Johnny Brake

Thank you guys, I do appreciate it a lot! Time went by and I want to update my thread as a "warning" for my future self ... Turned out that she wanted me back and what did I? ... Yep, the big no no. Now, with that being said I am at the same spot, still fighting with her over several useless arguments, nothing improved. It is really sad because I thought it could work.

Update: Super strange things happened today ... after posting yesterday my ex called me and wanted to talk. We met up in a public párk and I told her that I take full ownership over the situation and want to improve all aspects of my life. I told her that I see clearly that I had some huge issues within myself and nobody was to blame but me. After a long conversation which I kept really lighthearted and fun she invited me to her place. I declined.

Hey guys, thank you so much for your warm welcome, I do appreciate it! Uhm, well ... I really didn't tell all of my story, I noticed, I am not a native english speaker but I did some inner work like the inner child and some shadowwork. I also have a long history of doing meditation, I am into Rupert Spira and Mooji. I did got some climpses of enlightenment, but I do love alcohol and drugs for my pleasure. I know that this isn't good and 'spiritual' but I used it as a clutch. I know that deep down I am a child and don't have the confidence to speak up sober, so I guess this time around I try getting sober without any substances and get my life together.

Thank you! Neediness, Jealousy, defining myself through looks and money, not a well put together life. I do hate ppl and just wanna work out and make more money LOL As cliche it may sound, this makes me happy.

You don't get it, just do it. It doesn't matter when how whatever .... just do it on a consistant basis

Approach the one who is unattractive AF, the other ones will hit on you, trust me

I made millions in my twenties and give you the only advice you'll need: Try to understand your costumer and learn marketing!

No ... o ... oo .... ooooo! Just kidding, use it as your advantage and throw some jokes in. Please don't make it too serious! You will have the best results, trust me!

Just cut it out, it helped me A LOT! In addition to that it is just awkward to suck some tit liquid LOL

Go Plantbased right now, thank me later (I noticed that those fine gentlemen before my posting did a great job to provide you with the science behind it).

Eventually, you will die at some point in time. Nobody will give a shit about you or your life. Even your family will forget you. Do you need more motivation?

I think you did everything right THB, cold approach does sting from time to time.

Real word just entered the chat. TBH, I don't think that you are boring, I think you had an honest interest in friendship while she did not.

Quit Dairy, that simple. If this doesn't do the trick, try to implement much more plantbased foods. You're welcome.

As any drug, coffee is a stimulant which you wanna use just for purpose and not as a lifestyle gimmick. Just keep your head upright bro and go through it, it's much more brighter on the other side