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@Leo Gura Have you thought of doing interviews again? Maybe even public speaking if a good oppurtinity comes? What about the Tour that got us all excited but was cancelled because of covid? https://www.actualized.org/tour

What actions did you take after the last thread? Every few months you post a thread like this and nothing changes in your life. Be critic about that, why? I can't say anything more that I haven't told you in the past year. More than you seem a clear case of learnt Helplessness

It depends on your intentions behind using substances. I'm interested in whatever substance makes a significant impact in my consciousness which for now have been psychedelics, salvia, cannabis and ketamine. Trying other drugs has been interesting and I'm surely interested in keeping my horizontal taste of drugs but I certainly know what my vertical deep choices are. This discernment for me is clear. I've always loved drugs, for me it was amazing to be able to change my state and perceive reality in new ways but I knew how to handle it, for the most part. I have nothing against recreational use but it has its place and time. I feel that using drugs recreationally is like manipulating a loaded gun, it has to be done with a lot of caution. Maybe one day I'll try Kratom to expand my horizontal exploration of substances but I have my compass sharp towards deep consciousness and profound exploration with substances that can yield that because ain't nobody gonna wake up to God with kratom or alcohol. You wanna have fun? Sure there's a lot to learn but also to lose, you walk on the edge of a sword and you'll have to be responsible about that. Having said this, I'm interested in your experiences and opinions about Kratom. Why kratom? Why not? How does it feel? Any trip report?

True, but it was a better reaction from Lex than what I had expected. He was openminded and interested in the whole interaction. He said he would try Ayahuasca, liked the conversation about meditation and also was open to talk about about God.

I think you are exagerating. He is not posting so much in the spirtual and self-help section because he is not interested anymore in the discussions. The same way you wouldn't feel called to talk with a toddlers about basic algebra. Nevertheless, this week he has been more active than ever on the spiritual subforum, which makes this thread a bit ironic. Moreover, you can tell that he really checks the forum. In addition, Leo doesn't have to live up to your expectations, he has enough struggle living up to his own expectations. I have also noticed for the past year that, probably because of his medical condition, some of his moderate opinions arround topics like genetics have become exacerbated. I don't share such a taliban perspective on genetics as Leo holds now, nor the healthy Leo of the past would, maybe the suffering has beaten him into a biased perspective on the topic or maybe he discovered the ugly face of genetics. I like to think of genetics as the most rigid gear in a flexible engine. I sometimes think that god gave this suffering to Leo to make him remember that he's also a human. It's probably this humanity that you deny the most in Leo. You manipulate and try to inject many ideals on him for your own best interests. Trying to milk a cow till the last drop. I still remember a video where Leo said: You think you love me but you don't fucking love me, you love me because of what I give to you, your love is skewed and biased but Hey that's fine I also do the same, but at least I'm conscious of it. In that moment I cried because I knew he was fucking right and not only about him but about every person I thought I loved in this life.

Some days ago I was sitting in my chair, Awakening so much that the world was my chair and everything was vibrantly Alive Consciousness. Floating in sky All nanocorners of Reality, each single point of existence I was conscious of and more consciousness, all my experience was consciousness and it had no limit in being more conscious of, conscious for infinity, no brakes. As you might suspect so much consciousness is too much consciousness, more than what any "vessel" can hold. This kept going on and on and I just saw that if this kept going this would never end and I would merge in an infinite singularity to never come back. Now that I had a few days, I'm just like: wait what was that? Can I literally die of Consciousness? I didn't know about this I had hear about MahaSamadhi the ultimate Awakening where your body literally dies with you as a thunderbolt roar... but let's say I never connected the dots. I'm still thinking of how this will make me reflect upon my spirtual journey. I mean you always want to become more conscious that is one of my living doings and beings. But becoming so conscious that you die? It feels like I hit a kind of bedrock of Awakening. Like you do one step more and it's over, if you want the next level you desintegrate the body into infinity forever and keep Awakening. Like that was the prizeticket for the Discotheque of Paradise As I don't want to delude myself about this I really wanted to know if anyone can provide me feedback on this. Is it possible to become so Conscious that you literally die? Have you ever encountered a similar experience and offer me advice to surf the situation I'm facing? Although I recongnise all forms are but God and God and God. Death of the body is in the equation? Maybe yes maybe no, maybe in one way, maybe in the other way

If it's not working for that have you tried other methods for solving Fear and your relationship with women? Books, seminars, courses... Leo has many great videos and books on this topic. You can search more on your own. You are not the first person that is facing the same problem, many people have gone through it and solved it, made books, seminars, techniques and courses about it.

