𝙚𝙨𝙥𝙖𝙨𝙨𝙚𝙨." 𝙂𝙤𝙨𝙥𝙚𝙡 𝙖𝙘𝙘𝙤𝙧𝙙𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙩𝙤 𝙈𝙖𝙧𝙠, 𝙘𝙝𝙖𝙥𝙩𝙚𝙧 𝟭𝟭, 𝙫𝙚𝙧𝙨𝙚𝙨 𝟮𝟮-𝟮𝟱

@Emerald I projected that these difficulties essentially occurred later, probably because boys have later puberty. What you say is not incompatible with the Oedipus complex, and in fact, the Oedipus complex is common but still relative, so we should rather call it the "phallus complex" or something like that if we absolutely wanted to be general; Nevermind. Freud said that neurosis indeed began during pre-puberty during the transition to the phallic stage, but also that the poor resolution of the Oedipus complex was also, sometimes especially, influenced by earlier events. Hysterics would have been "forced to give pleasure" (by sexual abuse, for example), while obsessives (stoic response, with a pseudo-rigorous attitude, etc.) would have derived pleasure from a similar event but would have concluded that it was shameful. I'm very, very close to you on certain points, particularly the tendency toward paranoia/thinking you're the center of the universe as you describe it, stoicism, etc. When I thought of my parents on psychedelics, I saw them with bulging eyes, making love or something like that, I saw hair everywhere, and there was an atmosphere that wasn't even "dirty," but "low." The "normal" and "thoughtless" vibe, as if life were a simple little game where we garden, where we make raspberry tarts with a smile and sometimes a bad guy comes and attacks us, or a bad event happens, and we get hurt (if you see what i mean lol, i want to give an holistic psychedelic-like image); I intuitively have a certain contempt for this frequency and I pathologically play on opposite frequencies, like "the world is on my shoulders," "I have to be perfect," etc.; I don't know exactly where it comes from at the moment, and in fact, I should spend less time thinking about all this.

@Emerald Mea culpa, I was surprised because the equivalent of "primary school" in France actually ends earlier, like 11 years old maximum. I'm sorry all this happened to you, it makes me want to cuddle you ahah Where do you think this shame and these dynamics in general came from? A reproduction of the Oedipal schema/relationships with parents?

Imagine becoming so aware that when you think of a polar bear it appears in your living room.