thierry

Where is the proof that God can fully understand or know Itself in Its entirety? Maybe it is in Its very nature that this is impossible. Wouldn’t it be truly beautiful if that were the case? Or maybe It can and it will.

I don’t know why, but I really feel like I can have my cake and eat it too.

In my experience, truth seems untouched by human manipulation. That doesn’t mean you can’t work hard toward something or pursue what you want, but I don’t believe there are any real shortcuts unless you cheat. And even then, cheating doesn’t truly work, because reality eventually reveals what is real.

This incredibly simple object, entirely governed by classical mechanics, is nevertheless, in practice, completely chaotic given the level of precision available to us, after only a very short period of time. Human limitations are pathetic. I think our distinction between ‘complicated’ and ‘complex’ is simply evidence of our human limitations. And even then, we’re still only operating within the realm of logic.

And you ?

Not right now

But Maybe an infinité mind can actually. If you can fully become infinity maybe you can fully understand infinity. I wrote « becoming=understanding » cause I was contemplating how I could fully understand myself And I wondered whether the only way might be to become the infinite. Maybe to understand the infinite, you simply have to be the infinite, and that alone is enough for complete understanding. (it’s just thinking, I really don’t know)

Becoming=Understanding

« If God was able to understand itself fully , it would mean God is not infinity . » Wouldn’t you be imposing finite logic onto the infinite? Why God being able to understand itself fully imply it would mean God is not infinity?

Love is the most direct to describe what it is. The word Love is magical, because you know what it means before you even understand language. The word love comes before the very language that says ‘love.’ How is that possible? I don’t know. But it’s just magical, and I know it.

Of course it had to be you. Who else?

The only reason you’re so weak and embody evil so much is that God had the audacity to incarnate Himself in a creature as limited as you. If you’d been given God’s job, you would’ve chosen to incarnate yourself as a god. But God has way bigger balls than you, and that’s why He chose to incarnate Himself as you.

Evil is weakness To embrace/embody weakness is Strong Strength is Love There’s no escape to Love/Goodness.

But yes, living with mental health issues today can be incredibly difficult. In many ways, you’re trapped in a very narrow space between your own struggles and the people or systems that are supposed to help you. And sometimes, it’s hard to tell which poses the greater risk.

Yes, the outside world has always been dangerous antway, and psychedelics shouldn’t make you lose sight of that reality.

He was running from the police because he believed they wouldn’t try to understand him and would just take him straight to a psychiatric hospital against his will. If you’ve ever been forcibly admitted to a psychiatric hospital, you know how hard it can be to convince people that you’re okay. No matter what you say, it can feel like no one is listening, and you may end up being held there and forced to take antipsychotic medication. That kind of experience can be very traumatic, so I can understand why he reacted the way he did. In any case, that’s what I think happened.

Fuck… he drowned. So his last trip turned into a living hell before he died. RIP, Connor. After everything you went through, you deserved so much better.

Leo, you are the greatest conduit of truth on this Earth. God bless you. I just spent four hours of insomnia going through your blog, reading the Actualized quotes and everything you share. This is pure art. For me, the peak of your work is your blog. It’s insane that you’ve managed to spread so much truth and still survive so well at the same time. I’m jealous. I’ve sacrificed so much for truth since I was a child, and still my body and mind feel too limited for it. But I’m genuinely glad someone like you exists. It makes me fall asleep with a smile.

@Leo Gura So, was I right or not?