This is what comes after Solipsism Solipsism is the actual tension and play between union and division

The one that shocked me the most no doubt is: The most helpful in my spiritual integration: The most helpful in my personal life: The deepest ones: Videos that I would like to see more: 1. Live Awakenings as they are happening 2. Blog videos for the people that are more into his work like he used to do.

It's funny that Frank Yang said that aesthetic beauty was the reason he did everything in life. He filmed videos since a very young age because of the aesthetic beauty of capturing reality. He pursued the perfect body and muscles out of its aesthetic beauty. He pursued the boundless non localized 360º mind because that's the most Aesthetic Mind. He pursued Awakening because that's where aesthetic beauty lead him and the ultimate Aesthetic Beauty itself.

what type of shrooms? Penis Envy are VERY potent in comparison with other magic mushrooms. That makes Penis Envy from 3x to 5x times more potent than other mushrooms you have tried. The internet is full of stories of people saying oh I thought it was gonna be a mild trip but little did I know those where Penis Envy Do you think more will do it? Maybe yes maybe no, there are no guarantees. At 5g of Penis Envy you're gonna be totally at the mercy of the Mushrooms. Particularly mushrooms that do have conscious agency for me in contrast with LSD that doesn't.

Nothing wrong with you That's how trips usually go

Salvia in fact has inverse tolerance. The more you take it, the less dose you need but this is not something you should think about just another cool scientific fact

Opioids and other strong pills to combine! It was a private health doctor. My girl that works in public health was so shocked when she saw such a prescription Doctors and psychiatrist should be more mindful when giving this types of drugs. I was well versed so I was able to deal with the situation. I have to say after all that it was a positive enriching experience to become conscious of what opioid are, how they feel and understand why people take them. It's something that made me reflect and empathise with addicts and it was an interesting experience to have once in a lifetime. I still remember that feeling of being in the bed not giving a fuck about absolutely anything, it's a wild freedom. This was the insight I had, you really do many things in life because otherwise they make you feel bad. You don't want your house to be burnt or to lose your job or your wife or your health because that makes you feel shity. Yet on opioids the possibility of feeling shity doesn't exist, is erased forever from your mind, you are absolutely fine with whatever way your life goes in that moment. That was a huge insight honestly, and made me move to other types of gratification systems and mind wirings.

If someone is interested in such things I would recommend something like the 7 Hermetic principles: 1. The principle of mentalism "The All is Mind; the Universe is Mental."[5] 2. The principle of correspondence "As above, so below; as below, so above.” [...] This principle embodies the truth that there is always a correspondence between the laws and phenomena of the various planes of being and life.[6] 3. The principle of vibration "Nothing rests; everything moves; everything vibrates."[7] 4. The principle of polarity "Everything is dual; everything has poles; everything has its pair of opposites; like and unlike are the same; opposites are identical in nature, but different in degree; extremes meet; all truths are but half-truths; all paradoxes may be reconciled."[8] 5. The principle of rhythm "Everything flows, out and in; everything has its tides; all things rise and fall; the pendulum-swing manifests in everything; the measure of the swing to the right is the measure of the swing to the left; rhythm compensates."[9] 6. The principle of cause and effect "Every cause has its effect; every effect has its cause; everything happens according to law; chance is but a name for law not recognized; there are many planes of causation, but nothing escapes the law."[10] 7. The principle of gender "Gender is in everything; everything has its masculine and feminine principles; gender manifests on all planes."[11]

