Razard86

Great! I'm glad you share his love of math. I hope I can can see its beauty more and more throughout my life.

This is an interview that Curt has with one of the people he admires. Notice the love being expressed here. Everything you do is love, see if you can see it being expressed here.

^^^^^ If you get nothing from your time on the forums THIS!!! This is one of the biggest problems we have on the forums. This is why intellectual honesty is so important in this work. Intellectual understanding is not awakening. If you have not experienced directly that God exists then all you have is intellectual concepts floating around. You must validate it in your experience. If you don't then you will eventually reject any notion of God as you must and as you should!! While getting an epistemological understanding is sufficient, eventually it must be dropped. Want to know where God is? Behind your intellectual conception of what God is. The only barrier between a human and God....is their human knowledge. This is why the tree of knowledge of good and evil is the fall of man. Man must drop his knowledge to find God.

Objectivity is a human concept. There is no objectivity. Objectivity is the creation of group think. For example at one point poetry was considered absurd and a violation of the "proper" use of language. Now you would think that poetry is objectively a proper use of language. You only think that because it is accepted on massive scale. For something to be considered objective it has to be agreed upon. A chair is only a chair because we agree on the label, the definition, and the image associated with it. If I called a banana a chair you would claim that I was objectively wrong....but if I got the whole world to agree with me that a banana was a chair....then who is the one that is wrong? You would be the only one by yourself arguing that we are all wrong and we would silence you and thus a banana is now a chair. Ta da!!!!! So objectivity is just group think. Reality is just pure subjectivity, which means it has no inherent meaning and we are just making up meaning. To make something up is what we call a lie, or bullshit. So the secret is...everything is bullshit!! LOL!!! To truly understand reality....you have to drop labels. Notice you bring up the LGBTQ...that is just more labels. You are NOT a label and as long as you think you are....you will always be fighting against something. Because Good and Evil is created through the Tree of Knowledge. When the world of knowledge is based on labels....you create evil or what we call "THEM or OTHER, OR NOT ME."

See that post above....ITS RAW!!! LOL. Gordon Ramsay's ego can block any creative flow!!! But seriously what you described is completely normal and that is why anything you create will be beautiful. Know why? Because look what your creations have to deal with!!! They have to deal and overcome so much to be borne!!! That perfectionist attitude is normal. It exists because you want to do great work!! Because you care!! So you beat yourself up like an inner Gordon Ramsay until you churn out something you can be proud of!! So I salute you!! Keep doing your creative works!!! And if you don't mind...share them on the forums!!

Greatness is achieved through gratefulness. When you love an activity so much, that you are grateful for its existence. When you love it so much that every moment you engage in it you are grateful for the opportunity to engage in this activity that is when you are on the path to Greatness. This is why when a Master at something engages in that activity before you and their marvelous ability is so jaw-dropping that you are thankful for the opportunity to see that action all that happened is you received their gratefulness as your own. Want to be a Master? Want to be the embodiment of Greatness? Find something to be grateful for and persist forever in that activity. Then one day someone will receive your gratitude, and will give it back to you. This is why...life is LOVE!!! Love is to be grateful!!! To be thankful for the opportunity, and this is the path to greatness!

It's the most radical thing there is. When you become conscious of what unconditional love is...let's just say that shit is ridiculously powerful and frightening as all hell to embody.

Your not wrong, but what he means is you can imagine yourself as nothing. So when you sleep without dreaming you were experiencing being nothing.

The problem is he already died, he just came back and let his ego take control. So yeah he needs to do it some more.

In my 20's I was in college searching for the perfect perspective in life. I wanted to know the most accurate way to look at life because I realized that everybody was to busy trying to manipulate their way in life through lies and deception to get what they wanted. Since I saw the pain and suffering that caused them and me lol I refused to play that game. So I was trying to figure out what was the correct way to live life that would be the most noble honest and good life. It's like something told me from small, what everyone around you is doing...do the opposite. I've since learned it is not so simple, life comes full circle. But trust me if you tried to get me into Spirituality in my 20's that would have been TOO EARLY. I was no where near developed enough to handle it. The earliest in my 20's I would say would be 29 lol right at the edge. When I say development I mean two things. 1. The ability to deal with extreme pain and suffering and not fall into deep depression. 2. A strong enough ability to retain your authority in such a way that you do not allow yourself to be gaslighted into subtle forms, unconscious forms of self-hatred. Many people are still carrying limiting beliefs that were projected onto them by others who are full of self-hatred. For example one of the most rampant limiting beliefs is how visually attractive you are. Because many people see themselves as ugly, they will project that unto you and you can take that as true and walk around complaining thinking that you are visually ugly. This is actually one of the most rampant lies told.

To live a life that is meaningful and deep =happiness. Everyone is actually in a search for meaning (which you already know). You know fully well that happiness does not come and go like clouds in the sky. You know fully well that happiness is just awareness of yourself as Love. As such for someone to be happy all they need to do is raise their awareness. When you are in high conscious states it's literally impossible for you to NOT be happy. Don't worry I got you Leo. You weren't in the state of Consciousness to remember your best advice. Well here is your best advice!!!

