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@OppositionlessNot knowing is a good thing. What if it was written in stone? Not knowing means you can literally make anything up. Why are you focusing on the negative purely? You have people saying they became literal Gods too after taking psychedelics. Since your infinite focusing on negative is a trap because it can be that way why purposefully make it that way? Whats happening here? You havent experienced being an inanimate object have you? Why beleive them if you havent. If you have a choice between imagining about being a God or a cupboard why are you focusing on the cupboard? If you became God you would be so scared of being a cupboard you would become one cause thats what you are identifying with. Imagine whatever God thinks it becomes you would be permanently turning into negative things from fear this is Gods trap it made. Since God can do anything it will think about negative things get scared and get trapped thinking about negative things. It said if I fall into that trap its cause im retarded and I deserve it cause I am literally God! How dare I forget my own perfection! You are scared of a thought loop not Dying or unknown. Its imaginary words. Unknown is not a thing its not known you cant be scared of it. Sadhguru -'Your imagination and intellect are working against you.' We have no idea if salvia is the doorway to experience inanimate objects only and if you dont smoke it you never experience it. It could be the door way to inanimate infinity we have no idea. And since we are using our intellect correctly no reason to speculate cause we could be thinking about God instead its way cooler and we feel better by doing it. If it ever happens what are you going to do. Thinking about it now wont help it will only hurt.

@Oppositionless Are you scared of dying or not knowing? Dying isnt real You dont know anything right now you are making up that you know something.

@Oppositionless Its only God. If you know God you know yourself in every being.

@Oppositionless I am not describing my awakening I am describing what led to it. My awakening showed me we are here to suffer and then explode and I was doing the fear to myself on purpose.

@Oppositionless I know there is something. Thats what God means. We dont exist God exists. What you are using to experience yourself is God and God is forever and thats what exists not yourself. You just enter the place between thoughts for awhile.

@Oppositionless Yes I have said that and I mean I was afraid of death. Dying will still be scary but not in like an existential way like it was. Its more of I dont know scary. It becomes something you gotta do but you know its not the end so its like doing something you wouldnt ordinarily do scary instead of OMFG panic attacks I was having before from the fear. It becomes like the type of scary if someone told you you had to go out and sing in front of a medium sized quiet crowd for no reason. You just gotta go through it and something else happens. It would be like someone saying one time in your life you are going to have to jump off a 8000 ft diving board into a pool and you dont get to practice you just gotta run and jump and do it, without having to run and jump or do anything. The board will appear at a random time and when it does you just have to run and jump. When I awaken I saw I wasnt scared of dying I was coming to a logical misconsistency in my brain and that was pointing to god and I was having panic attacks from it or mini awakenings. Like my brain would go silent and I would sit there and I would get a feeling of im going to die and my brain would logically come up with that I am going to die and nothing matters and my memories are already gone and I am never going to exist again. The reaction would set my logical mind into a loop about dying and I assimilated that with dying and I sent myself into full blown panic for like 20 years. The consistency was that I exist. I am naturally super meditative so I would be having no self experiences for no reason beside sitting there and that was pointing to the logic brain that I am already dead and my memories dont exist and I wasnt understanding it completely. Eventually I couldnt just sit there my chat gpt would just start pumping out that Im going to die and I would react to it over and over and over. I had to focus my mind on something else before I went to bed every night and nothing worked until I just started thinking about fuking everything. So for 20 years I had to put myself to sleep by thinking about fucking women and men sometimes just cause I got bored now my brain is fked up and I cant stop thinking about sex but the panic attacks are cured. Whats better for the body to think about than sex give me an idea so I can figure this out. I was never scared of hell I was too busy being scared of dying to be scared of hell. I stopped being a Christian at 5 or 6 so I never gave the religion any credit. My mom let me decide what I wanted.

If you join and your country goes to war you are guranteed fighting in it. Its probably very good for structure but its structure through abuse. It will suck for awhile and then you will begin to like it I think is what happens.

Watch everything come to your own conclusion. If you are left wing watch left wing content then watch right wing content and point out the inconsistencies. You will notice every right wing person is just making shit up. Left wing content is like university and right wing is like kindergarten.

You struggling with it is what will make you insane. You just gotta admit it. Just say I am insane and that's okay.t There is nothing scary about it your perception of an insane person is what it looks like when an insane person is struggling with their insanity. The person in the padded room is the person who is denying their insanity the most.

You know someone is mad when they start looking at nothing as if its something. It happens several times in this video.

Good write up try this masterbate use imagination but you dont interact. You are like link in the imagination.

@Rishabh R wow its like we are before and after the big bang at the same time! There is no space between anything the space is imagined by nothing. So everything is literally right up against eachother with 0 space in between.

@Yimpa Turning yourself off turns the real you on

To turn 'yourself' off so it dosent bother you when you die. Become a void in your mind so when you die you instantly respawn. Becoming a void in your mind also lets you live this dream without limits of self.

@Someone here the only thing I am scared of is dying. I have minute fears like getting my testicle chopped off yes. There are things I don't want to happen if that is fear then I am scared of alot of things. The fear of death took over my life for so long that I never had a chance to be scared of anything else. I don't want to be embarrassed and if it happens then I will deal with it but I am not scared of it. I do go out of my way to not be embarrassed so you could say im scared of that too.

@meta_male its sort of like meditation without actually doing it your mind is still running a mile a minute and you are still engaging with it and think you aren't. This leads to psychosis over time. Meditation you can quiet your mind weed dosent quiet the mind and you are unconcioisly interacting with it. You just stop reacting emotionally to it.

@Someone here I try not to worry I also won't deny its possible existence. If I were to deny its existence I would say why am I doing that if I don't know. The only reason I can think of would be out of fear.

@Someone here thats my point it dosent exist but you are aware of its existence somehow you are aware of something existing that can't be pointed too. Therefore hell can be real without being able to point at it.

@Someone here point at yourself. Don't deny my existence cause you are scared of hell.

@Someone here how do you know it dosent?

If you think something is happening then you are living in the false world. In the simulation nothing is happening. You are living in a false world by acknowledging that anything has happened. And if you agree that nothing is happening then you are lying to fit into the simulation. Because clearly things are happening to you.

This is why humans are so special and its showing God gave us a power unique to humans. Contemplating is God's gift.

I've made this mistake and am just noticing it now after 4 years. You gotta let the ego flow let your brain think whatever it wants even if you deem the thoughts bad or evil or fked up. If you are standing next to someone and your brain thinks it wants to kill them stopping the thought of wanting to kill them is attacking the ego. Its very hard to get down because we are so accustomed to policing our thoughts. When around other people I feel the need to police my thoughts if I am around attractive women the mind will wander to sex and I will say hey! Not here buddy stop! Thats the dumbest thing you can do encourage it to think fked up shit. Awakening and schizophrenia are very closely related and its important not think you are better than your ego as they are 1.