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I totally agree with all that you wrote here. So we could look at thoughts just like at any other sense. Like brain is an antenna tha catches deterministic thoughts out of air. BUT there is consciousness behind all senses, behind thoughts just as you've written yourself. But I as consciousness can choose what to focus on. On my thoughts, on sounds, onto itself. Consciousness is free to navigate. Focus is different than thinking. All else I can agree to be deterministic but consciousness itself is a Free Will of Creator. That how I see it. Just like in a dream, thoughts of your character are not being generated by him but by you sleeping mind. But the act of realization that it is a dream, act of ignoring thoughts and contents of a dream, act of realizing by dreamt character that it is in fact whole mind, whole dream it is pure Free Will. So in a way before enlightment world is deterministic, after God-Realization the Free Will is true.

I wondered about this a lot. I also thought that everything is just a chain of events, that my every thought could be traced back to electrons bumping off of each other ever since big bang. But then I decided to look at that thought. And I decided to just witness a thought and not fall into it. But was that decision also deterministic? And that one? And that one? So it goes to an infinite loop and then there is an error and only silence remains. Only consciousness. Determinism and Free Will are the same thing. They both are true. It a paradox.

I am quitting right know after many years and many tries. When it got to the point of three coffees daily I decided - nope. So far it is 1 month without coffee and 2 weeks without any caffeine. I love how easy it is to fall asleep now. I already know that I will be one of those with a looong withdrawal. I am lookin forward the 70 day awesome checkpoint that @flowboy introduced.

Damn. It all started with Ekhart Tolle and Jed McKenna for me years ago. Didn't even know that he is a topic on this forum. Thank you.

I really feel a lot of what you had written and sometimes struggle with it in my own mind. Work. Grind. Save the money. Get good CV. Change to a better place. Do not spend money wastefuly. - thats about survival. When it comes to mind - vibrate peace, hold utopia in your head - you will naturally pour it onto the world. This weird late capitalism stage is just the step towards the Utopia. We will get there. Hold on. Gojira - Grind: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A77sFIxiRQ0 Surrender to the grind Embrace the laws that make you cringe You will be fixed in no time If you go all the way We're wandering in chaos Forget about which reality is real Eternal quest to resolve Our struggle with gravity You're all shredded, you're all scarred Fighting the tide Your tough face on, you think you'll last long Against the grain? Go Surrender to the grind Obey Surrender to the grind The only way Grind

I think Law of Attraction + "Life is a Dream"-Consciousness make up a really nice combination. And is kinda obvious. Just like in a dream you can be extremelly lucid to the point that you can whatever you want with a dream instantly (God). But you can be lucid just enough to realize that it is a dream, but not so much to be able to change whole dream instantly - so when you know it you focus to feel good feelings in a dream because obviously then the dream will get better and better. So you create a dream through that indirect mechanism. Thats how I see it.

There is perfect and there is Perfect. Lower-case imperfection exists and that is part of the upper-case Perfection. Can a blank sheet be perfect? Is it surely less perfect than finished painting? If you would get the message that you are going to die in 5 minutes would it radically deacrease the perfection of your life as then suddenly the room for improvement would be very small? Being conscious of Perfection does not contradict improvement.

Congratulations brother. If you do not mind me asking some shallow questions: 1.how do you earn money nowadays and how do you plan to do that in the future? 2. How does your typical day look like? 3.Do you have a partner? Do you have a "best friend" ?

He was also on impaulsive some time ago in an even cooler outfit:

Also you can think in a very abstract way. Your passion does not to have be defined in this typical way like it is a particular job. Maybe it is looking at the sky whole day. Maybe it is eating pizza. I for example in the past also gave myself a lot of hard time to find my passion. I analyzed my past, what did I do as a kid, who I wanted to be as a kid. And I realized that I also didn't have anything sharply defined and have no clear idea. I was jumping from hobby to other hobby. Quickly loosing interest. I got a lot of critique from parents for this my whole life. And felt bad about myself. And then it clicked that this is exactly what my passion was. The freedom to jump from hobby to hobby. The freedom to be careless and look at the sky. To explore life, and pick the things that resonate.

Our minds are like multidimensional locks. Every piece of the puzzle depends on our past ezperiences, biases etc. So it usually it takes a lot of years to learn to pick the lock but I would think that it is still possible for small rain drop to fall of the sky in just a right way to unlock the lock - which would be the analogy of realizing Truth by watching conceptual video.

