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Leo's Videos --> How To Motivate Yourself - The Trick Behind Lasting Self-Motivation How To Get Motivated - Creating Consistent Drive for High Performance Contemplating Your Own Death - To Stay Motivated For Life How To Get Shit Done One Simple Rule For Acing Life Systems Thinking (Very important for motivation to impact the world.) I'd start by sitting down, get out a notepad, set a timer for an hour and just write down what I wanted, pick a habit, start building momentum and progressing. - Figure out what you want, long list, tangible, detailed - Create fundamental habits, do your habits like you pee, shit, eat and drink. it's just a necessity. - Commit to doing your habits, no excuses, be very strict about it but be conscious of the exceptions to the rules - Be conscious of your emotions and resistance to doing your habits with journaling, contemplating or meditation. - Be conscious of time consuming distractions. Negotiate with your distracting pleasures by journaling, cut them off or set limits (an hour timer or something) -- tv, porn, games, sleep, youtube ect. - Limit relaxing time with a timer - JOURNAL a lot to regain full consciousness - If you feel lost or lazy JOURNAL to regain full consciousness. This is just the tip of the ice burg but hopefully I gave you something to go on.

I think you need to make a clear distinction in your mind about the true value of something rather than the apparent value, or the value society, or yours or someones else personal beliefs put on it. Straight from the horses mouth --> True Value Vs Apparent Value and it's an older video, so this should do wonders towards your resistance to listen. The course is barely 2 years old, the video in the book list is a year older than that. you are being very, very, very nit picky.

It seems your agenda is to not fix the root issue, just cover more delusion with delusion. How can you help someone who doesn't want to help himself? I say this cause you can't see how your shooting yourself in the foot, how your ego is literally feeding off itself. Study the ego, study self fulfilling prophecies, how beliefs work, how the ego works.

nihilism is very interesting, it's very humbling. I found it's difficult to walk through life experiencing this truth, but you must be careful about how your ego is using this truth. is it using it to make excuses not to do anything? is it using it to push things off? is it using it to procrastinate? I find that this is usually the case. because regardless of it's meaninglessness you still want to be happy and it's clear that this is not helping you be happy at all. be brutally honest with yourself here. could it be the case that you're using nihilism to be lazy and unproductive? To not do the work you value? To not doing the things you know you should/value/want to be doing? If your answer is no it's all meaningless then this is the video for you -->

Love this quote. I have yet to try shrooms but the trip reports people have on them is always so fascinating and inspiring to me.

I'd say its not so much what you do but that its what your heart wants, what's most meaningful to you its the internals we're after, not the externals. If football is what's meaningful to you and most authentically you meaning It aligns with your strengths and your values (or inclinations) then that could be your calling. Jumping Into something your biased towards is okay as long as its aligned with those things I mention above in fact its encouraged. Its your job to do some exploring and testing to find that good fit. This is why its important to know yourself, know what you want out of life. You use that as your compass to know what to choose, and that choice needs to be made, because not choosing at all could be a bigger danger here because when you say biased I hope your not meaning that its not gonna work out. In that case this would definitely be limiting beliefs and you being indecisive in your plan to commit to your one thing, in this case this is definitely your bigger obstacle at the moment.

His agenda right now is not practicing mindfulness like you, its knowledge and wisdom.

Go for it, let us know how it goes.

his video on addiction will reveal everything you need to know about boredom, also look into life purpose.

Here's a counter intuitive move for you, force yourself to masturbate for 30 days. I found that when I did no fap for 30 days, I learned all the advantages and disadvantages. after that 30 days I forced myself to masturbate every time I felt that desire and took all those lessons and advantages and disadvantages. after those days I found myself striking a really good balance of when to and when not to masturbate. Above all not stressing or fretting about the whole paradigm of porn or masturbating in general. being totally at peace with it. Masturbation is not much of an obstacle at all for me anymore because I seen both sides of the spectrum fully. This might or might not work for you, just giving you some ideas.

I think Leos new video on theory vs practice would do wonders for you. To take from that video I'll say this. Chances are you've just been sitting and taking in all this existential wisdom, mental masturbating, analysis by paralysis, try your best to just drop the nihilistic shit and realize how its making your life shit, your thoughts shit and let it go, and hold that knowledge for another time, because that theory is not helping you at all right now.

You will probably never find that perfect girl who will just show up and everything will be exactly as you want it, understand that over time as you get to know each other she will learn to be the right girl for you.

Loving the eclectic music around here, here's some songs that really hit my core. Love: Meaning: Passion/Purpose: Beauty: Consciousness: Consciousness/Love: Flow:

Just a shot of intuitive soulful optimism with a garnish of alluring yet disengaged observation.

That movie turned out pretty good in the end so you should be solid.

Its just a thought in your mind focused on what it wants to create/bring about vs being focused on other things such as negative thinking, distractions and things such as this. If you're always contemplating on what you want in your life the more opportunities, chances and insights you'll find to make it a reality and vice versa. That's all. Sorry people around you get all woo woo with this idea.

I feel more unconscious than in a meditative state. Which for me being fully conscious is the most important thing during my meditation.

Consider relationships to yourself, your thoughts, your emotions, your sensations and consider the idea of the word "relationship" in your mind. Notice that you can have a relationship with the word relationship.

- Hating things - Negative emotions/ getting mad - People projecting their neurotic petty intentions - Awkwardness

Life purpose.

I heard a quote that I think could help “You can’t think your way into right action, but you can act your way into right thinking.”

"Yes it's possible, you're it right now, the ego has never understood something so simple it's entire life and that's why it's a struggle. I'd say go look in the mirror and tell me what you see.... Yeah..That's it. You're it and that's the end of it. sorry to make it so difficult." - Ego

Right now it might seem aimless and strange because you're still new to it, journaling in the beginning for me was about finding some resolution or understanding about myself, other's, the situation, in whatever way I possibly could, writing my view on things, how I feel, what I'm thinking, asking myself questions, problem solving. In the beginning your gonna suck just like any new endeavor, but the more you just do it and do it and do it you'll get better and better. One of the most amazing benefits I found by journaling which by the way is just scratching the surface, is that whenever I felt like shit, whenever I felt even slightly emotional the solution became to journal. because every time I journaled I found some solution, I identified some emotion, I had some realization, some insight, and even when I couldn't get any solution I at least knew where my emotions were and that was massively important. As for your ex problem, that's another issue a very good system to use is this --> Take whatever information you can from this, this guy has a very good mentality going through the breakup phase. also check out leo's videos

@Key Elements Haha I've never seen the synchronized walking that's pretty sweet.

Watching Leo's video on finding balance in personal development got me thinking about this video of these dudes bombing these massive hills on their skateboards, this helped give me a clear picture of what I imagine balancing to be like. Feel free to post anything that helped you understand this dynamic balancing we're going for.