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@ZzzleepingBear Why are you giving all caps to EGO?? Funny how EGO and GOD have almost the same letters. Except GOD has D and EGO has E. D comes before E, which makes GOD superior

God is also the door and the doorbell

How you perceive info is a problem, not the info itself.

I’ve been retreating my whole life. Now is the time to integrate.

Locked. Oh, wait, I’m not a moderator

Leo doesn’t teach nonduality anymore. He teaches all of the traps of it.

I honestly use both; they both have their pros and cons. GPT-4 seems to be much better at giving nuanced responses and articulating them, though. It reminds me of how Leo communicates his idea. I would hope GPT-4 would be better at that anyway since you have to pay a monthly subscription to access GPT-4, whereas Bard is free.

He rejected the idea that I had mental illness and autism. He didn’t want to face that reality. But now that he’s opened up about it and talked about it in therapy with me, he’s much more accepting of it. And it’s not crazy when given context. He was brought up in the Philippines in the 60s. It was taboo to talk openly about mental illness in his family and in the culture, and still is. I guess they all assume it’s The Devil or something (Most of the Philippines is devoted to Catholicism pretty damn seriously). How I discovered his secret is I “accidentally” missed my usual medical cannabis dose in the morning (I take it twice a day), so I figured “hey, why not try taking it once a day now”. That was fine for like a week…. Until I slowly got more and more agitated and “insane”. I kept yelling at my dad how terrible of a father he is and a poor leader (basically bullying him), to the point where he finally opened up about that secret. It’s amazing how something tragic events can open up brand new perspective and push us out of our comfort zone/edge. Of course, I’m not promoting bullying or yelling at others to get answers, but as you can see it’s sometimes necessary when things are dire.

Some are becoming more open-minded. For example, my psychiatrist was cool with me trying ketamine IV infusions. And soon after I took it, she happened to start prescribing ketamine as well (the nasal spray version / Spravato, though). I’ve never tried Spravato, but if I had to guess, ketamine IV is a lot more potent.

Yep, and Chewbacca. https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Springfield_Files

Also this

Im 27 years old. Maybe you puffed me into existence

How will being happy change you?

Nope, only GOD NPC = GOD

Fear is not delusional. FEAR = LOVE

ME

You are imagining all of it as God. God makes perfect sense!

What I remember was lying down in my bed at nighttime minding my own business (still awake) when all of a sudden I was being gently “sucked” backwards, almost like a vacuum. Immediately afterwards I wound up at a bowling alley hanging out with my family. This wasn’t me recalling a memory, but rather, I was actually at the bowling alley. It’s almost as if I was taken to another timeline of my life and living it in that very moment. Again, the experience was fleeting, but it was definitely novel and completely unplanned.

My imaginary brain hurts.

@at_anchor I relate to a lot of what you said. Have you considered therapy? It’s not too late to start that.

None of us are AWAKE, so feel free to respond to as many threads as you’d like!