Thought and being are different. You know this. All these questions and objections you have are a waste of time. You have taken 5-MEO before, take it again. Keep taking it till all your questions are done. You questioned love when you took 5 MEO, so either you didn't have that awakening yet or you denied it upon return. If it's the former then keep taking it till you experience it and if it's the latter overcome your fear. Also majority of people lie about their awakenings. What you don't realize is many people want to feel connected, and people who are interested in Spirituality because they don't fit in will join it and lie to fit in. Then there are those who have had Mystical Experiences but aren't interested in going deeper they just want people to speak about this stuff because they have nobody else. So what you will discover if you investigate is majority of people enter Spirituality looking for connection, NOT TRUTH. So when majority of people claim something I am automatically skeptical and then based on what they are saying I can tell at what level of integration they are at. Now it doesn't negate that they had the experience, they could have. But what it does tell you is whether they have been able to make sense of what they experienced. If you pay attention to numerous reports of people in Spirituality there is an overall theme. The most rampant theme has been LOVE. More people report experiencing unconditional love than any other facet....yet you resist this message. Ask yourself...why?

SPOILER ALERT!!!!The follow passage has a SPOILER for the Marvel Movie Dr. Strange. Read it at your own peril if you have not seen the movie. Ever wonder why as a human you are not given reality creating powers on an infinite level? Easily....watch the 2nd Dr. Strange movie and you will understand. The villain at its core just wants to experience being a mother, because she loves her children more than everybody else on earth. Look what a person with such a limited form of love would do with that power!!! This is why the more partial your love is, the more disconnected from God you are and the more evil you will create. You see? Goodness is its own reward because Goodness creates peace!!! Notice how the villain has the ability to create whatever she could, and look what she chooses to create because she is not satisfied. But it goes even deeper than this!!! As a mother she chooses to hide her actions from her children!!! She would never want her children to know about her actions, much less emulate them!!! If any of her kids acted like this it would break her heart. So notice her self-hatred and hypocrisy!! Do as I say not as I do!!! Also because she wants to hide this aspect of herself from her kids, this actually forces her to be FAKE and INAUTHENTIC WITH HER KIDS!! She doesn't want them to REALLY know who she is, just who she PRETENDS to be!!! This movies is a WONDERFUL lesson why goodness is its own reward and living a life where you abuse your power to gain control over life will only lead to misery, suffering, and you spreading misery and suffering all over the place. Covid is not the real pandemic, it is you desire for control over others to get love that creates suffering. And lastly...here is the last point.....look how much destruction she creates!!! What type of world could you live in, when at the drop of a hat your mom could just nuke anyone and anything if it disturbs you? You can't know true love because anyone that deals with you will be acting out of fear or personal gain. You can't know empathy, because your mom will deny you of that by giving you whatever you want and threatening anybody who opposes you. I mean she literally cannot tell you to forgive and learn how to let things go, because she never learned that lesson. Watch this movie with THESE LENS and look how stupid the villain Scarlet Witch is!!! I mean she looks so stupid in this movie I could barely watch it because I see how stupid it is to have all that power and just abuse it. LOL. Such a waste!!

Yep and have you noticed how many people resist this? I can understand people outside Spirituality but how do you resist this when it is so obvious. It took me listening to that video Leo made one time before I was like....of course it lines up with everything else. It's why I call it the moment of truth. I've tried so many ways to make it easier to understand and people still fight tooth and nail to hold onto their imagination for dear life. What's worse is my sober awakening baseline keeps getting even deeper as my body is changing itself even more to dissolve the boundary even further. For example my vocal chords are merged now so when someone speaks I am totally aware that I am speaking to myself. This was all done without any substances with a month of meditation and a request to the Universe to dissolve the boundary further. My ego fought throughout the process but I just reached a new level of boundary dissolution. This is why at this point anybody that argues with me about it I just know they haven't dealt with their intimacy issues. All selfishness is just metaphysical intimacy issues, they are too scared to share themselves with everything and I get it, that shit is uncomfortable as hell but the reward is myself so what is there to lose?

Another old blog post by Leo. It was a commitment he made to himself a couple years ago. https://www.actualized.org/insights/the-highest-purpose

https://www.actualized.org/insights/an-atheists-personal-experiences-of-god The part I want you to read more than once is this "What’s not being understood here is that the nature of reality is subjective and mind-constructed, and therefore “physical” reality can change if you just change the way you use your mind. This possibility is not taken seriously because Stage Blue and Orange underestimates reality. These stages assume that reality is a fixed, static thing, limited thing — which turns out to be a very mistaken metaphysical assumption." Many of you have had psychedelic states from taking substances and come back to baseline and assume that this is "normal" and how things just are. But how do you know you aren't constructing this and that is why it IS? One of the things Leo mentioned about the ego is that it likes to maintain homeostasis. What does he mean by that? Your current static experienced 3-D reality is maintained by your ego's homeostasis or inherent structure. Think of your ego as a living thing trying to maintain its form. That form is what you call your GRIP ON REALITY. What happens to many of you on these trips is you are not able to turn those states into a NATURAL STATE and you have a constructed belief that it is impossible. But what if it was possible? Have you tried? Have you honestly tried? How radical would your lived reality be if you did? Something to think about....