(Long story short, I had a drug-induced psychosis and was taken to a psychiatric hospital. Within ten minutes, they decided to inject me with high doses of antipsychotics and other psychiatric drugs that destroyed my body for two months. I was given 30 mg of Abilify every day for two months, and that was just one of many. On top of that, due to a genetic condition, I already had a very fragile and heavily strained nervous system, and my body was absolutely not prepared to receive this kind of treatment. It really destroyed my body from the inside, drained all the life out of me, and now I live with constant physical suffering every day, 24/7.) So basically We were in bed with my girlfriend and I wanted to be reassured. It’s been 5 years now that I live with that and I considered my life to been wanted, I’m okay with that. I have acceptes that I am dead and I can’t wait to die to be fair) I asked her whether, deep down, all of this might be part of my karma, that I had to go through this hell. And she told me, no, she doesn’t believe in karma. So I told her basically it could have been avoided. And she said yes. And I told her that for me, it’s unacceptable that I’m living through all this hell when I could have avoided it if, at some point in my life, I had just turned right instead of left. It’s just unacceptable to me. It has to mean something at least. And I told her that because of that, all I can have is regret, like I said. How am I supposed not to have regrets? And she told me, you can’t you’re bound to have regrets. And actually, I realized that yeah, maybe that’s just the truth, but for me, it’s unacceptable. It’s unacceptable that because of some asshole psychiatrists who injected me with things by force, forced high doses of medication into me, made me take it against my will I’m the one paying for it. I’m paying for their bullshit with my body, living in the hell of a body that’s now destroyed and causing me suffering 24/7, for the rest of my life. And then I even asked my girlfriend: so there’s no karma? It’s just me paying for this, and they don’t have any karma either? They screwed me over in every possible way, they violated me, they violated my soul by destroying me from the inside, and they just go on with their little lives? She said yes. And that’s just unacceptable to my soul. I want them to burn in hell, or at the very least to understand what it feels like to be a victim of their actions, and that somehow, somewhere in the universe, they know what it’s like to be in my place. I think that would be a sufficient hell for them being forcefully injected with medications that destroy you.

Thank you for your Reply, When I was forced by psychiatrists to take Abilify, I developed severe akathisia. What’s even more shocking is that despite my complaints, they continued to administer it to me by force. It’s disturbing when you think about it, because even in psychiatry, treatment is supposed to be stopped when a patient develops akathisia. I’m naturally very, very mentally strong. This isn’t arrogance I can endure levels of pain without complaining that 99% of people couldn’t. So I went through two months of torture. At the time, I still believed that once I got out of the hospital, things would be okay. But the worst part came after I stopped all the treatments: my body had become a machine of constant pain, as if it had lost all vital drive as if the energy was no longer flowing through it and I realized it was still happening even without the medication. And to clarify, the fact that I have hyperhomocysteinemia probably also played a role I was already starting from a very fragile baseline health-wise. (I agree I could not even have imagined one worst drug than abilify)

Thank you again, You know what? Even though, to be honest, I don’t really believe in it, I’m going to give it a try. I’ve got nothing to lose anyway, so I’ll go ahead and try this out. I’m a man of my word.

@integral thanks for your Reply When I think back to high school, the students who already knew they wanted to become doctors often seemed driven less by a deep passion for medicine than by what the profession represents socially. They were aiming for recognition, prestige, a certain idea of success and in a way, that’s understandable. At 16 or 18, committing to such a demanding path rarely comes from a fully formed vocation; it’s more often shaped by the strong social value attached to the role. In France especially, being a doctor is widely seen as a clear marker of achievement and status, and that perception can naturally influence early ambitions.

Another victim of this here. What’s crazy is I know the truth about this and I can’t stop the devil from fucking up lifes this way. There Will be other victims who would potentially just need one warning from me not to fall into that trap yet, they’ll fall into that trap and have their whole lifes detroyed. Some might say, “Yes, but you should have taken responsibility so you wouldn’t have ended up being forced into psychiatric care in the first place.” And yes, that’s true all of us who ended up in that situation made a mistake beforehand. I admit it, maybe we were a bit irresponsible in our use of psychedelics. But let’s be honest: that doesn’t deserve to have our lives destroyed over it especially when all we really needed was two weeks, maybe a month of calm without psychedelics. Once you are considered mental, whether they explicitemy say it or no, your life is considered less important, you are like an animal to them and they can do anything they want to you. This psychiatric environment is to the devil what a warm, humid climate is to mold.

@Ramasta9 I do, of course, more or less take really care of my body. I do my best I take supplements, I eat as well as I can, and I exercise as much as possible. But the reality is that all of this only slows down the deterioration of my body. There’s no magic formula; Superman is just a dream for me. But thank you, and yes, of course, I’ll take this advice, keep going, I’ll try the one week fruits then fasting eventhough it might be dangerous for me cause my cortisol is already always too high due to constant cellular stress but yeah maybe even refine my lifestyle to make it even healthier. Thanks again for your response.