Arthogaan

It sure will be easier than that mask that made your face painful for 3 hours.

Why in you nightly dreams do you dream up scenarios in which you experience pain and fear?

If second sentence is true then first is false.

I think what you mean is that: Pain is only experienced by Ego. God sees the pain of the ego as an illusion and sees that it is actually pleasure. And God wants us to awaken and see that all is pleasure. But consider that God, actually willed Ego into creation. He wanted to experience pain from the point of view of Ego. So he created pain of ego out of Love. So he loves ego and pain. God loves everything that he creates, because why would he create something he does not love?

If for God pain = pleasure, and God loves pleasure, then God also loves pain. You are saying the same thing, only more convoluted.

100mg - but I always try to take it earlier than 7am.

Yup, I recommend it. But I would not exceed a maximum of 3-4 times a week. It helps me to get shit done, especially the one that I do not find purposeful. I like to stack up certain mind boring tasks (as learning for an exam from the subcject I do not find interesting) in one day, and just spend the whole day on it. It cerainly helped me quit coffee. I prefer this than coffee. I feel less withdrawal symptoms and it is more intentional - I won't take modafinil just to chat with friends. I don't notice any negative side effects so far other than you just have to watch your body to get enough sleep, and if you take it like 3 days in a row plan your 4th and 5th day so that you can catch up on sleep.

When I started taking it even 100mg at 6 am made it hard to fall asleep at 11pm. But later it got easier.

@MsNobody I think when it comes to badassness of a photo you win so far.

@Leo Gura Do you have any feeling about such stuff when it turns up? I am sure you don't really care, and are really used to such kinds of critiques but I mean it in a more existential way. Like do you ever get sad that there are people who try to picture your life purpose as devilry? That people just are that way? Or that part of the shadow is totally mastered for you and you never get your vibration lowered by such things?

Some of them you will forget but some of them will reappear every once in a while and you will know that those are the crucial ones for your journey. For those reocurring Iike to create a certain symbol, that I can quickly summon to my mind and feel it.

I totally agree. Just like in a lucid dream, when you are a Loving person, whole dream becomes loving. If you are a selfish person in your nightly dream you will generate a selfish world. But still, technically, when I wake up in my room and start to fill my mind with pictures of famine and hunger in Africa I imagine suffering where there was none just a second ago. Out of empathy and selflesness we sometimes feel the pull to imagine and think about those things, but from Solipsistic point of view we create that suffering where there was none. So in a way when we are lovingly ignorant there is no one suffering. So then arises a certain paradox, that to be empathetic I should be ignorant to not create suffering by my imagination. It is convoluted I know, but I yet have to crack that nut of insight to reconcile it.

Well, that's why I am @user'ing you, because I am open to such possibility. But my highest states do not indicate that and thats why I would appreciate your pointings.

Now I am parroting, but I was in states where that was the direct experience.

@Leo Gura But still technically there is only one being suffering, and that is I. But out of Love I can still feel empathy and the suffering of the illusion, and the relative.

To see that they are one you still need higher level of consciousness. So in a way you can't just collapse that duality and not put effort into maintaining high level of consciousness.

First proper spiritual insight happened when I was 17-18 during reading: The Power of Now by Tolle and I stopped and I was like " HOLY...SHIT...There really is no other time than NOW". It was beautiful. Light at the end of the tunnel shown in the midst of dark mental place.

Congrats bro. But there are totally two ways you can take this. After I had glimpses of Solipsism I actually felt inspired to more action and to out myself in painful situations. There is some deep satisfaction coming from getting out of comfort zone and the fact that it is an illusion only makes it sweeter.

Well maybe Leo said yes to a life in which he is free to choose solitude even though the norm is to constantly fill your time with people :3

Also you get to know your true self more. You know your desires and preferences so avoiding them is harder. For example you know corporate world is not for your, and now with you consciousness and more power it is really difficult to stay in that situation. The same with relationships and toxic people. All the problems that you were ignoring are now visible in the light of increased consciousness and now you have (and want) to deal with them so in a way there is much more to deal with now.

If you define death as disintegration of biological body then death exists. If you define death as your Consciousness ceasing to exist then death does not exist.

We are supposed to meditate for 2 minutes between each message, it is in the guidelines

Because it is a drug that can make you dependent on it. I will paste my response to some other thread about coffee from the forum: " Anecdotally coffee was BY FAR the hardest drug to quit for me. Alcohol, cigarettes, modafinil, sugar - all of them were much easier to quit. The commom myth is that it takes one week for withdrawal to be gone. Well, for some maybe, but for me it took 3 months to even start having moments of energy during a day. And social pressure and normalization makes it the hardest to quit also because the cult of being stimulated is everywhere. Your family, friends, coworkers - everyone uses it to get through the day to suck up the boring tasks. It is so much i our culture that coffee shops place sign like "life starts after coffee". Imagine such sign with any other drug. "

Yes I understand seeming contradiction. But what I mean is in relationship people sacrifice their freedom in exchange for companionship, safety and other things you mention. But actually there is no necesarilly the need to restrict the freedom to have those things. You can have companionship, intimacy, financial help with someone who you do not restrict at all, which is extremelly rare and unpractical for most people but still technically true. That you do not need to restrict anything, you do not have to have any rules in the contract to still gain all the benefits. All the rules are just there to gain the benefits without having to fight with certain insecurities like jealousy. And again that is quite beautifull to restrict the freedom of two people so we can start havig the stability benefits now, before we heal our insecuirites about jealousy, but for many people relationships then become excuses for those insecurities.

Well you can have a friend with which you share some platonic companionship and intimacy but in friendship we usually do not restrict other person that much as in relationship. When you are single you still have the freedom to experience companionship.