Wishing for less regulation is regulation, because you are trying to regulate regulation!!! That's the point. You still have yet to deconstruct your mind of duality, and this is why you do not understand what I am saying. The moment you point a finger at ANYONE you are doing the same thing as them because they are YOU! I only do this every now and then to make you aware of the paradoxical nature of reality. So if I ever attempt to correct you I am correcting myself and if you attempt to correct me you are just correcting yourself. Really open your mind up to the possibility that a request for less regulation is itself regulation. This is us right now....approximately.

If you want to be miserable find some unhappy people, form relationships with them and allow them to take advantage of you with no desire to correct them. I'm sure that will give you some misery to experience and learn how to process it. The only other thing I can think of is work a job you hate.

The fighter will always have an opponent. Think about that. The fighter believes it must defend itself from all attacks. The fighter believes it must prove its mettle, its strength in the arena of its own construction. As such no matter how old the fighter becomes, the fighter will always have an opponent. My current life has shown me, that eventually retirement is the best option. As you walk with this identity of self-defense, the opponent is always waiting to strike, even haphazardly. Originally you fought to gain skill, but eventually the opponents become so haphazard you realize it is not worth your time. Are you going to fight forever? When will the battle end? So you realize that the absurdity of you needing to defend when you already achieved what you originally started on this journey for which was skill. Now the war is over, and there are no more worthy opponents but the identity still persists....searching for a worthy adversary to test your skill your mettle, not realizing that the desire for an opponent is an attachment that must eventually die. So life sends you half-hearted opponents to kill your desire to continue, and you realize...it is time for retirement. The old must retire to make room for the new, and sometimes you need a push to allow that change a smooth transition. The glory of impermanence wins again, the new grows upon the stump of the old and with proper guidance ever new glory unfolds.

Lol....I can't stop laughing at this one....good one man!!

^^^^You are regulating right now. The statement "Let something be what it is." Is a regulation. Do you see what I am pointing to here? Notice you have to deny that you are telling me to do something...that you are doing. Again, you are attempting to take control and now have to deny you are doing it because it doesn't fit with the way "you wish to view yourself." So Mr. Regulator...if I don't do as you wish....what is my punishment?

Well ... 1. I don't know how that story ends as you left it open-ended. 2. I've never experienced that particular situation as you constructed it so....not sure what I can say. It depends on how you look at it and how you define "help" since you left it open-ended. He could end up being saved, go through therapy, write a best-selling book about what he went through and have a movie and video games series made about his experience. Or he could get therapy, make his life purpose to be a therapist, find the love of his life and get married. Or he could escape go live in a monastery the rest of his life.....you left it open-ended.

It can depends on how often it gets stepped on. Flowers can grow between the cracks in concrete. Makes great fertilizer!!

https://www.actualized.org/insights?p=72

1. We all have a need to regulate things, regulation is an inherent part of creation. Your body regulates your temperature and functions its called homeostatis. Your entire written post was just regulated to form a coherent post that could make sense. You see the thing with Infinity is since you are talking to yourself whatever you accuse me of I can always redirect it back at you and you can do it with me. Notice this.... 2. The point I am saying that makes you selfish is you didn't attempt to connect to my post, you took it where you wanted to take it. It's fine you can do that, I do that at times but I know when I do it....I'm being selfish. Why is it selfish? Because I took a conversation that was pointing at a certain direction, and took control and pointed it where I WANT IT. Notice how you claim you weren't be selfish which is not true...you were, but then say I like to regulate things. Does a selfish act need to be regulated or a selfless act? A selfless act is silence, or agreement. A selfish act is to interject and give your own perspective and an even greater form is to steer it where you want too. Again I'm not demonizing you because we all do it, I'm showing you how unaware you are of what selfishness is. Selfishness IS PERSPECTIVE. Why do you think conflict even exists? Because the moment a perspective has been taken division has taken place. So right now my entire post is SELFISH!!! But notice the clarity I have in being aware of it...currently you lack that awareness because you haven't searched deep enough into what selfishness really is. Selfishness runs our entire lives, to live from a non-dual state you need to be aware of it, otherwise you will subconsciously resist and not be aware of it. And don't run from my posts I welcome critiques....but just know...I critique critiques LOL. P.S. This post was just as guilty as your previous post because notice I didn't connect to the good points you just made but focused on hammering out my own point of view. That is me being SELFISH!!! You see how subtly we are selfish? I'm just as guilty of it.