Sincerity

I agree that Leo's claims are ridiculous and the rhetoric is off-putting. Deeper awakenings that anyone else on the planet? Top 0.0001% of intelligence? It sounds very arrogant, especially because you CAN'T know whether this is true. It turns people off. BUT also I would say that he's correct in genetics playing a big role in awakening. In fact from my experience I feel like my genetics have played a huge role for me because it didn't take much effort for me to become conscious of some serious shit. Literally a few LSD trips was all it took (I also went to 2 meditation retreats and have been seeking for some time but still it's a really small effort compared to other people). I'm obviously nowhere near done but I feel like I could go absurdly deep in my lifetime if I really REALLY committed to it. And I'm grateful to my genetics for that.

I, as an incel, am at the bottom of the hierarchy (below the normies and the chads) so the solution is to bring everyone else down (k*ll the chads, enslave the normies, etc.) so that I can be on top. Brilliant! For real tho, this is really sad. Imagine being in a state of consciousness like this, locked in a worldview of hate and resentment. Daydreaming about murdering others, considering other murderers brave. Completely twisted. What would it take to help such a guy? Also the policeman at the end did a BRILLIANT job. Seriously, amazing. If this won't convince you against the ACAB idea, nothing will

Also, what is "all" possibilities. Like a finite amount?

So do you recommend taking salvia after all for the purpose of understanding crazy states of consciousness? Would you be willing to take more? Just asking. Not planning in the near future.

So sorry dude. Please be proud of yourself that you've made it this far. You deserve it. Everything is going to be okay in the end. You probably don't see it but at least have faith. It ALWAYS gets better eventually.

Bias much?

This hit close to home. Many wise points in this video. I'm too tired to share my notes now. I neglected my fears too much and they blew in my face. Not the first time it happened. I hope I can be learn to be better to myself and respect my scared, negative little human "side". Which is ME of course. I am scared. I am negative. I am hateful. I am ignorant. I am selfish. I am unmotivated. I am anxious. I am insecure. I am overthinking. I am indulging in fantasies. I am too tired to leave my bed. I am too weak to stop distracting myself. I am also good, courageous, open, determinated, joyful and all that stuff. That's ME too. But I can't ignore and deny the scared side and it's what might be fucking me up all the time. Living in health and balance is fucking difficult, lol.

@Leo Gura This guy was completely robbed of his childhood. I've read his biography and I THINK (obviously can't know) it's because of this he wanted to spend so much time with children (innocently). Not because of any sexual cravings. It's like when you're denied love as a child from your parents and then you go live your life desperately looking for love from others for decades. Trying to fill this hole. You don't know whether he was a pedophile or not.

Haha. Yes, we're all full of shit fools I'm a fucking fool. It's crazy. It's incomprehensible how foolish we are.

Sometimes I wanna run myself to the ground. I'll indulge in activities harmful to my health and wellbeing just to spite myself. It's like saying "Fuck you" to the man I see in the mirror. I wonder what's more probable: me surrendering and letting go or me killing myself. Well. I don't think I would ever do the latter but doing the former is just as far fetched considering how stubborn and willing to destroy myself I am. It's funny. Being more willing to die rather than to die. Hahahahaha. How stupid. Interesting how it works.

Holy shit, this is insane! I was thinking the same thing It's beautiful

I feel like in your mind you are labelling an awakening facet (in this case realizing You are the Infinite I, AKA God) as just some "DMT trip perspective shift" or "loss of center" and thus denigrating it's truth. Consider that maybe it's not just "loss of center" but the most amazing discovery that you'll ever make - that YOU are f&#king God, the Absolute I you've always have been and will be and you're absolutely everything that exists? Including redness, plants and all that. Also I just feel like your interpretation here of such an awakening is inaccurate. Interpretations? Cmooon man You know, ego loss/death is not all there is Yes, there is no "you" observing redness. You ARE redness and everything else. You don't "believe" or not in the absolute I. You can discover it (it's You) - that's a claim I'd make. Again, consider that maybe red appears without "you" (and does) because red IS You = God = Absolute. It couldn't not appear because it does, because You're imagining it. But I get what you're saying. I guess you just had a different type of awakening or something. If you're interested, I did experience a powerful ego death. There was absolutely no reminiscence of me, just THIS. But I'd tell you that you can also see (Infinite) YOU in THIS and it's no less true.