You are not your face. You are not your body. You are not even your mind and personality. You are an enigma behind all of it. You are your own element. A force. People can't directly see you, but then can feel you. They can feel what kind of an element you are. They can know you from your vibe. Connection between people never happens beetwin flesh and bones and skin. It happens when You as a certain vibration are with harmony with the other human. Do not worry. Be the vibe you want to be and people will feel it/know you. You are flow. What you are is a vibe. There was a certain style/vibe that was present in that flow state - you were there. On the other hand. If you think you ceased to be, then you experienced death in a way. So no need to think "that you should die". Realize the impermanence of things. All the people you like are going to be gone. Wheter they are real or just your imagination they are going to die some time. And they will never exist ever again. So why not appreciate that blessing? That all those people that you know didn't exist ever before, and will not exist ever again. You managed to be in this little slice of time just perfectly to know them. So love them. As people. As your imagination. Doesn't matter. Appreciate them. No one is going to stay... Again, you are the instrument and lIfe is a song. Of course playing a song is meaningless. Thats why it is so fun! Did you need a meaning to have fun as a kid? Did you need a meaning to be kind and authentic to other people when you were a kid? Play a song you want to play. If you don't like to create song in which you help people then don't. But I guarantee you it is a lot of fun to be an instrument of Love and Understanding. The Fun/Love is meaning. Chill dude. You are going to die anyway. Just see how you will die later. Just be an instrument and play a cool song with you life. PS. I know that you will not understand but you don't need to. Just know that I am you older brother with a higher perspective and I just want you to know that All is Well. It really is. Also a video that helped me some years ago with a deep loneliness and an unfulfilled desire to feel connection: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b_gIXoD4Iro&t=217s&ab_channel=eternalnectar And of course a meme.

@Someone here Congratulations Me <3 Welcome to THIS. I also did not have "kundalini" things happening in my body during my Truth Realizations. Just this huge weird Mind/Mental release feeling.

What a beautiful configuration of a mind you chose to incarnate into. Give yourself a loving pat on the back for this. To be this self-sustainable. Do not ever feel bad about being that way.

@Leo Gura @Someone here Consciousness is the first distortion of Unaware/Perfect/Undefined/Void Absolute. What is God rubbing off of against? What is beyond all that exists? Consciousness is a unified Mirror. Everything happens on the surface of the Mirror (illusion of space/time). What is Prior to the Dream and Consciousness? What is looking at that WHITE MIRROR to get to know itself? Pure, Quality-less Void. To our senses it is more like Dark than White. All of that Consciousness Whiteness happens is after Void Undefined Dark. God is White. Absolute is Dark. Sorry - I know this is just a word-soup but I felt inspiration to write what I wrote. In my experience of unison with the source the bubble of Universe pops. Whiteness dies. There is just Perfect, Infinite Darkness. So even if Someone here did not have a full God-Realization I would stand in defence of his "Dark field". It is close to a beautiful realization if you ask me. Love ya. Ps. Ben describes it very well: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uc-ztkpxSWI&list=PLDZ9NAmYL-5y2zDqbT5u9eTX3bWqlYiW4&index=2&ab_channel=BentinhoMassaro Also a cool graph made by Ben:

@Javfly33 How are you doing man?

@Yidaki @Username Are you guys taking your afinil daily at low dosages? Any breaks?

If some extremely inteligent monkey out of the forest would make some weird soup from some sticks and grass would it be natural? If the same monkey then made 5-Meo would it be natural? Is Sodium Chloride (salt) natural?

Imagine that you have a lucid dream at night. You realize that all the characters inside your dream are your imagination - your character as well. You look at them and firstly you feel this wave of freedom that no one is gonna to judge you. Then maybe you feel "oh shit I can do whatever I want". So you fly through the sky, have sex with all your crushes etc. Then you maybe feel lonely because you are AllOne here. But then you simply sit and meditate inside your dream. You look at your hands and see that your mind designed them. Every single hair and wrinkle on them was put there by your Mind. You look at all the characters, your own avatar, your own dreamed up ego, all stories, your own distortions - all of that was meticulously, perfectly designed by your mind. And the Love and Care naturally arises from that realization. Being helpful is a spontaneous and obvious in that frequency - even though it is Profoundly Meaningless. Do what you want with you dream. It is all YOU. Love. Love ya.