@OBEler Glad someone caught the irony

Addiction is very counter intuitive. You would guess that something like an opiate would be super addictive right? Well, after having COVID I got some nasty side effects and pain in my ribs. The doctor prescribed me codeine, a potent opioid, for a whole week. After 2 days I was better with my ribs but I should still follow the treatment, isn't it? After the third day I couldn't take it anymore. It was so addictive my body asked more and more and more. It's not raw pleasure, it is more like perfect equanimity and not give a fuck. I understood how people could live in the streets taking opioids, you simply don't care you are happy and complete. This was for me such a red light. Taking it and seeing how addictive it is showed clearly it's nature to me. Making me react in the opposite direction and not wanting to do anything with it and going against the doctor recommendations for my health. Other substances like coke or Kratom are more sneaky. You take them and they don't call you back. They make you believe you are in control. Then they hook you like a fish squeezing you to death slowly day after day. This on top of "allowing" you to still be functional in the world makes, in my evaluation, coke and Kratom very sneaky addictive substances. With surely some positive effects in this work but just overwhelming more negative effects. Put it in the balance ⚖️ We are not drugs users, we discovered a technology for consciousness and Awakening. Beware of this trap, you may end up consuming many other drugs because of psychedelics. This is not desirable and a hindrance in the psychonaut path.

@TheGod can't judge you for taking that decision. Awakening definitely is an acquired taste

It works perfectly for me. High doses I always plug. Low doses I usually snort

I was thinking about this the other day I love my mum and I'm grateful to her, but she didn't give me God Leo did! What is the biggest gift you can give to someone? God Nothing matches that level of love and consciousness

I played football on Malt and it's also an extraordinary experience The mind to body connection with yourself and the interaction with other people is superb

