Vibes

I consider myself stupid too in those academic areas and stupid compared to people around here and specially to Leo. Part of feeling stupid for me is not being able to write and think clearly without some confusion. But I know I'm intelligent in other ways like intuition, observation, connection. I had mystical experiences on psychedelics so it's possible, but I don't know about the advanced types of understanding that Leo talks about. For example, once he said something like 'Are you intelligent enough to understand that you are God or reach Alien Consciousness' that made me a little worried...

@Leo Gura But I don't have the POV of a child in Gaza. There is suffering in my life, but probably nothing compared to having your entire family blown up before your eyes and feeling like life is totally hostile at all times. Even though I suffer seeing their suffering, I'm not even sure if there is a POV suffering anything out there in Gaza. If I kill myself right now, I might spawn and experience what is like to have the full experience of being in Gaza? Idk, do you know? Why couldn't I choose the next form, if I have infinite possibilities? There's infinite time to experience infinite lives, I still think I could skip the horrible ones forever. Sorry I'm not being dense, I just can't understand for the life of me. Maybe the only reason to want to experience all lives is love of life itself, love of being alive regardless, love of dreaming. And maybe in my death I will find this love with no more barriers and will be able to surrender to it. I had a vision where I saw a cow mooing in pain. And all in a fraction of a second, I first felt pain and suffered and then right after I've seen through the illusion, I've seen that was God pretending to be a cow in pain. A connection so deep, and the pain disappeared and I was at peace.

You love it too, stop pretending

Thanks

Can't you clean your ears with the best tool that you already have, the pinky finger? Maybe different levels of oleosity in the wax or something, but I never needed to go to the doctor to clean my ears in 20+ years. Only went a few times out of conformity when I was a kid haha

No escape. The unwillingness/fear is what keeps me crystallized. Sometimes I can tap into being okay with bad experiences, even further I could even for a second feel a beautiful connection beyond my fear during bad experiences, but soon I get afraid and start hating again.

But since it's infinite, how can you not able to skip the bad ones so to speak? I could always choose a better one out of infinity possibilities, why should I want to experience falling into a meat grinder, I can already imagine it very vividly, every centimeter of pain and horror, but I prefer better lifetimes... Of course, as an afraid human right now I say that. Maybe out of curiosity I could want to have the full experience because only imagining it vividly is not the same as it being a reality, a reality would be much richer experience. Now it's where love for experiencing enters, isn't it? I can sense sometimes.

I think you broke my mind after the solipsism video... I still doubt it and it creates confusion and fear of being delusional even though I've seen some things. Btw, way before even finding you I knew it deep down.

Bla bla bla. You care more about your own asshole than 'humanity', you're not at Leo's level.

"This is not about your personal Awakening, this is about mankind’s Awakening, so to speak." @Leo Gura Ngl, that stings Because you have always been direct, and you even say it directly 'I'm trying to get you to realize...'. You know what I mean, I'm not being able to express myself well now.

I don't think anyone said the obvious and pervasive one: having kids is conformity, for most people.

@integral Aren't you being conformist for not using the best invented tool to clean your teeth, the toothbrush? Conformist in the hippie thinking way I mean.

I agree with the toothpaste being conformity, but isn't the best tool that feels more efficient, the tooth brush? How do you clean your teeth exactly, a piece of cloth and water? What if you get bits of food in between the teeth and don't notice? Also: "The idea that you have to poison a plate that you just ate from and you call it cleaning", but depending what you eat on that plate, it will get stuck and brushing with water only will not remove all of it, so wouldn't you be eating micro bits of rotten food later?

Why do you floss your teeth (or dont)? Is it because you've been taught to and simply created the habit without even thinking? Or is it because you got the insight that food might get stcuk im between your teeth and it starts to rot inside tour mouth, and you don't want that so you floss? Conformity vs Consciousness

That's such a ridiculous thing to say 'toss us some breadcrumbs', but I can't help it