Well yeah, but not realizing it is missing out I feel

I'd just propose that you can discover a Universal, Absolute, INFINITE I. Which turns out to be you, funnily enough. The Absolute I is not limited by or built on these ideas and illusions you're describing. You are the plant. And everything else too.

Give me the 50th post so I can add a signature already lol

It was a joke.

I'll elaborate on my Europe trip a bit. So far this was the trip of my life. Seriously. I've been travelling solo for 17 days and visited Prague, Vienna, Ljubljana (and Bled), Venice, Milan and Zurich. I ended my trip in Frankfurt and took a plane from there back to Warsaw. I think I've never felt more happy. Again, at times I was literally crying tears of joy. Once because of an ASTOUNDINGLY beautiful view. Another time because of the recognition that I got EVERYTHING I wanted from this trip. I do deserve happiness, I thought - and cried blissful tears. I felt so much love for myself. Another time because I was somehow reminded of God. Stuff like that. I saw so many beautiful things. Take a look at this stained glass window from Prague. I can only upload one photo because I'd exceed the file limit lol. It's STUNNING. The amount of detail here. There were many windows like this in the cathedral and I cried because they reminded me of Infinity. Obviously they already have religious meaningful but to hell with the christian myths about Jesus and all The BEAUTY made me remember God for a second. How beautiful I am... Again, there were so many beautiful things I saw. The city of Prague overall was just 10/10, the architecture was AMAZING. The Schonbrunn Palace gardens in Vienna. LAKE BLED IN SLOVENIA. Venice at night, FUCK. The Burano Island near Venice. The shopping gallery and the Sforzesco Castle in Milan. The Alps in Switzerland and the wonderful city of Zurich... I visited many cathedrals/basilicas, went to 2 GREAT art museums (dream come true, literally), visited good viewpoints in most places where I could see the cities in their glory (one of the best things to pay for). Oh, I didn't even mention the people yet. Since I was mostly living in hostels, I had to pleasure to talk to SO MANY NEW PEOPLE. And they were SO COOOOOL. I was very extroverted on this journey (maybe even too much because now I feel like staying at home all day ) and really pushed myself to talk with others, especially in hostels. I made some new friends, listened to dozens of people and their stories, told my own stories and expressed myself, went to a bar together, a club, even a strip club lolllll. Btw I met @musicandmath111 in Vienna and we had a good time! I ate great food, swam in the lake in Zurich, rode a bike... my accomodation was so nice. A guy was hosting me in Zurich for free (couchsurfing) and he was the best host I could ask for. There is so much to say. I had so much fun. ------------------------------------------------------- In conclusion, I had the best trip ever and I can't be more grateful. Now I feel like going more inside myself, since I've been so extroverted during these 2 and a half weeks. And so I'm planning to do some work. [link removed] You deserve happiness too, my friends.

Ironic

That I'm aware of

Are there not infinite degrees? If so, then what does "being Awake" mean? Obviously it couldn't be at some specific degree because there's always infinite more. Not even mentioning that the "degrees" aren't really countable.

Hey @Leo Gura out of curiosity, what is your standard for being "Awake" nowadays? Seems like it's set very very high. Would you agree it raises for you the more conscious you become? During one of my God-realization awakenings I uttered and noted down the words "I am Awake" in amazement. It felt so powerful and true to me. Obviously my awakenings were still weak sauce in comparison to what is (supposedly) possible but I recognized Myself at that time and because of this I felt like it was completely appropriate to say I was Awake. Do you now feel like "just" recognizing Yourself isn't enough to consider yourself Awake? It has to reach levels similar to the ones from your poem or sth like that? And btw would you consider yourself Awake?

Probably my sister dying or getting deeply traumatized in some way. Especially because of something I could have prevented. Death is a close second, if not first.

Some of my prompts from DALL-E

Overall in my posts responding to you (not only under this topic) I've been trying to point you towards a direct experience of awakening which I think you might not have had based on the things you say and how you say them. If you think this is from below... well. Sigh. I'm sorry if I was too mean. I hope you find peace. If you ever wish to PM me with something about spirituality, I'm there.

It's very easy to see. Lol. I'm done here. Good luck to you.