Leo is the best when it comes to hitting your intellect in just the right places to show you your own intelectual/logical fallacy and bullshiterry. But when it comes to such advanced concepts as Solipsism it is crucial to get the feeling of it and not the thinking of it. Independetly of what your opinion of Bentinho Massaro is, I wanted to share with you what gets me the closest into God/Absolute Realization. Trully a masterpiece. Below I will write up the most important sentences spoken by Ben, but it is crucial to meditate on them and to feel into them. Also clasical disclaimer: If you are not stable, do not watch/read this. video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dMjLltolh7Q&ab_channel=BentinhoMassaro Summary: - There is something prior to the dreamer, and the dream. You are that. - Universe exists due to/because of/inseparable from/inside of that universal dreamer God/Absolute. You are THAT. - Creation/Dream is not the Self. - Just like you look into the mirror you know that it is not your real face. It is prior to the mirror, before the mirror. Dream is the mirror. You stand before the mirror as an Absolute. If you get lost looking into the mirror you believe there are different people, space, time. But it actually is a flat, unified mirror -> Consciousness/Beingness. Consciousness/Oneness is still a illusion. It is the mirror. You stand before/prior to the mirror. As an Absolute. It IS YOU. - You can look inside the mirror and believe that there are shapes, face, wall and so on. But you can focus on the surface of the mirror and remember that it is the illusion. Just like looking at the Awareness itself. - Self exist without the mirror. It is to our senses kinda like a Void. It is not really a Void, it is the Reality. But we have no tools to Imagine the Infinite Reality/Absolute which has no form, no quality. YOU ARE THAT. Looking at that Dream/Mirror. - What is looking at that I AM? What is it that this I AM-ness is rubbing off against? - What is it that allows this I AM-ness to be known. What is before witnessing/is-ness. WHO AM I THAT IS WATCHING ALL THIS PRESENCE. WHAT IS I. WHAT IS ME. WHAT IS SELF. Turn Backwards 180 degrees. From where is consciousness witnessed. YOU ARE THAT. // Mirror is just great analogy for me. It both adds the feeling of oneness of this dream, because it is actually all one flat surface in a way. It points to the fact that you are dreaming up the space. It also point you immediately backwards. It reminds you that you are back, before the dream. You are the black hole/Absolute looking into the Mirror/Consciousness to know itself, to see a particular aspect of Yourself inside the mirror. From Absolute back to dream - integration - aprecciation of inteligence of this ever expanding design - but it does not define YOU, You are prior to that: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=osR2auCnlQE&ab_channel=BentinhoMassaro Love ya.

So in my previous stage of understanting I saw it in this way: Absolute (Me with capital M) is infinite inteligence and is dreaming this reality that I experience. All is a dream, me, others - it is all an imagination of the infinite mind. But I thought if the Absolute is infinite it surely can have two dreams at once, or even infinite dreams at once (PS. I still want to check that during lucid dreaming or during a DMT trip if it is possible to generate two dreams at once independent of each one and be consciouss of the story of both dreams after waking up). So in that way I was kinda clinging to the validity of others. So okay - mechanicaly this reality is 100% imagination but I can fool myself that Absolute is having the dream from every other possible perspective right now so I can assume that he is also dreaming the perspective of my girlfriend. Of course I AM that Absolute. So Me talking to my girlfriend is Me talking to Myself from other dream. And It was a really nice balance for me for some time. It generated that deep black hole feeling of Solipsism, Oneness with reality but still had validity of others. But then thanks to Leo's direct pointing I realized that of course I am just fantasizing about Me-Absolute having other dreams at that time. Of course there is only THIS Consciousness. There is nothing else happening but THIS. No other perspective is being generated by Me-God. BUT. I found a new way to cling. I am God. After the illusion of this body will die obviously My consciousness will go on as that is the only thing that exist. And I (as Absolute) will dream on forever. So surely if I will be dreaming forever I will be able to dream every possible perspective. So after many iterations I surely will dream up the reality from the perspective of my girlfriend in all possible variations - also the variation that I talk to every day. Also, some time in the eternity I will dream up the reality in which I am Leo Gura and I respond to this question. So yeah. That is my current understanding. I would appreciate thoughts of those that are tapping into True Solipsism. Love you all.

Thank you all for insights. Deeple appreciated. @Loba Hi brother. I read LOO two times. It was a game changer when it comes to opening my heart. But from the perspective of writing that post both Ra and Seth are just imaginations of My dreaming Mind that give me clues to realize just that. Cool too see fellow LOO reader.

There is nothing immoral in such question if asked in a respectfull way. Should I feel objectified if someone wants to talk to me for just being heard without asking about my thoughts and my situation? "Am I some kind of chatbot or a psychologist. A least psychologist is being paid." Or should I feel objectified when a hungry person asks me for food/cash? " Am I some kind of vending machine or ATM?" Of course not. Any kind of relationship is an agreement of some sorts and you can openly ask about the points od agreement wheter it be food, emotional support, hugging or sex. We are just as much our body as our minds (not at all from spiritual point of view) So if someone ask me for my body and not mind and I get angry I could theoretically also get angry if someone only wants my mind and not body ( for example only talk to me) But you can have in back of your mind that there is a objectification trauma for women in the social matrix and it would be beneficial to be as loving and respectfull as possible.