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@integral Thanks a lot for all this. This is really appreciated. @Michael569 thanks yes I already did some research on this. Basically I just had to supplement myself with vitamin B6 B9 B12 and betain. That’s so dumb to think I reached this unhealthy whole that could have been avoided so easily..

Initially it was even worse cause it liberated all the accumulated toxines. I vomited every night in horror panick. now I can feel a little more clarity of mind. one week ago I really felt I had 40IQ I could not even listen to someone, I had to focus and take the time to integrate what was said. you guys should appreciate the genius there is just in listening reactively to someone talking to you. So I’m improving there but I have a lot of other issues which I think are not reversible. Lots of cellules degenerated. I can’t feel my hands the same way I used to.

Also my parents still denies my illness saying I’m making things up, it is in my head and I should take my psych med which are just even worsening me. They will only recognize it when I will have full proven dementia. Eventhough I took my tension this morning it was at 8 my mother told me it is because you do not do anything, move yourself.

Also the worst part of it is that I have a very loving family that I love and they all suffer with me and do not want to see me death. That’s how stuck I am.

Thanks

I would like to open a thread about healing. I think it could be interesting and give people some hope, especially if some of you went from a situation where they felt stuck and hopeless to a more hopeful one. If you went though any kind of Healing. Can you please sum up your story. What were you suffering from, what was your healing about? What do you think participate in healing yourself ? What happened ? It can be any kind of healing, psychological, physical or even spiritual. You just have to go from dysfunctional to functional in any area you want. just try to be the most concrete possible.

I think you are right about how it works but I do not think it is healthy to play that game. To me sounds that @KenDo is already spending too much energy on a girl that clearly is not invested. I’m sorry but my masculine solidarity goes with @Yimpa on that one. « Just don’t » Invest on people that invests along with you. Do not get scam. You have inner value regardless of an other.

If you love practicing sports or you are some kind of Athlete. Going to the gym can prevent injuries.

Before judging this thread being irresponsible or and immature. Take a moment to really understand my project: basically I fucked up in this life. I had trouble from 14 to 18 and ended up with fatigue chronic and bipolar disorder but I did well att school because I put all my eggs into studying. Anyway after when a gf entered my life the first time, that s here I understood how fucked up I was. I squander the relationship from a to z. The girl was totally in Love with me. It was easier to not screw than to screw but I like challenges! anyway I was very serious prepararing ingenireeng school and made lots of sports from 19 to 22 but at 22 I discoverd Leo so of course at 23 I started my psychedelics journey or should I say my shroom journey. One year was enough to put me into psych ward were my body mind has been forsaken forever. I’ve been in a very very very dark place for 4years. But enough is enough, I won’t carry all that unconsciousness/ shiet my all life. I wanna die with a mignimum of dignity and the more I wait the more my dignity decrease. Anyway, I ll find a way to kill myself and to know what there is after you kill yourself !! I’m so excited for this adventure. Sorry for the excitements of this post I took to many xanax before writing. That shit is gooooood. I hope some people will understand that this surfing ntil suicide attitude is my best possible attitude regarding now. I have nothing to bring to anyone, I am a leash to my wonderful family. I just can’t wait to put a bullet between my two eyes. plz don’t judge. It’s actually a very serious topic. I don’t recommand that to anyone unless you are in a similar situation where you are carrying an enormous amount of shiets. I’ll of course write loving letters to all people I love and once I will become a demon if god does not let me pass to Heaven I’ll send all that touch my family in hell. kiss kiss

Live honorably and don’t give a fuck what people think. Reputation will follow.

I'm really sorry to hear your story and I can feel your pain. You need to give a shot to time healing you. Try to stay as calm as possible and remind yourself that all you are going through is just an illusion of the mind and it shall pass. I would also urge you to NOT do psychedelics right now, that is a terrible idea. You need healing and grounding right now. Psychedelics will make things worst and you'll feel even more lost than you are now if you do psychedelics.

How can they ruin your physical health? In what ways does it ruin physical health? I'm genuinely curious. What kind of usage will lead to physical damage and what kind of usage won't? Will 1trip a month lead to physical health damage? In the end it seems to me that psychedelics are really dangerous especially if they can lead to chronic health damage.

Thanks for all the lovely messages, I read them all, just came back from an intense trip on lsd, I feel good.

Lol committing suicide for economic reason is retarded. commiting suicide for broken mind and health is exquisite

The only thing I am scared is will I still breath after death ? I don want to choke to death after death.

I can not wait for that moment where absolutely nothing would have matter !!

I just felt upon one man that explained that electromagnetic waves could open something in the brain that makes it easier for heavy metal to pass. What do you think about that ? Should one eat sea food in the forest rather than in town?

I’ve lately been contemplating self and others recently. It’s obvious that other and self are construction of the mind but can we jump on the conclusion of sollipsism to be true that fast ? I just mean: can’t I share a dream with another myself ? I do not know for exemple just the simple fact that: I’m 100%sure that I the consciousness is writing this topic and you are 100% that you the consciousness which is another one is reading this topic. Does not that contradict sollipsism if we are both right ? I mean I’m here and now 100% that I’m sending this information to you. Are you 100% sure to receive it ?

Depending on the situation, surviving can be an act of courage or cowardice. In your case it seems that it is an act of great courage. Be brave and give it a shot, time itself may get you out of the darkness. I really hope you’ll be fine. Hold on

If you want her, don’t logically communicate with her about that. Next time you see her, flirt with her and see how she reacts. If she reacts in a good way, lead her to the bedroom. Then you talk about a potential relationship

Si basically It has been really hard to forget about one girl and I sometimes have strong negative feelings and panic attacks so I opened myself up to see one man who works with energies. I really do not know what to think about this now. I told him the story of me and this girl. And he told me that she was a perverse narcissist and that she was spiritually leeching energy out of me even when we do not talk to each other. That’s why I feel I have no energy and she feels like she’s full of energy because she is « vampirizing » me. I have to admit I do not know what to think about it. It’s true I feel bewitched. And he kind of make me a little paranoid if that is true that she’s leeching my energy spiritually everyday. Basically he told me that we were all connected on a spiritual level and that she was vampirizing me leaving me on low energy while she’s full of it. I’m skeptical. He also told me that he will have to cut all spiritual links between me and her to make me move forward. what do you guys think about it ? I personally am openminded about this situation but isn’t it bullshits. Maybe I feel bad cause I feel bad and she is not a « demon » like this guy say ? What are your opinions. Does he really have power ?

Spirituality can be a very explosif process and you have to be very cautious when you go about it, thinking deeply about what kinds of spirituality fit with your soul. I personally do not really like how Leo eventhough claim openmindedness put the presupposed frame that his work is above other kinds of work.

that is serious game !

When you bust a nut three times in a row.