Sincerity

Check out the book Integral Relationships. Here’s a preview: https://www.integralpsychology.org/uploads/1/5/3/0/15300482/stages_of_sexual_development_and_anima_and_animus.pdf I think that stages 3, 4 and 5 of anima/animus development in this model correlate well with stages blue, orange and green.

I love One Punch Man season 1. I don't normally watch anime, but I saw OPM like ~7 years ago and I enjoyed it a lot. I was disappointed with season 2 when it came out and now, after 6 years, season 3 has been absolute dogshit. At least from what I saw and heard - I won't waste my time on that piece of dump. Still, in my mind the beauty of season 1 lives on. The show was so funny, but also so sad at times. The animation was just AMAZING. I didn't care much about the characters besides Saitama and maybe Genos, and about the storylines of these side characters. But the story of Saitama was very engaging to me - it could even bring me to a tear. Hell, it still can. Here's the best (and final) fight of season 1. The ending saddens me. Reveal hidden content if you don't care about spoilers. The Strongest Hero.

Still so, so, so immature. But this is okay. Working from the place I'm at.

Lately, I notice more of these opportunities to funnel energy in a better way. I'm starting to see that anger can be used in either a destructive way, or a constructive way. The default route for me is to destroy shit in anger. Not in a literal sense - figuratively. For example, in my relationship, I will push my girl away in anger and leave her to be alone even when she's somewhat hurting. In her increased pain, she'll be trying to get me to talk to her. I'll get even angrier that she's "terrorizing" me and not leaving me alone, so I'm pushing her away even more. Etc, etc. I'm experimenting with using anger to FIX the situation IN A WAY THAT WORKS. A route that will truly give me peace of mind and not escalate the situation. Anger CAN be my energy source for that - after all, it's the energy for changing circumstances that I don't like. But that can be done in very different ways. I have a vision of being so angry with not being left alone that I hug my girlfriend for a brief time, I tell her that we will talk in an hour, I tell her that I'm hurting as well and that I need a bit of time to cool off, but I will return to her and help us alleviate the pain through communication in love. It's difficult. I'm going through repeating patterns. But I feel like I'm learning more every time. I analyze the energies flowing. I envision better scenarios. I want to go through that path with her - I really do. I must master my behaviors and try to not be a dumb fucking robot. This is part of my growth, and it's nonsensical to run away from it.

I'm feeling more expressive lately. I want to talk, talk and talk. Share myself with the world. There's genuine energy for that. I've had some fears about that. Like "expressing myself too much and annoying others with it". "Having a few journals is dominating the journal section with myself, I should restrict myself to a limited amount". Such bs. I no longer find this line of thinking believable. There's also something I'm starting to understand more lately. Which is that: when I don't like something I see, a better course of action is to share more of my views independently of the thing I see, and in a way that I find beautiful and aligned, instead of trying to bring the "ugly" thing down. In order words: share myself and my views on things relentlessly, and don't react to what I find immature, stupid, ugly or pointless. Basically, I can channel the energy I feel when I see something I don't like towards a more constructive expression. Instead of banging my head against the wall with trying to correct the "bad". It's still a work in progress.

I don’t mean to come off as rude, but it’s funny to me how often people ask for advice on the internet about human relations stuff when the obvious course of action is to just speak to the person honestly. And that’s the advice they will usually get. In regard to your situation: I know you’re a man, but maybe to her you’re playing the role of her „female bestie”? Are you manly with her, or just „going with the flow” and not leading anything? If you don’t wanna be friends with her and want her as something more, you should probably let this go. She’s probably not attracted to you. You’re probably her „bestie” and not masculine-feminine relationship material for her. If you want a romantic/sexual relationship, you should pursue it with someone with whom you’re set on this intention from the beginning (not necessarily explicitly at start, but leading up to it). Or, if you’re okay with staying as an „emotional friend” to her, then be happy with that. Having a female friend can be a good alternate perspective for you. In general, friends are good! But, from what it sounds, you’re probably not really okay with that.

