Sincerity

I've been disgusted by this guy for so long. Such an arrogant fool. Self-importance so big You could land an airplane on it. Reminds me of this image I saved years ago.

Simplicity is so fucking relaxing and nice. I cherish the moments when I see clearly and reality is incredibly simple. Like when some powerful insight just explains everything. "Ohh, of course... God, fuck. I can finally rest now for a while."

And if they do realize? I talk to myself regularly. I literally argue with myself on certain topics (side A says something, then side B says something, then side A again, etc...) and I reach clarity in this way lol.

Focus like a motherfucker to go really deep. Write down guidelines for yourself and stick them in a visible place. Really put care into what You write - You might appreciate that A LOT during the trip. It'll be much easier to refocus (!!) and You'll have good advice to support You in case everything becomes too much. I think this is especially useful for 1) beginners and 2) long trips like on LSD. The lesson in a nutshell is to go the extra mile to write something useful and kind for yourself. Example: Clean your house beforehand. Treat it as a nice ritual. Don't let the offset go to waste, spend time really contemplating after the peak. Trip alone, be concentrated, accept what arises, commit to staying safe physically. Death is not real. Let go. ♾️

I'm going through a hard time. Well, actually I have been for months now. With brief windows of relief here and there. Yes, some weeks have been good, but overall I am struggling and I don't even know what to say about it anymore. I've cursed myself and everything else so much that I feel like I've ran out of insults and hatred to throw. I mean, that's probably not true - there seems to always fucking be more. But I feel so empty, like there's no one to save me here and it's a BAD FEELING. A feeling of "I don't have it in me to fix it". I feel like I am gone - not my ego, it's still here - my god damn executive function. Like there's SOMEONE lost in this experience, SOMEONE who would take control, SOMEONE who would fix this ugly mess. I can't even describe how bad it's been at times. If I told my friends about it I'd land in a fucking psychiatric hospital. I'm just fucking TIRED, and yet at the same time it's not true because if I really was tired, I would cease this non-stop childish motherfucking drama. The mere fact that I'm in this fucking struggle is evidence that I do indeed want it. And I fucking hate it. I fucking hate everything. See, I knew there will be more of that hatred, haha. I just don't know, I'm afraid all the time, I just CAN'T FUCKING LIVE. I don't function properly, I am FUCKED. Unless I distract myself with something, I'm a dark hole of negativity and hatred. No one will ever say to me more insulting things than those which I said to myself. I have fucking berated myself to the ground across the last few months. I can't honestly say one good thing about me now. Well, that's another useless post which doesn't paint the full picture. Glad I wrote that. I fucking hate myself.

I think You missed the word "low" between "need" and "IQ".

Okay. Thanks for the clarification.

Do You really expect that everyone will just sit in silence and stop speaking their wisdom because You (supposedly) know better? Do You really think imposing yourself on others like this is the most intelligent way to deliver your teachings? This is so ridiculous. With this attitude You're going to make it so that only blind sheep follow You, because no mature critically thinking individual will subject yourself to You. Cultish behaviour.

We don't allow sourcing.

Damn! Very clever.

Replying to a post talking about not tolerating namecalling... with namecalling. Outstanding move. I have. I don't think You'd want to participate in a community where most people would talk like this. ?‍♂️

Please don't push it.

I suggest You question that. I was suicidal too. At some point I realized that it's pointless for me to indulge in suicidal fantasies since I don't really want to do it anyway, and so I'm not going to. It's just useless mind chatter, indulging in suffering, out of certain beliefs about oneself probably.

While that may be true, I think it teaches others screaming and name calling. That's my point.

I'm not sure how this is going to sound, but... It is obvious that You want to live. Because You are still here. You know, there is never anything stopping You really. The fact that You're holding on, making these posts is a clear sign You want to be here, but You're in a lot of pain. The thoughts that You don't want to be here are only that - thoughts - stemming from that pain. NOT from your heart's desire. It may be easy to say, but I think admitting the truth would give You some relief. The truth is You DO want to live, but You're in pain, You hate it, You wish it was something else, You feel desperate, angry, etc... I don't know what it is for You exactly. But concealing the truth (by thinking that what You want most is to die and other such beliefs) is only giving You more suffering. I'm sorry You're struggling. But it always gets better eventually. You are strong for living through this for so long.

All I can say is I think it's a shame. Such posts don't give a good example unfortunately.

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I think that's a good way to explain it.

Dude, OP has no idea what he's talking about. ... This is precisely the danger of this mental masturbation bullshit... some readers are actually misled.

Remember that You can always let go of all your thoughts, confusions, contemplations, questions... and just relax in the moment. What's true is THIS. You can always ground yourself in IT. It's a great gift. Then of course You can always come back to thinking and stuff, if You so wish. Peace!

@StarStruck No need to blame yourself of course. You are what You are. Just be aware of it. (if You want)

Nah, man. Again, unconditional love isn't only for you, it's for everything. Contemplate this seriously: could true unconditional love be directed at some things and not directed at others? Hint: the answer is no. Unconditional love MUST be all-encompassing and CANNOT be directed at one thing more than another thing. Because if it's biased, it's not unconditional.

@Something Funny I'd say You don't have to be perfectly still for 4 hours. Stand up for a while if You want, walk around for a minute, whatever - but sit in one place for the most part. The key is FOCUS. But also be comfortable. Make it work for You. I discovered this only recently. I find it's day and night between that and walking around, being all over the place. When You hyper-concentrate, magic ensues.

You're asking Leo but I'll still answer if I may... I really recommend it, hyper-focus is the key. Sit and awaken your ass off.

Notice it's actually your selfishness that makes You call reality selfish. Projection 101. Yeah, accept reality as it is. You don't matter, nothing You do matters, nothing that happens in the world matters, reality doesn't owe You anything, You're not special... Come to terms with it. The thing with unconditional love is that it's unbiased. You could be loved infinitely and You wouldn't even know, because EVERYTHING is loved the same. It's like a fish being unable to notice the water due to living in the ocean. And even if You knew, You wouldn't care. Because (and this is very funny) ego only cares about the love if it's exceptional for IT.