Vibes

@Leo Gura That's what I've been getting at. Normal doses (2g of mushrooms) just carry me away like a furious ocean, maybe because my mind is fucked up and 'impure'. Now my old patterns of low self esteem kick in. How can I, simple man, get it when not even Peter Ralston gets it??? Unless I'm the only consciousness, right? About sensitivity, I'm super sensitive to weed. It's very psychedelic to me. Should work for the purposes of the retreat/course yes?

Great! You could record parts of the retreat when you're speaking?

Why do you torture me like that? I'll have to sell a kidney to pay for the retreat!

I see. So dreams forever.

Such is the power of this dream. Is the only escape actual death (consciousness 'killing' itself)?

For sure Preety India. She'll haunt you forever haha

If deities exist then anything else that people say might too. I have a witch neighbor, he seems to get possessed by spirits, I only hear the music and sometimes he screaming. But his religion is something related to voodoo, I don't know the right word or equivalent outside Brazil and Africa. Now I have to consider how lost in his self delusions he is before believing other evil or good entities exist and inhabit his mind, and in his case he doesn't seem very bright and conscious. I know another guy, he's in his 70's. He's much more wise and conscious than my neighbor. He's into yoga, astral projection and all. He said he sees entities, and there's an evil one that comes after him sometimes, a 7 meters tall black figure. I know his wiser, but he could be delusional also. How the fuck do I know what is real or not? I have never seen or spoke without a doubt with other entities invisible to me... So I guess they are not real to me.

Oh come on! I never asked you anything 🥺

Thank you! I'll try that. I find that chanting is distracting, and even more distracting is to keep track of it.

Could you share it, please?

The determinant factor it'll be how many maturity points you get. Watch what is maturity video to cheat the system

Have you tried Santata's pranayama? " 1- Sit cross-legged in your normal position. No need for Padmasana or Siddhasana. Just an easy, relaxing cross-legged position. Do Khechari Mudra if you can. 2- Pay attention to the point between your eyebrows (Third-Eye). Always keep your attention there during this practice. Don’t move 1 cm away from the Third-Eye. 3- Inhale naturally while mentally chanting Om six times in the Third-Eye. 4- Exhale naturally while mentally chanting Om six times in the Third-Eye. 5- Your breathing doesn’t need to be effortful, with force. Just natural breathing. With time it will get longer, and it will naturally transform itself into the slow Ujjayi breathing (ocean breathing). 6- Do this 108 times (1 full mala). That’s it! So simple, yet very effective. It will be delightful. Sweetness will permeate your whole body. Eventually, all the prana will gather into the Sushumna Nadi, then move up to the Third-Eye and completely still the mind in joy. Never move your focus away from the Third-Eye. Always chant the 6+6 Oms in the point between your eyebrows. When the breath gets subtler and longer, and it will if you are doing Khechari Mudra correctly, it will sound like a flute. Ignore all thoughts and all chakras besides the Third-Eye. Just keep your focus on it until your whole consciousness is there. "

I know this kind of thing is invaluable, but there it goes my hope of attending haha It would be way too expensive for me to fly to the us + this amount. But also, on the other hand it might be a good thing, because if you are broke like that you should be focusing on other things before, right?

One of the worst mistakes I made. Still fall back into that sometimes. Sprinkle a bit of solipsism, some arrogance, and a drop of smartassiness thinking you can run away from the reality that you are a fucking monkey, trapped in this realm, and you're fucked.

Beautiful!