Out of the 16 warnings you have, only 6 are from me. So spare me.

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@SimpleGuy What are the core ideas in this video that inspired you?

You won't get it, so I won't bother answering.

I'm not US based, but "Yes" is the pro-democracy choice for you folks.

@Leo Gura No offense, but are we going to have to read this kind of stuff forever? I’m pinging you here because you won’t look at a DM.

Maybe you guys are conforming by suddenly every one of you vigorously posting about conformity.

You can start doing something and see where it leads. Decide on a preferred channel for the expression of this energy/purpose. For example, volunteering somewhere or creating quality content raising awareness of animal suffering. Then, in your spare time, start actually acting on your idea. Just try. Take some action. You might find it's not that appealing after all, which is alright. And if it is, then go further with that.

The pot calling the kettle black. Hahahaha.

Hahahahaha. Masterful post. You clearly have the longest spiritual dick, given that you made this epic "I see through you all" thread. I'm hoping for 2nd place though!

So me and my girlfriend moved to a new place in May. And our area is SO BEAUTIFUL. I literally can't contain my happiness at times. One thing that I LOVE about our immediate surroundings is that we have a small (but still fairly big) wood park about 3-5 minutes from our place. I cannot express to you how much I'm fucking in love with it. When I need to unwind and regenerate myself energetically, that is my place to go. I am so grateful for it. It also reminds me of the small wood from a Vipassana retreat center I've been to (3 times). Now I have my own Vipassana wood nearby, but 3x better. If that isn't neat, I don't know what is! Today while walking in the park I understood just how important it is to me to have a wood park like this in my immediate vicinity. "Small" things like that which bring you joy. Critically important. (Image is just a representation, not my actual park)

Hollow Knight: Silksong was great. I almost 100%'ed it. I got all the endings, but skipped some bonus things I was no longer interested in grinding for. I REALLY appreciated the world-building. This game is so beautiful. The art is amazing. The boss fights at times were so FUCKING annoying, but I got over them with my supreme gamer skills. ( just kidding, I don't really play much games anymore) The bosses were still very cool, though. It was mostly the 100 kilometer walkbacks that were infuriating. Or the million-phase arenas. I like a good boss fight. I like exploring the world and discovering the story. And I love parkour. (I also played Celeste and loved it) Overall, metroidvanias / 2D platformers are my type of games. Or, at least one of my types - Team Fortress 2 is still my favourite game of all time. But that's a topic for another post.

Damn, a fellow beans lover. 🤣 It's a great journal you have here.

Another recording of Bashar which I listened to this week, twice. "When you are acting on your passion, you must also be passionate about being passionate!" --> Great pointer. To me, this is about embracing the ENERGY of acting on a particular thing. Being passionate about coming back to that ENERGY, and not just about actualizing the OUTCOME of that energy. When you're embracing an energy itself (instead of its outcomes), you are hitting the nail on the head. That's a recipe to let energy flow freely. And thus energetic development ensues. This is somewhat related to my post here.

Videos, graphics, books, quotes and other stuff. Things that resonated with me and inspired greater wisdom and understanding.

First post is here.

Bashar on permission slips and other things. Some deep stuff here. I'm processing all this through my lens of energetic understanding (for reference, see my thread about that). I appreciate Bashar's perspective a lot. What he says resonates greatly, and inspires in me a deeper understanding of this energetic dimension. 13:47 "The higher self is like a guiding principle, a governing principle" --> Interesting. A while ago I introduced a concept in my understanding called meta-energies. A "guiding principle" is an excellent description of that concept. Other words I used were philosophy or tactic, but guiding principle hits the bullseye. That term really resonated. Though I'm still not sure if we're talking about the same thing, perhaps he means something else. Also, the concept of permissions slips is just so fucking good. So true. I must listen to this again and try to square it with my understanding, and translate this stuff into "my language".