Inspired by the videos of Gerhard Fourie, I would like to reflect back upon my journey after finishing 500mg of 5-MeO-MALT Firstly I would like to say that 5-MeO-MALT is not like other psychedelics. What you hit on Malt and the way it hits, it is very rarely found in other psychedelics, let alone with other techniques, to consistently and directly make you more CONSCIOUS, more consciousness in consciousness, that's how I would explain it, although you will have to experience it for yourself through dozens and hundres of trips. With time, it is like entering into a carpentry, one individual sees only wood, and the carpinter master sees the different types of wood, how it was cut, the whole process since seed going through life and being cut, how to cut it and then process it, make furniture out of it and conserve it over time, mantain it and so on. In the same way, it is with psychedelics but some domains of inquiry into Reality are more profound wood and obviously this is also the case within the domain of psychedelics. In the end, it boils down to direct experience with how it ends up afecting you and how your life changes after that. Many moments while tripping that I hope I could communicate to you but you'll have to live them to get the full taste. There has been a lot of purification while working with the entheogen. In multilevel, from mind, to body, feelings, perceptions, sensations, existential aspects of this moment that are purified and reconnected, rehonored, reunited. Not as a new union that is somehow generated by the imaginary substance you just took but because it is actually the case, it is true. This purguing and katharsis has been intense and I'm still going through it. I sometimes feel if there will be an end to cleansing oneself, to healing and self love. Self-Love is one of the main themes of Malt. It has this beautiful sweet rose loving energetic embracement and cosmic rejoice and relinking to it. This property in fact has been deepening and opening like a rose in every trip. This self-love takes many forms surely but as different tastes of icecream is still icecream, I am becoming more conscious of way I can love myself and others as myself because we are one self being many selves and many selves being one Self. When you start discovering love you realize it is the answer to all problems and questions. The best thing about it is that in truth you don't have to make it more loving or love it more, because it is Already Love. Love is a very good point of Malt. However, I have to say that Malt seems to lack for me the full God Component that I'm looking to fully awaken to. This is the reason why I'll try very soon 5-Meo-DMT because I have the intuition that it will trigger God effectively and efficiently, they call it the God molecule for something. You also need to understand that even though Malt is extraordinary, if you eat your favourite dessert every day you will finish sick of it. That's why exploring the wide buffet of psychedelics can provide variety in tastes, flavours, states, spaces, energy, colours, vibrance, aliveness, presence, holism, brilliance, self-abidance. I do not recommend this only with psychedelics but with any methodology or lack there of, to awaken. Explore! As Antonio Machado, a Spanish writter once said: "Traveler, your footprints are the only road, nothing else. Traveler, there is no road; you make your own path as you walk. As you walk, you make your own road, and when you look back you see the path you will never travel again. Traveler, there is no road; only a ship’s wake on the sea." I like to condense experiences with photos that convey the more emotional and tacit aspect of experience that connot be communicated through symbolic language, although a poet does literally that. Poetry is an attempt of the imposible but it is irresistibly done out of Love. Malt is very wavy oceanic sunrise & sunset, like the poem, like the pictures. It definetely has mode me more conscious both in my daily live and obviously in the trips themselves. It has lead to such crazy Awakenings. How would I describe such levels of Awakening? Imagine you thought you arrived to the end of Awakening, just to Awake; and relize that was only the beginning. This is capable, and Malt has allowed me to do so in synergy and symbiosis with the other aspects of my life. Although everything has its lights and shadows. And so does Malt. What are the down sides of Malt? Honestly by the Malt itself not many but by the use and what you make out of it quite a lot. The potential for self-deception is always there and the potential of making mistakes as shit happens in everything you need also to be intelligent and wise with your approach and relationship with it. How? It is an ongoing process it will itself guide you but you'll have to learn and a big part of learning is by mistakes and suffering but also Love is a great Teacher. You'll get both in life and also with Malt. Everything according to it's nature. The purging can be intense but it is like medicine in a way, tastes bad but you know it is good and feels nurturing. Another negative potential, as with any such strong psychedelics, is the risk of bypassing. It is genuinly a shorcut in many ways but also a double handed sword. In a way it is not an error or bug it is a feautre. Human life gets into a differ context while in such states of consciousness. This has to be balanced with outside work, a good and stable life. In a stable and fulfilling life, Awakening becomes easier. Shivapuri Baba I have also explored the substance in other contexts. This involves some risks but with experience you learn to asses them and deal with them. So in your confidence forged by experience you think, what would feel like to be in a nudist beach while on Malt? How would it be going to the mountain and swim in the river with Malt? How does it feel like tripping with other people in different scenarios? Inside and outside of your comfort zone? How does MALT make me live certain experiences of life? How does it feel like to do this on Malt? I have many trip reports here published on those trips. Malt has also made me more intelligent. I suspect this is for its holism property combined with its stability. It is a good generator of insights. I feel my brain interconnecting deeper the following days after a good Malt trip. Literaly I can feel the different parts of my brain with river branch like connections. It is a bit painfull but it also feels amazing, like rewiring my own brain, like flexing muscle you can also think so deep and so hard that your brain itself will ache and grow stronger, the same way as in the gym. Malt is good for mind gimnastics indeed In terms of sensorial and spacious experience. It definetely has made everything more clear and sharp. Like going from 1080p to 4K to 360º, everything feels more itself, like you are a cat with ultra instincs, alert and relaxed at the same time. Okay, I'll wrap it up. Malt is a unique Entheogen that is very useful for Awakening and Feeling. It has a rose femenine vibe of openeness and gentleness to its unfoldment although it can be brutal as mother nature but in keeping things in balance with a caring and rejuvenating approach. I do think it has the potential to make an impact in the world, if studied properly by psychiatrist, biochemist, psychologist, therapists, coaches and philosophers. We are still in the dark ages of psychedelic research. Doing my bit, I find Malt gentle, I could have handled it as one of my firsts substances if starting with low doses. I really don't feel like you have to build your way up to Malt with other psychedelics. I find it gentle enough and easy to work with, start low and keep experimenting. LSD and mushrooms can be much more difficult to handle in many circumstances, more loopy and twisted. So if you want a good psychedelic to become proffecient at and explore even from the very beginning with intelligent caution Malt is the best I have found.

The beach trip: This was my first trip report

For me it is easier to begin with the mirror once in the peak I sometimes find it hard to warm up for the mirror But once you are fully there, the mirror and you start working directly and everything happens quite effortlessly When I'm in my normal state I find it much harder to connect with my reflection. So take this into account. Get the taste right when working with mirrors